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lifeiswhatyoumake
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: czech] 1
#24428858 - 06/23/17 10:38 AM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Connoisseur said: 4 months off H 
That is soo great! I'm glad to hear it!
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czech said: Been clean of opiates for 3 whole months now.
Gonna smoke a bowl to celebrate but I smoke weed erreyday so it's just an excuse.
Congratulations! That's great news.
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Nice I bet you guys are filthy rich by now!
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Nah the money just shifted it didn't really go back to pre-dope.
That said most of my money saving, producing, and managing skills actually came from my dope habit.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: czech] 2
#24434494 - 06/25/17 01:48 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Yeah I find myself spending on all sorts of ludicrous things now that I am off dope. Food, clothes, bills. I don't have any savings to speak of but I do have a bit of equity at least in that I own things of value and am not compelled to sell them for pennies on the dollar.
10 months now. About 3 off kratom. I'm actually clean off all drugs other than nicotine and alcohol atm.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: moonrockmushy] 1
#24434508 - 06/25/17 01:53 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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good job moonrock!
cant wait to hang out and celebrate being off H together one day!
are you gonna be free to come to any gatherings this summer?
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Connoisseur]
#24469765 - 07/09/17 10:42 AM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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If you do make the kick from opiates do not switch to alcohol like I did. Lord knows this is so much worse. Well they all suck.
Make a clean break and it's surprising when someone tells you I can tell your actually smiling and not faking it. Thank you I feel amazing. I'm so high on life right now I want to dull it down.
Im always here if someone needs someone to just chit chat or vent to. I know the struggle I left my home to get away from it.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: moonrockmushy]
#24469774 - 07/09/17 10:46 AM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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moonrockmushy said: Yeah I find myself spending on all sorts of ludicrous things now that I am off dope. Food, clothes, bills. I don't have any savings to speak of but I do have a bit of equity at least in that I own things of value and am not compelled to sell them for pennies on the dollar.
10 months now. About 3 off kratom. I'm actually clean off all drugs other than nicotine and alcohol atm.
When I tried to get clean in Alaska I went and bought a cd every day. Purchasing things provides that serotonin and dopamine rush we crave.
And I know how to torrent my computer had like 10000 songs on it. But instead of buying dope I chose to do that. Sobriety is actually more expensive
-------------------- "I don't give nothin' to nobody, I just pay the cost to do business." - Riley "Young Reezy"-Boondocks "The road to hell is paved with good intentions." "In the days of kings and queens I was a jester." "And then the great lord created bears... too many bears... shoulda really dialed back on the bears." Squidbillies "Can you start speaking words instead of your damn filthy lies!"- Louise "Bobs Burgers"
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Enjoywho]
#24469842 - 07/09/17 11:15 AM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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13 months clean. Best decision I've ever made in my life. Drug addiction (and other health problems that attracted me to drugs) put me through hell but it all led to the new me... which is the most passionate, happiest and healthiest I've ever been in my WHOLE life.
No longer dependent on caffeine (but I'll occasionally have green tea) and not touched alcohol in 7 months, not that alcohol consumption was ever a problem for me. I just decided I'd rather live a sober life, I'm so genuinely happy and satisfied with life I don't need anything. I'd rather go for a long walk, meditate and have a cup of lemon balm for social situations. Ya know, it now gives me power when I don't need to consume any poisonous substances to cope with life or social situations.
-------------------- Pain is temporary. It may last for a minute or an hour or a day or even a year but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it will last forever.
Edited by daz01 (07/09/17 11:18 AM)
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: daz01]
#24498954 - 07/21/17 03:00 PM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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I've been doing much better of late and I had just explained to friend that in my interest for him I wouldn't hook it up. He's going through a hard time and wanted to split a G. He then got offended and said he'd hit the streets to old cop. Anyway, exercise! Diet, and find a friend make yourself do a hobby. Things are finally starting to feel better I wish all of you get where you want
-------------------- Brotherhood of Eternal Love I have tasted the maggots in the mind of the universe. I was not offended, for I knew I had to rise above it all, or drown in my own shit
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: JustABoxOfRain]
#24499202 - 07/21/17 04:36 PM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah the whole dope scene is gross and grimy or at least it always ends up that way. You get more and more addicted, you drain your funds and you get desperate.
Your sight begins to narrow, you're only concerned with "how am I gonna get my fix today" I've seen some desperate nasty shit.
I used to think dope made me happy but came to realize it just took away all feelings, good and bad. Happiness was the period in between getting my shit and prepping the shot... After that just numbness
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Anonymous #2]
#24499425 - 07/21/17 06:38 PM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yes, I was talking to another friend today about how when you're on junk it's nodding out being non social or sick in between the fix. I feel like H wants you to think it's better then food and sex and all the rest, but is it? I know it feels like it when you're smacked but the sum amount of pain that comes with it. This is subjective but I've realized it's not where I want to be at this point. And like you said the numbness was draining, I can finally appreciate feeling sad or melancholy again
-------------------- Brotherhood of Eternal Love I have tasted the maggots in the mind of the universe. I was not offended, for I knew I had to rise above it all, or drown in my own shit
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: JustABoxOfRain]
#24499918 - 07/21/17 10:31 PM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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I was talking to a guy the other day. He's a dope fiend and sniffling. Last time I saw him I tried to counsel him. Don't you have any family or friends? A warm place to lay your head?
