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Psychedelics ruined my life
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So the majority opinion is "psychedelics can't cause brain damage" "psychedelics are harmless" well ur wrong all wrong. Psychedelics ruined my life, or should I say, I ruined my life with psychedelics.

Ive posted about how they've dissolved my ego, gave me OCD. Now I realized that Im all burnt out and can't even code anymore. Now Im suicidal as fuck I wake up wanting to eat cyanide and all I think about is things that make me anxious and depressed. My life has turned into a bad trip.

I didn't listen to yall and I kept going when you told me to stop. Now Im done for good. I gotta get my shit together because this path has nothing for me on the other side.

I reached enlightenment one time and it was before I took any psychedelics. My mind was quiet, my life was a vast terrain ready to be explored. Now Im stuck in a ditch that I buried myself in using drugs. It only took a year to go spiraling downhill, but any further down and Ill just be another junky with a needle in his arm. Hell I even bought a crack pipe to smoke dmt.

Now this post isn't soley to badmouth psychedelics (well kinda). All you folks who only trip a few times a year, I salute you. If you're tripping nonstop every week to escape the shitty reality you put yourself in, STOP before its too late.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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Just out of curiosity do you have any hobbies besides drugs?

Hope you turn things around for yourself friend and the holidays are as good as they can be.

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: scubasteven] * 2
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It's never too late my friend, you are still alive.

Your life is a result of thoughts and choices.

You can overcome this if that is what you desire.

Or you can allow it to defeat you.

Time and perseverance.

You can be happy and healthy if you choose.

Took time to get to where you are, will take time to climb your way out, but it can be done.

Good luck


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: scubasteven]
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scubasteven said:
Just out of curiosity do you have any hobbies besides drugs?



None, drugs completely took over my life.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Enkidu]
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Enkidu said:
It's never too late my friend, you are still alive.

Took time to get to where you are, will take time to climb your way out, but it can be done.

Good luck


thanks fam


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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CapnCook said:
scubasteven said:
Just out of curiosity do you have any hobbies besides drugs?



None, drugs completely took over my life.


Spend some time exploring other areas of interest, health would be a great place,

Nutrition, exercise, yoga, meditation, lots of very useful and beneficial books

Get plents of fluids, spend time in nature,you may be surprised how therapeutic these things truly are


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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I can relate very very much. I have hobbies but tripping and partying took over. Not much is as interesting anymore

Keep your head up though


...kp


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I wish life was more realistic man

:guiltyascharged:


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook] * 2
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nobody really knows what would have happened after the fact.

social media assures that most people think they somehow have ruined their life, taken a wrong turn, said the wrong thing, swallowed the wrong pill...


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Kevin44414]
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I'm curious what were the specific drugs you were using? As I wouldn't consider a lot of them to be psychedelics. Anyway  I hooepe you get through this and can leave destructive behaviour behind you. Take care


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Tweeq]
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Tweeq said:
I'm curious what were the specific drugs you were using? As I wouldn't consider a lot of them to be psychedelics. Anyway  I hooepe you get through this and can leave destructive behaviour behind you. Take care


LSA, shrooms, LSD, DMT, Bufotenine


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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CapnCook said:
Tweeq said:
I'm curious what were the specific drugs you were using? As I wouldn't consider a lot of them to be psychedelics. Anyway  I hooepe you get through this and can leave destructive behaviour behind you. Take care


LSA, shrooms, LSD, DMT, Bufotenine


I can’t even list the stuff I’ve used it’s too long of a list but what ruined me was a unlimited supply of pure Psilocin (4-ho-dmt)

Life is worthless without it. We would eat a strip of Lucy and then eat up pure Psilocin. This was in Wayne Michigan though. The good old days. With Psilocin all didn’t need friends sadly there were realistic people visuals with personalities and ever colored ninja star everything really like  the ultimate lsd trip every time using it stuff  flying around everywhere. I mean these experiences I haven’t been able to match. I spent months with a half ounce of 4ho and nobody/nothing else for the nost part. Just the visuals were so friendly and comforting and once I was on it I’d add Lucy in and e was great while on 4ho. 5 hits of L I can get great  visuals even from less but I like to be a complete waste of space when I trip nowadays I just drop for spiritual type feelings I guess as these substances have shown me more about life and myself then anything else  have encountered. Sometimes I ask myself why keep tripping I’ve already saw and got what I needed out of it but it’s some sort addiction for me.

