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my friend commit suicide
    #23929323 - 12/15/16 01:03 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

:badtrip:

friend since 5 yo. he turned 26 this august, high functioning aspergers. interesting and unique guy. he was your typical socially isolated shy autistic but got interested in psychedelics. he done mushrooms and was fine. he took a sudden obsessed positive interest in life out of his room. without my knowledge or support, he ordered and done a ton of RC LSD analogues. it really fucked him up and went psychotic but disguised it well.
he got his first girlfriend at the start of 2016 but it eventually turned to shit. she was manipulative and loved controlling his vulnerable nature. it got verbally and sometimes physically abusive and her friends were even threatening him. fucking weak cowards :frown:

i fucking warned his mum and a few people he was really ill but i got a "oh its just his aspergers, he'll be fine".
aspergers, psychosis and severe depression. debilitating loneliness but his aspergers and illness made it extremely hard, almost impossible, for him to socialise.
he took his life on tuesday. they think he was planning it for weeks.... WEEKS, down to every detail. the dude was living life knowing he WAS going to kill himself soon. he put on his favourite music and clothes, made a little ceremony and just did it.... i don't know how he done it yet but i dont think he had access to any drugs.
he stayed over on sunday and i last seen him on monday.... not one goodbye... just a normal "see you later". he even had dinner with his family and gave his dad his birthday present on the monday night...
we talked alot about a afterlife.... different universes... souls.... reincarnation. i think he was actually in peace and comfort knowing he was not going to suffer anymore and when he left his physical body... anything was possible.

i found out today he left me and his individual family letters. we cant get them until the police are done with the investigation  :gocrythen:

for living and enduring a literal nightmare, i hope the super beings... Gods... made his next existence happy and full of bliss  :awecid:


i've got a cold as well, so i can't even exercise or go to the gym to make myself feel better :feelsbadman:



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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929345 - 12/15/16 01:10 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Rest in peace to a good soul, sorry for yours & the family's loss man..


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929346 - 12/15/16 01:10 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Are you being legit? Not to sound offensive or anything but using all the emoticons really makes this look like a troll post. Or you are not taking the gravity of the situation that serious.

Again no offense and if this is infact true I am extremely sorry, I hope his family are holding up okay... I couldnt imagine losing a child (I dont have one but the sheer thought of it is immensly tragic)


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: SonicTitan] * 1
    #23929352 - 12/15/16 01:12 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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SonicTitan said:
Are you being legit? Not to sound offensive or anything but using all the emoticons really makes this look like a troll post. Or you are not taking the gravity of the situation that serious.




I didn't see anything that suggested OP isn't taking it seriously?

Besides even if he was laughing about it, maybe that's just his coping mechanism.

Kind of rude to assume it was a troll post about something so serious, daz01 has been a member here for years.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929353 - 12/15/16 01:13 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

That is a very difficult age to have girl issues and disability issues.  People are graduating colleges and getting jobs.  Settling down with partners and making babies.  It's an age that makes or breaks a person.

Sad to see someone try the other option.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: SonicTitan]
    #23929357 - 12/15/16 01:14 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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SonicTitan said:
Are you being legit? Not to sound offensive or anything but using all the emoticons really makes this look like a troll post. Or you are not taking the gravity of the situation that serious.




Seriously, Who are we to ask this question? everyone reacts differently.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: SomeoneWhoIsMe]
    #23929387 - 12/15/16 01:21 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

I diddnt mean offense at all, I understand it could be ways to cope, I dont know people here well butI dont know, it just felt that way. I really do apologize again I really diddnt mean any offense by what I said.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: SonicTitan] * 6
    #23929394 - 12/15/16 01:25 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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SonicTitan said:
Are you being legit? Not to sound offensive or anything but using all the emoticons really makes this look like a troll post. Or you are not taking the gravity of the situation that serious.