No. Well shit man I can't help you with either of those things. That's how I quit. There is no help for addicts either. Unless you can afford detox. Which obviously dope fiends can't.
Back in my using days just the act of getting it with my friend. "It feels like Christmas morning"
I never nodded out or anything like that. I think it affected me differently than most. It's not even a great drug. I have no idea why I kept doing it. It's so bland and just. Blech. Yet I kept doing it.
-------------------- "I don't give nothin' to nobody, I just pay the cost to do business." - Riley "Young Reezy"-Boondocks "The road to hell is paved with good intentions." "In the days of kings and queens I was a jester." "And then the great lord created bears... too many bears... shoulda really dialed back on the bears." Squidbillies "Can you start speaking words instead of your damn filthy lies!"- Louise "Bobs Burgers"
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Enjoywho] 2
#24501313 - 07/22/17 06:31 PM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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11 months!
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Enjoywho]
#24513246 - 07/28/17 02:24 AM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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Enjoywho said:
Back in my using days just the act of getting it with my friend. "It feels like Christmas morning"
The intense rush of fulfilling a strong desire is incredible. For some people it's shopping. Others, gambling.
I once heard a user say dope was like, "An orgasm, eating wonderful chocolate cake, and being held in your mother's arms"
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: RJ Tubs 202]
#24513544 - 07/28/17 08:10 AM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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I've been struggling quite a bit lately. Getting intense cravings to score some dope. The pain and depression due to my current situation in life has been getting to me.
Ive been clean off dope for a long while now, I've lost count..definitely over a year minus a single slip up in that time. Which I didn't let get to me because I knew it was an isolated incident that didn't make all my progress/hard work disappear.
I was gonna hit up a meeting (na) yesterday but i ended up getting drunk and eating a burrito lol.
I've been hitting the weights hard lately which helps quite a bit but still isn't a cure all.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Mush 4 Brains]
#24513652 - 07/28/17 09:29 AM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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What is you current situation?
Of course whatever it is heroin will just make it worse. I would focus on making some life improvements. Have some things in you life to look forward to which are more meaningful than fleeting relief followed by more sickness and depression.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: moonrockmushy]
#24513674 - 07/28/17 09:40 AM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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Good job lifting Mush 4 Brains, we can hit up the weightlifters thread if you want. I just want to say stay strong brothers/sisters, addiction is such a base element of the human condition. Much of what Buddhism teaches is in relation to our cravings and desires,, and the suffering they bring with them. Love to all,, you have more power then you know.
-------------------- Brotherhood of Eternal Love I have tasted the maggots in the mind of the universe. I was not offended, for I knew I had to rise above it all, or drown in my own shit
Edited by JustABoxOfRain (07/28/17 10:47 AM)
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: JustABoxOfRain]
#24513704 - 07/28/17 09:59 AM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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Been on Subutex 4 Years daily. Clean from classic opiates and H for long time. The sub was a miracle but...it is it's own monster. Tampanensis sclerotia is what I'm using to break my 10year opiate endevor. It's working and I'm Tapering. Pro tip...Subutex and Suboxone TABLETS 8mg can be insulflated by .5mg doses 2 to 3 times per day with almost 100 bioavailabily I feel. 1 tablet can last up to a week with very minimal withdrawals. Ivebalways felt the bioavailabily orally is complete bullshit. 1mg insulflated feels like 8mg sublingual/oral in my expert opinion. Good luck Family.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Errl_Shmirl]
#24519310 - 07/30/17 09:59 PM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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moonrockmushy said: What is you current situation?
Of course whatever it is heroin will just make it worse. I would focus on making some life improvements. Have some things in you life to look forward to which are more meaningful than fleeting relief followed by more sickness and depression.
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JustABoxOfRain said: Good job lifting Mush 4 Brains, we can hit up the weightlifters thread if you want. I just want to say stay strong brothers/sisters, addiction is such a base element of the human condition. Much of what Buddhism teaches is in relation to our cravings and desires,, and the suffering they bring with them. Love to all,, you have more power then you know.
Thanks guys, it sucks I'm very isolated at the moment and in a dark place mentally. Had to push a lot of people out of my life and the good ones are long gone. I meant to respond quite a while ago but you know how you type out a big post, just to delete it? Yeah did that a couple of times which if nothing else was cathartic and sorted some stuff out. It's like you want to spill your guts but don't at the same time?
I sure will check out the weightlifting thread btw. I've been slowly getting more organized and steady in that aspect of life which is a great start but just one little part of life.
Edited by Mush 4 Brains (07/31/17 01:32 AM)
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Mush 4 Brains]
#24519628 - 07/31/17 03:05 AM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah I definitely know that feeling of typing out a big long post and deleting it. It's frustrating trying to put things into the right words, especially when it's something so personal and you're not sure how it will be received.
I definitely feel alot more isolated since I stopped using too. It sucks too because it's not even withdrawals or PAWS anymore, it's just dealing with this shitty world and being the same anxious and depressed person that lead me to doing heroin in the first place. Becoming isolated is pretty much a coping mechanism for me, but it's definitely not healthy.
Got to stay hopeful that things can get better. It's up and down but one thing that's for sure is that if we go back to heroin it's going to bring us down in the end, and things will be much worse than they are now.
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