I don’t mess with dark net anymore it’s depressing knowing I probably won’t see it again unless I stuff myself with fungus.. but that’s a joke in comparison

Sorry for punctuation and grammar etc if you have saw the iPhone 5s you would understand


Can always try to have a happy holiday :undecided: that’s what I’m doing unsuccessful so far. Sure you aren’t depressed? I take kratom for extreme pain from a injury but I know for a fact it helps my depression not come around as much and I can’t get ou of bed without it. Neuropathy sucks.



...kp


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Drop one

I wish life was more realistic man

:guiltyascharged:


Would you like some fries with that? files.shroomery.org/files/17-005/579477727-5003029E-48BD-4D05-A0FE-6B2B4905F5F6-2054-00000246166F3770_tmp.jpg][/url]

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Kevin44414]
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Addiction is a Mental Illness.

Those who overcome Mental Illness are known to travel far distances.
A pity to those who let it overcome Them.

I still take that weekly 500-600 mics of LSD, consume massive amounts of pot smoke, and have Me a special rail or DMT excursion on occasion.
And I come out the other end just fine and dandy.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook] * 2
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CapnCook said:
LSA, shrooms, LSD, DMT, Bufotenine


Ah...... This tells me you are searching for something but not finding it while at the same time getting glimpses of exactly what it is you're looking for. Maybe if I bump again it'll be there? Maybe if I double-dip it'll be there.

You get so hung up on finding whatever it is you're looking for that it consumes your focus.

These are all just guesses but they're based on experience.

One of the things I see on the forums is how much these things are tools of enlightenment, empathy, and self-awareness. What I don't see very often is how these things are also tools of power. "Power" is a really bad word for it (as are most words when trying to describe a vacation to Psychedelphia) but it comes close.

What you have been shown is the power side of the equation. Those substances are bringing some really powerful stuff to the classroom and you're not paying attention.

Here's my suggestion. Pick one. Mushrooms, acid, spice, whatever. Don't confuse things because from your description they're all trying to teach you the same thing. Go to the place where they start ripping you a new one and tell them you want more. Everything you read about these tools says the way out is through the storm. So keep going deeper.

Yup, there's some risk involved but great things usually require great risk. You're already in the cage with the lions so just pick up the whip and chair.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: MadValley] * 1
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MadValley said:
Everything you read about these tools says the way out is through the storm. So keep going deeper.

Yup, there's some risk involved but great things usually require great risk. You're already in the cage with the lions so just pick up the whip and chair.


Na man that philosophy is what got me here in the first place.

Thats like telling someone with brain damage to keep banging their head with a hammer to put it back in shape.


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Edited by CapnCook (12/25/18 10:20 AM)

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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If psychedelics are telling you to stop abusing them then you should listen to them and pursue some new interests for the time being.  You're basically just punishing yourself by continuing to take them despite knowing they're not helping.  How come you keep taking them despite it being evident they're making things worse?


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Psicomb]
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Capn, it sounds like there are very prevalent parts of YOU signaling.

YOUR post are quite impactful and helpful to the psychedelic community.
Just know YOU are in the right place, man.  :congrats:

No matter what YOUR thoughts may be telling YOU...
Wield YOUR faithful sword about and around; simply just by being YOURSELF, Mate.

From experience and observation of others alchemy.
YOU are exactly where YOU are supposed to be
and there should be nothing ashamed of that.
Even if You decide to quit psychedelics as You state above.
Know that You are in the right place here at the right time, Bruv.

CONGRATULATIONS, MATE! YOU'VE MADE IT!


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: heatlessbbq]
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Merriest of the Packaging Days to YOU, Matey.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: heatlessbbq]
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Daily use of these substances is not recommended. Makes it hard to listen to your body, what it needs at a certain time


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Psicomb]
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Psicomvb said:
How come you keep taking them despite it being evident they're making things worse?


Guess you can say I got addicted. Always thinking that they were the key to the solution. If they could fuck my brain they can unfuck it. But Ive found that its not true.

Sure Ive gotten some enlightening experiences. But the glory fades after 3 days and I just end up tripping again. Its kinda like gambling with your brain. Have a bad trip you trip again to make up for the bad experience. Have a good trip makes you want to feel the glory again. Like winning a jackpot vs losing it all.

So it becomes a cycle of insanity


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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From my recent forum readings i had come to the conclusion that you were intent on spreading bad vibes. Now i understand you are not feeling mentally well.

