Home | Community | Message Board
You are not signed in.
Sign In New Account
Forum Index Search Posts Trusted Vendors Highlights Galleries FAQ User List Chat Store Random Growery

MagicBag Grow Bags
This site includes paid links. Please support our sponsors.

Mushrooms, Mycology and Psychedelics > The Psychedelic Experience
Threaded Mode Threaded  Previous topic Previous  View all topics Index  Next topic Next 

Welcome to the Shroomery Message Board! You are experiencing a small sample of what the site has to offer. Please login or register to post messages and view our exclusive members-only content. You'll gain access to additional forums, file attachments, board customizations, encrypted private messages, and much more!

Shop: Sporeworks.EU Spores for European Microscopy   North Spore North Spore Mushroom Grow Kits & Cultivation Supplies   Unfolding Nature Unfolding Nature: Being in the Implicate Order   Mushroom-Hut Mono Tub Substrate   Original Sensible Seeds Bulk Cannabis Seeds

Jump to first unread post Pages: 1 | 2  [ show all ]
Some of these posts are very old and might contain outdated information. You may wish to search for newer posts instead.
First solo trip was depressing
    #25626653 -

Last Friday I was pretty hyped to finally trip alone at my place because after 10+ trips I have never experienced it all on my own with no distractions. I'm not here to give a trip report but I ate 3.5g and you guys probably know how that goes, but it is just the feelings after that have me messed up. Nothing crazy happened on the trip, I just feel slightly depressed. I start questioning everything I'm doing and just ask myself, Why? I just feel like I hit a roadblock after that trip. The trip itself was just lonely and I don't think I was prepared for that feeling of extreme loneliness. There was no anxiety or scary moments during the trip, it was just lonely.

Has anyone else had a similar experience to me? I'm thinking if I tripped again with good friends it would fix the problem.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: WhiteVeil]
    #25626656 -

Yes I believe I'd had something like that

Answer the questions honestly.

Why are you doing what you're doing?


--------------------
Just a fool on the hill.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: pineninja]
    #25626658 -

pineninja said:
Yes I believe I'd had something like that

Answer the questions honestly.

Why are you doing what you're doing?


I honestly don't know. Life just feels like a grind right now and I guess the unknown of the future has me feeling very uneasy.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: WhiteVeil]
    #25626659 -

Have you faced that feeling before or just put it aside?
No glasshouses here btw.


--------------------
Just a fool on the hill.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: pineninja]
    #25626681 -

pineninja said:
Have you faced that feeling before or just put it aside?
No glasshouses here btw.


I put it aside for a while, now it is just too close to ignore.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: WhiteVeil]
    #25626686 -

So don't.


--------------------
Just a fool on the hill.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: pineninja]
    #25626688 -

Pretty hefty dose there bud.

Sounds like you got lost in thought, causing no afterglow, just a series of unanswered questions. Some people cant solo trip due to this, so the very fact that you solo tripped, caused a insecurity that you needed friends to have a good trip, when in reality, you didnt.


--------------------
Official:
Facemelter
HyperspaceTraveller
NostalgicGamer

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: Chakanooga]
    #25626690 -

Chakanooga said:
Pretty hefty dose there bud.

Sounds like you got lost in thought, causing no afterglow, just a series of unanswered questions. Some people cant solo trip due to this, so the very fact that you solo tripped, caused a insecurity that you needed friends to have a good trip, when in reality, you didnt.


I definitely learned a lot more about myself. Like how much I appreciate all my friends and family. Towards the end, I actually broke down and cried because I just realized I don't go visit my parents as often as I should. I just felt like a selfish dickhead for it.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: WhiteVeil]
    #25626713 -

WhiteVeil said:
Chakanooga said:
Pretty hefty dose there bud.

Sounds like you got lost in thought, causing no afterglow, just a series of unanswered questions. Some people cant solo trip due to this, so the very fact that you solo tripped, caused a insecurity that you needed friends to have a good trip, when in reality, you didnt.


I definitely learned a lot more about myself. Like how much I appreciate all my friends and family. Towards the end, I actually broke down and cried because I just realized I don't go visit my parents as often as I should. I just felt like a selfish dickhead for it.



