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umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log
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this is the moment I have been waiting for.... I got my lexapro. its a 2 week trail to see if its right for me.. but its a start... I am going to make this my log. I will start tomorrow... If I become someone I am not.. someone please shoot me... zerohero
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#2425055 - 03/12/04 06:14 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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cool this seems like a good idea.
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Lexapro never gave me any noticeable effects beside the inability to become erect, or ever splooge. Best of luck in overcoming your depression, sir.
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#2425738 - 03/12/04 11:04 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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They reckon most antidepressants take two weeks to work. Though I have trouble beleiving it's an all or none thing where at 14 days from the first pill you suddenly feel good. How often are you going to post in this thread?
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#2426301 - 03/13/04 03:58 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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goodluck with that man i take efexor and its really helped me,just don't get pissed on them cause it can make you go crazy(assuming they are similar),they do affect your sexual ability too,thats when will power comes into it
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#2427157 - 03/13/04 11:12 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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thanks for everyone thats posting in this thread. I am taking lexapro to regulate my depression, my depression comes in waves for me and each time it becomes worse. My happy days are too happy and my sad days aren't worth living, I just need a middle days now.
>How often are you going to post in this thread?
I will be posting everyday.. I will write down my thoughts and feeling from lexapro. I know the pill wont work until a month or so but the side effect are felt the first day.. thats the reason I made this log.. its mostly for the side effect for the first 2 weeks....
day 1.
I took the pill at 8 am. it was a small circular disc. As I held that pill in my hand I feel an overwelming want to back out of this deal I made. I didn't want to have this in my body, I wanted to end my depression naturally, "why am I doing this", I asked myself. I decided my attempt to end my depression by myself are filed with endless promises and lost hope.. I realized this in the next moment and then I swallow the pill.
I went to work, after an hour I began to feel a little light headed. My jaw has been tense and my stomach was aching(probably b/c I didn't eat anything when I took the pill). I know that if I feel good its mostly me, as the pill wont work for another few weeks but I seemed to feel tense and anxious. I seemed to get a little depression as the day has goes on and I can't figure it out, sometimes I just tear up with no purpose. it feels good though and I don't mind it as I have a problem releasing emotion.
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#2427674 - 03/13/04 02:32 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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hm interesting keep us posted zero!
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#2427700 - 03/13/04 02:39 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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good for you man.. i'll probably be doing the same thing sometime in the future but with a different kind. Lexapro didn't seem to have any affect on me. I'm well experienced in the area of trying antidepressants and I have found some that have worked in the past well for me which were effexor and remeron but the array of side effects that came along with it were just too much for me to bare. I was on a high dose of that stuff and the mixture so that's probably why it was real bad. Anyhow, good luck dude
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: Locus]
#2428124 - 03/13/04 05:09 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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thats what i found with effexor too,i was first put on 150 mg which practically made me a zombie,so i switched to 75mg and its just right,i also get nauseas and a headache if i miss a day. i hear you zerohero,i was exactly the same with ultra happiness at one end to breaking out in tears for various reasons at the other,i was moody and violent and at one time there wasn't a wall in my house that didn't have a hole in it,one time i went mental and ripped a whole wall out of our living room.i know people say manic dep. is all bullshit,but believe me my family have had some well deserved peace since i have taken them
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#2428292 - 03/13/04 06:02 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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day 1 continued:
I am a complete dick for some reason. This entire day I have the patience of a saint but the wrath of a tyrant. I am off set by very annoying people. I have a want to hurt someone very badly, I think it might be ex bestfriend who is dating my ex... I want to get into a fight and I want to hurt someone... a burst of power and clarity surges through my veins. I can't believe I feel like this, is only been one day.. I usually smoke pot almost everyday but I have to stop now.. I am not sadden by this either as I normal am... I don't know where this anger is coming from but I am glad I am experiencing it. usually I am a push over and I am a peace keeper. fuck that.
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#2429985 - 03/13/04 11:55 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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yeah man, i just started excersizing and me too, my agression is coming out, and on thursday at work, everyone was like "wow he's come out of his shell" i work with annoying high schoolers, so i let em know what was on my mind.