Again no offense and if this is infact true I am extremely sorry, I hope his family are holding up okay... I couldnt imagine losing a child (I dont have one but the sheer thought of it is immensly tragic)




:whatwhatwhat: it's heart breaking but it dosen't mean i'm going to slump into a depression and only focus on the negative. you've gotta find some happiness and positivity in even the worst of situations.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929401 - 12/15/16 01:27 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

I'm sorry man...


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Re: my friend commit suicidef [Re: SonicTitan]
    #23929406 - 12/15/16 01:27 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

While I realize this will likely be an unpopular opinion among the legions of research lysergamide lovers here, I blame the research lyergamides. :shrug:


Let me tell you why. While good ol' tried and true LSD-25 has caused it's own share of psychotic breakdowns, (mine included,) it's methods of distribution keep people who aren't "hip to the scene," from being able to purchase it. I doubt your buddy with aspergers would've been able to go buy a sheet in the lot at a String Cheese Incident show from some dreadlocked individuals he would've had to talk about old Dead albums and smoke a joint with.

The internet's analogue scene enables literally anybody to order sheets on sheets, packs on packs worth of research lyergamides for realitvely cheap though, mental issues or no mental issues, provided you can figure out what a bitcoin is.


While these analogs may or may not be safe, one thing we know is that we have NO IDEA what the long term consequences of using these are.

LSD an incredible, spiritual, mystical, some might even say sacred experience, and it's my personal, (but largely unpopular,) opinion that these research lysergamide substances are a bizarre perversion of the real thing.

I take LSD very seriously, it's almost a religion. It concerns me that there are variations at all of the most perfect molecule ever constructed by God.

Variations. The thought makes me shudder. LSD opens doors to bright, positive places, but who knows where other LSD derivatives might take you? :eek:

That only one I could be compelled to try one day is ALD-52, since Albert Hofmann invented it. :shrug: I trust his chemicals.


Many condolences in regard to your friend's death, OP. Perhaps this situation might compel you to feel similarly in regards to research chemicals.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929413 - 12/15/16 01:30 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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daz01 said:
:badtrip:

friend since 5 yo. he turned 26 this august, high functioning aspergers. interesting and unique guy. he was your typical socially isolated shy autistic but got interested in psychedelics. he done mushrooms and was fine. he took a sudden obsessed positive interest in life out of his room. without my knowledge or support, he ordered and done a ton of RC LSD analogues. it really fucked him up and went psychotic but disguised it well.
he got his first girlfriend at the start of 2016 but it eventually turned to shit. she was manipulative and loved controlling his vulnerable nature. it got verbally and sometimes physically abusive and her friends were even threatening him. fucking weak cowards :frown:

i fucking warned his mum and a few people he was really ill but i got a "oh its just his aspergers, he'll be fine".
aspergers, psychosis and severe depression. debilitating loneliness but his aspergers and illness made it extremely hard, almost impossible, for him to socialise.
he took his life on tuesday. they think he was planning it for weeks.... WEEKS, down to every detail. the dude was living life knowing he WAS going to kill himself soon. he put on his favourite music and clothes, made a little ceremony and just did it.... i don't know how he done it yet but i dont think he had access to any drugs.
he stayed over on sunday and i last seen him on monday.... not one goodbye... just a normal "see you later". he even had dinner with his family and gave his dad his birthday present on the monday night...
we talked alot about a afterlife.... different universes... souls.... reincarnation. i think he was actually in peace and comfort knowing he was not going to suffer anymore and when he left his physical body... anything was possible.

i found out today he left me and his individual family letters. we cant get them until the police are done with the investigation  :gocrythen:

for living and enduring a literal nightmare, i hope the super beings... Gods... made his next existence happy and full of bliss  :awecid:


i've got a cold as well, so i can't even exercise or go to the gym to make myself feel better :feelsbadman:






You were a good friend, he must've known, I'm sure you'll read that in your letter

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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929428 - 12/15/16 01:36 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

A peaceful death is better than a lifetime of insanity...

It was his choice and he had all the right to make it.

RIP


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01] * 1
    #23929432 - 12/15/16 01:37 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Wow man, I wish you strength with your loss.