Yeah and some quality ego loss, and noticing the voids and connections missing in your life, keep meditating on your trip but don't try to out think it and Keep a strong mind homie.
Some times it takes me a few days to come back to being "Me" and fully grasping some of what spawned thoughts or ideas, and releases of emotions.
Have a safe expanding :cloud9:


--------------------
:volcano: Thanks too all :volcano:
        Best Tek List, click it

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: XnMe]
    #25626720 -

Do you regret tripping?


--------------------
:death: Fumbling in existance :wizard:

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: hejAdig999]
    #25626754 -

Sounds to me like it forced you to accept certain aspects of your self/life that you are not happy with or want to improve. Make those changes, see your parents more, tell them you love them. 


As far as solo dosing, I've had my deepest experiences alone and I wouldn't change that.


--------------------

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: seldom seen]
    #25626761 -

seldom seen said:
As far as solo dosing, I've had my deepest experiences alone and I wouldn't change that.


Same here


--------------------
:volcano: Thanks too all :volcano:
        Best Tek List, click it

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: XnMe]
    #25626870 -

I think you went into the trip with the "tripping solo" mindset/idea which took over you whole trip with a feeling of loneliness. Any feeling can get greatly exaggerated and even take over a whole trip.

What I'd do is use this opportunity to think about why did it bother you so much. And perhaps try to learn to be alone. It is a pretty useful skill :wink:


--------------------
Materialistic, individualistic, truth seeker, risk taker.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: Inflaton]
    #25626883 -

Used to eat 2.5grams and a hour later eat a g  cause it helps with coming down slower. Used to love smoking opium on the way down too. It's a drug, you get high, you come down. The higher you fly, the lower you sink.


--------------------
Stop talking about being enlighten. Crybabies, bitches, and people worried about ratings can never reach enlightenment!  NEVER!

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: WhiteVeil]
    #25626915 -

Fix the problem?

I dunno. Sounds like the problem is being fixed.

Loneliness is a kind of natural state for lots of people. You mention that you don’t stay in contact with your family? What about your friends, how many are actual friends vs. people you hang around?

You mention everything feeling like a grind and apprehension about the future. Also, normal feelings for human beings.

Is your work something that you love? Is it time to try something different?

The future is scary, you don’t know what could happen, no one does.

I think a lot of times, we ignore these types of feelings. But, those feelings need to be acknowledged and integrated too. That’s what solo tripping can help with, you get to see things you wouldn’t be able to see with others around.

Don’t try to fix stuff so quickly, maybe wait several weeks before tripping again, just sit with the more pronounced thoughts and feelings that came up, test out different interpretations of those thoughts and feelings.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: Shr00mEater]
    #25626936 -

I was having exactly the same experience practically every trip a few months ago - in the end I think your trying to tell yourself something via the mushrooms, for me it was about my respect of the medecine (and myself), once I set some solid intentions and started to actively enjoy where i am in life, things have started to fit in to place, that and an ayahuasca ceremony broke through what the mushrooms were showing me.

Sometimes they can intensify the ennui, but definitely for a reason.


--------------------

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: Chakanooga] * 1
    #25626951 -

Chakanooga said:
Pretty hefty dose there bud.

Sounds like you got lost in thought, causing no afterglow, just a series of unanswered questions. Some people cant solo trip due to this, so the very fact that you solo tripped, caused a insecurity that you needed friends to have a good trip, when in reality, you didnt.


This will happen any time I take mushrooms and don’t have an awesome deep intense experience, I’ll come out of the experience worse than I went into it.

Where as if I did have an awesome intense deep experience, the comedown and next day will have this awesome afterglow.


So lemme ask you this, why did you solo trip? If it wasn’t to go extremely deep into your mind than there’s no point in solo tripping and one will only want to do it with friends, as it seems you are.


--------------------

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: Piaseski]
    #25626953 -

Yeah but usually for me any negative feelings are at the beginning followed by feeling amazing as fuck on the come down.

Mushrooms for me it's usually like they search me out, see what's wrong with me, tell me everything wrong, then they're like ok, now enjoy, and then it's beautiful.

As mentioned, you have to face and accept whatever you experience, think, feel, then once you do you get past it and move on.

Don't beat yourself up or dwell on it too hard, just be aware of it. Use it to grow.

I normally don't feel lonely on the come down with mushrooms, I usually feel amazing and aa if I would be find alone for the rest of my life, I have felt that way on the come down of lsd though, So i do know how you feel I believe.

You're not alone :shrug:

Being alone is useful, you gotta learn to enjoy your own company.

Sometimes our only option is being with ones self.

