good night-time from greece to all of you.
i'm a new member and i know about shroomery and its quality as a forum 10 years back but decided to register today because its a special day for me.
i will tell you as quick as i can my story which is at least bizarre.
I use drugs 13 years(im 31) started with cannabis being for a year a true pothead not achieving fun without pot.
These years i tried cocaine,mdma and lsd.
Wen i took my first drop o acid i had started having psychoptic symptoms.
The years followed i gone to the hospital 4-5 months on total.
2012 i lost my moters.
the 7 years followed were hell.
A psychotic episose(from phenibut witdrawals) that lead me jump from the second floor.
A 7 monnths paralysis because of oding on benzos and heroin.
And 2 sucide attemps.
When i compare those incidents with how i felt daily is light to me,that bad i felt staying under blanket all day.
This period i seriously abused opiates and downers.
My diagnosis was first paranoid schizophrenia and then schizoaffective disorder.
Ofcourse the acid didnt made me psychotic,i was psychotic from the age of 14 after two near death experiences of my father,the one when i was 9,and other parameters in my life.
Anyway.what i wanted to say after that 7 years wich basically i got addicted to opiates and had all those mood problems i started gradually feeling better,fast in one month i was feeling like a normal person again.
More of that it seems like my psychotic symptoms are gone!
I guess its the magic psycology number 7 or as i like to believe what Carl Jung called <the Black Night Of The Soul" cause during this period i had full insight and when it ended i started forming kinda of a personality with tons of decisions to still make but ye.
You know psychptoc people always will be like little children so thats 2 very strong evidences in a way,at least for me that Jung was right that this thing exist.
I'm starting a new day slowly but steady.
The last days i used heroin,amphetamines,benzos,ketamine(for the first time) and some other downers.
Why it is a special day today?
I first lsd microdosed.I took 1/16 of a blotter and was blown away by the motivation enchantment it gave me
I read 3 hours straight and also improved my mood much.
While i felt the effects of the acid i seriously got disgusted about downers.
I believe i'm starting also fresh and in that subject as i see it right now because if i microdose almost daily i wont feel the need of using opiates or amphetamines(still i dont have this good mood) at least not frequently.
Also i am excited by this because all my friends,girls,relatives kept a distance from me for that or tottally dissapeared and to be honest so i'll have money to be a psychonaut(with staying out of danger) instead of a drug addict.
Also the very nice delear i met offered me a piece of hashis(i write right now having smoking it) which also gave me a decent buzz instead of the poor quality weed i usually buy which mades me paranoid and most important makes me feel like i'm tottaly uselles and must kill myself basically.
So things finally starting geting better for me.as it looks.
If all goes well with the microdosing thing no more opiate abuse,which husts me emotionally i guess.
I'm intrested exploring little more ketamine,trying opium(who my dealer-i 25 old year dude sasys he has!-),nitrus and a small quantity of shrooms(haha never tried)
I must wait one year to have the full psychedelic ecperience-its a specalist advice)
So thats all.
My name is Chris form Greece,im 31 into ambient music,books,girl romance and a bit of writing.
I hope i'll be a usefull member to the forum,ofcourse i want to learn and communicate with other psychonauts and listen different stories.
Have fun!
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