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Vsnares.Zappa
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Talking seems pointless
#25004015 - 02/18/18 04:06 PM (5 years, 11 months ago) |
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I Think I've reached a Peak in my introverted tendencies
Often at work or in most social settings I find myself listening to the conversations that people are having and focusing on how trivial the topic of conversation or overall exchange is. (espiecally at work)
I'll try to just ignore conversations in general and go about my business but every now and then my coworkers will try and initiate contact on something or a subject of Matter ultimately so boring and just pointless to discuss and I'll be super awkward and wishing I could just escape.
This is sort of becoming a problem since I really wish to form a meaningful relationship with a girl and ''real'' Friends someday.
I used to Think I was more intelligent than others but with I've gained more maturity and have comme to realise this a sort of delusion of the ego.
I listen to intellectual stuff like waking up podcast and am an avid reader and I'm deeply passionate about Visual art. But sometimes introversion feels more like a curse rather than a blessing
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reincarnated
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I think I feel mostly the same way as you, man. I find talking to be physically and mentally exhausting (when it is to other people, I talk to myself all the time, but not out loud, I guess I whisper to myself).
I also hate it when people try to engage me in conversation, as I never know what to say and I usually just mash up some things that everyone else said so that my own views on the matter are never revealed (because I usually have no views on the matter... which is ok to say occasionally "I don't have any opinions on this", but it gets really weird if you said that in every single conversation).
I also get very concerned about what the people are all thinking of me as I am actually talking, sometimes I feel like they are all telepathically linked and are all making fun of me as I am speaking (I don't actually believe that, but just like they all secretly know that I'm socially awkward as fuck)
Its a big reason why i am taking steps towards living a solitary life
(note most of this i am not refering to my own family, although i also find it extremely hard to think of things to talk to them about as well, but in this senario i am actively trying to think of things to start conversations with)
at least you have a passion for something like the visual art, i have basically no passions. so when someone asks me what i like 'to do', i just lie lol, or even worse if i am having a mentally hard day i often literally say "nothing, i just stay in my room doing nothing all day" (which is the fastest way to alienate yourself from people in every situation, then i can just go and pretent to be texting someone on my phone while i sit in the corner)
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TheStallionMang
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enuf said
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Vsnares.Zappa
bend over


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reincarnated said: I think I feel mostly the same way as you, man. I find talking to be physically and mentally exhausting (when it is to other people, I talk to myself all the time, but not out loud, I guess I whisper to myself).
I also hate it when people try to engage me in conversation, as I never know what to say and I usually just mash up some things that everyone else said so that my own views on the matter are never revealed (because I usually have no views on the matter... which is ok to say occasionally "I don't have any opinions on this", but it gets really weird if you said that in every single conversation).
I also get very concerned about what the people are all thinking of me as I am actually talking, sometimes I feel like they are all telepathically linked and are all making fun of me as I am speaking (I don't actually believe that, but just like they all secretly know that I'm socially awkward as fuck)
Its a big reason why i am taking steps towards living a solitary life
(note most of this i am not refering to my own family, although i also find it extremely hard to think of things to talk to them about as well, but in this senario i am actively trying to think of things to start conversations with)
at least you have a passion for something like the visual art, i have basically no passions. so when someone asks me what i like 'to do', i just lie lol, or even worse if i am having a mentally hard day i often literally say "nothing, i just stay in my room doing nothing all day" (which is the fastest way to alienate yourself from people in every situation, then i can just go and pretent to be texting someone on my phone while i sit in the corner)
haha thanks for the input .
I can relate to the telepathic judgement lol. It's basically why I stopped smoking weed and doing psychs altogether.
But you gottta find something you're passionate about in life. Surely you must have something ?
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reincarnated
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well the only thing I have any interest in right now is spirituality type stuff (and even then, my knowledge in the area is but a spec compared to people who are truly knowledgeable. eg It might seem like I know a lot to the average person on the street, but if I came onto this site I know virtually nothing... tho I am slowly learning more and more). but its just not the sort of subject that fits in with everyday people.
i've noticed that the vast majority of people only want to talk about cars (which i have never had any interest in), fishing (i go fishing with my dad, but only because i know he likes it... i hate it because its just causing harm to the fish), and sport (and i literally can't stand any type of sport).
I once tried to talk to this guy at work about some spirituality things (as he apparently does lots of LSD [not real lsd, but research chems, otherwise i would have bought some from him so i can finally try psychedelics]... so i thought he would be 'into' that stuff), but i noticed he wasn't very interested in keeping up the conversation... then 10 minutes later hes having a full blown converation with a complete stranger about cars (they talked for like an hour while i just sat there lol)
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