Those are perfect times to do things like practice self expression.

Write, make art, reading or just do activities you enjoy alone.

Occupy yourself so you aren't focusing on "I'm alone", but at the same time it's useful to feel and face, and can give us a deeper appreciation for when we aren't alone.

Relaxing music and meditation is also great on the come down. Listen to relaxing meditative music and do your own yoga. Man I love mushrooms...


--------------------
Within You , Without You


:mushroom2::levitate::mushroom2:

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: Inflaton]
    #25627428 -

hejAdig999 said:
Do you regret tripping?


No, but I think I might be to the point where it feels like I am not getting as much out of it anymore. Which sucks cause I love the experience 95% of the time.
seldom seen said:
Sounds to me like it forced you to accept certain aspects of your self/life that you are not happy with or want to improve. Make those changes, see your parents more, tell them you love them. 


As far as solo dosing, I've had my deepest experiences alone and I wouldn't change that.


It turned out weird honestly, I think I changed for the better, but I feel worse. It is just weird.
Inflaton said:
I think you went into the trip with the "tripping solo" mindset/idea which took over you whole trip with a feeling of loneliness. Any feeling can get greatly exaggerated and even take over a whole trip.

What I'd do is use this opportunity to think about why did it bother you so much. And perhaps try to learn to be alone. It is a pretty useful skill :wink:


I still have a lot of questions to answer after this one man. The alone part is just a portion.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: WhiteVeil]
    #25627553 -

Were you looking to have an intense out of body sort of experience? If not this is why it went the way it did. There’s no point in solo tripping if you’re not looking for that kind of experience.

And if you were looking for that kind of experience and it just didn’t happen, don’t let that get to you so much and up your dose.

But you took an eighth which is enough to have a decent experience, sooo I’m leaning towards the first option.


If you’ve always tripped with friends you’ve probably never had the chance to do this. But if you solo trip again, sit there, close your eyes, and pay attention to what you’re looking at. You will not be discouraged. I promise.


--------------------

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: The lurker]
    #25627666 -

The lurker said:
Were you looking to have an intense out of body sort of experience? If not this is why it went the way it did. There’s no point in solo tripping if you’re not looking for that kind of experience.

And if you were looking for that kind of experience and it just didn’t happen, don’t let that get to you so much and up your dose.

But you took an eighth which is enough to have a decent experience, sooo I’m leaning towards the first option.


If you’ve always tripped with friends you’ve probably never had the chance to do this. But if you solo trip again, sit there, close your eyes, and pay attention to what you’re looking at. You will not be discouraged. I promise.


I wasn't going in looking for that experience but looking back on it I probably should have. If I ever do it again I would up the dose.

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: The lurker]
    #25627674 -

The lurker said:
Were you looking to have an intense out of body sort of experience? If not this is why it went the way it did. There’s no point in solo tripping if you’re not looking for that kind of experience.


I've never had an out of body experience, i've always been in my body, but i prefer to trip alone because people taint the experience for me lol. For me solo tripping is more about connecting more to the body and learning more about the body/mind/brain/soul/spirit, etc.


--------------------

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: Sabnock]
    #25627797 -

WhiteVeil said:
The lurker said:
Were you looking to have an intense out of body sort of experience? If not this is why it went the way it did. There’s no point in solo tripping if you’re not looking for that kind of experience.

And if you were looking for that kind of experience and it just didn’t happen, don’t let that get to you so much and up your dose.

But you took an eighth which is enough to have a decent experience, sooo I’m leaning towards the first option.


If you’ve always tripped with friends you’ve probably never had the chance to do this. But if you solo trip again, sit there, close your eyes, and pay attention to what you’re looking at. You will not be discouraged. I promise.


I wasn't going in looking for that experience but looking back on it I probably should have. If I ever do it again I would up the dose.


Yeah well that would probably be the reason you came down from it depressed, there’s so much more potential on that dose you could’ve experienced.

I don’t suggest upping the dose if that’s not what you were looking for originally, Instead take an eighth again maybe even a little bit lower of a dose, do this alone or with a trip sitter, or at least tell your friends your intentions for the experience. When the dose kicks in close your eyes and pay attention to what happens. Make sure you’re in a nice relaxed setting.

This is when the real experience happens with psychedelics that you hear about in all the trip reports and where the real deep insights come from. Thanks to sabnock for mentioning what he did, don’t necessarily look for an out of body experience, instead withhold expectations and follow the advice I gave you above.



