So I had a whole thing written up (what I felt at each time), but I figured I can better capture the message by just explaining it.
First thing's first, duration: I dropped at 8:40am (Friday), and I was still tripping at 3:30am today before I went to sleep. It lasted forever, although it wasn't as intense near the end.
Next, intensity: holy shit. This was scary. While 450 was pure bliss and enjoyment, 675 at times became very scary. I had vivid open eye hallucinations, from dancing shapes and colors all the way to my ceiling transforming into random images that I couldn't make sense of. I eventually realized that it was transforming into images from a painting my family used to have when I was young. For some reason, these images always come back to me on psychedelics.
The scariest part was after I smoked a good amount of weed. I could actually feel the world around me transforming into different things, I was almost convinced there were dinosaurs around me at one point and I kept hearing my door opening. I couldn't close my eyes for a while bc it'd get too scary and I'd have to open them to somewhat ground me in reality. At one point I called a friend and started yelling at him to turn off music I thought he was playing, but he says he wasn't playing any music. At this point, I really started to confuse reality and hallucinations. I can understand now how someone could lose their mind on enough acid.
I had to come to terms with what it is like to lose my mind. I understood nothing, not even the words I was thinking with, and could only feel random images bursting along with rainbows in all dimensions. I would imagine a monopoly man with money for eyes exploding into a repetitive fractal that I would then see with my eyes open.
Now, the good: music was fucking unbelievable. The most satisfied I have ever been listenting to music. It brought me to other worlds, it was so unbelievable. The world around me was playful and colorful, and I almost felt on another planet. Acid seemed blue, weed green, and it just made the world much more appealing.
I'm not sure if I'll go this far again, but one thing I have to say is that if you're not content with losing your mind for a few hours, then this dose is not for you. If you don't mind, then there are certainly a lot of interesting things to discover.
Still no ego death (not sure if you can even ego death on acid). I felt completely like myself, even though I had a few visions of separating from my body.
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Excellent report. Most interesting is your post weed fear. I find that to be very interesting. I've personally found weed to be both a soothing agent AND/OR an anxiety amplifier, depending on the trip's initial conditions...apparently.
On low doses of good Penis Envy [tea] high THC infusion is good for a soft, long trip of good visuals (especially outside).
On high doses of good Penis Envy, I'm talking about ~5 grams, no amount of THC in the world has been able to adjust my trip. After 5 grams it's all fractals and there's nothing I can do about it.
But shit, everyone's different.
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