WhiteVeil said:
I think you had an experience that made you think of your death, how other people would feel, how you would feel. You've experienced a lot of empathy from it, and that's not a bad thing, it's pretty common. I've had the alternate realities experience myself, to the point where I'm double checking if things are real or acting how they should.
I guess this experience would be considered an ego death for you, a weird one at that. I think it is normal to feel like you're dying or disappearing to where ever when an ego death occurs.
That’s good advice or a nice thing to say. Could you give any examples of some experiences you’ve had?
There was more to than just running into the wall. It was like my senses got highly sharpened, and my animal faculties were more accute, whether just delusion in my head or not.
Luckily, I knew this chick once who said she did acid, and was riding her bike (she said she didn’t know who Hofmann was, if that matters), suddenly she fell, and was fixing her bike. Then she said a lady came to help her up, and then realized she wasn’t even fixing her bike - just doing random stuff on the ground. The lady gave her a ride home after she snapped out of that.
So it could be similar to any one of those experiences. I can remember the vision fading, more and more, but can’t quite place when it actually started, besides just running. It seemed like people were chasing me, and some of the people I saw, may not have been real, just realistic images (or hallucinations)! Although, some of them could have been. That’s one reason why I don’t like acid that much, its Aztec, crystal, Mexican like vibes can just be waaaay too extreme for me, I’m used to DMT mainly, which is way more insane than mushrooms. I’ve been wanting to use more mushrooms after my DMT experiences, mainly because they last a little longer, or just ayahuasca.
Mushrooms aren’t really like the DMT experiences I’ve had, and I used to get pissed when I’d get shut out, or even weird, sub breakthrough doses.
LSD and mushrooms can both look like initial stages of DMT hyperspace, but they never do the same thing, just quite. They go in different directions from there. Recreational use, I don’t really know about. DMT was curiosity, psilocybin microdosing might be good for depression. I know that acid had promise in anti-anxiety, but think people only really try them a few times, so you can’t really keep administering them like that. People should just cherish the true experiences they get from them instead of keep trying to go back.
The acid trip was insane. It was like, communication with ancient forces or deities - I can’t think of psilocybin at the moment because my head starts to hurt a little. It was different from DMT hyperspace entities. They were saying Man is fucked, and one serpent, snake like entity spirit told me they were going to annihilate the earth (via human actions, climate change). I said is there anything we can do? Then it asked its master, and said no. It’s a part of the grand design, or scheme. At this point I was still running down the street. I kept thinking and thinking, relying on my mushroom, weed, and DMT experiences for assistance or reassurance, but hope still seemed grim.
It must have been the whole “universal love” thing. And we were failing, that’s why the world is the way it is these days(? I guess just mostly global warming and resource depletion). I was going to tell people and relay the info, so we can make a change, if what they were saying was even true (and it sorta seemed to be). The Masters of the Outer Darkness can appear as snakes/serpents, and they always say this or that, like how they run things but actually don’t. I still get a weird jester feeling from LSD, so was never really sure about some of it. It always seemed annoying and like mushrooms would be better or more sedative feeling, less speedy-meth oriented like acid. I don’t think anyone can really find the time to do all that.
I only didn’t stop running because I noticed I wasn’t getting tired. It had a “stimulant” feel to it, then I ran through the wall, still panicked, but basically laughed it off when all was said and done. It was all I could do... Like I said it was only until I dosed again months later, that I started thinking about it, and the place I was in at life, or my position in social standings, so I started to think it was like a karmic Hell, to put it kindly. What can I say, it’s supposed to be tongue in cheek, reality is made of language and meaning, so it seemed to be that. I don’t think it would have been the same if it weren’t for my DMT work. I don’t think I would have tried it on mushrooms, let alone a high enough dose. I think mushrooms take you to “the dome” as well, except DMT is just too fast and awesome, you don’t have much time think about spiritual growth as you would with psilocybin, the wave it hits you with, is completely overwhelming. Don’t get me wrong, I like mushrooms too and find them interesting, and they’re strong, and since DMT is basically mushrooms/psilocybin in freebase format, it acts similarly, needing to be compressed in 5 minutes, can be capable of teaching you astounding things about the universe.
I think acid has mind control capabilities, I’d like to think some AI or VR machine took control of my brain’s mind waves that caused it to manipulate my body, so it could have been like some military or alien technology someone was using to control me. It would have basically implanted that vision in my mind, while something else was happening, perhaps as “karma” or paying for some deeds I had recently done (could have been mean to this or that person, or didn’t talk to this girl or that girl). I think some people are sensitive to it. Abusing any power isn’t really the key, I don’t think.
I thought I had ego death with DMT, even mushrooms, but that sum total of acid experience, was just too much for me. It’s more “ingrained in reality”, whereas mushrooms/DMT are more meditative, inner space like. Mushrooms might be the best, although ayahuasca could be the psychedelic experience most people are expecting or thinking of. It’s about living in the now, and also balance, if the goal is to be happy, or not be shortsighted in how to survive as a man or member of society. So no, coping with that kind of stress on the mental psyche, is too much.
DMT was different, it was usually like “Aw, I’ll never be able to explain or describe this, this feeling this emotion, the way the hyperspace conveyed the information to me, it was just impossible to comprehend or remember.” I feel like I still understood what was basically going on, just that it couldn’t be described or explained, it was just beautiful. Then, I started to feel weird when I realized it might be strange the most beauty or art you can take, realize, or behold, has to be done via smoking some drug, instead of observing like an awe-inspiring act of kindness or something.
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