He's Eternal, you know that, he'll be around. He knew that and that probably helped him do it.

2016, the year of Cobalt, so many deaths and losses.

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Re: my friend commit suicide *DELETED* [Re: Morel Guy]
    #23929434 - 12/15/16 01:39 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: Wu-tang]
    #23929443 - 12/15/16 01:41 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Requiescat in pace:heart:


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929444 - 12/15/16 01:42 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

sorry for your loss daz... this has been a difficult year for so many people. So difficult to lose a friend, especially one that has been there your whole life.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929446 - 12/15/16 01:42 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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Quote:

SonicTitan said:
Are you being legit? Not to sound offensive or anything but using all the emoticons really makes this look like a troll post. Or you are not taking the gravity of the situation that serious.

Again no offense and if this is infact true I am extremely sorry, I hope his family are holding up okay... I couldnt imagine losing a child (I dont have one but the sheer thought of it is immensly tragic)




:whatwhatwhat: it's heart breaking but it dosen't mean i'm going to slump into a depression and only focus on the negative. you've gotta find some happiness and positivity in even the worst of situations.




I agree :hug:
Just be sure you aren't repressing your feelings or glossing over them. Talking about it is a good idea. Just make sure you let yourself stop and mourn when you feel the need to man.

I'm sorry things happened like that. But at least your bro is at peace now. Shame it had to be sought in such a tragic way :undecided:


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: Wu-tang]
    #23929508 - 12/15/16 02:00 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Suicide is sorta bullshit.  I've put myself in danger when shit was out of hand.  But suicide was never usually a very well planned out thing.  It must take  some very serious freaking out to do that sort of thing.

I guess I knew one guy that hanged himself.  People must think it will never get better.  Knew a guy that od'd also and people think it might of been on purpose.

Seems suicide is when there isn't any support.  But people surprise the shit out of others.

I think life is worth sticking around for.  No specific goal in mind, just living it out for that's the real slow suicide!


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Re: my friend commit suicide *DELETED* [Re: Morel Guy]
    #23929535 - 12/15/16 02:09 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: Morel Guy]
    #23929545 - 12/15/16 02:12 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Sorry to hear about your friend. This time of year is tough on lots of people....always remember to try and be kind and caring whenever  you come in contact with anyone....it may be the last time you see them. Prayers to you and your friends family.:hug:


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: SomeoneWhoIsMe] * 1
    #23929547 - 12/15/16 02:13 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Ya I'm schizoaffective and been in the hospital as much as jail.  I obviously know nothing about mental health.

I know enough that unless you kill yourself by mistake it's a dumb move.  It's not smart unless you are actually avoiding a really torturous death. 

Most people don't know how to get on a path that works.  I found weed used to help me a great deal.  Some drugs and mental problems are incapable of feelings of well being.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929550 - 12/15/16 02:13 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

sorry daz, stay strong bro I'll be thinking of ya.  :peace: :hug:


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    #23929578 - 12/15/16 02:23 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: SomeoneWhoIsMe] * 1
    #23929595 - 12/15/16 02:29 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Lot's of professional help and guidance out there.  Take a med and lifestyle that works.  Lower expectation as life ain't a fucking Christmas wish list and lay off the desire to heal wih psycadelics.


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    #23929653 - 12/15/16 02:49 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: SomeoneWhoIsMe]
    #23929673 - 12/15/16 02:54 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

What makes you believe or so naive to think life should be painless?

It's about having an ego that can accept what it cannot change and to change what it cannot accept.


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    #23929690 - 12/15/16 02:59 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: SomeoneWhoIsMe]
    #23929725 - 12/15/16 03:09 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

You don't understand.  A healthy ego is strong and can handle reasonable suffering.  Your mom sounds like a cunt.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: Morel Guy]
    #23929755 - 12/15/16 03:16 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

For someone who claims to have such disorders you should know that it can be damn near impossible to stop those thoughts and feelings from taking over you. I have been dealing with depression my whole life and its always there, and it indeed can take over your ego and everything about you. Its a fucking struggle every day, some are better than others but it never goes away.