My advice in this case is to use the power of the things you have been through to create

Be it a painting or a landscape, website or book.  You can even channel energy and time into building a mental/astral environment to which you meditate and create over many sessions.

Cut your phone/computer use, reset your reward systems. This will make it easier for you to become authentically interested. Read a few books. A book with many ideas enough that one will interest you. Then try that idea yourself.

An easy habbit to build which is impact all areas of your life is taking care of your body. Concious diet, daily exercise.

Edit: Also kindly take responsibility. The vast concensus is to take time to integrate between trips.

Edited by High Night Expanse (06/16/19 06:36 PM)

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: High Night Expanse]
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The main reason I made this post is because I talked to my ex for the first time in 2 years and had nothing good to tell her. All I could tell her is "Been tripping too much and don't have friends or a job". And then I realized that drug use has ruined me. Can't help but compare myself to past versions of myself and say "fuck this is the lowest point in my life" and the drugs are just digging me deeper.

And I think now, fuck I sabotaged myself by telling her that. But in reality I was just being honest like I always have been. Last time I was being honest with her 2 years ago, I told her about getting a coding internship, improving my life, etc. and back then she said "wow you got a lot going for you."

I may return to psychedelia when I get my shit together. But right now my brain is a pile of mush and I gotta fix that. peace


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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Technically, it wasn't Psychedelics that ruined your life, it was you who ruined your life, i took Aya daily/near daily for 4 years, i was just fine, if anything messed me up, it was the Cannabis. Psychedelics are merely tools/drugs, it's up to the person using them to use them wisely/responsibly, no matter how often they consume them. But definitely, get your shit together, get your life straight, do what needs to be done, and if at some future point you wanna trip again, you can, but maybe set up some structure/ritual/purpose behind it rather than just taking it to escape or just because.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Sabnock]
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Sabnock said:
Technically, it wasn't Psychedelics that ruined your life, it was you who ruined your life.


"Psychedelics ruined my life, or should I say, I ruined my life with psychedelics."

At this point Im at a crossroads because Ive lost interest in what my path was. Or maybe I just lost the skills from not practicing. Kinda like not working out for a year and then trying to go to the gym and giving up easily. Thats where Im at. Don't really know what the future holds and my brain chemistry is completely different.

Or maybe Im just experiencing what every other 19/20 year old goes through. Regardless, stopping the tripping might help me figure it out.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: scubasteven]
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scubasteven said:
Just out of curiosity do you have any hobbies besides drugs?



Yeah im curious about that as well because back in the day I didn't.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: MrMoon] * 1
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This is like saying cars make me an aggressive driver.

Sorry but no, life is a series of choices you make every moment, even in your dreams. Drugs can be educational or recreational. Abusing them is your choice.

Alcohol is the worst of them in my opinion. It just sucks for the most part.

Go dmt, slower dosing, doesn’t need to be epic.

Or simply quit it all for a while and build a new life with new friends or work hard and succeed for a while.

Positive vibes.


Edit:  your only 20.....damn ok it’s simple. Just fucking relax. At twenty you have no perspective on life because if you look back 10 years you were ten and completely different so you have no reference to be able to look forward 10 years.

Advice is... don’t pregnate, don’t die, don’t go to jail.... in that the order.  Things will be fine, smell the roses.


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Edited by Doalrite (12/25/18 04:50 PM)

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Doalrite]
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Doalrite said:
your only 20.....damn ok it’s simple. Just fucking relax. At twenty you have no perspective on life because if you look back 10 years you were ten and completely different so you have no reference to be able to look forward 10 years.

Advice is... don’t pregnate, don’t die, don’t go to jail.... in that the order.  Things will be fine, smell the roses.


Yeah, I agree with all of this.  I felt the same way in my early 20s and was blaming psychedelics for all my problems.  But now that I'm older, I don't really think it was the psychedelics and I would have been pretty much the same without them.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Doalrite]
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I don’t think anyone here had their life together at 20.

I never had a real job at the point and I got locked up for selling drugs and “assaulting a police officer” when caught. It was December 2012. I was 20 years old.

spent the next 3 months of my life stuck in federal holding with the same people going in and out of prison being told I was going to sit the next 2-5 years of my life away for selling weed and acid, and bogus assault charges.

Luckily I qualified for Holmes youth act and was released after trial

I swore to myself in there I’d get my life together when I got out.

Best I’ve done since then hold a dozen or so dead end jobs, most could of led somewhere if the employers weren’t fuck ups themselves. Held down a few apartments, camp, couple relationships.

Never did stop taking psychedelics either.

