So i dried out all mushrooms from both cakes (that survived the first-time-in-years hobby attempt) with a box fan and a bright ass lightbulb & black shirt combo. 3 g's in the end but i weighed out a little over 2 for this trip because this is the 1st time in a while, y'know...
gathered some materials: water bottles, some weed, an umbrella and, of course, one single apple. later on i realized i should have brought much more water and fruit because i chose some RIDICULOUS steep trails to hike on. this is on thanksgiving, by the way.
anyway, many of the trails on this mtn are riddled with mtn bikers speeding down, catching some pretty decent air too which actually looks quite fun but i'm definitely not doing this anytime soon. i happen to choose a trail that's got them going past in groups at least every 3 minutes. so i find a spot halfway up a moderately steep part of the trail, plop down on a dead tree and open up my bag to retrieve the mickey mouse tin. it tastes...not all that great. i know what they'll do to me, so i adapt to the taste and it begins to be more palatable but like i said, its been a while and i'm a little nervous. excited for sure, but a tad nervous.
also, mushrooms themselves taste great, but i'd argue than anything dried out is gonna taste kinda shitty. especially when it starts to turn to a weird paste...
now several days before this adventure into nature, i made sure to cover as many bases as possible to allow for minimal negative thoughts as i hike across this mtn.
leading up to the day of the trip, i made sure to force myself to do everything i needed to so i can get back on the right track and be consistent as possible.
i know what i need to be doing in every day life, but i tend to be lazy about it. working out, eating more and good food, studying javascript, reading more and watching less youtube. all of those things are obvious to me and i've just been having a hard time these past weeks/months to stay consistent with it all.
if i eat these in that sort of headspace, i know for sure the whole time i'll just be thinking about how lazy i am and how i should be just doing my work and not fucking around. the mushrooms would show me what i already know, and that's not the goal here.
i realize i'm putting maybe too much thought and effort into a level 1 trip, but in the end i think it was a very good idea from start to finish. better to be prepared, right?
i walk around the trails, enjoying the exercise and all of the woods around me. the air feels really clean and its remarkably easy to breathe, despite being winded from hiking up a trail as well as being anxious to see some visuals.
i'll just cut to the chase and say that i didn't eat enough to get any cool wavy effects like i was hoping for. the first and only 3 times i've eaten them, i got those effects and they're really cool to watch for me. i realize i'm expecting things, and that's not something you should do with any sort of psychedelic. set an intent for sure, but to expect anything is probably a bad path to take.
but i got weird visual contrast effects. things stood out more, detail was very apparent, the difference between the foreground and background was super obvious. sometimes i would turn a corner on a trail to see a dark shadow from a tree or large rock and it would give me a mini heart attack. i guess maybe i thought it was always a person standing there.
i hate to sound like a paranoid weirdo that's afraid of people, but that's exactly what it'll sound like. so...i'd be lying if i said that thoughts of murderers on mtn trails didn't cross my mind a few times. not in any great detail, but it would dance in and out of the edges of my thoughts.
in all honesty, i was much more wary and on the lookout for bears & maybe bobcats. where i live, these animal sightings are slightly rare but certainly not unheard of. there aren't any recorded attacks but i will not pretend that its not possible. sometimes crazy rare shit happens when you least expect it and sometimes when you're actively on the lookout for it. life is exceptionally weird and i don't think we should forget that.
these trails are pretty crowded. many mtn bikers like i said, but also people just walking by. i live in a relatively large city compared to the state i live in, and this mtn is usually pretty busy. everyone gave off generally nice vibes, if not completely indifferent. the people walking were the ones who were maybe a little icy, maybe cause my pupils were pretty damn large.
i wasn't particularly keen on seeing anyone, but i surely didn't mind it. i'm sort of a loner/quiet person that will talk a lot when spoken to, otherwise i'm super content to be alone.
other trails were pretty deserted though, and i had fun talking to myself as i walked up and down the peaks. my intent for this trip was to just be "in the moment" and enjoy nature. i'm usually always working, trying to study or being lazy at home, never really going anywhere. i had some pretty cool insights. pretty simple but still helpful. typical stuff, 'stop waiting for life to begin', 'the sense of anxiety is the desire to do something with myself', 'we always resist change', etc.
the entire time i was grinning from ear to ear, giggling at things that might've been slightly funny, and smiling at the fact that i was smiling. like a recursive loop of smiling. my cheeks were a little achy throughout the day but i loved it all. my thoughts felt profound but also light-hearted. i felt fragile but also strong, like i've been through life long enough to be arrogant enough to call myself "strong". paradoxical thoughts that seem to make perfect sense.
i also listened to some music. deadmau5 at first (the later half of Random Album Title) while i was eating the apple, which was the most fucking delicious thing ive ever tasted while tripping. i intentionally waited til i was very hungry before i ate so i would appreciate it more. and i only had one apple, so i needed to conserve it. i was already out of water at this point...
then i took out the music to be in the sounds of nature again. part of my adventure goal was to find water, for whatever reason. but i finally found a fairly large river/creek thing with huge rocks to sit on. so i sat down and put in more music. i think it was jimi hendrix and tame impala.
of course weed was burned at points throughout the hike. always at places that i thought looked comfortable or especially cool. but so many places looked amazing while even on this pretty light dose. the most ive ever eaten was 3.5 and it was an anxiety ridden experience. not because of the mushrooms, but my tripping partners were not having a good time and it made me just focus on keeping my own shit together. definitely ruined the experience...but maybe i learned some pretty important things that night. probably to always be in a good headspace before eating sacred plants.
i arrived at the mtn at around 11:15am and left 5 hours later, funnily enough at 4:20. the visual effects were all gone but the thoughts were still in "that mode". my pupils were definitely still larger than normal, i looked in the rearview mirror and i laughed hysterically but i swear i was perfectly good to leave at this point. the mtn also closes at 6pm this time of year and i did not want to be around possible bear territory at dark.
good time, definitely my choice of location on my next few trips. i still have 1 brf cake that's producing so i'll combine those with my hopefully-not-spoiled ones in the fridge. wish me luck!
Edited by zero123 (12/03/16 01:58 PM)
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