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pur3bind
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What's been on my mind lately. (Do not read if you don't want your mind taken where I will take it)
#24035382 - 01/24/17 08:25 AM (7 years, 6 days ago) |
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Last night I was thinking about this thing. It was; Awareness (just like mind) are always seeking. If mind or thought is a fraction of awareness, than consciousness or God is by default, fighting to survive. Awareness, which many identify with rather more than mind, IS pretty much consciousness. Well, I am very conscious that I am not conscious at all... as the saying goes, But simply I am an awareness vessel which Conscioisness/God has for itself. What is consciousness? No idea. We have a God that is man, but that probably isn't consciousness. So if awareness, to this day, seeks as much as mind seeks, than what are they seeking? I ask this, because this is why there are memes or Gabor Mate quotes saying this thing "Nobody is sane, quite". This balance that we may seek is an awareness and mind balance. One that identifies more with mind than awareness should have more awareness because you can't be body/mind endlessly, or you'll get too carried away with that. But also, one that identifies more with awareness than mind (which these 2 phenomena in a being always change into the other) should have more mind/person because consciousness needed body/mind/persons for something that I will admit I can't pin it down yet.
I've become oblivious to this thing that happened when I was 17 (about 6 years ago). I was a boundary-less kid that was probably just trying to fit in or something. I don't know what to think of this event and that's whats been troubling me lately. I was with this other friend in the gorge in Niagara Falls. He wanted to show me a "chill spot" and when we got down this small rope to this area with a little cave, when time came to climb back up he went first and made it (was shorter and known for climbing things) I tried and I couldn't make it (it would of only took 4 strides) I attempted to knot some parts of the rope. I think had I not panicked I could have. Anyway, other friends came and they called police. I was saved by a helicopter and a guy with a harness. So now okay, that probably was the most traumatic event in my life as I view it as a potential NDE. And why things go the way they go, who knows? But I was saved by a "person" in the world of persons.
So for I, as awareness, probably should seek more mind. It's hard for me to do anything lately. Haven't been able to go out and do errands because I may have panic disorder and it's not easy to just go into it and surrender. I'm around body/minds, who would not be able to ease my experience because they would look at me like I'm nuts and than yeah... even thinking about that. I'll stop there.
I don't think medication will help. This is more of a feeling/spiritual thing than a mind thing. But then the funny thing is, I am still seeking to be comforted in this. That I am not alone. That maybe a therapist (Gestalt) can tell me they know of another who's been through this and I'm not alone in this struggle. I know I'm not alone in this. I don't know what to do. But I am far from dissolving the person, I can tell you guys that much...
-------------------- "There are times— and this would be a great study for somebody to do—there have been periods in English when there were emotions that don't exist anymore, because the words have been lost. There are colors that don't exist anymore because the words have been lost." — Terence McKenna (The Archaic Revival: 1991)
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Buster_Brown
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Re: What's been on my mind lately. (Do not read if you don't want your mind taken where I will take it) [Re: pur3bind]
#24035496 - 01/24/17 09:26 AM (7 years, 6 days ago) |
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Awareness as seeking= growth, if I'm not mistaken, growth that could be trained perhaps in certain directions.
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Buster_Brown
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Re: What's been on my mind lately. (Do not read if you don't want your mind taken where I will take it) [Re: pur3bind]
#24035922 - 01/24/17 12:26 PM (7 years, 6 days ago) |
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pur3bind said: ...consciousness needed body/mind/persons for something...
The extra dimensions aren't enough. Spirit requires raspberries ( ) to enliven the barrens.
Touch, taste, sound, smell, sight and intrigue.

These extra dimensions wouldn't exist if 'consciousness' didn't require them.
Edited by Buster_Brown (01/24/17 01:14 PM)
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pur3bind
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Re: What's been on my mind lately. (Do not read if you don't want your mind taken where I will take it) [Re: Buster_Brown]
#24036306 - 01/24/17 03:09 PM (7 years, 6 days ago) |
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I get what your saying... but these "extra dimensions" Are just that. They are not a necessity.
-------------------- "There are times— and this would be a great study for somebody to do—there have been periods in English when there were emotions that don't exist anymore, because the words have been lost. There are colors that don't exist anymore because the words have been lost." — Terence McKenna (The Archaic Revival: 1991)
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Buster_Brown
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Re: What's been on my mind lately. (Do not read if you don't want your mind taken where I will take it) [Re: pur3bind]
#24036412 - 01/24/17 03:42 PM (7 years, 6 days ago) |
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Your right. Not every spirit can accept the extra dimensions, and so we have an audience behind the scenes.
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sudly
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Re: What's been on my mind lately. (Do not read if you don't want your mind taken where I will take it) [Re: Buster_Brown]
#24036897 - 01/24/17 06:31 PM (7 years, 6 days ago) |
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Not sure why someone would think you're nuts.
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In order to have a disorder you need to be disordered
That's to do with emotional intellect, not with physical disorder such as a dirty room.
You got into a sticky situation and needed some rescuing, though it does sound like you were close to getting out on your own.
-------------------- I am whatever Darwin needs me to be.
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