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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Mateja]
#24784507 - 11/15/17 10:27 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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sure thats all true but this..
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releases chemicals in our brain than make us more defensive or irritated.
why? what about that raised eye brow causes me to get so pissy? did some raise an eyebrow at me when i was a child before doing something negative? these are the answers i seek.
because the longer i live the more i realize i dont really have any past trauma. so i am i so fucking touchy?
attention? the environment we are raised in? where everything around you is a problem with products to sell you to fix them? the products being your own negative self imagine. that 'they' exploit.
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The problem is that we identify with a cluster of feelings, sensations and perceptions and that's the bane of humanity as a whole. All our problems and sense of isolation comes from that.
i think thats what i am trying to say. im terrible with words.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Josex]
#24784511 - 11/15/17 10:28 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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But one cal still know that one is observing or that one is the observer, but this should not be possible! Let me quote a philosophical dilemma that illustrates this paradox.
"That which is the known or the knower, can itself never be an object to it's own self-knowledge, for fire does not burn itself"
The eye can see EVERYTHING except itself, the teeth can chew everything except themselves, fire can burn everything excapt itself.
So what is it that knows of consciousness? Surely it is not consciousness... If anyone discovered the sea, it sure as hell wasn't the fish, you see my point Josex?
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: mushboy]
#24784514 - 11/15/17 10:30 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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mushboy said: sure thats all true but this..
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releases chemicals in our brain than make us more defensive or irritated.
why? what about that raised eye brow causes me to get so pissy? did some raise an eyebrow at me when i was a child before doing something negative? these are the answers i seek.
because the longer i live the more i realize i dont really have any past trauma. so i am i so fucking touchy?
attention? the environment we are raised in? where everything around you is a problem with products to sell you to fix them? the products being your own negative self imagine. that 'they' exploit.
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The problem is that we identify with a cluster of feelings, sensations and perceptions and that's the bane of humanity as a whole. All our problems and sense of isolation comes from that.
i think thats what i am trying to say. im terrible with words.
Mushboy, a person that lies in fetus position most often will lie in that position if he feels insecure or not safe or something to that effect. A person that is scared WILL NOT lay totally stretched out on the bed. This is what I mean with arms crossed and the eyebrows 
And this is not my opinions this is backed ton TON of research!
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Edited by Mateja (11/15/17 10:31 AM)
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Mateja]
#24784520 - 11/15/17 10:33 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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Consciousness knows itself through itself and it's not an object as you well pointed out, it can never be. The 'observer' can never be seen, it can only be experienced, or better yet, you can only be it.
A dumb ass question, how do you know you're aware? The only real answer we can give is, 'because I am aware that I am aware". It's the godly principle right there, I am that I am.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Mateja]
#24784524 - 11/15/17 10:34 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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Mateah said: Mushboy, a person that lies in fetus position most often will lie in that position if he feels insecure or not safe or something to that effect. A person that is scared WILL NOT lay totally stretched out on the bed. This is what I mean with arms crossed and the eyebrows 
And this is not my opinions this is backed ton TON of research!
being in a fetal position or tucking up in fear is more of a genetic trait for survival imo.
a raised eye brow is not. so i dont think you can compare. infact the separation of the two is what i was thinking about..
this thread has been going places recently. haha
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Josex]
#24784534 - 11/15/17 10:36 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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But if that was the case than you could say that the fish know they are in the water.
When you are totally immersed into something that you become THAT, than there is no knowing of that as a separate thing. But you DO identify your consciousness as a separate thing, how can you do that with your cosciousness? That's like the eye that sees itself or like the fire that burns itself
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: mushboy]
#24784540 - 11/15/17 10:38 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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Mateah said: Mushboy, a person that lies in fetus position most often will lie in that position if he feels insecure or not safe or something to that effect. A person that is scared WILL NOT lay totally stretched out on the bed. This is what I mean with arms crossed and the eyebrows 
And this is not my opinions this is backed ton TON of research!
being in a fetal position or tucking up in fear is more of a genetic trait for survival imo.
a raised eye brow is not. so i dont think you can compare. infact the separation of the two is what i was thinking about..
this thread has been going places recently. haha 
Making nervous ticks with ones hands and fingers is not either connected to survival instincts but it's a indicator of what is going on inside the mind of a person. Sometimes without him even knowing it. It's just body language basically, and body language translates what's going on in the mind. No dispute about that I hope?
