The other night I ate a vegan shroom chocolate with 2.2g in it that I bought from some guy at a music festival + some tea that was made to go with shroomies.
I took it around 9 and I was already getting slight OEVs (patterns with a little bit of color) by 9:20 and a major body high that made it hard to walk.
My friend was on a tab of acid.
During the come up I was feeling more anxiety than I usually do in my trips and the nausea was making it worse. By 10 I was already tripping a lot harder than I thought possible from a low dose like this, and I ventured upstairs to the bathroom with my speaker to go puke. I threw up (like always with shrooms), then a song by Yaima came on that was so beautiful I wanted to cry.
I sat down to take a breath and listen to the song. As I stared at the bathroom wall, a woman's face formed on it, a familiar face I had seen during another shroom trip last year. But her presence was much more defined this time.
One of my main intentions all summer has been to meet an entity while tripping.
She had a very angelic/pure presence that immediately melted away all of my anxiety, and her energy was very distinct. Like I knew she was truly there, another existing being in this space with me, and not just a passing visual.
I continued watching the wall as all of these wild visuals unfolded and swirled below her that I can't even begin to describe. They weren't very distinct but the feelings and sensations I experienced with them were euphoric and brought tears to my eyes. I felt like there was a 3D world of some sort in the wall below her face that I could dive into with enough focus.
...I swear bathrooms are portals...
It seemed like she was communicating something to me that can't be put into words, but she made me feel so completely safe with no anxiety for the rest of the trip.
There was also a masculine presence I could sense that felt like it was dancing with her. I thought it seemed kind of like the energy of my boyfriend who died almost a year ago, but I'm not certain. Perhaps he's part of the universal consciousness now and therefore it was him and also not him simultaneously.
Later on, around midnight, my friend and I were sitting outside smoking weed and watching the stars. The moon was incredibly bright and had an obvious rainbow aura shining around it. We began meditating while watching the moon, then eyes started appearing all throughout the trees and the sky. The moon felt like it had an intelligence to it.
I told my friend it felt like we were being watched and she said she was just thinking the same thing, she was also seeing eyes everywhere.
Then I had the idea that nature experiences us just as much as we experience it. And much like many of my past trips, I had the sense that everything had consciousness and was aware of us. Also, that there's a universal consciousness that flows all around us and through everything, including through each of us.
As I watched the night sky and stared into the universe I couldn't help but feel like the universe was watching back.
Despite my friend being on acid, she was really sleepy so she went to bed around 1:30am and I stayed up drawing and listening to music. My mind was racing and it felt like so much information was being downloaded into it. I was able to write a lot of it down and express it through my drawings.
Around 2am I was starting to reflect on some of the guilt, loss, and loneliness I have been experiencing for a while. I had a CEV of all of these things towering over me as malicious shadows but I allowed myself to feel it all as deeply as possible and cry it out. As I did this, a tree grew over the shadows of my past, encasing them, and using them as the roots to sprout and bloom into a strong and beautiful being.
I understood that I can't go back and change things, but that I can accept my past pain and sorrow and use it as a base to give me wisdom and appreciation so that I can live fully in this moment and future moments with love as my guide instead of fear.
Keep spreading peace and love dudes 
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