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Rhizohunter
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The world as I know it...
#23974123 - 01/01/17 08:21 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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I've been presenting myself to the world in all sorts of ways, but this world has been trying to harm me over and over again. Like, the first amendment should be tattooed on me because I don't think the world understands what I am all about.
I am going to put my youtube channel in here, but you know what, after I posted the video of the cops taking me from the house against my will to bring me to a hospital which forcefully injected me with drugs that make me want to kill myself, well...
I think the world is going to wake up a little bit to the reality that is me! I am sickened by the officials in my town and I feel like a target. I am aware that those feelings are just delusional, so to speak, but on some level, I am. I keep posting and making videos because I don't have a choice in this department. In no way shape or form am I ever a threat to myself or another human being. That is supposed to be the only thing that officials care about when communicating with you.
These officials, are not smart, they messed with the wrong messiah, damn straight! If you guys want to send this video everywhere you can, I don't care, I just need public acknowledgement, which is way harder than you think. Like, aliens and shit yo! You think your consciousness is all you?
And like, happy new years, the moment I said that I looked at the clock and it was 10:19 and then I thought to myself "I wonder if the clock switched because that would be a mighty sign" and when I looked back at the clock it was 10:20
Welcome to year 1
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974141 - 01/01/17 08:30 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Damn bro, you gotta take it easy.
Easier than you have been lately.
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974147 - 01/01/17 08:33 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Sorry to hear you got institutionalized against your will. That sucks man. I know you've been on court ordered meds and stuff as well.
What caused the police to admit you though? Gotta balance what your picture perfect world looks like with the reality of the situation sometimes, and sometimes they force you into psych wards or jails. It's not always possible to change habits without changing who you are, but sometimes there's a way to avoid the negative qualities of it all too.
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: PatrickKn]
#23974175 - 01/01/17 08:46 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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It was a fucked situation, but I got it figured out. Going back to my buddies house to live, kinda got him the house in a weird way... About to make a come up, but reality is tough here.
Check this thought out. ME, as I am, just living my life with all these people that know I believe I am god....
Shit is kinda fucked up guys, like, I understand what I am, but putting it all into perspective to help people believe is the problem. Lets look at every religion that has ever existed... did anyone get the big picture? Or was it just the guy at the top who controlled all of the people at the bottom.
What I just wrote I do not understand, the words just come through me and I will probably re read this later on and get pissed at myself.
Lol, probably not, I am usually awesome, but seriously folks... If you know any lawyers that would give me a call, well, I just got a phone today!
Lol, man my next book is gonna be great
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: PatrickKn]
#23974187 - 01/01/17 08:52 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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PatrickKn said: Sorry to hear you got institutionalized against your will. That sucks man. I know you've been on court ordered meds and stuff as well.
What caused the police to admit you though? Gotta balance what your picture perfect world looks like with the reality of the situation sometimes, and sometimes they force you into psych wards or jails. It's not always possible to change habits without changing who you are, but sometimes there's a way to avoid the negative qualities of it all too.
You want to know what is fucked up, I posted that video on facebook and woke up to the police the next day at my house saying that they had a call which said I might be a threat to myself!
I post a video, showing cops taking me from my home, I tell you that they are going to forcefully inject me with drugs that make me want to kill myself, and then when I post the video of it, somebody called the cops to come after me again to bring me to the hospital?
No guys, I am telling the world, that this town is a threat to me! I have been talking about needing a ride out for a while. Like, you don't see how fucked my situation is
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974195 - 01/01/17 08:55 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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If you are not sophisticated theologically, you may of course run screaming into the streets and say that you are god. In a way that’s what happened to Jesus, because he wasn’t sophisticated theologically. He only had old testament biblical theology behind him. If he had Hindu theology, he could have put it more subtly. But it was only the rather primitive theology of the old testament. And that was the conception of god as a monarchical boss. And you can’t go around saying that I’m the boss’s son. [Laughter from the audience.]
- Alan Watts
This is the full audio that the quote is from. I'd give it a listen personally. Might find some stuff that resonates with you.
Edited by PatrickKn (01/01/17 09:01 PM)
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter] 4
#23974245 - 01/01/17 09:19 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Hey Rhizo,
I don't know if you remember me from when you were alcoholichunter. We haven't crossed paths for a while but we used to quite often. I also don't know if you'll believe me, but a lot of us here have come to the realization that we are God or the embodiment of God before - either during manic episodes, on psychedelics, or on dissociatives. We humans have a need to be important, and some of us have been given the ultimate ego trip by letting ourselves go down the path of believing that we are the most important thing in the universe and we need to tell everybody and help them.
