Hi friends so excuse any typos because my right arm is currently immobilized and I’m having constant pain that could make an mma fighter faint and actually made me cry briefly like 3 times now and made me pass out from pain twice. It’s been unbearable and heavy pain meds and weed is the only thing that’s helping and I’m low. I’ve been an opiate addict for 10 years so the norco they give me is nice but it’s been 4 days and they’re gone because of my tolerance and addiction.
So let’s start briefly with what happened for those who are unaware I’ll try and keep it as simple as possible. I’m 24 now but when I was 18 I have done five consecutive Somers of increasing difficulty of white water rafting. The injury occurred in our first major white wire rabbit . The class system signifies dangerousness and threat to life. They told us before we enter the rafter that if someone were to fall out they would probably die .
Now keep in mine in a rapid like this there are up to 40 mph currents in the rapid, so you’re basically been flown through a meatgrinder, when you’re also drowning. I have extensive swimming experience in the ocean and rivers and I was a lifeguard at that time,Using that training along with white water rafting experience I was able to get a few breaths which help me stay a while I’v using the training along with white water rafting experience I was able to get a few breaths which help me stay alive.
However for 550 yards I was dragged at 40 miles an hour into boulders, jagged sharp rocks, 10 foot drops and it almost killed me. When the rapid finally stopped they found me in the water and did CPR and brought me back. When I came to my knees were extremely bloody and I had immense amounts of pain in my shoulders and neck.
I went to my primary care physician in my area and my area is notoriously horrible when it comes to healthcare. My doctor did 1 x-ray and said I was fine. Five years later and after three years of boxing I found out from an MRI I insisted on getting that my shoulder had been completely diss attached from my body for 5 years. During those five years I’ve had Terrible constant pain that has got in the way of jobs terrible constant pain that has gotten away with jobs, being able to hang out with friends And it is the main contributor to my opiate addiction.
So after the five years which was one year ago I had a surgery to reattach my arm to my shoulder. There’s surgery also hurt very bad but all in all after physical therapy I was starting to do a little better even if not by much. Then the “opioid crisis national emergency“ also includes stripping patients with bad chemical imbalances due to mental illness drastically be cut down by the fda on things like Xanax. Even my psychiatrist said he would rather have me around 3 mg Xanax per day which is still way less than I was on. Anyway I ran out of pills and for three days to not have Xanax. This caused me to have a major seizure that made me fall on the surgery arm just had 2-3 months before .
During this unfortunate turn of events I had to wait nearly 7 months for surgery. In that time doing things that I had to do to live my life I apparently injured/damaged it Way more than The specialist thought it would be. I went into surgery thinking it’d be one hour and one metal anchor. Instead it took 4hours+ and I have 5 metal anchors all around my shoulder and it’s the only thing that will keep it in place forever now. The pain is just so overwhelming and makes it hard to concentrate on posting like this so I’m sorry if I sound rambling. But i always seem to get love from the shroomites here and put a smile on my face. So this is been a very tough, painful, scary and downright torturous recovery and will be complicated by my long-standing severe addiction to diluadid in the lack of true pain relief because of tolerance severely but I’ll get through this one where another was a little help from friends and family
Please send good vibes and I love y’all
-------------------- R.I.P
Zombi3, Blue Helix
Modest Mouse
Zappa, Jellyfish
Slothie
That Kid With The face
ShLong
Le Canard
split_by_nine
& Big Worm Forever
Etched in the sands of time in the shroomery and ever so beloved and deeply missed by many
Edited by Seriously_trippin (11/20/18 11:11 PM)
|