shroomintothelight said:

SWIM took 11g of dried psilocybe cubensis the other day. He hadn't taken mushrooms for a few months and decided he wanted to breakthrough again. He wanted to connect with his higher self to attain some advice or guidance as he felt like his life came to a halt. Following the trip, he believes using cannabis was a big part of this lack of motivation, drive or satisfaction in the current stage of his life (he has used cannabis, on and off, since the age of 12; he is 20 now).

So at around 10.30pm, SWIM has ground his 11g of good quality psilocybe cubensis, squeezed 3 lemons and submerged the ground mushrooms in the lemon juice. Again stirring every 5 minutes for a total of 20 minutes; as he was meditating in his room with the light off. Prior to this, he saged the room and cleared all negative energy with a visualisation technique. On 20 minutes, he mixed the lemon tek with water and gulped down the lemon mushroom sludge.

As the mushrooms begun to take effect, SWIM sat still and continued to meditate. Then, so much pain and suffering begun to big time fill his head; the nature of the evil of this planet was intruding his mind to the point where he thought could actually hear people being tortured with a chainsaw. It was as though every negative thing he has ever encountered in his life was flicking through his mind like a book.

He had for some reason ended up naked on the floor at this point. He then told himself, "just let go". So he decided to let all his muscles loose, even though he was holding in the lemon tek which he had consumed with water before the trip begun. So, in that moment in time, he told himself his best bet would be to just urinate on the floor. So he did. Subsequently to this, EVERYTHING changed.

If in the '50g truffle and bong hit trip' SWIM broke through into Astral Realm, in the present trip, SWIM connected to Source/The Divine.

Most details from this part of the trip were hard to remember, as are most profound psychedelic journeys. But what he can remember is as follows... He found himself in a different plane of existence, one where there were no pains, no suffering, no disappointments, just pure infinite love and warmth. Everything he had experienced in his life flashed through his mind as if it was a life-analysis; he found this hysterically funny. Even the absolute darkest moments of his life he was able to hysterically laugh out loud at, because it all made sense now. Everything he had experienced in his life were lessons preparing for this exact moment; death (ego death; although this time SWIM genuinely thought he had pushed the psilocybin dose limit and had certainly, 100% died).

SWIM was pure cosmic consciousness. It was raw enlightenment. In this realm, SWIM decoded the fact that every single word ever created in any language is a spell. He was so so far away from the sun or the moon or the clouds, or anything anywhere near planet Earth. Simple human concepts like this felt absolutely basic and petty to him at the time, as though he had discovered a new life which served infinite knowledge. I think they call it the Akashic Records. This was true freedom.

Without choice, all memories of SWIM's life was flickering through his mind; a complete life-analysis. He was also manifesting things using his mind. Something would flash his mind and and it would instantly appear in front of him. SWIM was so free he was able to slingshot himself to anywhere he wanted to go in the universe. If he thought of it, he was there. It was as though a voice in SWIM's head was saying "He's done it, he's broken through!!!" (As in, "he's broken free from the miniscule, confusing, minority experience of of being human", forever. Or, "he's made it" sorta message.) Symbols were appearing and shape-shifting rapidly. From the Illuminati, to the Freemason to The Eye of Horus; all in such a perfect, symmetrical and elegant manner. Everything was constructed with the most mind-boggling sacred geometry. Everything SWIM had experienced in life, from the conversations he had, to the movies he'd watched, EVERYTHING was being processed all st once. It's like everything SWIM had experienced as a human was just occurring with the intention to survive, with no true meaning or real confirmation of why it was happening. As pure, enlightened cosmic consciousness, you understand that every experience on Earth is meant to be, and is to prepare you for the afterlife. There was also a vivid message. This message was that we are eternal beings of love and light; and that all of us, although we believe we are separate, are more connected than we could ever imagine.

The significance of sperm became incredibly apparent in this state of consciousness. It was as though SWIM was able to trace back to his original roots. It was evident in this realm that sperm is so unbelievably sacred and that most people do not even have any idea how sacred it is. He had never been so fascinated by his balls in his entire life. Lol.

Nearer towards the end of the trip, SWIM was seeing his room but it seemed like his room in another world. There were no stars this time, just sheer beautiful divine manifestations. Visions were synchronised with time; i.e. something extremely substantial would appear or be manifested at 3.33 am, 3.36 am and/or 3.39 am (SWIM on a daily basis catches the time with the numbers 3, 6 and 9; or "Nikola Tesla's 'Code' or Key to the Universe numbers"). Everything he looked at had a glow of all colours of the chakras to it, in perfect order. It looked 5D.

But one thing in this realm hurt SWIM. After a while of experiencing (what he believed to be) the afterlife, and feeling as free and comfortable as ever before, he thought of his loved ones. What about Mum? What about Dad? What about family and friends? He thought he'd left them behind for good. And his heart physically ached every time he thought of them.

Coming back to reality from this trip was totally destroying for SWIM's sanity. From believing you're permanently stuck in the afterlife, to appearing in your uni room with urine on the floor all over your things, completely naked looking like a total mess; realising you had been screaming what seemed like to your housemates absolute gibberish, at the top of your lungs, throughout the night and into the early hours of the morning.

SWIM was a confused mess, he felt like his life was over. When coming back to Earth and realising he wasn't dead, he believed he had ruined his housemates lives, as he is the only one into psychedelics or crazy enough to do such a thing. He thought he would make local and worldwide news and be put in a mental institute as "The ___ Student Who Became Addicted To Mushrooms And Ruined His Life". Crazy thoughts like suicide and running away from society overwhelmed his mind.

Big lesson learnt for SWIM following that trip. The mind is definitely not something you want to risk losing. SWIM believes he has pushed his boundaries with psychedelics, and  will not be doing anything like that for an extremely long time; if not, for good. (Edit: that was a lie, lol.)

This trip taught SWIM to not worry so much about The Great Unknown, and to just make do with what we have on the physical plane; for now. It taught him to stop focusing on how the world is run, and to start focusing more on the positive aspects of life. Love your friends, love your family, make 'em proud. Implement the law of attraction and live happily.

The End 😉

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Eclipse3130 said:

Much braver than I. I've got everything I could ever ask for off 3.5g of mushrooms

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