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#2430047 - 03/14/04 12:12 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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It is normal when withdrawing from pot to be pretty irritable, so that might be causing the aggression. It only lasts about a week usually though.
-------------------- Computer games don't affect kids. I mean if Pacman affected our generation as kids, we'd all be running around in a darkened room, munching pills and listening to repetitive electronic music. "Being bitter and hateful is like drinking a vial of poison and hoping the other person gets sick" FreakQLibrium "My motto from here on out is: If someone or something (including me) in my life is conducting themselves in such a way that they can be seen on Jerry Springer, it's time to take out the garbage!!! When you stop taking their behaviour personally and see their antics as a true reflection on their character, it becomes absolutely nauseating." Anon. on abusive relationships.
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#2434778 - 03/15/04 11:53 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Good luck with your plan. Depression is a nasty thing. Its a rough road to get down. Just remember that you you have lots of friends that are here for you and are cheering you on!! 
I have found that writing down my problems in a journal is very helpful. I feel like I have lifted a bunch of weight off my back when I am done. So I think your idea of this log is great. Then you will be able to look back and see where your progress is.
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#2434841 - 03/15/04 12:14 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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zero hello, have you been keeping this thing up to date? how do you feel today?
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#2434982 - 03/15/04 12:50 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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thanks guys..
I didn't post yesterday because I wasn't up to it... today is an another emotional day. I feel wired and my palm are sweating. I have an edgy feeling and I could snap at anyone. OTD is going to help me release some of this anger I have inside. Yesterday was a very good day for me, I went to the park and played frisbee for hours, my roommate and I went hiking and explored our ground for where all the mushrooms will be growing in the coming months.
I would have to say yesterday was the best day I have had in quite awhile, I was happy that I was spending time outside and that I didn't rush what we did. I got to relax and enjoy the nice air and fresh grass. I will try to do things like that more often as I seem to get alot of enjoyment out of them.
Today is a little edgy, like I had said earlier. I have been working out to get fit again. I have alot of focus right now too but I don't know if I could direct it to one task right now. I want to read but I can't seem to get into the book. I have noticed the side effects alot. I am still able to be sexual active though(which is a good thing, I can get it up, lol). I just don't like the light headed feeling or the stomach aches.
my feet have been getting numb alot.. I get those pricklies alot and I notice it as a side effect. I also get tears when I am not sad. I still think I mind is dealing with pain from past pains. but the good news is, I feel I will be better and more focused than I have in years.
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sweet so it's workin out for you that's awesome yay
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: xjessesxgirlx]
#2435271 - 03/15/04 02:20 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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I don't know if I could do this for long periods of time...sometimes I feel like I am insane but yet I am sober..it makes me realize how crazy I really am...
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#2437936 - 03/16/04 01:50 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Hey. I reckon you should do some research into marijuana withdrawal so that you don't confuse the withdrawal with side-effects from the antidepressant - if you might quit the antidepressant bc you thought the withdrawal was side effects. I mean, stomach-ache, the sweats, mood swings and dizziness are all withdrawal symptoms from marijuana .
-------------------- Computer games don't affect kids. I mean if Pacman affected our generation as kids, we'd all be running around in a darkened room, munching pills and listening to repetitive electronic music. "Being bitter and hateful is like drinking a vial of poison and hoping the other person gets sick" FreakQLibrium "My motto from here on out is: If someone or something (including me) in my life is conducting themselves in such a way that they can be seen on Jerry Springer, it's time to take out the garbage!!! When you stop taking their behaviour personally and see their antics as a true reflection on their character, it becomes absolutely nauseating." Anon. on abusive relationships.
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#2443452 - 03/17/04 01:15 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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I decided to not quit smoking mj...
so there isn't withdrawls to from mj...
day, lost count. hehe
ok, I haven't had any bad affect anymore, no dizziness, lightheaded feeling, or mood swings. I am feeling pretty good right now. I do have a quick temper though. the mj has helped smooth out the effect of the pills, I can tell that right away. I even drank a bit vodka(one shot worth) and sprite yesterday and didn't have bad effects from it. I am still emotional though.. I still get tears for no reason and feel like I could cry if I wanted too...I actually feel like I could tear on command... :\ its weird but I consider it a side effect as of now.. I just hope I am not always like this.