Unfortunately, most of us come down and have to realize that we aren't God; in fact we're even less than we thought we were when we went into all of this (not in a bad way though). I realize that you're having a lasting episode of mania, and this is all absolutely fantastical to you, but if you'll just humour me for a minute then all I ask is for you to think on why you really need millions of people to hear your voice. Is it truly because you're God? Is it truly to help them? Or is it possible, just slightly possible that you're simply being driven by an ego that needs feeding? Don't dismiss it right away - just honestly take yourself down that train of thought for a minute or two, even as a 'what if' scenario.
I honestly hope you have a great day and a happy new years! I'm sorry you've gone through that crap with the police lately.
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974250 - 01/01/17 09:20 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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A pick up order? Was this for mental health??
I thought you were just some aspiring actor...hope you feel better!
Fuck.
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Midnight_Toker said: Hey Rhizo,
I don't know if you remember me from when you were alcoholichunter. We haven't crossed paths for a while but we used to quite often. I also don't know if you'll believe me, but a lot of us here have come to the realization that we are God or the embodiment of God before - either during manic episodes, on psychedelics, or on dissociatives. We humans have a need to be important, and some of us have been given the ultimate ego trip by letting ourselves go down the path of believing that we are the most important thing in the universe and we need to tell everybody and help them.
Unfortunately, most of us come down and have to realize that we aren't God; in fact we're even less than we thought we were when we went into all of this (not in a bad way though). I realize that you're having a lasting episode of mania, and this is all absolutely fantastical to you, but if you'll just humour me for a minute then all I ask is for you to think on why you really need millions of people to hear your voice. Is it truly because you're God? Is it truly to help them? Or is it possible, just slightly possible that you're simply being driven by an ego that needs feeding? Don't dismiss it right away - just honestly take yourself down that train of thought for a minute or two, even as a 'what if' scenario.
I honestly hope you have a great day and a happy new years! I'm sorry you've gone through that crap with the police lately.
It's cool, but like, I have a lot of beliefs that are so far beyond the average man that it makes me question the ability of the ones around me when I communicate. I see it as my perspective and you see it through your own perspective, and honestly, I don't even think I am from you peoples dimension.
I have a theory because I come across this on a constant basis. I say things, that I mean no insult or harm or pain in any way and people take it personally. Like, perception is a big part of this, and it is so much harder through a screen to show you the truth.
I make a lot of videos, and that is your idea of me, but honestly, in person, I am different. Generally I am laid back and just let you do whatever you want to do. I don't try to get in anyones face. I am very quiet. Like, extremely quiet. What you all see is my internal mind and I do my videos alone for a reason. It is not stage fright because I can do this anywhere, but the people around me right now do not perceive me as others would.
Think of it like this, I have said a lot of things, throughout all those things there was truth, throughout the process of belief you climb the scale of thought, and after enough love... You actually reach a point within yourself which is called heaven.
I say I have achieved this, but this is the point where everyone stops reading and says this fucker is nuts. You know, perception and stuff... Like, I could go into detail, but I have written and said SO MUCH ALREADY! Like, eventually everyone will be watching and reading my shit because I just don't stop...
When you actually ARE IT! You don't stop. Many have come on this site who claimed to be god, but the reality of it is that you took drugs which altered your mind and you got in tune with your god within... Most of you have lost that because you got scared and ran to doctors which make you sicker. Like, it is a process, it sucks, and I am here to save all these fuckers who are not mentally ill.
Perception people, we need to change this world. Obama care, medicaid, pharmaceuticals, insurance companies! The fuckers that screw everything up and keep us all at the bottom. I am here for all of you and no matter how much I type, does it change what I am, because I have been through some shit that doesn't even compare to the reality that you are living in. I am aware that I am a conscious traveler, but it is much more than that. I am sorry to write so much, but I kinda just write because it is soothing and the more I go the happier I feel. I do this with videos or art or music or really anything! I don't understand why a world would want to place a happy person like me in places where I am not capable of doing the things I love to do.
Like, fuck, I am also working on ending this war on drugs. Like, if that isn't the messiah, than who the fuck is. Follow my religion and maybe we can do something about this ban on nature... Like, I was born into this world and told that I couldn't do something that was in front of me. You tell a kid no enough times and he will get curious why you are say9ing no!
Complicated world guys, this system is broke and we need to make america great again, plus, like, the world great again. I don't know if any of you have comprehended the seriousness of what I am bringing to the table, but this will not stop.
