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Anonymous #1
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#23887298 - 12/02/16 11:37 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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It seriously bugs the shit out of me how people just all the sudden have some sort of pain or having anxiety the second the re-fill my scripts. I have a fucking tumor in my head and have fucking cancer and experience the worst fucking pain imaginable through out my whole body and need all my medicine and yet I don't even take it sometimes because I don't want to be one of these pill fiends 'cause the end is so near. I even skipped a month of my medicine and forced myself through a brief glimpse of hell. Does anyone else have these issues? It makes me so on edge knowing when I go get my script in a little im going to be hassled and manipulated for my own dying medicine.
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Anonymous #1
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I'd honestly care a lot fucking less if they just asked for acouple without some elaborate explanation . It makes me really resent them for The shitty act in stiffed with.
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MollyLucyMaryJane

Registered: 09/10/11
Posts: 1,302
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Greed makes people act a fool very often. Dont let it ruin your last days/weeks/months/years its just a part of life.
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Anonymous #1
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I ate mushrooms to try and "come to terms" nope. Nothing but anxiety and the overwhelming sense of how short life is I could literally feel it trying to burst out of my skull. I ran and ran all the way to my little brothers crawled into bed with him and cried he woke up said "oh hey" and he just held me and we cried. My whole trip I just freaked the fuck out about leaving my brother and how thisbis it for us. Yes life is beautiful that we are here experiencing this just this once thatsbwhat makes the experience so special and unique but that is over shadowed quickly by fear and regret I have to leave my brother forever.
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goldcaphunter
EMS Medic



Registered: 07/29/12
Posts: 7,432
Loc: Massachusetts
Last seen: 3 years, 2 months
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What are you diagnosed with? It sucks that people want to take away from you what makes you feel better for themselves. Stand your ground man!
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  The picture to the far left is a reminder to our users to stay safe and healthy, that's my third open heart surgery due to over use of amps. Stay safe kiddos
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Anonymous #1
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Ct has shown a 3 glioblastoma multiforme and just had my second surgery with it not looking like it's healing my new script is for 120 1mg kolonopin which will help a lot with the lack of sleep from blanket of anxiety i lay in. I want nothing but just to be with my brother he makes me want to continue breathing. Life is fucking cruel. He just turned 18 I'll never get to see him again. Help him with crazy girl friends, help him out of slumps, show him how to fix his car, take him to his first bar. Sure we get to hangout at the moment but it's not entirely the same. I'm not myself.
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goldcaphunter
EMS Medic



Registered: 07/29/12
Posts: 7,432
Loc: Massachusetts
Last seen: 3 years, 2 months
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Isn't there any hope of survival? Just keep pushing brother, I know you've got in you. We all do, that's why we're the dominant species.
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Anonymous #1
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my stage is a intense rapid growth my tumor is almost the size of a baseball. People have lived after being diagnosed with stage 4 but I don't see much hope d. It's funny how people who didn't want much of me in this life are now here as I m about to venture out of it.
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goldcaphunter
EMS Medic



Registered: 07/29/12
Posts: 7,432
Loc: Massachusetts
Last seen: 3 years, 2 months
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That's always how it is, don't feel bad. Have faith. I know it's hard.
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Anonymous #1
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I love you.
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goldcaphunter
EMS Medic



Registered: 07/29/12
Posts: 7,432
Loc: Massachusetts
Last seen: 3 years, 2 months
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Love you too
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ChameleonTruffle
quadrihorny



Registered: 05/28/14
Posts: 371
Loc: Puerto Rico
Last seen: 6 days, 16 hours
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Man, it sounds like a rough situation. Stay close to family, they clearly mean a lot to you. Take those people that take advantage of you out of your life. You don't deserve that and if they don't see it, they're judgement is extremely clouded.
Make your time worth it. We you! Will keep you in my thoughts.
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Anonymous #2
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Yeah that is pretty low. I was a pill fiend for years, but I never sunk as low to try to manipulate someone into giving me medicine they're taking for their own illness. I don't know how close these people are to you, and I would say the most important thing is not to hold a grudge, but that is some serious lowlife behavior there. You're truly brave and it sounds like your time here is well spent. There is goodness in you and in the world, and I hope you never lose sight of that even when troubles are all around.
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Thayendanegea
quiet walker



Registered: 02/20/12
Posts: 7,596
Loc: 7 Lodges Nation
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Meds can bring out the worst in people....especially pain meds. It's amazing how many friends you can have when you get a new script. I don't blame them...it's the hold they have on some people. My best friend was dying of stomach cancer a few years ago and didn't want to take his pain meds all the time because he didn't want to be numb for his last days on earth. Anyway, he collected quite an assortment of some HD pain killers....dilaudud, morphine...some liquid and even syringes with morphine for his hospice care. He got so sick of people asking for releif from their "all of a sudden" pains that he asked me to keep the stuff for him. I just threw the big bag of stuff in my shed and mailed it to his wife after he passed. It amazes me how much people love opiates and what an ass they will make of themselves to obtain some.
I wish you peace in your transition...I am hopeful that the world we go to is bliss. Hopefully.
-------------------- Look Deep Into Nature,and Then You Will Understand Everything Better. Albert Einstein
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