Sabnock said:
The lurker said:
Were you looking to have an intense out of body sort of experience? If not this is why it went the way it did. There’s no point in solo tripping if you’re not looking for that kind of experience.


I've never had an out of body experience, i've always been in my body, but i prefer to trip alone because people taint the experience for me lol. For me solo tripping is more about connecting more to the body and learning more about the body/mind/brain/soul/spirit, etc.


Yes, I’ve had awesome insane entity contact/communication on 4.5 grams still in my body. But really never had an out of body experience? Interesting, last time I smoked 10mg of dmt these small faces with eyes came into my vision and swirled around for a second and I levitated out of my body through the faces and I could literally feel how my body was down there and I’m up here, rising into another dimension with all these shapes and flashing lights it was nuts off one giant rip held in.

I really didn’t know what else to refer to it as other than giving that vague description :rofl:


--------------------

Edited by The lurker (11/20/18 02:01 PM)

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: The lurker]
    #25628103 -

Yeah i've taken all sorts of dosages of Aya, took it daily/near daily for 4 years, i've always been in my body, sometimes i get ESP and can sense my body in an expanded sense of being aware of some external viewpoint outside of my body, but always been in my body, even on Changa, haven't had pure vaped DMT though, just smoked it in Changa form but i much prefer it orally. I've also taken LSD a good few times (up to 3 hits), mushrooms a few good times (up to 5 grams), 4-ACO-DMT a few good times (up to 50mgs), but i rarely ever get closed eyed visuals (i get open eyed visuals just fine though), only closed eyed visual i've gotten that was clear as day was the precognitive vision i had on Aya about my dad's death 2 weeks before he died, but other than that, pretty much just blackness behind closed eyes. So i don't get visuals of other realms, or sensations of being out of body, i just get expanded, more connected, and tap into deep aspects of myself and other perceptual dimensions of reality, but only ever had a few entities show up, never saw them except for one but i sensed them and communicated telepathically with them and even channeled a couple of them, also heard them auditorily a few times.


--------------------

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Re: First solo trip was depressing [Re: Sabnock]
    #25629210 -

Stay the course, take some time to integrate, it will make sense eventually.

I feel for ya OP because even when I hit rough patches solo, the final stages of psilocybin always leave me with so much positivity.


--------------------

Extras: Filter Print Post Top
Jump to top Pages: 1 | 2  [ show all ]

Shop: Sporeworks.EU Spores for European Microscopy   North Spore North Spore Mushroom Grow Kits & Cultivation Supplies   Unfolding Nature Unfolding Nature: Being in the Implicate Order   Mushroom-Hut Mono Tub Substrate   Original Sensible Seeds Bulk Cannabis Seeds

Mushrooms, Mycology and Psychedelics > The Psychedelic Experience
Threaded Mode Threaded  Previous topic Previous  View all topics Index  Next topic Next 

Similar ThreadsPosterViewsRepliesLast post
* about solo trips in total darkness and silence Jeroen198 2,730 7 02/10/03 09:02 PM
by Asante
* Re: solo trip ideas georgewash 2,912 9 06/13/00 09:48 PM
by Anonymous
* First trip with Experiance Martingoose 3,006 13 05/16/16 04:11 PM
by PsylioSynethesis
* Tripping alone!
( 1 2 all )		 Kemist 12,385 35 09/07/20 07:46 AM
by Universe
* First Time Trip plannng. TripFiend 1,836 10 07/21/02 05:18 PM
by anton420man
* dosages on trippin solo HB 2,216 9 10/10/02 03:04 PM
by baraka
* tripping alone esin 1,204 7 01/12/03 02:42 AM
by esin
* The Mckenna 'Heroic Dose (5g dried') - your experiences
( 1 2 3 4 all )		 CaptBeefheart 35,538 76 10/30/24 11:26 AM
by connectedcosmos

Extra information
You cannot start new topics / You cannot reply to topics
HTML is disabled / BBCode is enabled
Moderator: psilocybinjunkie, Asante, Rose, mushboy, LogicaL Chaos, Northerner, bodhisatta
530 topic views. 3 members, 260 guests and 25 web crawlers are browsing this forum.
[ Show Images Only | Sort by Score | Print Topic ]
Search this thread:

Copyright 1997-2026 Mind Media. Some rights reserved.

Generated in 0.041 seconds spending 0.011 seconds on 16 queries.