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zerohero said: I don't know if I could do this for long periods of time...sometimes I feel like I am insane but yet I am sober..it makes me realize how crazy I really am...
ok zero...I think you'll be ok... lots of ppl question their own sanity I'm sure. it's not easy to get on the other side of it, but ultimately I kinda see it like everyone's a lil crazy so I'm not really afraid of the term "crazy"....but of course there are those where their degree of mental illness is very uncomfortable to the point where they don't know who they are half the time. be happy that's not you I guess. lol. mental health is so important in life so I'm glad you (and I and anyone who needs it) can get help here in this grand country of ours. actually I think more funding should be provided for it as opposed to money being put into nasa and usless stuff like that. sorry nasa enthusiasts lol hope your doing better zero sorry for the tangent too lol
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: xjessesxgirlx]
#2443633 - 03/17/04 01:55 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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no problem girlie I don't mind tangents. lol
I don't think giving everyone a pill is the right way to deal with this problem. I actually cant' stand that I am taking a pill everyday.. I don't even use asprin... but I wanted to try all my options.
I don't think I have mental illness per say, but I have a different way of thinking about things...I can look at something and think it to be 100 times more difficult than it is. Plus I have dylexia(sp?). well they think I have it.. which would explain alot of things about me(lol )... I am going to get tested in one week for that.
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#2443848 - 03/17/04 02:52 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Ahh zero my friend, on the SSRI's now eh? 
I went through several of them before finding one that "worked" for my anxiety issues (Effexor). I've got a few questions for you, though!
Can you "feel" them working in your head? Like a strange "prickly" feeling on the top of your brain (but below your scalp...inside your head)? I used to get that from sunrise to sunset while I was on Celexa. Do you feel detached at all?
I certainly know what you mean about being on edge. I snapped on my best friend the first (and only) day I was on Paxil. I never yell at anyone...so me screaming at my friend freaked me (and him/other friends who saw) out enough that I stopped taking the Paxil (doc said that was a good idea). On Celexa I felt like the slightest thing would set me raging...but I never did lose my temper on anyone. I did get really emotional at times (characteristicly NOT me) and would start crying for no apparent reason at times without "feeling" sad at all.
When I finally settled on Effexor I went through the biggest ride of my life. That shit is weird, let me tell you! First of all, your pupils dilate like your on 5g of shrooms. Second, you actually feel like you're on shrooms all day long without actually tripping. As the dosage increases (they have to start you at 37.5mg and work up to a max of 300mg...I hit 150mg before stopping) these effects increase and get weirder and weirder. After I hit 150mg colors started turning REALLY bright (as if I was tripping) and would "jump out" at me when I turned my head. You start walking around with this weird half-smile on your face and nothing seems to affect you from the external world at all anymore.
Craziest two months of my life, I think 
But hey! NO MORE ANXIETY!
Best of luck with your SSRI experiment here
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#2443936 - 03/17/04 03:35 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Antidepressant medication is such a subjective experience...what works for some can have little effect on another. They do work but in my experience they only give you a helping hand...there is still soul searching and healing to be done from within...think of them as a piggy back ride and dont stop taking them when you feel better!!! When they satart to work you will feel subtle differences in how you feel...I doubt you will suddenly just feel better...they tend to just sort of creep up on you and you will start to have fewer BAD days!! Good luck!!
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Oh and one in four people in the UK experience some form of mental health problem in their life....You will get better and you can feel better...hang on on there!
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#2443994 - 03/17/04 04:02 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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u started your pillz!? damn u bastard you dont tell me anything anymore
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: trendal]
#2444154 - 03/17/04 05:05 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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thanks trendal!
yeah I am trying them out. I hope its works...
Can you "feel" them working in your head?
YEAH.. I do, its a weird feeling, I can't really even describe it. I just figured it was some sort of side effect. its happens just like you described too. its under my scalp but above my brain.. I also get a feeling the top of my head would get cold. The most noticable side effect is still the temper. I haven't yelled at someone but I am less likely to take bullshit from someone. It almost like my confidence has risen and now I am not afraid to tell someone they suck(if they do suck, that is), 
Do you feel detached at all?