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Mateja]
#24784541 - 11/15/17 10:38 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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Mateah said: But if that was the case than you could say that the fish know they are in the water.
take a fish out of water and it starts to die. id say the fish is aware its not in water. because life knows death.
i do not identify with my own consciousness tho. this body this place.. all seems fake bruh
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Josex]
#24784548 - 11/15/17 10:40 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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I say addicted because if I don't take it I feel like I entered special hell.
Anyone got any clindomycin for this oyster jar? Another episode of yeast versus blue oysters. Who will win? This should be fun. As you can see the oyster is clearly winning this round and is performing as expected. Backed that shit into a corner and ate it for lunch. 10/10 fun for the whole family. But yeah. I have verified that it's the culture and not me at least.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: TheBlackCat]
#24784557 - 11/15/17 10:45 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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TheBlackCat said: I say addicted because if I don't take it I feel like I entered special hell.
hard booze withdrawal. i can relate
i thought yeast came from grains not cultures...?
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: mushboy]
#24784562 - 11/15/17 10:46 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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I heard booze withdrawal is the only withdrawal one can die from.. scary shit
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Mateja] 1
#24784567 - 11/15/17 10:47 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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the last year of it, i was drinking around a liter a day just to maintain. bottoms up.
and i thought i was going to kill myself. it was that hellish. if i had insurance id call 911. but i rode it out instead.
if you use the search feature you can find it!! i documented it here back in oct as a reminder not to be stupid.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: mushboy]
#24784575 - 11/15/17 10:50 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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Congratulation on that man!!!!
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Mateja]
#24784579 - 11/15/17 10:51 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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its a repeat post im sure but i confess....mushrooms saved my life in many ways.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: mushboy]
#24784588 - 11/15/17 10:55 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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Mushrooms are lifesavers no doubt about that, love hearing stories about how people overcame adversities with mushrooms.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Mateja]
#24784598 - 11/15/17 11:03 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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Hey. I have no fucking idea how the yeast got in there. I didn't make the culture. None of my other jars have yeast. The only time I've ever seen yeast is in conjunction with this culture.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: TheBlackCat]
#24784609 - 11/15/17 11:11 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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hey. ok.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Mateja]
#24784644 - 11/15/17 11:39 AM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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Mateah said: I heard booze withdrawal is the only withdrawal one can die from.. scary shit
Benzo withdrawals are much worse. Watched two friends nearly die in a hospital for a week. Quitting a heavy benzo addiction cold turkey can kill you
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Germs]
#24784692 - 11/15/17 12:26 PM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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So it has been about a year since I've posted to the shroomery because my downstairs neighbor was apparently running some kind of prostitution/trafficking operation and was raided. Imagine how fucking scared I was when cop cars came streaming into our parking lot with lights on and guns drawn filing in towards my building. HO-LEE-SHIT! I had like 8 shoeboxes and 10 full sized monos in full fruit. Not to mention a ton of oat spawn colonizing, probably 20+ quarts. There was no way out of it. I stood at the front door with my hands up and ready to get fucked up. The relief when i heard the door downstairs getting banged on was unbelievable. Long story short I broke down my shit moved everything to a friends secure garage, "disposed of" about 6 lbs of dry cubes, and after finishing out my lease moved far the fuck away from that place. I cant stop looking over my shoulder though.
I guess my confession here is that I'm scared to start anything again and its killing me. That was seriously traumatic, but I love cult so much that I cant let this fear be the deciding factor... No one should have to be locked in a fucking cage for years because they want to grow a natural harmless organism of the earth. shits twisted.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Organic_Magic]
#24784733 - 11/15/17 12:49 PM (6 years, 2 months ago) |
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Organic_Magic said: So it has been about a year since I've posted to the shroomery because my downstairs neighbor was apparently running some kind of prostitution/trafficking operation and was raided. Imagine how fucking scared I was when cop cars came streaming into our parking lot with lights on and guns drawn filing in towards my building. HO-LEE-SHIT! I had like 8 shoeboxes and 10 full sized monos in full fruit. Not to mention a ton of oat spawn colonizing, probably 20+ quarts. There was no way out of it. I stood at the front door with my hands up and ready to get fucked up. The relief when i heard the door downstairs getting banged on was unbelievable. Long story short I broke down my shit moved everything to a friends secure garage, "disposed of" about 6 lbs of dry cubes, and after finishing out my lease moved far the fuck away from that place. I cant stop looking over my shoulder though.
I guess my confession here is that I'm scared to start anything again and its killing me. That was seriously traumatic, but I love cult so much that I cant let this fear be the deciding factor... No one should have to be locked in a fucking cage for years because they want to grow a natural harmless organism of the earth. shits twisted.

Dude thats fucking nuts!!! Been wondering where you were at. Glad to know you made it out!!
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