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Inthepit
Aum Mani Padme Hum


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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: tryptkaloids] 3
#27288194 - 04/30/21 06:45 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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I don't feel like I'm living the life I should be
Should is the devil. Life is what it is, should is mind fucking with you. When you hear should from the mind, realize it's bullshit ideas, beliefs, wanting, aversion. Life happens whether you like or not, it is what it is. That's hard to realize, but to realize it, not conceptually, but actually. You can be free to see what is. I'll stop there, there's more...
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Crackatoa
Stranger in a strange land



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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Inthepit]
#27288220 - 04/30/21 07:07 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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Inthepit said: Life happens whether you like or not, it is what it is.
I learned that the hard way when the last two of my family passed within 3 months. Life didn't give a shit, life didn't stop cause I was sad. It went on like nothing happened. It makes you stronger knowing how it is, it's going to hit you just don't let it stop you. Don't let it win.
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A.k.a
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: tryptkaloids] 1
#27288261 - 04/30/21 07:43 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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tryptkaloids said: I confess I've been really struggling to live authenticly lately. Between having loads of responsibility dumped on me and struggling to break out of my shell of insecurities and depression aswell as maintain relationships its been nearly impossible to cultivate, let alone thrive in cultivation.
And that makes me feel even worse because I don't feel like I'm living the life I should be
This is something that’s a huge deal for me and I struggled with for a long time.
Eventually I just realized that I hate HAVING to get up and be places at set times, and then working for somebody else who more often than not I don’t like at all. Shit kills my soul.
I also realized that I was spending a lot of energy on relationships that when it came down to it either didn’t matter much to me or were people I liked but had developed issues that affected me.
Basically I stopped dealing with anybody except two close friends unless I really wanted to or it was important. That and finding a way to be self employed even if it meant struggling for a while or whatever.
Now I have way more time, way less money, and way more enjoyment of life.
A lot of people, myself for sure, have problems realizing that refusing to overextend yourself for people/work isn’t being selfish, it’s taking care of yourself.
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lookintolearn
Stranger becoming Strangest



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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: A.k.a]
#27288381 - 04/30/21 09:28 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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A.k.a said:
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tryptkaloids said: I confess I've been really struggling to live authenticly lately. Between having loads of responsibility dumped on me and struggling to break out of my shell of insecurities and depression aswell as maintain relationships its been nearly impossible to cultivate, let alone thrive in cultivation.
And that makes me feel even worse because I don't feel like I'm living the life I should be
This is something that’s a huge deal for me and I struggled with for a long time.
Eventually I just realized that I hate HAVING to get up and be places at set times, and then working for somebody else who more often than not I don’t like at all. Shit kills my soul.
I also realized that I was spending a lot of energy on relationships that when it came down to it either didn’t matter much to me or were people I liked but had developed issues that affected me.
Basically I stopped dealing with anybody except two close friends unless I really wanted to or it was important. That and finding a way to be self employed even if it meant struggling for a while or whatever.
Now I have way more time, way less money, and way more enjoyment of life.
A lot of people, myself for sure, have problems realizing that refusing to overextend yourself for people/work isn’t being selfish, it’s taking care of yourself.
You guys get out of my head...
I'm on the path to trying to get a balance of what I want to do and what I need to do. And also realizing that there is an area where those two can meet if I figure it out. I'm lucky enough to be able to cultivate where I stand but not to the point where I feel content.
I'm sick of where I work, and live, and cultivation is almost a crutch to lean on of sorts because it makes me happy and gives me joy.
Living authentically is true happiness and I hope everyone can find that, I sure know i'm working on it. I can't stand waking up dreading going to work just to come home and dread waking up and doing it again.
AKA has got the right idea. Who needs a bunch of money to spend if you don't have time to enjoy it or have it make you happy?
That self employment is a dream.
One day.
Thanks for sharing Tryp it's got me thinking about some things myself.
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tryptkaloids
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: A.k.a]
#27288391 - 04/30/21 09:32 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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I knew this place coming back online would help my mental state, thanks guys. Much love
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Wall.E
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: tryptkaloids] 1
#27288392 - 04/30/21 09:32 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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Ask the mushrooms how you can become self employed and they'll tell you
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jay.ach
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Inthepit]
#27288421 - 04/30/21 09:55 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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Inthepit said: Should is the devil. Life is what it is, should is mind fucking with you. When you hear should from the mind, realize it's bullshit ideas, beliefs, wanting, aversion.
Wow. That is so true. So fucking true.
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Doctor Mario
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: tryptkaloids]
#27288429 - 04/30/21 10:04 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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tryptkaloids said: I knew this place coming back online would help my mental state, thanks guys. Much love 
Glad to see ya back, Trypt. I was wondering why I hadn't seen you back yet. A few others that I'm still wondering whether or not they'll return.
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lookintolearn
Stranger becoming Strangest