I do sometimes. Its happens for 2 hours after I take my pill.. but not in the sense that I can operate something. I am more likely not to talk and instead sit and ponder. the first few days, I had the "detached" feeling alot but it has been easier everyday.
they almost gave me Effexor!! but I started talking about lexapro so she gave me that instead. I am glad b/c your first few months didn't sound like fun.
monkey_monkey - thanks for the support! Would like to have fewer and fewer bad days for sure. I can't wait for this to kick in, as they say it takes up too 2 weeks before you will start really feeling better.
bacha - You bastard, I tell you everything. gotta keep some secerts.
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Lol, actually my time on Effexor was rather fun. Like I said: it was like walking around all day every day on mushrooms without actually tripping 
Plus it made weed intense. I had a killer tolerance to weed before I started Effexor (as in I smoked all day every day for several years) but after the third day on Effexor a couple tokes would floor me.
I had a friend who also got put on Effexor. He made it all the way up to 250mg and his description of the effects are nuts. He said he basically was tripping. Colours would pulsate and jump out at him everyhwere he turned.
Some strange shit.
The temper thing levels out after a while. I think (at least in my case) it was a result of repressing anger for so long and it finally coming out due to the antidepressants.
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: trendal]
#2444213 - 03/17/04 05:24 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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hehe, well it sounds like it was fun, but if you had important stuff to do that day, could you have focused?
I noticed the weed thing last night! I smoked out of my bubbler and I was floored on the second hit. I was actually laying on the floor and then I started to see the floor move just like a mushroom trip. I even started to get the mind trip also.
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The temper thing levels out after a while. I think (at least in my case) it was a result of repressing anger for so long and it finally coming out due to the antidepressants
thats what is happening to me also.. I feel once I get it all out, I can move on and be the same.
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#2444276 - 03/17/04 05:47 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Yeah I was ok to focus and everything. I worked as a cook at the time and had no problems at work aside from my boss accusing me of taking shrooms before work (on account of my pupils being so large) 
As for the anger thing, as soon as I got that out my anxiety level seemed to drop off completely. I stopped taking the Effexor after two months and haven't had any anxiety since! It's been about a year now.
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: trendal]
#2444305 - 03/17/04 06:00 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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now thats good to here!!! so you only took them for 2 months and your in the clear... I hope the same for me too.
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#2444365 - 03/17/04 06:14 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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So do I man 
I'm sure you'll be fine in no time!
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: trendal]
#2444706 - 03/17/04 07:49 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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I've been reading your log zerohero,,, Glad to hear your doing well. I've been taking an ssri for a few years now. celexa It works for me as long as I stay off the booze. I smoke a little pot every few days and enjoy it. Good luck and glad your feeling ok,,,,
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: nofind_um]
#2446684 - 03/18/04 10:14 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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thanks nofind_um!
I hope to not take this ssri for more than 6 months.. I am not into the long haul thing...
I just want to get back on my feet.
another day in the clearing fog:
I don't notice the pill anymore once I take it. I feel the same after I take it and before I take it. I think this is a sign that its working as I dont' get depressed in the morning and I don't feel bad anymore. Alot of my friends are off to spring break so most of them have not seen me while I am on this pill... so when they come back I hope they notice the change in my life as I feel I have had. I have alot more energy now. I am more likey to go out and do something. I still have some light headed feeling and my feel lose blood and get cold but in all its a good feeling to feel like this.
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good luck to you zero, its an interesting ride...
ive been on meds since i was a wee lad..ive tried alot of em
imipromine neurontin paxil prozac buspar wellbutrin Lithobid (lithium) Straterra
Ive found the best match (which is what im using now) is lithobid and paxil. I'm moody, not bipolar, but moody...so the lithobid helps to control my moods. Im only on 10mg of the paxil, mainly for social anxiety, as that is my crutch often. 10mg is nice because i dont get the psychomotor agitation if i skip a dose.