Again I am really sorry about my earlier posts, sometimes I dont realize I sound like a dick, or just lose thefilter to what I should say sometimes (I was pretty high earlier) I really am sorry for sounding insensitie and my heart truely goes out to you daz


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: SomeoneWhoIsMe] * 3
    #23929764 - 12/15/16 03:19 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

This is not the thread for your arguments. This is a thread for OP for HIM to talk about HIS friend.

Move it to PM or make a new thread.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23929786 - 12/15/16 03:26 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Sorry for your loss. at least it sounds like he was sure about his decision and is finally at peace.

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she was manipulative and loved controlling his vulnerable nature.



Women, especially in their younger years, can be so fucking evil it sickens me. I know that most aren't that way but i've met so many that get off on behaving this way i sometimes wonder if ...nvm i don't want to derail the thread but dam if i don't feel like ranting about bitches like this.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: Apostle]
    #23929910 - 12/15/16 04:01 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Condolences OP thoughts your way.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: Apostle]
    #23930104 - 12/15/16 04:56 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Thanks everyone <3



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While I realize this will likely be an unpopular opinion among the legions of research lysergamide lovers here, I blame the research lyergamides. :shrug:


Let me tell you why. While good ol' tried and true LSD-25 has caused it's own share of psychotic breakdowns, (mine included,) it's methods of distribution keep people who aren't "hip to the scene," from being able to purchase it. I doubt your buddy with aspergers would've been able to go buy a sheet in the lot at a String Cheese Incident show from some dreadlocked individuals he would've had to talk about old Dead albums and smoke a joint with.

The internet's analogue scene enables literally anybody to order sheets on sheets, packs on packs worth of research lyergamides for realitvely cheap though, mental issues or no mental issues, provided you can figure out what a bitcoin is.


While these analogs may or may not be safe, one thing we know is that we have NO IDEA what the long term consequences of using these are.

LSD an incredible, spiritual, mystical, some might even say sacred experience, and it's my personal, (but largely unpopular,) opinion that these research lysergamide substances are a bizarre perversion of the real thing.

I take LSD very seriously, it's almost a religion. It concerns me that there are variations at all of the most perfect molecule ever constructed by God.

Variations. The thought makes me shudder. LSD opens doors to bright, positive places, but who knows where other LSD derivatives might take you? :eek:

That only one I could be compelled to try one day is ALD-52, since Albert Hofmann invented it. :shrug: I trust his chemicals.


Many condolences in regard to your friend's death, OP. Perhaps this situation might compel you to feel similarly in regards to research chemicals.




Damn true.
Fortunately, I lost all interest in doing most drugs, especially research chemicals, back in 2012 when I abused RCs and it induced/worsened schizophrenia. I'm 99% recovered now though.

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You were a good friend, he must've known, I'm sure you'll read that in your letter




He knew. He thanked me many times for trying and supporting him. My birthday was on the 6th and he gave me a card saying he appreciated the support and I was his best friend. Maybe that was his subtle goodbye, he would have struggled to tell me verbally  :gocrythen:

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Hobozen said:
A peaceful death is better than a lifetime of insanity...

It was his choice and he had all the right to make it.

RIP




I am happy for him. He was damn brave and strong to do what he did. He went through disgustingly bad stuff but survived so long. He deserved the right and control to end it :frown:

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I agree :hug:
Just be sure you aren't repressing your feelings or glossing over them. Talking about it is a good idea. Just make sure you let yourself stop and mourn when you feel the need to man.





Of course :hug: I'll go through random bouts of crying and extreme sadness then relief he isn't suffering anymore.


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Sorry for your loss. at least it sounds like he was sure about his decision and is finally at peace.

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she was manipulative and loved controlling his vulnerable nature.



Women, especially in their younger years, can be so fucking evil it sickens me. I know that most aren't that way but i've met so many that get off on behaving this way i sometimes wonder if ...nvm i don't want to derail the thread but dam if i don't feel like ranting about bitches like this.