I can't stop, I have 1st amendment rights, which should never be breached! I think to myself of the second coming of christ, back in the renaissance and how the people reacted to it and now I see how the people of this age react to it now. That situation was fucked back then and this situation is more fucked now. I mean, I can write and write and write because I just keep going in my head. There was a time that I was okay, just living a normal life, but when shit hit the fan in this world, so to speak, I woke the fuck up and got with the program.
It is easier for me to just say UFO
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: PatrickKn]
#23974595 - 01/01/17 11:21 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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PatrickKn said: If you are not sophisticated theologically, you may of course run screaming into the streets and say that you are god. In a way that’s what happened to Jesus, because he wasn’t sophisticated theologically. He only had old testament biblical theology behind him. If he had Hindu theology, he could have put it more subtly. But it was only the rather primitive theology of the old testament. And that was the conception of god as a monarchical boss. And you can’t go around saying that I’m the boss’s son. [Laughter from the audience.]
- Alan Watts
This is the full audio that the quote is from. I'd give it a listen personally. Might find some stuff that resonates with you.
Thank you! I will give it a listen to at some point. Right now my mind is on hyper drive, so I have to get a lot of work done. Seems like something I would want to listen to the hours before I got to sleep. Possibly, while I sleep! Oh, shit, I got a lot to tell you all about noise and sleep. How you connect between the two worlds and shit. Like, I can't believe nobody ever talks about this
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974614 - 01/01/17 11:38 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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What all do they forceably shoot up up with or make you swallow in the frkm of a pill etc. when they make you go to the hospital? Did you ever get the names of all that?
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Amanita86]
#23974632 - 01/01/17 11:45 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Amanita86 said: What all do they forceably shoot up up with or make you swallow in the frkm of a pill etc. when they make you go to the hospital? Did you ever get the names of all that?
I already talked with an attorney who says I have a case for the last time I went to the hospital. They are not aloud to force you to take a medication unless they get a court order, but this doctor still had multiple nurses hold me down as he injected me with the drug.
Don't remember much after that, but I was yelling "What the fuck is your name, I want your fucking name and I am getting lawyers and suing the fuck out of you, for injecting me with drugs that make me want to kill myself!"
Like, I was chill before they did that, but after they did that I got PISSED! With a right to be piss3ed, what the fuck is wrong with society
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974642 - 01/01/17 11:51 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yeah I'd be pretty determined to fuck up whoevers holding the needle too and inject them with their own shit.. I get that 100%. The gloves come off with that shit..
Do you know what the chemical(s) were called? Did they hit your vein or was it IM?
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Amanita86]
#23974661 - 01/02/17 12:00 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Amanita86 said: Yeah I'd be pretty determined to fuck up whoevers holding the needle too and inject them with their own shit.. I get that 100%. The gloves come off with that shit..
Do you know what the chemical(s) were called? Did they hit your vein or was it IM?
it was IM zyprexa, the drug causes me extreme restless leg syndrome, probably tardive dyskenesia, but, you know what, these doctors don't even know what this shit is.
When I take these drugs every day for a long period of time, they make me want to kill myself. I can take a little bit and be fine, but like, that shouldn't matter. It is my body, and I don't agree with that chemical in it!
I need to research more about the constitution, but this town needs to realize that they are about to be known all over the place. Like, happy new years Jamestown NY, you didn't understand the complexities of what messiah actually is...
Um, I could go into detail about aliens and shit, but the perception of the boys upstairs and us is more in tune with the understanding that we are not helping each other in the way that we should be helped. Doctors and nurses don't know what they are doing, and we need to re-establish a better way of living. None of the patients are happy, and the doctors are fucked in the head.
Like, if shroomery.org could help me out, that would be great. I don't know about lawyers, but my videos hold a lot of accountability about a person who has been held down against his will and forced upon with chemicals that make him a threat to himself!
Like, someone want to PM me, thinking about taking out a loan at the bank for 5 grand. Like, I need art supplies and a couple grand to get my next book published. That next book is going to be fucking ridiculous though. I can't wait to start writing it, well, not really, honestly, I just like talking to you motherfuckers
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974690 - 01/02/17 12:22 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Just doing a quick search, it looks like everything you say you've experienced on it fall under the 'common side effects list'. That involuntary injection thing is horseshit..