Probably did more RC’s, psychs, misc. drugs, in the span after I got out than before.
Had some shit experiences and beneficial ones that overall I feel long term benefits in the way I perceive my reality.

26, still feel like I’m in my prime, can still do anything with my life.

I’ve known heroin and meth addicts, real fuck ups, criminals with more grit than you kid.

Merry fucking X-mas!


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: scubasteven]
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scubasteven said:
Just out of curiosity do you have any hobbies besides drugs?



This is key! Always find something in life that you do for fun that is not drugs! Psychedelics are great teachers, but they are drugs after all, and should be respected.

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: HulGil]
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psychedelics open you up to yourself. if you have no other hobbies or interests... then all you're going to see is a dark empty room. "stuff" won't fill this. experiences will fill this. take up hobbies. go hiking, vacationing, whatevering. read a book or play a game and enjoy the story.

unless you have something to compare "yourself" to, there's nothing to define. just like how light isn't light without the concept of darkness. try things. you may not enjoy them. that's fine - that just helps define what you're not, and by proxy, helps define what you actually are.

you have only yourself to blame for your current mess. not psychedelics. not others. you. you can't change the past. you can't even change everything the world does to you to please you. what you can do is change what's important to you and what you can change, and simply move around the things that aren't. if you mess up, so what? falling down's not a big deal, everyone does that all the time. whats important is getting back up after and not being afraid to try again.

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: HulGil]
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This person is 20? How can your life be ruined when it hasn't even started yet?
My life didn't start until I was almost 23. Everything that happened before is meaningless.
Chill, my friend. You have plenty of time.

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Doalrite]
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Doalrite said:
life is a series of choices you make every moment, even in your dreams. Drugs can be educational or recreational.
Abusing them is your choice. 


Quote:
Go dmt, slower dosing, doesn’t need to be epic.


Absolutely agreeable.
I cannot agree more with this, Mate.  :sunny:


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Edited by heatlessbbq (12/25/18 08:17 PM)

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: heatlessbbq] * 2
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My advice is to get a job, having some responsibility and a place you have to be everyday and on time is constructive and helpful in rounding out your life.  It gives you your sense of meaning and accomplishment, which is very rewarding in and of itself.  You'll have to start small though and go through the minimum wage jobs, but my best advice is once you get one, to stick with it and do the best you can, reguardless of anything (including coworkers and managers).  The thing here is, you have to want to do these things.  We all have ups and downs, and we use drugs for different things, but they are all temporary, and there is no everlasting happy place.  I used to tell myself, yeah ill do that stuff once I feel better, but the truth is you have to force yourself to do things that are good for you, like meeting other people and keeping a steady job, getting some stability in your life other than trying to find a quick fix.

You're in it for the long haul son, buckle in and toughen up and you'll come out shining.

Merry Christmas to you, as well!


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: naturalistic123]
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Gotta agree with the guy above me, get a job and no matter how shitty it is embrace it and do it as best you can. That alone will take you a long way, get some hobbies outside of drugs and like one guy said CREATE.

I'm 31 years old and until I was about 27 I was in and out of jail, terrible jobs, and no friends.. well I still have no friends but God damn man I've turned it around just by doing the things mentioned in this thread and pscyadelics are now just helping keep moving in that positive direction.

The most important thing is you realize you're not where you want to be, and you feel the need to make changes, with that and a lot of hard work you can turn yourself and your life into what you choose.

Good luck sir.

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: scubasteven]
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You really should go for a hike through a trail or mountains and collect your thoughts.
I dose really high 15g-25g+ twice a month for years and years to come and it didn’t ruin my life.
There’s other things going on here besides the psychedelics. It can either really help you, or if you just don’t give a fuck and depressed, ruin you. It’s all on your mentality bro.
You need to persevere and build yourself up.
Trust me I have been exactly where you are, but the flipsyde of it was mushrooms saved my life,
And help me in many different ways. I wrote an article on it around when I first joined.
Hiking is great for your mental strength and if I were you I’d give it a shot and start thinking how you are going to better yourself. I’ve been suicidal all my life and thanks to mushrooms I realized a whole lot, ITS NOT WORTH IT AND NOT THE RIGHT ANSWER. Before mushrooms I tried many times and very close to success with multiple fatal heart arrhythmias. Even dying for 2 minutes.
Don’t blame the psychedelics, you just need to change your perspective on things, and I promise once you realize you have the power to do anything you wish, you will come back from this a billion x better than before. I suggest hiking because exercise and nature is good for your brain.
You have passions and hobbies and things you enjoy but you’re letting your problems cloud it.
Find your passion and find stuff you enjoy and go do it.
For example I love mushrooms, in every way, so aside from growing for my spiritual growth,
I quit my regular job and started growing shiitakes, morels, oysters, and more for gourmet and medical use. And made a business out of it. I sell them to grocery stores and I sell st farmers market.
The whole point I’m trying to make, is that your life isn’t over unless you let it be.
I really hope things get better for you. But you need to make it happen.
You have a community here that  will support you, and encourage you. 
Find some things youre passionate about and do them.
Goodluck bro, though I highly doubt you will, shoot me a message if you ever need
Someone to talk to. Please