It's so fucked up. No matter what she said or done to him, he went running back to her because of his loneliness and in his own words "nobody else will want me, I have no choice".
the fucking hilarious thing is.....

the bitch told him to.... KILL HIMSELF..... SEVERAL TIMES... amongst other disgusting fucking words  :fuckthisshit:

the family don't want a service/funeral... i'm glad actually. i'd have grabbed the bitch by the feet and thrown her outside when she turned up :frown: a bunch of her male friends actually beat him up once. i got their names from him cause i was angry and drunk one night but deleted them when i sobered up. i wish i had still had them so i could wring the skinny weak fucks by the neck, see how they react when they aren't face to face with a person so nice he'd struggle to say "no" and always say "thanks" and "sorry" when he never ahd too :frown:


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23930751 - 12/15/16 07:53 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Sorry for your loss man

Its good to hear you have perspective on the matter

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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23931149 - 12/15/16 10:41 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Sorry for your loss daz.:hug:


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: Lucis]
    #23931310 - 12/16/16 12:26 AM (7 years, 1 month ago)

I'm so sorry for your loss OP :sad:


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: Seriously_trippin] * 1
    #23932105 - 12/16/16 10:56 AM (7 years, 1 month ago)

I visited his family today and it was very emotional. The dad was almost catatonic, but he seemed to open up in-front of me and the family. He refuses to speak to people who aren't extremely close to his son, he just can't handle it :frown:
The mum struggled to tell me what he had done but when we were alone in the hall way and about to leave, she told me he hanged himself. It was quick and almost instantaneous  :gocrythen:
We are having a private burial (7 people) where we will say our final farewells.

I'm feeling much better now though, last night was the worst and I was up until 4am. I got alot of the sadness, frustration and anger out.








Though, I feel his girlfriend and her friends need to be punished but physical violence is probably not the answer. I'm not sure the family realised just what she was like, even though I warned them several times.... months ago. On one hand, it might make them feel more at peace on why his mental status deteriorated so violently and quickly. But, it make them feel even more guilty and upset at they never realised what was going on  :um:
The police have his phone and social media. They could easily see just what these evil people said and done to him :frown:
Perhaps I should forget about it and just stick to my spiritual beliefs.... karma. The little fuckers will get whats coming to them and it dosen't need to be through my actions.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23932114 - 12/16/16 10:59 AM (7 years, 1 month ago)

If they encouraged himself to commit suite that can lead to prison.  Otherwise it could be harassment or menacing. 

Just hope for cosmic justice.  She sounds like a bitch!


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: Morel Guy] * 1
    #23932663 - 12/16/16 02:38 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Dude don't hold a grudge.  People like that get what they deserve.  Your friend has his release, and someday we will all be together again with everything on the table for all eternity to see.  Just try to be there for people as you have been, you're doing as good as anyone can and giving into vengeful urges will only drag you down.


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: moonrockmushy] * 3
    #23954358 - 12/24/16 02:11 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

She and her friends are forgotten about. Just your generic and basic evil human-being degenerates, not worth my brains energy or negative emotions :lol:

The private burial was this week. Peaceful farewell. He made a music CD for the burial, most of it was Lord of the Rings and Final Fantasy (90s ones, he was happiest then) music.
Now that I've had time to remember some of the things he asked and we talked about, I'd say he was probably planning his suicide for 1 to 2 months.

Sometime last week, I had a pretty weird and awesome experience. I was lying in bed and an old dream, perhaps some kind of vision, suddenly popped into my head. He was asking over and over if I forgive him and I was sobbing saying yes yes yes, I do. Then I sat up, burst out crying and felt his presence in front of me :mindblown:
Since that night, things have been alot easier  :strokebeard:

The flu is also lifting and I was able to go to the gym yesterday :super:


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Re: my friend commit suicide [Re: daz01]
    #23954479 - 12/24/16 03:16 PM (7 years, 1 month ago)

Fuck.
Death takes the best first.


Sorry for your loss


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