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tyrannicalrex
Strange R



Registered: 04/24/03
Posts: 38,323
Loc: subtropics
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yep, I feel like it is a control and loneliness thing, but she has a wonderful mate who has been with her for 20 years and is still there. It's just very distressing to see her house that she worked so hard for all those years and finally paid it off and now she is trapped there in that stuff and not enjoying it. I am projecting a bit by thinking about how I would keep it but it seems unhealthy and dangerous. A stack of boxes fell and the top one hit her in the head and that is what triggered the stroke according to her and the mate and the docs. I would have really made changes at that point but they did not. I can not put my life on hold now for her at this point (I want to so badly but I must continue with my studies and testing to get my RN license, so the timing is really bad). I can only try to rest easy knowing that she is being cared for in the best way possible for now. It's just everything at once, as usual. (fuck I'm tired, my syntax and grammar are awful, was up at 5am for a 12 hour clinical today, going to bed, ciao for now!)
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MinnesnowtaNice
FriendofHagrid


Registered: 09/18/13
Posts: 1,316
Last seen: 1 year, 10 months
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Alcoholism is pretty sad, and kinda gets swept under the rug where I live.
I hope you do better man, one day at a time.
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SunnyD
WiZarD oF LoVe



Registered: 04/29/13
Posts: 25,236
Loc: Planet earth
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Quote:
Sheekle said: chillin, just got back from seeing the new star wars movie it was ok.
man my mom is such a braindead retard. the only reason i ever engage her in conversation once she's had a few drinks is out of pity because it would probably hurt her feelings if i flat out ignored her, even though that's instinctively what i'd wanna do once she starts aimlessly blabbering and talking in circles. how can someone who was once so bright be broken down into such an ignorant thoughtless shell of a human being.
she went to an AA meeting a few months ago and said she "didn't need it because she has a great family and great house, all those people in the meeting were in rock bottom." she also outright denies that all of the lung problems she gets from smoking are related to smoking, and thinks they're pure coincidence. what a retarded fucking way of thinking, how sad.
Sounds like my mother
She's become a alcoholic, drinks almost daily and she is very unhappy day to day... it's sad She was one when I was a kid too beat me and all when I was 4 year old
Btw y'all I'm at work  Can't wait to smoke hella dank when I get home
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zZZz
jesus


Registered: 12/28/07
Posts: 33,478
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Interesting lnc 
I'm just Chillin, yea I got problems, but they're mostly first world problems.
But yea just drinkin, picked up a sack from the clinic, got a roller a few days ago bout to roll me sum joints hell yea
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MinnesnowtaNice
FriendofHagrid


Registered: 09/18/13
Posts: 1,316
Last seen: 1 year, 10 months
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Re: LNC [Re: zZZz]
#23977714 - 01/03/17 12:09 AM (7 years, 27 days ago) |
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Sheekle said:
man my mom is such a braindead retard.
what a retarded fucking way of thinking, how sad.
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lavod
Seal Whisperer


Registered: 06/23/06
Posts: 5,440
Loc: Over the rainbow
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Connoisseur said: damn man thats still pretty heavy duty. glad your at least under a 12 pack on most days though.
you ever try to switch to some sort of other GABA substance? one not quite as physically damaging as booze?
Yeah, i've tried. They just do'nt scratch the particular itches alcohol does. It just is what it is and i'm trying to manage, not abstain. Physically i'm okay except for my esophagus, which bleeds a bit sometimes and my spit turns pink. My liver numbers and such were high, but still okay the last time i was hospitalized again after an intense binge. Eating and supplement vitamins are important. The 4-5 day no food no work intense vodka binges are what kill me and land me with hospital bills and an esophagus so torn up i can only manage salad for a week after. I'm not perfect but somewhat okay when i regulate myself. I just need omeprazole or ranitidine often as i cant eat without my esophagus flaring up half the time.
Nighty people. Off to bed.
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Connoisseur

Registered: 05/13/11
Posts: 34,686
Last seen: 5 years, 2 months
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Re: LNC [Re: lavod] 1
#23977746 - 01/03/17 12:23 AM (7 years, 27 days ago) |
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right on brother, stay up and have a good year!
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Repertoire89
Cat



Registered: 11/15/12
Posts: 21,773
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I had a damn fine day

Fucking fine as shit it were
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404
error


Registered: 08/20/10
Posts: 14,539
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Can't sleep again. The last time i had regular sleeping habits was sometime in june or september i think last year. I can't remember. anxiety's been getting pretty bad lately too. Gonna eat some CBD for shits and giggles.
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CookieCrumbs
Fucked off to the pub


Registered: 12/10/11
Posts: 14,146
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Re: LNC [Re: 404]
#23977858 - 01/03/17 01:50 AM (7 years, 27 days ago) |
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I haven't had a "regular" or at least semi-healthy sleep pattern in about a year.
I want to blame my lady friend. Though really it's a whole host of shit and most of it wasn't as fun.
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rackem



Registered: 11/27/09
Posts: 14,024
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right there with you.. its been over a year for me. everytime i get on track, i run right off them tracks like a run away freight train.
sucks.
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Obsesshroom


Registered: 11/05/11
Posts: 355
Loc: Canada
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Re: LNC [Re: rackem] 1
#23977874 - 01/03/17 02:08 AM (7 years, 27 days ago) |
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I just got the harlem shake finally, only took a few years
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zZZz
jesus


Registered: 12/28/07
Posts: 33,478
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I remember my first Harlem Shake
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OhMrJohnson
Ashes Against The Grain

Registered: 01/12/14
Posts: 17,544
Loc: Terra Incognita
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Re: LNC [Re: zZZz]
#23977951 - 01/03/17 03:54 AM (7 years, 27 days ago) |
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I just woke up not long ago, smoked up, now getting ready for work
My check got fuckin lost or something again cuz I still haven't gotten it even tho they sent it a week ago
So I'm gonna nag them about that today cuz I tried to set up direct deposit and the website wouldn't let me for some stupid reason
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Seriously_trippin
Cosmic Guru Ganesh



Registered: 07/12/13
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Last seen: 2 hours, 55 minutes
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Eternally fiending hard. Just had 8mg diluadid and want more instead I'll go to sleep. Wish me luck
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Repertoire89
Cat



Registered: 11/15/12
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rackem said: right there with you.. its been over a year for me. everytime i get on track, i run right off them tracks like a run away freight train.
sucks.
Just fixed my schedule yesterday, lets see how long this lasts 
Been going back and forth for years
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