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Astonish]
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Maybe you had too much too fast.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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Everything is perspective.

Growing up I did have friends where drugs ruined their lives, because they died. Game over, do not pass go.

By the age of twenty I had done enough drugs to kill a village. I was actively trying to over do it. Drugs didn’t fuck my life, I did because I hated myself. I used drugs and alcohol as an excuse instead of manning up and owning my truth.

Drugs in fact healed me. Pcp healed me. I had a major breakthrough, ended up in the crazy house which I’ve documented here.

Since then I don’t need anything although I enjoy dmt which I have also documented.  I quit drinking and smoking. I am making healthy choices and enjoying life.

Life is nothing more than a weird little short experience we all go through. It’s a test that the majority of mankind receives an average grade on. As long as the light is shining you have a chance.
Everyone is redeemable, because we are everyone.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Astonish]
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The advantage you have is your young.
You have 20 more years until shit starts to get real. Take advantage of your bodies ability to repair it's self while it still can.

Taking psychedelics to escape is like thinking your gonna put a fire out with gasoline.

Life is hard, we all carry this burden and your not alone. :hug:


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: R.I.P.Zappa]
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Sounds like you’ve been taking psychs to get fucked up, not as a tool for growth development and enrichment.

Do you know cgkid on YouTube?  He was in a very similar boat and turned his life around, and he gives out his cell number to talk to people struggling with drugs.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: individualist]
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individualist said:
Sounds like you’ve been taking psychs to get fucked up, not as a tool for growth development and enrichment.


Well I do take it for growth or whatever but the growth lasts 3 days and then Im back to shit


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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Just get back on track, exercise and eat well.  Even if it doesn’t feel like it’s doing anything keep at it and get your schedule, active and sleep, tightened up.  Start having a normal routine even if you don’t feel normal and see it it will pull you out of the rut.  You gotta find something you’re interested in man.

I don’t know if that will work but I know what you mean about ‘lack of interest’ I think..


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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CapnCook said:
individualist said:
Sounds like you’ve been taking psychs to get fucked up, not as a tool for growth development and enrichment.


Well I do take it for growth or whatever but the growth lasts 3 days and then Im back to shit


Growth doesn't happen automatically by ingesting a substance. The substance may provide insight, but personal development takes perseverance. It sounds like you're chasing the afterglow of the trip maybe?

Try spending some time sober (as much as it may suck). This is where the real growth occurs. The challenge of sobriety will test your ability to adapt and overcome- especially if you're used to using drugs as an escape or coping mechanism.

Like someone previously mentioned, take an honest opportunity to pick up a new hobby. You say you're stuck in a rut. It happens. It's a part of life. Only you can dig yourself out. Start thinking outside the box and try something different, because what you're currently doing clearly isn't working.

Having said that, I wish you the best of luck. May the new year bring you new found happiness  :sun:


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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CapnCook said:
scubasteven said:
Just out of curiosity do you have any hobbies besides drugs?



None, drugs completely took over my life.


i always live by the thought of do the drugs, dont let the drugs do you.

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: numnum59]
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go talk to a psychiatrist

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: AIRDOG]
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This was predictable, people saw this coming a mile away and as you said they warned you to stop taking psyches mate.

These things can be toys for a certain type of people but if YOU think they're tools and then you overuse or abuse them, you'll get the shit kicked out of you.

Dangerous things about psyches is how quickly they can pull someone's world apart. Definitely put them away until you've got your shit back together.

As plenty of other people have already said though, this ain't on the drugs, it's on you. You did this and you can undo this. You just gotta believe that you can and then make changes that you can stick to. Start with eating healthy, and getting some new hobbies, ideally based around exercise.

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Proton]
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Proton said:
Start with eating healthy, and getting some new hobbies, ideally based around exercise.