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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Wall.E] 1
#27288431 - 04/30/21 10:06 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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Myc_Hunt said: Ask the mushrooms how you can become self employed and they'll tell you
I'm going to take a 10g dose and talk business with the mycelium spirits brb..
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verum subsequentis
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: lookintolearn]
#27288467 - 04/30/21 10:49 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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Enjoy.
Trypt, I feel you man. I find taking some deep breaths and trying to feel the way I wish I felt helps. Almost like we are actually in control of that shit but just forgot. Of course, I don't know all the ins and outs of your life.
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Mycelium Juice
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I confess that I just stumbled on this thread and am pretty stunned. I can really relate to Crackatoa and AKA's most recent comments, but wow- ya'll truly have hearts of gold.
I'm not surprised to see this type of authentic empathy coming from a community like this, but am glad to stumble upon it and crack the door open a little further to how great you all really are.
Glad to be here. Ya'll are the best.
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lookintolearn
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Mycelium Juice]
#27288599 - 05/01/21 02:30 AM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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It's nice to be a human with other humans. This is one place I feel let's that happen without any judgements. (Cept for trolls every once in awhile)
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verum subsequentis
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: lookintolearn] 1
#27288600 - 05/01/21 02:32 AM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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Agreed. Too bad it's anonymous and digital. I'd much rather sit around a fire playing music and talking story with you all.
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Inthepit
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verum subsequentis said: Agreed. Too bad it's anonymous and digital. I'd much rather sit around a fire playing music and talking story with you all.
I know, I kept trying to recognize someone in Reddit... ya! fire walking with my Harley buds, good times... You gonna finish that beer? LOL
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Eugene Gesuale
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Have there been meetups in the past? I would love seeing you all in any capacity. Even if we gotta wear covid masks for concealing identity and Hello My Name is stickers on our shirts touting our usernames 😂
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Eugene Gesuale]
#27289233 - 05/01/21 01:45 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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For the first time, someone other than me is tripping off of mushrooms that I grew and I'm both excited and terrified.
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tiptrippy
The Mechanic



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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: Eugene Gesuale]
#27289236 - 05/01/21 01:51 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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Adrenochrome said: Have there been meetups in the past? I would love seeing you all in any capacity. Even if we gotta wear covid masks for concealing identity and Hello My Name is stickers on our shirts touting our usernames 😂
https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/27275675#27275675
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lookintolearn
Stranger becoming Strangest



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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: tiptrippy]
#27289245 - 05/01/21 02:01 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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verum subsequentis said: Agreed. Too bad it's anonymous and digital. I'd much rather sit around a fire playing music and talking story with you all.
Yeah that's the dream man. One day I'm going to save enough money to take a few months off and travel to make meetups for this exact reason. Whether one person comes or 100 wouldn't matter. Just want to meet some like minded individuals and enjoy myself.
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Adrenochrome said: Have there been meetups in the past? I would love seeing you all in any capacity. Even if we gotta wear covid masks for concealing identity and Hello My Name is stickers on our shirts touting our usernames 😂
https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/27275675#27275675
Bruhhhhhhhhh I bookmarked this. If I can take off work I may very well come to this. Not supposed to leave state at the moment butttt....
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tryptkaloids
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: tiptrippy]
#27289469 - 05/01/21 05:34 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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tiptrippy said:
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Adrenochrome said: Have there been meetups in the past? I would love seeing you all in any capacity. Even if we gotta wear covid masks for concealing identity and Hello My Name is stickers on our shirts touting our usernames 😂
https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/27275675#27275675
Thats only 10 hours away... I might make an appearance
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Eugene Gesuale
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist [Re: tiptrippy]
#27289490 - 05/01/21 06:00 PM (2 years, 8 months ago) |
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tiptrippy said:
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Adrenochrome said: Have there been meetups in the past? I would love seeing you all in any capacity. Even if we gotta wear covid masks for concealing identity and Hello My Name is stickers on our shirts touting our usernames 😂
https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/27275675#27275675
Thanks but I can’t make the journey this year. It’s a day and a half drive. That mountain looks like a spore print. Pretty rad bro
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