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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: MH5109]
#27121429 - 01/02/21 01:27 AM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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I member one night whilst employed in a mental health facility I ingested a modest dose <3.5g IIRC. Didn't feel much and a guest was sharing K-pins. I accepted one. As I attempted to take a shower shit got weird fast. I escaped the alternate dimension I was being sucked into via the tub faucet and then escaped the bathroom clothed but wet. I told the roomies and guests still left everything was wrong before spending the next couple hours in a loop lost in time scared and convinced I had done drugs and was now crazy.
This became a valuable introspective nightmare type scenario as I confronted my own issues and decided I needed to make positive changes.
Psychedelics can certainly be a box of chocolates.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Doctor Mario]
#27121742 - 01/02/21 09:14 AM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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Doctor Mario said: Man, that shit was so intense. I wish I could explain it. At one point I thought I was gonna either piss myself or bust a nut. Maybe both? Fk I dunno. All the while im inside some yellow place with a big grey sphere. There was a forest and some scary fkn thing wearing a red cloak.
I kept telling myself to open my eyes but I couldn't. It was like my body had shut down and I couldn't get it to listen to me. I'm exhausted.
Maybe what inspired the Beatles yellow submarine
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Eugene Gesuale]
#27121858 - 01/02/21 11:08 AM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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I know that part of my mind. I used to try hard to avoid it. I can't remember if it was EC or CRS but one night a modest dose opened that door and it was like a massive storm cloud or dark wave was towering over me. My first thought was to flee but I had taken no more than 1 mental step before deciding to embrace it. I physical stood to turn and face it and just closed my eyes and let it crash over me like a tidal wave of darkness, sad, emptiness that I had apparently been hiding from for a long time. Like the nothing from never ending story. I spent most of that trip with tears streaming down my face, but I was not crying. It was sadness, but I was not sad; I was embracing the sadness. It was dark but I was not in the dark; I was just embracing the dark. It was an absolutely amazing experience and I have never since feared or been apprehensive about opening that door. Sometimes your darkness needs a hug too.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: GypsyBastard]
#27121931 - 01/02/21 12:01 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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That's the attitude man, "just bring it on, show me what you got".
I confess prepping and pasteurizing casing material is the most tedious thing in this hobby for me (doing it right now). I'd gladly pay someone to do it for me.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Josex]
#27121962 - 01/02/21 12:17 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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Yeah, the one time I've done casing it already seems like a pain trying to balance ph and shit
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Wall.E]
#27121986 - 01/02/21 12:26 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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Yea I even have to grind the calcium carbonate because I can only find it in pellets locally. I keep postponing getting it online in powder.
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Failboat
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Josex]
#27122010 - 01/02/21 12:36 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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Got me a 50lb bag of dolomitic lime for like 20 bucks at the hydro shop one time. Didn't really know why I bought it at the time, but it's probably gonna last me forever lol. Then again, it seems I may no longer be able to but cocogro, which is pre-adjusted.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Doctor Mario]
#27122018 - 01/02/21 12:38 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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D3monic said: Zoloft was one the worst things I ever did to myself. That stuff made me so sick. Didn’t take my meds by 10am? Killer migraine. Felt like everything was a dream world, killer migraine. Best feeling ever was weening off it finally. I’ll just stick to xanax for anxiety and even that I haven’t renewed my script for in over a year
I was pretty skeptical and against any antidepressant when my doc asked if I was willing to try this stuff. Things were weird at first. The first week I got headaches every time I took it. That mellowed out and I don't get them anymore. The weirdest part was I would get this euphoric vibration in my brain and body. It would come all at once and be gone just like that. Kinda felt like getting electrocuted with happy stuff. I've felt the same thing in the past from high doses of cubes. Makes me wonder if it's a rapid release of serotonin or somethin.
You might want to look the video I psoted in this thread. https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/27116067 Placebo effect might be to blame for your positive effects.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Sankhara] 1
#27122116 - 01/02/21 01:35 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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I’m with you guys on the weird trip stuff.
I’ve had a few of my last ones where I was just streaming tears for an hour from sadness, joy, awe, gratitude all at once.