I already exercise


I gotta get my head out of my ass. I'm starting to realize that Im not a complete loser. I got 2 years of college under my belt, I got programming knowledge, and some life experience. Sure I got my ass kicked by the mushrooms, but its just one big life lesson.

Psion said:
unless you have something to compare "yourself" to, there's nothing to define.



I only told my ex that Im a loser because i was comparing myself to her bf. Who is much older than me and has his own apartment and all that jaz. I could have pulled off being an easy going trippy dude in college vibe.

Its like trying to sell a sega genesis with all its flaws listed on the box, with a fully functioning SNES right next to it. Nobody is going to buy it. Im just a big ball of negativity and it may be some chemical imbalance caused by too much bad tripping. Hope my brain can reset with time

Also, porn might have something to do with this. As yall probably have seen my "DONT FAP ON PSYCHEDELICS" post humans aren't meant to watch porn. Masturbation is okay, but watching people fucking every day can change your brain chemistry especially if while tripping.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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CapnCook said:
Proton said:
Start with eating healthy, and getting some new hobbies, ideally based around exercise.


I already exercise


I gotta get my head out of my ass. I'm starting to realize that Im not a complete loser. I got 2 years of college under my belt, I got programming knowledge, and some life experience. Sure I got my ass kicked by the mushrooms, but its just one big life lesson.

Psion said:
unless you have something to compare "yourself" to, there's nothing to define.



I only told my ex that Im a loser because i was comparing myself to her bf. Who is much older than me and has his own apartment and all that jaz. I could have pulled off being an easy going trippy dude in college vibe.

Its like trying to sell a sega genesis with all its flaws listed on the box, with a fully functioning SNES right next to it. Nobody is going to buy it. Im just a big ball of negativity and it may be some chemical imbalance caused by too much bad tripping. Hope my brain can reset with time

Also, porn might have something to do with this. As yall probably have seen my "DONT FAP ON PSYCHEDELICS" post humans aren't meant to watch porn. Masturbation is okay, but watching people fucking every day can change your brain chemistry especially if while tripping.


i watch porn multiple times a day because my wife holds sex over my head like a carrot on a stick. hasnt changed my way of thinking

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: numnum59]
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numnum59 said:
i watch porn multiple times a day because my wife holds sex over my head like a carrot on a stick. hasnt changed my way of thinking


then it must've been the porn while tripping


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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You are a divine being. You will heal. You will go back to divine nirvana.
You matter. You are an essential part to this puzzle We call life.
You count. You bring important things to the table.

Let the organized matters bring YOU into awareness. :yinyang:
To bring about Your own destiny. Be Yourself.

And it is fact that taking a break from psychedelics will help One get back in touch with Themselves.
And in the future, psychedelics can be reintroduced and that can help One get back in touch with Themselves even more.
Especially if You use appropriately and responsibly. [One can absolutely "get away" with microdosing 2-5 times a week but most likely will run into psychedelic hang over effects if used over 3 times a week. Cannabis, eating meals, and drinking plenty of water helps the hang over effects.]

This is a revival. Live free. Die hard. Absolutely no regrets, as much as possible.
And to bring awareness to the world around You and to trust Your inner gut feeling inside of You.

Peace.  :bunnypeace:

Edited by heatlessbbq (12/26/18 04:16 PM)

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: heatlessbbq] * 1
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you're doing it again. trying to pass blame to other things instead of seeing it as you looking with the wrong perspectives and the wrong priorities. focus on what matters. fapping while on psychs doens't fuck your brain up. (i've done it quite often. it's fun, and harmless. but this is because i see it as a healthy release of tension, not a shameful act.) blaming negative tripping for you (unfairly) comparing yourself to some ex is just an excuse. her old fling doesn't matter. he's not you, you're not him, your lives are completely different. it's like comparing a wolf to a housecat and being upset that the former isn't housetrained. both are great in their own ways and serve useful purposes, but you certainly don't (usually) want a wolf as a housepet.

i'd tell you to stop whining about how life is unfair and how everything is ruining your life and how you're the victim... but lets face it, you're in your early 20s. that's a phase practically everyone goes through at that age. :lol: you'll eventually start realizing as you get older that a lot of mountains are simply molehills, and notice the real mountains to worry about. (mountains of debts, inside a blazing house, armed robbery, a pet wolf gone rogue...) after seeing things like that, you tend to have a much better perspective on the important stuff.