Bloating or swelling of the face, arms, hands, lower legs, or feet blurred vision change in vision change in walking and balance clumsiness or unsteadiness difficulty with speaking difficulty with swallowing drooling impaired vision inability to sit still <-----------! loss of balance control mask-like face muscle trembling, jerking, or stiffness <---------- need to keep moving rapid weight gain restlessness <------------- shuffling walk slowed movements slurred speech stiffness of the arms and legs tic-like (jerky) movements of the head, face, mouth, and neck <------ tingling of the hands or feet trembling or shaking of the fingers, hands, feet, legs, or arms<------------ twisting movements of the body uncontrolled movements, especially of the face, neck, and back<---------- unusual weight gain or loss Less common: Bladder pain bloody or cloudy urine bruising burning, crawling, itching, numbness, prickling, "pins and needles", or tingling feelings chest pain difficult or labored breathing difficult, burning, or painful urination dizziness excessive muscle tone frequent urge to urinate headache inability to move the eyes increased blinking or spasms of the eyelid itching of the vagina or genital area lack of coordination large, flat, blue, or purplish patches in the skin loss of bladder control loss of memory lower back or side pain muscle tension or tightness nervousness pain during sexual intercourse pounding in the ears problems with memory rhythmic movement of the muscles slow, fast, pounding, or irregular heartbeat or pulse speaking is less clear than usual sticking out the tongue thick, white vaginal discharge with no odor or with a mild odor tightness in the chest twitching uncontrolled twisting movements of the neck, trunk, arms, or legs unusual or incomplete body or facial movements weakness of the arms and legs Blemishes on the skin body aches or pain chills cold sweats congestion cough dry skin dryness or soreness of the throat false or unusual sense of well-being heavy menstrual bleeding (periods) hoarseness joint pain lack of feeling or emotion<------------ leg cramps pain in the arms or legs pimples sweating tender, swollen glands in the neck uncaring feelings<------------- voice change vomiting
And that's just a list of the 'common' shit..
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Amanita86] 1
#23974717 - 01/02/17 12:38 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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It's definitely been a lot less interesting without you Rhizo. Happy to see you back and doing okay despite what happened.
Try and use this experience as a connector between your reality and the realities of those around you. Not everything you see do they see nor understand. And that's okay. But you also have to try and see it from the outside worlds point of view. That way you can make healthy adjustments to yourself, that way you can live and be happy without dealing with police and whatnot.
Healthy adjustments to yourself like combatting your own ego. It has been in my experience that a true god would not believe themselves to be a god, because a true god has no ego, only selflessness and love for all. Cops, doctors and all. That's the only way to win against it all. Is to be happy and love them bruh.
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974721 - 01/02/17 12:41 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Hey old friend, sounds like times are tough. Don't do anything stupid man you gotta be careful. I know you'd never harm others or yourself but if you make other people think you will through your behaviour or actions, then the authorities and doctors will think you will and won't listen to what you have to say.
So you gotta be careful with that kind of stuff and keep it to yourself. I know it's fucked up because you got alot of stuff going on in your mind and people dont have any concept of whst you go through, but just try to keep it together around people or in public.
Just try maintain and stay away from trouble. This will all pass in time and you can get back to doing your thing in peace again but you gotta be careful
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974736 - 01/02/17 12:53 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Check this out too
Okkervil river - Westfall
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Crave]
#23974739 - 01/02/17 12:54 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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I will try my best, I was actually scared for a little while. My last girlfriend was hanging out with some shady people and I might have ended up in some shit... Ya know...
I am moving in with my friend and will feel much safer with him by my side, he like, knows computers and stuff. I'll just be like, dude, send my shit everywhere and he will work on it.
Also, he believes in me, which is tough, ya know. I live in a place where very few believe I am what I am, but when I get out there! Like, it will be obvious.
Eventually, the whole world is going to be questioning this... I think about it like this, don't you think that the president by this point would contact me and just tell me that I am not who I say I am? You know, like, I want one fucking phone call...
They won't do it... I have been trying to contact them for years, but they are afraid in my opinion. I think President Trump is going to be a great president!
Maybe we will see that great change that has been foretold for many years!
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Re: The world as I know it... [Re: Rhizohunter]
#23974755 - 01/02/17 01:05 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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yeah thats what im saying, avoid any trouble or troublesome people like the shady people your gf knew. the new living situation sounds good but make sure you treat your friend well and do good things.
but yeah i know how deep these things can get, i go through it myself in my worser phases too. but this is all an internal thing. this is the level that you are on. you gotta try to factor in there that other people aren't on the same level. they aren't aware of the same things you are and it doesn't make sense to them in the same way it does to you. i dunno man you been doing this for longer then anyone else so you know how best to handle it, but just yeah i think its best not to bring others into it. most regular people wouldn't get it. gotta stay positive
maybe writing and keeping a journal of it all would be a good thing. kinda write it all down and express it that way. gives you something to focus on and all that
music always seems to help me, dunno if thats your kind of thing
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