HappyHigh said:

when i feel my dmt trip going bad just smile and say love love love over and over normally i start to feel the love after a min

also let me add I've had brain surgery, been declared DOA twice from seizures and i've never been more happy then when i'm on shrooms / dmt. granted on the shrooms i have had a few eve opening moments about life. Normally they would send me to tears but i'd have a smile on my face grateful for the chance to experience it. I'm sure my wife thinks i'm crazy ...but hey so do I.

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HappyHigh said:

well i was having grand seizures every 15-30 days they didn't stop once started i have literally had my life saved 17 times. it was so often i couldn't tell you the difference between before they started or after surgery. i just know that now i have very little memory of my life also i have become very violent and combative. it's def getting worse that's why i'm here i feel like mushroom bring me a little sanity.

It was 4 years after my surgery i was in constant pain from the surgery site 24/7 headaches going 6-8 days no sleep all while taking care of 2 kids and a wife, and i found this site(smiling and crying right now). now my headaches are all most non existent, my relationship with my wife is 200% better. also have had many eye opening moments where i could relate my views and mentality to others, giving me prospective.

and if i could describe how dmt is to my brain 2 words *pure love* even being married and happy, i can't describe how dmt just takes the load off my shoulders.

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That's really incredible, happy you're doing okay. I have heard stories of others regaining hearing after it was lost and regaining their sense of touch or smell from mushrooms, and of course tons of people permanently curing their depression from them so it really upsets me how our societies demonize them and make them illegal, I think its truly evil. Especially when dangerous synthetic drugs are legal and handed out like candy ): anyways, thanks a lot for your reply, it gives me a little more confidence going into this experience. I wish you the best of luck. Mushrooms definitely help me feel less violent, and even if you think that things will only get worse you never know when growth and healing will come. Happy tripping, stay safe

PsyduckMonkey said:

Okay, have you been actually diagnosed with brain damage, or did you just decide that you have it?

If you haven't, go get yourself diagnosed. Not just because it's good to know, but because if you DID get brain damage from this drug, find a lawyer, and consider yourself a millionaire. You can sue the doctor / hospital / pharma company into the ground for this, I don't think a few million bucks is impossible... I mean if you actually, really do have brain damage.

If you don't, then you'll eventually get back to baseline, but it might still make sense to talk to a lawyer. I mean you did get severe negative effects.

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SevenPillars said:

PsyduckMonkey said:

Okay, have you been actually diagnosed with brain damage, or did you just decide that you have it?

If you haven't, go get yourself diagnosed. Not just because it's good to know, but because if you DID get brain damage from this drug, find a lawyer, and consider yourself a millionaire. You can sue the doctor / hospital / pharma company into the ground for this, I don't think a few million bucks is impossible... I mean if you actually, really do have brain damage.

If you don't, then you'll eventually get back to baseline, but it might still make sense to talk to a lawyer. I mean you did get severe negative effects.

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He said he had brain surgery, dude. I'm all for malpractice suits but come on, you didn't even read the thread.

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PsyduckMonkey said:

Okay, have you been actually diagnosed with brain damage, or did you just decide that you have it?

If you haven't, go get yourself diagnosed. Not just because it's good to know, but because if you DID get brain damage from this drug, find a lawyer, and consider yourself a millionaire. You can sue the doctor / hospital / pharma company into the ground for this, I don't think a few million bucks is impossible... I mean if you actually, really do have brain damage.

If you don't, then you'll eventually get back to baseline, but it might still make sense to talk to a lawyer. I mean you did get severe negative effects.

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XnMe said:

And I don't think the seroquel did that damage unless you OD'ed on them but still...only after two uses I don't think so...