Good luck to you Keep your head up
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#2449000 - 03/18/04 08:09 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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glad to hear zerohero it should be all downhill for you now
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#2449028 - 03/18/04 08:14 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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no way man my brother has dyslexia and he can't read or write. he's not illiterate but he is 28 years and reads like a 5 year old,you have no problem there.he says when he looks at a written page the letters just all jumble up he was born left handed and when he was a kid the teachers tried to force him to use his right hand when he wrote,they even stood him infront of assembly with a dunce hat on,thats what they think can cause it(the forcing right hand part)
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2451555 - 03/19/04 12:40 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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I believe the dyslexia can be stronger for other.. I would have a mild case of dyslexia as I can read and write, but I sometimes say things backwards and read things backwards... its a weird thing... but in a 3 days I am going to get tested so I will find out for sure.
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2452995 - 03/19/04 09:39 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Not to turn you into a science experiment, but this post is way interesting for those concidering anti depressants I hope they work well for ya
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: shaggy101]
#2454750 - 03/20/04 02:54 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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hehe, I am glad you like it. 
well today is been a good day so far...I don't notice any difference in my personality after I take the pill. I seem to be leveling out which is really good. I am able to stand up for myself.. it gives me a level of confidence and sanity...I still am the same way I used to be, crayz as ever but I have a sense of what I need to accomplish in life.
The only negative side effect that I have noticed it my feet losing blood and getting those needle thingies. which I can live with. I like they way monkey_monkey put it... I just to have less bad days... and thats what exactly is happening. My good days are the same as my bad days seem to be leaving...I dont' get depression like I used to in odd parts of the day. I am pretty much level...
another positive is my smoking senitivy. I can take 2 hits and get really high... so I can save money on the weed too. lol its the most stoned I have been too. 
ok but this is my log for 1 week of taking the pill. I will continue to do this log for one more week. consider it my online journal.
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2454981 - 03/20/04 04:08 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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honestly zero you do seem a lot more happy and content or somethin (I edited bc this is what I meant to say lol duh)
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2455768 - 03/20/04 09:42 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Ok man, I gotta ask, since I haven't seen anyone else ask yet...
Is your sex drive shot yet or what? Cause I know when I was on SSRI's about the last thing I felt like doing was having some good sex
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: trendal]
#2457738 - 03/21/04 03:50 PM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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hahaha, my sex drive is gone....but to truthfully honest, I dont mind it. I can certainly still have sex(erection, ejaculation) but I don't crave it like I used to. I also noticed I have more time to think about other things as sex used to take up about 80% of my thoughts.
I still look for the company of a female partner though that hasn't gone away....
I figure if I get a girlfriend my sex drive will be up, but thats a just theory...
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2459273 - 03/22/04 12:39 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Hey hey hey..hang on in there..sounds like they are beggining to work a little magic at last!.. SSRI's do affect sex drive in some people but as long as you can still (ahem) perform then doesnt sound like its too much of a problemo. One more thing...Did you know that anti-depressant medication works at it's optimum level 4-6 months after you first start taking it.....So....things are only gonna get better!!!!
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2459281 - 03/22/04 12:45 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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i was one of the people who is allergic to SSRI's ... i was tried on amytriptaline, a tricyclic antidepressant, zoloft and wellbutrin, and each time i took those in almost non-active doses i had psychotic episodes ...
i hope the medicine works out for you overall, but i only tried each for ONE day since by the end of each day i was making sure i was around people because i was scared to be alive and didn't want to kill myself ... i became extremely schizophrenic each time, so i will never again put those in my body again ...
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2459413 - 03/22/04 02:23 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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I'm thinking about going on medication. What do I do... go see my family doctor and ask to a referral to a psychiatrist; then spill my guts about my social anxiety and depression? Do ya think they will still hook me up with medication even though I'm not severely depressed? I've been minor/moderately depressed for like 5 years now. It doesn't make me want to kill myself but rather makes me feel worthless and unmotivated. I think meds might cut down on all the worrying/thinking I do and help me become a better person. Start working out, correct my sleeping patterns, make friends/become more social, strive for a career/education etc. Maybe I would only need them for a few months. Any thoughts or comments?
