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LackToast
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Re: Dealing with negativity [Re: Morel Guy]
#25044096 - 03/06/18 09:49 PM (5 years, 11 months ago) |
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I agree the universe is unfair and nobody cares and we cant go backwards.
I just wish someone would hold me tight and love me for a little while.
Damn cruel this life is.
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Re: Dealing with negativity [Re: Morel Guy]
#25044342 - 03/07/18 01:20 AM (5 years, 11 months ago) |
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I believe the universe is fair. Our mortality proves it. We're all equals in our fate.
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Morel Guy said:
Anyhow I am very strongly considering canceling my internet. Save money and reduce the temptations of dreaming of better things.
Do you really believe no internet would keep you from wishing your life was different?
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Re: Dealing with negativity [Re: RJ Tubs 202]
#25044701 - 03/07/18 07:55 AM (5 years, 11 months ago) |
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Kinda changing my mind about net service today. It's only $35 a month. But that's like 420 a year.
I have more today but also less of my old life. No weed but honestly even with weed winters and my life style got stale at times.
Things changed at 23 when I had a psychotic break. Got a felony then hooked up with the wrong girl. She kept the weed going and don't even mention the sex. Slapped on a handful of misdemeanors with her. I am surprised they didn't charge me for the arson she did before I Knew her.
Anyhow i don't know but haven't been open with the doctor fully or anyone. I still percieve voice like almost intuitive talk in my head. It can make me paranoid. It plays along with actual intuition so it's a freak show.
Thing is Instill have hope in tripping/weed. Those drugs change what I percieve in the subcon unlike meds that just totally numb that entire area of feeling. The med makes me fat, stupid and lazy. Everyone on psych meds is ugly and fat. It's a putts parade!
I'm not in control of my life or I'd be growing what I want. For all the drugs in this area it's not 420 friendly at all. Schwagg city!
The system has me.
-------------------- "in sterquiliniis invenitur in stercore invenitur" In filth it will be found in dung it will be found
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Re: Dealing with negativity [Re: Morel Guy]
#25047742 - 03/08/18 12:30 AM (5 years, 11 months ago) |
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Have you tried psychedelics?
-------------------- Push the boundaries of your own stupidity. See what you can get away with... Psycho, maybe. Psychonaut, not yet. The Joker: "What doesn't kill you, makes you stranger".
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Re: Dealing with negativity [Re: BoogieDaze]
#25048824 - 03/08/18 12:32 PM (5 years, 11 months ago) |
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Ya a bunch. They are not always the great healers that they are said to be capable of. I found their healing lived for a period of time but it doesn't take away the sting of defeat. It probably could elevate wonders, it can heal but no drug really does that. It takes a sober healing to really have profound change. Drugs just show what is possible and that can honestly hurt. It can be a tease!
But face it, nothing is really concrete. And even concrete has enemies over time such as time itself. So not even negativity is forever. I don't always live in the past or future but it's a way we are wired to analyze and live with all those energies.
I've just had a negative element to live. Bad things happened and that's because a lot of things people casually do is negative. So I'm sensitive to what I find very serious. We just get used to negativity and accept it and never really understand or integrate. I suppose it's because we all have devices to move on with or without conscious negativity.
It just really hurts at times that sometimes the same behavior is negatively perceived and other times it's a good laugh. I haven't mastered myself or perceiving other life forms. So a continuous supply of negative experiences can be tremendously heavy.
But I have hope that negativity and chaos is not the greatest power I've ever known. It is a heavy burden and a beast for sure, but not the greatest.
-------------------- "in sterquiliniis invenitur in stercore invenitur" In filth it will be found in dung it will be found
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Re: Dealing with negativity [Re: Morel Guy] 1
#25049636 - 03/08/18 02:52 PM (5 years, 11 months ago) |
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LET GO, most of the time negativity its just because we have selfish thoughts (jelousy, hatred, anger, envy, sorrow) you need to LET GO all those negative and egocentric feelings .
I advise you to read The master key system. It will help you to control your thoughts so you can get rid of all that negativity. heres a fragment:
31. You may say that you cannot "let go" of these things(negative thoughts or emotions), but you can; you can do so by mentally determining to do so, by voluntary intention and persistence.
32. The reason that some cannot do this is because they allow themselves to be controlled by the emotions instead of by their intellect. But those who will be guided by the intellect will gain the victory. You will not succeed the first time you try, but practice makes perfect, in this as in everything else, and you must succeed in dismissing, eliminating and completely destroying these negative and destructive thoughts; because they are the seed which is constantly germinating into discordant conditions of every conceivable kind and description.
MEDITATION AND PRACTICE ITS THE KEY MY BROTHER, Im sending you some good vibes now love u
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Re: Dealing with negativity [Re: ADCC420]
#25049834 - 03/08/18 04:04 PM (5 years, 11 months ago) |
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I cannot be certain youmare not speaking of repression.
Negativity some would argue is reality. A grounded reality.
I don't think spin is someasily done. For me ecstasy (emotional state) is the only death of a reality I dislike at all possible.
I do not believe death normally escapes negativity. Karma follows you around. It's to be conquered and not by generally aquired devices.
I live in my head and body. Things are imrpoving! But I never know what demons will arise nor anything else in the future or new understandings of the past that will unfold.
A lot of karma is expectation and the wisdom or lack of either. We go crazy trying to appear positive and energetic pretending we are overcoming problems. When we just make greater problems.
I am not ready to move on in life. I'm moving forward and don't always like it. If I try to stop moving forward it's complex. Dopamine and other maois? Cause of pain or oleasure. Well the logistics of reward are complex. Reality is just so very hell like.
They say your fire just has to blow out. That it burns most intensely before that. I just struggle as we all do with an intense flame. It's not to be painful to blow out but getting there is a lot of nerve discomfort and very much anguish.
I am almost out of tobacco filters and will throw away about 2 1/2 ounces of tobacco. My understanding is spiritual work is going without giving in to desire. Rest is giving in. It builds strength but I know I've built up a flame of desire. And it can be very dangerous and reckless to just abandon desire. It can cause breakdowns mentally and that's what it does.
At least I am eating well. Counting calories and eating lot's of fruit, had salmon today, some pasta. I don't know very many good veggies.
I understand let go but there are a trillion or so connections. Try to let go and a lot of people actually do and die. Reforming what is there takes more. It's all very subtle but some can be loud and intense. Getting older helps. I don't think people really let go at all as much as repress.
The thing about people and their intense agression to protect. I am not afforded those same freedoms at all.
-------------------- "in sterquiliniis invenitur in stercore invenitur" In filth it will be found in dung it will be found
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