A story given to me by swim; as are all of my tales. It is written in the first person. (Not that it matters in this instance as Salvia D. is not illegal where I live.)
First trip report and I'm wordy. Bear with me.
So, as a bit of back story, I was 21 at the time (22 now) and had some experience with psychoactive substances (I'd smoked weed at least somewhat regularly since I was 18 and had discovered dex at 19 (Usual dosage was 300-600mg (upper L2 - L3), but I taken as much as much as 900mg+(L4+-). I had quit salvia a few months prior because I hit the trip limit and since then I had also done L a handful of times (one tab at a time) and mushrooms a few times (L3+-) I knew I definitely preferred natural substances to synthetics and still do.)
So one day one of coworkers who was interested in psychedelics told me that he had smoked Salvia. He told me it was really weird and he probably wasn't going to do it again, but he still had some. I'd heard of Salvia and had done some research on it / read some trip reports, but had never tried it. I offered to buy what he had left. So the next day he brings me a little container slightly over half full of brown/green flakes. Or maybe purple. I think that was the container though. I give him 20 bucks (no idea what concentration this was, but pretty sure I grossly overpayed. I knew that, but didn't really care. He had gotten it from someone else.)
Later in the day I'm hanging out with a friend that I often smoked weed with and I tell him that I'd got my hands on some Salvia. He asks what it is and I tell him it's a hallucinogenic. I ask if he want to try some. He says sure. So I pack a 1 hitter with a bit of weed and a small amount of Salvia and we each take a small hit. Instantly everything feels like it's going left. Or maybe I am. Kind of like gravity made a 90 degree turn. I dont think there were many visual distortions, but my head kept turning to the left on its own. I was also extremely confused (it felt like my IQ had dropped 40 points) and could feel something on my skin. I kept saying "what?" My friend sketched me the fuck out towards the end of the peak and during the come down. He felt evil. I was fine a few minutes later, but was more cautious of him from then on. (he was kind of a sketchy dude and I didn't really trust him, but then I can say that about most people. Trust issues.) So anyway we both decide that the experience was interesting, if not just plain confusing. I have about .2-3g left, but the flakes were rather light so there was still a fair bit in the container.
I get home later that night and decide I'm going to go for the full shibang. I load a small bong I use for splif with all the Salvia in thr container using a layer oftobacco as a screen and on top. I sit down in front of a window with a fan mounted in it and Venecian blinds covering the rest of the windowface; my usual smoking spot.
I light the bowl, take a hit and hold it in. Gravity shifts again. I breathe out after a few seconds and take another hit. The pull left speeds up and gets more intense. I feel as though I'm on the verge of something. I feel myself slipping away, so I hastily take another hit and instantly break through.
I am launched back through time and space (to the right. it was like going through a scifi warp tunnel) to to the parking garage where we had smoked earlier that day where I abruptly stopped (I saw myself and my friend in the third person. I paused there for a second and then was suddenly falling to the left. The only way I can describe it would be falling through reality. I was passing through rooms and could see the contents of them, though most I passed so quickly that I couldn't really process them. As i crossed from room to room they would fold into place behind me like Venecian blinds turning to the closed position. It was as though I was falling through nothingness and reality was forming behind me as I passed. I could also hear what sounded like a deck of cards being flipped through. At one point I passed a room that my sister was in and I saw her turn and look at me. I also remember wondering what the hell was going on and I saw the container of Salvia. It looked exactly like the real container had when I'd gotten it, but it was somehow alien; not of this earth. I was still falling. Suddenly I hit a room I recognized and I instinctively reached out and grabbed onto it. I felt myself stop, but formation of reality effect continued and passed through me.
I was on the floor on my left side. I felt wet (I wasn't) and could feel what felt like scales foldinginto place on my skin. My bong was on the floor in front of me. I was very confused and and afraid. I jumped up, looked around my apartment and saw that everything was fake. It was like I was in a really poor quality simulation. I remember yelling "what the fuck just happened. Dude, what the fuck is going on? In Etc." Even though inwas the only person in my appartment at the time, i was convinced someone could hear me. I was convinced that there was no way in hell a few pinches of leaves could possibly cause someone to experience what I just had, and that somehow I had broken real life. Broken the simulation, maybe. I just wanted it to be fixed again and to go back to my life as it was (though i recognized that everything was as it had been when I left. Only difference was that I knew it was fake now.). Everything was still "fake". My heart was beating extremely quickly and I considered calling my sister as I had seen her and she clearly knew what was happening. Instead I went and laid down in bed and closed my eyes.
A few minutes later I was ok, but still rather shaken. Things still seemed a bit off and I was still convinced that I had broken real life a few moments prior and thus it was clearly not "real". What I had just experienced wasn't possible in the law governed universe I thought I resided in. The illusion had reformed at this point and I no longer had tactile hallucinations. I was ok with that. I picked up my bong and cleaned up the spilled water. The bowl had broken.
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That's Salvia for you, it's some very hardcore shit. I've broken through on it once as well. The dimension I went to wasn't really scary at all (it was actually pretty cool honestly), but I don't think I'll ever try it again because it just seems like way to chaotic of a substance. It seems like an experience that could very easily turn into a terrifying trip. I'd much rather do DMT honestly haha. Not because DMT is necessarily better, I can definitely see the positive life changing potential in Salvia, but because DMT Is just a more comfortable manageable experience.
-------------------- "You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star"-Friedrich Nietzsche
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