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ShroomNewb]
#2459420 - 03/22/04 02:33 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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It sounds to me that you already know the answer to this one shroomnewb! Low level depression is a tricky one because people are still able to function relatively normally (albeit feelin like shit). Just cos you don't want to kill yourself..it doesnt mean that you are not depressed and shouldnt feel better than you currently do. There are a whole load of anti-depressants on the market and many are liscensed to treat anxiety as well as depression...as they often come hand in hand. They are not the only answer to your difficulties...BUT they WILL help for sure..people take painkillers when they are in pain...why shouldnt they take anti-depressants when they are low? You already mentioned things like sleep pattern, employment and exercise..strt making some acheivable goals for yourself in relation to this areas and go and see your doctor. Im in the Uk and often people will be prescribed medication without having to see a psychiatrist (most of the time actually) But it sounds like you really need to talk some of your difficulties through with someone...It all helps!! Good luck!
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2466695 - 03/24/04 07:23 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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ssri FOR ME (CITALOPRAM) really fucked up my sex drive . I still want it but it takes me like 3 hours to reach climax . My gf is not too impressed by this lol i cant think why but she is walking like john wayne occasionally now
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2466733 - 03/24/04 07:47 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Nymphaea Cerulea in alcohol has anti-depressent properties. It's derivative, apomorphine, is offered as a Viagra alternative...I can't vouch for either since I haven't tried them, nor am I a doctor qualified to dispense medical advice altho they appear to have fewer side effects than mainstream medications. One study suggests sudden darkness as a remedy for nausea, and we know bright light can be an effective mood brightener, but I don't know how to acheive sudden darkness as a remedy for the nauseas side-effects of medications, it's a whole body thing, not as simple as just closing one's eyes . (maybe turning out the light in the bathroom is effective)
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: castaway]
#2467000 - 03/24/04 09:35 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Unfortunately men seem to experience sexual disfunction more on SSRI's than us ladies..Not being able to cum is a common problemo!! There are alternatives to Citalopram that are likely to have less of an effect on this difficulty!!..Though some (ahem) may not percieve it as such!!
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: monkey_monkey]
#2470086 - 03/25/04 01:34 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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lol
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: monkey_monkey]
#2472235 - 03/25/04 05:32 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Individual rights and the lifting of pressure to conform could be the gateway to a greater satisfaction for all.
Simultaneous climax may be the stuff of dreams, but from my limited experience I can't say.
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: castaway]
#2472657 - 03/25/04 10:26 AM (19 years, 10 months ago) |
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Quote:
castaway said:
Simultaneous climax may be the stuff of dreams, but from my limited experience I can't say.
True...but to be able to climax within 2 hours of the other person may be a bonus!!!
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2530436 - 04/06/04 02:17 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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well, hows it going?
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: Galvie_Flu]
#2537064 - 04/07/04 09:22 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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its been going good, thanks centrum.
I have been feeling alot better in my life. I am general more stable.. I wanted to see if it was me or the pills, so I stopped taking them for a few days. yeah, I don't think I am going to miss another 3 days again. I felt like sit the entire time. I really have been feeling better. My social life is getting better too. I have been going out more and being more outgoing so that is a plus also.
I got a new job as a server so I think it will provide a chance to meet more people my same age. I taken mushrooms twice while on lexapro. both times have been some of the best trips I have every had. they are inspiring and have gave me a new outlook on mushrooms. I used to hate to trip on mushrooms and now I enjoy the trips so this a very good thing. 
the doctor wants to get me on some other meds but I am going to tell them to fuck themselves.. its some kind of "focus medicine". I also need to still get tested for dyslexia(sp?). which I believe I have a pretty interesting case for it. I wonder if it can be corrected? hmm....
well I just want to give some updates.
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2537304 - 04/07/04 10:10 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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what medications do they want to give you?
and, have you noticed a weakening of the trips, stronger, or the same?
i cant really compare, because i've been on paxil before i even smoked pot.
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: Anonymous #2]
#2537829 - 04/08/04 12:40 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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my trips have been good. This last time I didn't get visuals very much. its was a different kind of trip. The good part about it is, I can now take mushrooms and not have to focus on negativy. I have also been able to use the mushroom to help out my current state of mind.
I don't know the meds they want to give me, but I am not concerned since I plan on not taking this medication.
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Re: umm.. so this is it.. anti-depressant log [Re: ]
#2538133 - 04/08/04 03:08 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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Glad you is feeling better!!!!
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