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Gravities said:

Well it's as crazy as it sounds. I went through a pretty full psychedelic journey from THC to DMT and everything in between such as LSD and mushrooms and then I was convinced to take a prescription drug that I thought to be a sleeping pill which was really an antipsychotic called Seroquel and it gave me brain damage after just 2 uses. I am not exaggerating one bit, I'm pretty destroyed as a person and I think it effected my frontal lobes/prefrontal cortex which is the part that makes us humans; basically I have no thought or emotion and my senses comprise my entire life experience, the opposite of a psychedelic or conscious experience. My psychedelic experiences in this state are pretty bad, LSD is like hell, weed is paranoia and although mushrooms can feel like death they have had the most positive impact on me and actually feel healing (all of these experiences are post brain damage, before the damage all of my psychedelics experiences were incredible). Many say DMT is similar to mushrooms structurally or pharmacalogically, I've done DMT once before the brain damage and it was pretty mind blowing, but I'm wondering how terrifying of an experience DMT with brain damage could be, I mean I'm expecting it to send me straight to hell really because that is my basic state of existence nowadays but I really have nothing to lose. I'm planning on breaking through and letting the universe help me understand/decide if I should keep going or if my journey is truly over (likely) if you catch my drift. Any thoughts or advice is appreciated. I will update this thread after tripping if I finalize my decision to.

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PsyduckMonkey said:

Okay, have you been actually diagnosed with brain damage, or did you just decide that you have it?

If you haven't, go get yourself diagnosed. Not just because it's good to know, but because if you DID get brain damage from this drug, find a lawyer, and consider yourself a millionaire. You can sue the doctor / hospital / pharma company into the ground for this, I don't think a few million bucks is impossible... I mean if you actually, really do have brain damage.

If you don't, then you'll eventually get back to baseline, but it might still make sense to talk to a lawyer. I mean you did get severe negative effects.

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Peyote Road said:

Gravities said:

Well it's as crazy as it sounds. I went through a pretty full psychedelic journey from THC to DMT and everything in between such as LSD and mushrooms and then I was convinced to take a prescription drug that I thought to be a sleeping pill which was really an antipsychotic called Seroquel and it gave me brain damage after just 2 uses. I am not exaggerating one bit, I'm pretty destroyed as a person and I think it effected my frontal lobes/prefrontal cortex which is the part that makes us humans; basically I have no thought or emotion and my senses comprise my entire life experience, the opposite of a psychedelic or conscious experience. My psychedelic experiences in this state are pretty bad, LSD is like hell, weed is paranoia and although mushrooms can feel like death they have had the most positive impact on me and actually feel healing (all of these experiences are post brain damage, before the damage all of my psychedelics experiences were incredible). Many say DMT is similar to mushrooms structurally or pharmacalogically, I've done DMT once before the brain damage and it was pretty mind blowing, but I'm wondering how terrifying of an experience DMT with brain damage could be, I mean I'm expecting it to send me straight to hell really because that is my basic state of existence nowadays but I really have nothing to lose. I'm planning on breaking through and letting the universe help me understand/decide if I should keep going or if my journey is truly over (likely) if you catch my drift. Any thoughts or advice is appreciated. I will update this thread after tripping if I finalize my decision to.

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That's interesting, I have the same problem. Virtually no thought or emotion, I experience my senses as being all there is with a backdrop of darkness/emptiness.

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Gravities said:

Peyote Road said:

Gravities said:

Well it's as crazy as it sounds. I went through a pretty full psychedelic journey from THC to DMT and everything in between such as LSD and mushrooms and then I was convinced to take a prescription drug that I thought to be a sleeping pill which was really an antipsychotic called Seroquel and it gave me brain damage after just 2 uses. I am not exaggerating one bit, I'm pretty destroyed as a person and I think it effected my frontal lobes/prefrontal cortex which is the part that makes us humans; basically I have no thought or emotion and my senses comprise my entire life experience, the opposite of a psychedelic or conscious experience. My psychedelic experiences in this state are pretty bad, LSD is like hell, weed is paranoia and although mushrooms can feel like death they have had the most positive impact on me and actually feel healing (all of these experiences are post brain damage, before the damage all of my psychedelics experiences were incredible). Many say DMT is similar to mushrooms structurally or pharmacalogically, I've done DMT once before the brain damage and it was pretty mind blowing, but I'm wondering how terrifying of an experience DMT with brain damage could be, I mean I'm expecting it to send me straight to hell really because that is my basic state of existence nowadays but I really have nothing to lose. I'm planning on breaking through and letting the universe help me understand/decide if I should keep going or if my journey is truly over (likely) if you catch my drift. Any thoughts or advice is appreciated. I will update this thread after tripping if I finalize my decision to.