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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Listen to your heart and/or your subconcious mind.There you will find the cure that will make you escape this reality you are stuck in.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: AstralAurora]
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Take a break. Any damage done can be repaired with time and a focus on balancing. If absolutely necessary seek therapeutic help but be careful about that in selecting a psychedelic-friendly therapist/counselor.

I feel a lot of people that go through stuff like this is the result of us not having access to psychedelic “professionals,” e.g. guides and therapists. More psychodynamic material comes up than can be processed, throws a wrench in our functioning. It just needs to made sense of and integrated.

Good luck.

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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CapnCook said:
So the majority opinion is "psychedelics can't cause brain damage" "psychedelics are harmless" well ur wrong all wrong. Psychedelics ruined my life, or should I say, I ruined my life with psychedelics.

Ive posted about how they've dissolved my ego, gave me OCD. Now I realized that Im all burnt out and can't even code anymore. Now Im suicidal as fuck I wake up wanting to eat cyanide and all I think about is things that make me anxious and depressed. My life has turned into a bad trip.

I didn't listen to yall and I kept going when you told me to stop. Now Im done for good. I gotta get my shit together because this path has nothing for me on the other side.

I reached enlightenment one time and it was before I took any psychedelics. My mind was quiet, my life was a vast terrain ready to be explored. Now Im stuck in a ditch that I buried myself in using drugs. It only took a year to go spiraling downhill, but any further down and Ill just be another junky with a needle in his arm. Hell I even bought a crack pipe to smoke dmt.

Now this post isn't soley to badmouth psychedelics (well kinda). All you folks who only trip a few times a year, I salute you. If you're tripping nonstop every week to escape the shitty reality you put yourself in, STOP before its too late.


Be responsible brother. Years ago I use to abuse psychedelics and I temporarily went crazy. My mind and thoughts were all over the place and I almost couldn't form sentences. This was after taking lsd just a few times but over did it with smoking way too much weed knowing I'm extremely paranoid on weed. I went to a psychiatrist (mistake of $500 they're pieces of shit) and got some bullshit meds I threw away. Doesn't help I had nobody to talk to and at the time virtually no friends. Things eventually completely turned around after talking to people and making friends and staying away from drugs until I could handle them responsibly. I now couldn't be happier and have a more clearer mind then ever. After years of becoming a happy person I started taking psychedelics again at a much happier mind set with friends and people close to me. I realized doing this shit depressed and alone trying to chase a high was the worst mistake of my life. Now I couldn't be happier. Stay positive my man. I wouldn't bash psychedelics even after my terrible experiences because I've realized they put a light on my depression and helped me realize how bad it really was.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Mneeb]
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Peat and repeat were sitting in a tree, peat fell out. Who was left now?



Break the cycle.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Doalrite]
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Fucking finally man, you're actually coming to your senses. When I saw the title I was expecting a bitter and negative speach on why psychedelics are bad, guess I should stop being so judge mental.

I truly wish you the best. Hopefully you'll still check in and give us some updates. Stay safe and away from drugs. Happy new year

:happyclaps:

Edited by hejAdig999 (12/27/18 06:49 AM)

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: hejAdig999]
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Stop doing drugs for now and focus on getting a job or job training that will help you get a decent job.  If you want your life to be considered a success by mainstream America you need a high income. So you can buy nice things. If you do not have a criminal history from your drug use then you can still go pretty far in life. If you do have a criminal history you can still go just as far but your opportunities are about 1/5 of others. Your still at the beginning of your life. But don't just sit their taking drugs because you'll look back in 5-10 years and you really will have ruined your life.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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CapnCook said:
I gotta get my head out of my ass. I'm starting to realize that Im not a complete loser. I got 2 years of college under my belt, I got programming knowledge, and some life experience. Sure I got my ass kicked by the mushrooms, but its just one big life lesson.


Great mindset. You're twenty, even if you were in jail or the madhouse, you'd be far, far from permanently fucked. Millionaires and businessmen and artists and all kinds of successful and cool people have had their lives in shambles even at ten, twenty years older than you, and still pulled through.

CapnCook said:
Its like trying to sell a sega genesis with all its flaws listed on the box, with a fully functioning SNES right next to it. Nobody is going to buy it.


Except for people who want to play Sonic the Hedgehog.

CapnCook said:
Also, porn might have something to do with this. As yall probably have seen my "DONT FAP ON PSYCHEDELICS" post humans aren't meant to watch porn. Masturbation is okay, but watching people fucking every day can change your brain chemistry especially if while tripping.


