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Anonymous #1
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Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes
#23996708 - 01/09/17 09:40 PM (7 years, 21 days ago) |
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So all my life, I've been dealing with stupid assholes that have treated me wrongly when all I have ever done is be a nice person and keep to myself. When I was young, I think I developed signs of psychosis (due to neglect and no stimulation) because I rocked in my bed frequently and when I would ride in a car, I would repeatedly bang my head against the seat. I probably keep to myself because of these stupid assholes. So now, as a result of these bad people, I have become a type of person that people don't like, even though I am always friendly.
People hate me and think I'm creepy and all I want is to have a normal relationship because I don't think I've ever really had one. I had a few friends growing up but not many. I live with my stupid asshole father who tries to control me. I'll be in my room and he'll literally knock 5 or 6 different times and say shit like "Why you gotta do that to me man" as if I'm supposed to just be a fucking dog and do whatever he says. If I run water in the middle of the night, he complains and says "jesus christ, it sounds like you were cleaning all the dishes!", even though I know he can't hear it, he's clearly making shit up.
People like this are a trigger for me and make me want drugs. I think that's probably the root of drug addiction, parents neglecting/abusing their kids. So to all the abusive, loudmouth, mean parents out there: Go fuck yourselves, you're not parents, you're child abusers and you need help.
Edited by Anonymous (01/09/17 09:40 PM)
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: Anonymous #1]
#23996784 - 01/09/17 10:12 PM (7 years, 21 days ago) |
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Hell yeah man, no one deserves to be mistreated! Ever! Unless they deserve it.... But then it's not mistreating someone to pay dues.... So what's holding you back from getting out of there and getting your own place?
Be strong, and get out if you can, if not, get a job, and then move out on your own.
Don't allow yourself to be a victim. And do not further develop victim mentality. You rule your world. Tell your dad how you feel.
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try and move out, and become independant, the hard times will make you appreciate when you can truly be free of the psychological torment and just straight up abuse
Start planning towards a future where you run your own life completely, independant of these negative influences, you have to break the cycle so that your kids don't experience similar things that you did
my thoughts go out to you
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: ergoticmandala]
#23997042 - 01/10/17 12:09 AM (7 years, 21 days ago) |
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Hey man, and if you're not able to work atm for whatever reason, just hang in there. Sorry you're having a rough time. Try to remember, we all.... ALL of us, have some kind of rough struggle, usually multiple times..... It's hard to see at the time, but this may be preparing you for something down the road, if you can MAKE your victory in this situation. I don't know enough details to be more specific, if even possible.... But you'll look back man, one day, and be like, "well, holy fuck, glad I went through THAT bullshit before, because this bullshit right here ain't nothing compared to that...." Just know man also, I'm a real human with probs too, and I'm hearing you whatever you say.
Ergotic got it right just up there too, about planning for the future. Very important.
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Edited by DoneKildatReason (01/10/17 12:10 AM)
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.. Posted to wrong thread..
I truly hope everything works out for you OP. Good vibes your way. Hope you get your own place and your freedom.
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Edited by aZombie (01/12/17 03:53 PM)
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: aZombie]
#24000810 - 01/11/17 10:57 AM (7 years, 19 days ago) |
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Think ya posted in the wrong thread, Zom.
But yeah OP I've been in a similar spot. I can tell you that the people here are giving you good advice. You gotta get outta there. You will never be able to recover from being mistreated and abused if you are still living in an environment of abuse.
It's hard. It's hard as fuck. But it's the best way to make life your own and to be happy with it.
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#24001109 - 01/11/17 12:50 PM (7 years, 19 days ago) |
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It just seems odd about his dad complaining about running water at night and thinking he was doing dishes, and that's somehow a problem. Hell, I'd be thrilled if someone did my dishes in the middle of the night.
Anyway, I think running away may not be an option. Better to man up to your dad, OP, go out for a beer or go fishing or some shit like that. Pool. He play 8 ball? Tell him how you feel over a game of pool, or doing what he likes. Or leave. I guess if you can that's one way.
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Edited by LunarEclipse (01/11/17 12:52 PM)
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: LunarEclipse]
#24001275 - 01/11/17 01:57 PM (7 years, 19 days ago) |
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Being someone that has PTSD symptoms (can't say I have PTSD since I haven't been diagnosed) and insomnia I can understand why someone would be upset about the sound of dishes clattering in the middle of the night.
I wouldn't yell at anyone for it. Even still when I've been thru an insomnia phase and some ruckus is keeping me up and stressing me out to the point that I can't sleep even when they do stop I can't help but to think about physically making them stop. I wouldn't but I also know that if my personal problems went out of control I can't say people would feel safe around me.
But I don't have PTSD symptoms from severe physical abuse or war... OP's dad most likely does have problems. Usually mental illness and addictive personalities run through families in both genes and environment.
But abuse almost always leads to post traumatic stress, even if it goes away, it effects a person and their perception. So I don't know if things are as bad as OP thinks they are. I know my living situation isn't as bad as I think it is. But living with the people that neglected and bullied me, even if they treat me better now, fucks with my mental state. And it's because of that I say it's best to leave. Especially because perceived control is control. Break free OP. I'm rooting for you man
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#24001462 - 01/11/17 02:52 PM (7 years, 19 days ago) |
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My cat pissed on my chest yesterday morning, and this morning we were in bed together trying to get warm. I'm not sure why I shared that but I am feeling frisky.
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#24001491 - 01/11/17 03:05 PM (7 years, 19 days ago) |
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Can it even be considered "insomnia" for me, when I sleep so many hours? I think so. If I slept straight through, went to bed at 11, up at 7 or 8, then that's "normal". Being up all hours is insomnia. I think mine is getting worse. Before, I would know what time the clock would read. Now, I don't. Yeah, worse.
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: LunarEclipse]
#24001626 - 01/11/17 03:59 PM (7 years, 19 days ago) |
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Insomnia is simply being unable to sleep when you go to bed and try to sleep and are unable to get "a full nights sleep" (whatever that is to you) and usually reoccurring for a period of time. So... Maybe? lol not entirely sure I understand your circumstances.
Also at your cat. I had a cat do that to me when she was in heat. Is your kitty fixed?
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#24004210 - 01/12/17 02:00 PM (7 years, 18 days ago) |
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Quote:
CookieCrumbs said: Insomnia is simply being unable to sleep when you go to bed and try to sleep and are unable to get "a full nights sleep" (whatever that is to you) and usually reoccurring for a period of time. So... Maybe? lol not entirely sure I understand your circumstances.
Also at your cat. I had a cat do that to me when she was in heat. Is your kitty fixed?
He's neutered. I've never heard of a female doing that.
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: LunarEclipse]
#24004535 - 01/12/17 03:36 PM (7 years, 18 days ago) |
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Yeah, when they're not fixed they use urine to mark their territory and interest. So I think she might have been hitting on me.
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Re: Bad parents, drug addiction, stupid assholes [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#24004551 - 01/12/17 03:40 PM (7 years, 18 days ago) |
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CookieCrumbs said: Yeah, when they're not fixed they use urine to mark their territory and interest. So I think she might have been hitting on me. 
I thought wow it's odd he's all hunched over then felt that warmth and at first it was pleasant, like when you piss yourself.
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