For me right now I think it has to do with the decade I spent sedated on tar 24/7. It feels like I never fully experienced a lot of stuff during that time and now when I trip I get these speed processing sessions.
My last natal dose I had this weird thing where I’d go through a list of things I’d done I regretted or just negative stuff in general and each item would form this layer of skin over my body. Then when I got through the list I was just sitting there coated in negativity just letting myself feel it when after a minute I felt this glow start in my chest and had a vision of my body filling with a bright light that suddenly disintegrated and burned off all the shit that had formed the skin and it felt amazing.
Gotta love psychedelics.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: A.k.a]
#27122138 - 01/02/21 01:47 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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Aka that’s a powerful testimony. I must confess I love reading these stories
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Eugene Gesuale]
#27122153 - 01/02/21 01:57 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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My last trip was in 2013 believe it or not. I remember having an out of body experience and seeing myself and my family through the roof of our apartment complex with all the other families and all resembled hamsters or some strange little critters with no real purpose or divine nature. I was so bummed out because I always wanted life to have some existential or profound meaning, and up until this point I was unable to have that perspective. I never really broke through that understanding and reached a higher level of consciousness until my daughter got a little older and I could see how beautiful and set apart our species really is.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Josex]
#27122370 - 01/02/21 04:08 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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Josex said: Yea I even have to grind the calcium carbonate because I can only find it in pellets locally. I keep postponing getting it online in powder.
Try giving it a good soak and it should mix pretty well.
The negative trips always seem to carry more lessons
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: tryptkaloids]
#27122373 - 01/02/21 04:10 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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walmart has food grade powder
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: jcm4620]
#27122379 - 01/02/21 04:13 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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We don't have walmarts here. These pellets feel like little rocks, I'd be surprised if soaking did the trick, will try it nonetheless.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Josex]
#27122442 - 01/02/21 04:43 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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oh my bad again i forget where ppl are at times😂🤦🏻♂️
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: jcm4620]
#27122670 - 01/02/21 07:01 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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Hey My Myco Confession Crew!
A Happier New Year to you all!
I confess that I appreciate you all, your courage and vulnerability, your trust, your camaraderie, your sincere support of one another. It’s awesome, you’re awesome!
I started off the thread a little sneaky with encouraging funny or odd confessions of amateur mycologists, but I did expect and hope (and encouraged) more intimate confessions. I am grateful that you have added that type of confession to the mix on a regular basis. It makes this little slice of the Shroomery a stronger more cohesive and supportive community, I also appreciate that despite the sensitivity of some topics people are generally non judgmental and offer differing experiences and perspectives in a respectful way. I also am thankful that folks stay on topic (mycology / mushroom cultivation related confessions) so I don’t have to be a heavy and moderate much to get folks back on topic. Shout out to those of who help me in that task by giving gentle reminders to folks when some tangent is taking over the thread.
I confess that (despite the appearance that I’m checked out at times) socializing with this group and learning from your life (and cultivation related!) experiences is an important social outlet for me. Who would have known how much our social lives would shift to online community in 2020?!
Stay safe and well my mycofriends and grow lots of beautiful things to bring beauty, healing, and wisdom to our planet one trip at a time!
 
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: PsiloPsychIn]
#27122686 - 01/02/21 07:08 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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#27122755 - 01/02/21 07:44 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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I confess, my back hates SAB time. A couple 2-4 hr sessions a week and i'm toast.
Excited for a flowhood in the near future and the ability to move freely when doing culture work.
Oh, and I have covid right now. I'm a young buck though so i'll pull through.
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: Mr. Mushie]
#27122881 - 01/02/21 09:31 PM (3 years, 27 days ago) |
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Happy to contribute and thankful to have the place and community to do so. Thanks for the opportunity Psilo!
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Re: TRUE CONFESSIONS - of an amateur mycologist *DELETED* [Re: GypsyBastard]
#27125665 - 01/04/21 09:29 AM (3 years, 25 days ago) |
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I confess that I just took my first set of prints and they're probably dirty as hell
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