You need to take your own advice. I mean, you posted stuff like "you need to get off the demon mushrooms for good", and "you shouldn't watch porn and jerk off while on mushrooms", and similar, but then a day passed and you posted another topic about how you did something even crazier.

Put in some discipline. Imagine that you're your own bail officer, checking in on you if you're on the right track. You'll be okay.

You may want to try psychs later in your life, but be careful. I know a few people who are particularly sensitive, and tryptamines fuck their heads up for weeks. When that time comes, make sure to have someone close to you who can kick your ass and destroy all your drugs if you become weird as fuck again.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: PsyduckMonkey]
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Early 20’s can be a tough time.
Get a job, save money, further your education/skills, find productive hobbies, have fun and take advantage of youth.
I took a several year break from psychedelics in my mid 20’s. Now I’m 28 and trip whenever my schedules allow me too generally every few months. Or I’ll do several dmt sessions then lay off for a long time. I had many bad trips in my early 20’s it was a difficult time being a young man.

Please take advice from people in this thread and lay off the psychedelics at least until you are sound.

Play the game and get your feet planted firmly on the ground. Then if you desire come back and visit psychedelics.

Wish you the best Capn.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: pinedownpioneer]
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Everyone's advice I've read is truly amazing and it's really cool to see elders drop knowledge on a fellow young person. If I had to add anything Capn, I'd suggest you sit down sober or not and really think up or write down what your goals are.

Honestly man do you want a girlfriend, kids, a wife, money, to live in a beautiful place or anything of the sort? Knowing what you want is the first part of the battle of life. Not knowing what you want out of life literally means you have no direction and that's probably why you feel the way you do.

Getting a shitty job to sustain the little things like clothes and other material objects help you in other areas like trying to get a girlfriend and being social and things similar to it. You need to find a hobby like EVERYONE has suggested.

Like others have said, I think eating healthy working out and maintaining this way of living is crucial to a happy sober life. Once you've gone toward this path other enjoyable things open up you may have not thought about before. Best of luck man, and you're not fucked just currently in a bad spot. We've all been there. 23 btw


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: PsyduckMonkey]
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PsyduckMonkey said:
CapnCook said:
Its like trying to sell a sega genesis with all its flaws listed on the box, with a fully functioning SNES right next to it. Nobody is going to buy it.


Except for people who want to play Sonic the Hedgehog.



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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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Face your insignificance.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Deemstar]
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you probably abused them... when they are used to heal you take them very sparingly...

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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Don't let your mind post-toastee,
Like a lot of my friends did.
:Tommy Bolin 1976
Still stands today.
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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: Duhrwood Stevens]
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dude that cant be the shrooms .... sounds like crack

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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: VectZ]
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All psychedelic journeys are dependent on two, solid arguments.
1.) Intention
2.) Experience

With argument number 1; intention. This may or may not be a conscious thought or action. Usually with experience; One will most definitely gain more awareness of Their own intention as each psychedelic journey goes by. This component and argument is critical seeing as psychedelics disperse and reveals One's own fate and fortune.

Going along with argument 2. Having the experience, knowledge, and fortitude of each 'weapon of choice' is crucial to these psychedelic endeavors. It is common these days with the new microdosing trends that people are not so much well informed on the dosage and how often One should administer the psychcompound; correctly and accurately. Not to mention mixing with other drugs... *snicker* We all know about that One, don't We? :smile:
Cannabis seems to be the top leading assistant no matter where One goes in a psychedelic, joint venture.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: heatlessbbq]
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How are things this day, Capn?


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: heatlessbbq]
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heatlessbbq said:
How are things this day, Capn?


Eh pretty good. My main problem rn is OCD and thinking shitty thoughts all the time. How am I supposed to get a girlfriend if my mind is full of garbage.

I don't know if psychedelics caused the OCD. But I can tell you 100000% that before psychedelics I didn't have this issue at all. for my whole life i NEVER had this issue. Its gotten to the point that the shitty thoughts don't bother me anymore but Im just pissed off that they are taking up my thought space.


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Re: Psychedelics ruined my life [Re: CapnCook]
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How about for now instead of going out and ‘getting’ a girlfriend instead work on getting yourself as receptive and ready as possible for if a potential gf should happen by.  Actually landing one is hit and miss but getting yourself polished up mentally and phiscally will result in guaranteed returns that can be applied to all sorts of avenues.

Every girls crazy about a sharp dressed man..:cool:

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