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That's interesting, I have the same problem. Virtually no thought or emotion, I experience my senses as being all there is with a backdrop of darkness/emptiness.

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What put you into this state? If you google "Devoid Wellbutrin" and click the first post there is an EXTREMELY accurate description of something very similar to what I feel, but he had it induced by antidepressants. It's a really torturous state and no one understands, my brain really doesn't know how to feel pleasure any more its incapable and has been for 2 years.

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Peyote Road said:

Gravities said:

Peyote Road said:

Gravities said:

Well it's as crazy as it sounds. I went through a pretty full psychedelic journey from THC to DMT and everything in between such as LSD and mushrooms and then I was convinced to take a prescription drug that I thought to be a sleeping pill which was really an antipsychotic called Seroquel and it gave me brain damage after just 2 uses. I am not exaggerating one bit, I'm pretty destroyed as a person and I think it effected my frontal lobes/prefrontal cortex which is the part that makes us humans; basically I have no thought or emotion and my senses comprise my entire life experience, the opposite of a psychedelic or conscious experience. My psychedelic experiences in this state are pretty bad, LSD is like hell, weed is paranoia and although mushrooms can feel like death they have had the most positive impact on me and actually feel healing (all of these experiences are post brain damage, before the damage all of my psychedelics experiences were incredible). Many say DMT is similar to mushrooms structurally or pharmacalogically, I've done DMT once before the brain damage and it was pretty mind blowing, but I'm wondering how terrifying of an experience DMT with brain damage could be, I mean I'm expecting it to send me straight to hell really because that is my basic state of existence nowadays but I really have nothing to lose. I'm planning on breaking through and letting the universe help me understand/decide if I should keep going or if my journey is truly over (likely) if you catch my drift. Any thoughts or advice is appreciated. I will update this thread after tripping if I finalize my decision to.

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That's interesting, I have the same problem. Virtually no thought or emotion, I experience my senses as being all there is with a backdrop of darkness/emptiness.

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What put you into this state? If you google "Devoid Wellbutrin" and click the first post there is an EXTREMELY accurate description of something very similar to what I feel, but he had it induced by antidepressants. It's a really torturous state and no one understands, my brain really doesn't know how to feel pleasure any more its incapable and has been for 2 years.

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A long tale of woe lead me here. I don't know if you want to hear the full story but it ended up with me having a psychotic kundalini awakening or something. I took a lot of psychedelics and did lots of spiritual practices beforehand as well as going through benzo withdrawal.

I read the wellbutrin story and that sounds a lot like my experience also although in my case I do experience some pain associated with prior bad memories and regret at having ended up like this. It's like I constantly miss how things used to feel.

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SevenPillars said:

60mg of DMT didn't rip you a new one? wtf, I'm sorry bro.

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XnMe said:

SevenPillars said:

60mg of DMT didn't rip you a new one? wtf, I'm sorry bro.

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Did you only take one inhale?
Cause you NEED 3 big full inhales back to back one right after the other.

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pineninja said:

Hey mate

You need to stop taking psychedelics for awhile.

You are not alone.

Many before you have come to this point where sobriety is no longer an anchor.

With time you will be able to reconcile your experiences.

You will not be able to trip until you do.

I dont want to downplay the damage you think you have done too yourself but consider for a moment the baseline you were coming from was not structurally sound.

Stick around.

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also I still feel as if your not administering it correctly.
The 3rd hit is what always sends me to the void and beyond

XnMe said:

pineninja said:

Hey mate

You need to stop taking psychedelics for awhile.

You are not alone.

Many before you have come to this point where sobriety is no longer an anchor.

With time you will be able to reconcile your experiences.

You will not be able to trip until you do.

I dont want to downplay the damage you think you have done too yourself but consider for a moment the baseline you were coming from was not structurally sound.

Stick around.

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also I still feel as if your not administering it correctly.
The 3rd hit is what always sends me to the void and beyond

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