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I can't get a job.
#23887249 - 12/02/16 11:19 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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I wanna die.
Lets, uh, talk about that.
Should I want to die or should I be happy that I can at least shit and eat?
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah] 1
#23887272 - 12/02/16 11:28 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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In times of pain, discomfort, and uncertainty. I have found myself in a similar mindset. Heavy negative feelings can be blinding. It's easy to get lost. I sit down and write out all the things I have to be grateful for. I don't leave anything out. Even shitting and eating are something to be grateful for! If you compare it to the list of things that seem to be negatively effecting you, you may be pleasantly surprised at how blessed you truly are.
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah] 1
#23887283 - 12/02/16 11:32 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Really you want to die because your having a hard time finding a job? WTF do you think is going to happen when a loved one dies? Meditation works for depression as does large dose of shrooms. But having the tools through meditation will help you control your emotions, shrooms sometimes works great but it is a crap shoot.
Best of luck buddy btw I have not worked in twenty years its called retirement and I love it!
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah]
#23887322 - 12/02/16 11:44 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Not too hard to find something that will give you tons of motivation with the internet. Look around on google for different random crazy things people do with their lives.
There are ways you can completely change your lifestyle and get a job making good money out there.
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I'm planning to learn Russian to attract Russians to So Cal so we can start stop a douche bag over here
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah]
#23887399 - 12/02/16 12:18 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah] 1
#23888789 - 12/02/16 08:11 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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yeah said: I wanna die.
Lets, uh, talk about that.
Should I want to die or should I be happy that I can at least shit and eat?
What, let's talk about you being a useless eater? Why should I waste my time?
Get a job. Sorry I am being a dick, but really, your pity party is a solo thing. Should I feel sorry for you, and hold your hand? Fuck this "can't" thing. More like not right now, but your defeatism is frankly annoying. My worker tells me he "can't" wake up, well then maybe I fucking "can't" pay him as much. Everybody has a problem, I can't reach down and grab all of you by your fucking bootstraps.
I suggest you pick yourself up by your own bootstraps, just because it sounds cool.
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LunarEclipse said:
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yeah said: I wanna die.
Lets, uh, talk about that.
Should I want to die or should I be happy that I can at least shit and eat?
What, let's talk about you being a useless eater? Why should I waste my time?
Get a job. Sorry I am being a dick, but really, your pity party is a solo thing. Should I feel sorry for you, and hold your hand? Fuck this "can't" thing. More like not right now, but your defeatism is frankly annoying. My worker tells me he "can't" wake up, well then maybe I fucking "can't" pay him as much. Everybody has a problem, I can't reach down and grab all of you by your fucking bootstraps.
I suggest you pick yourself up by your own bootstraps, just because it sounds cool.
Your a dick dude. When your down in the dumps, I hope somebody dumps a whole truckload of shit on you. Literal shit. Diseased pig shit.
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Just dont give up. I have had friends with major felonies who were down on their luck with finding work and housing. We'll the ones who did not give up and took jobs that others wouldnt look for or would turn down due to pride got themselves hired. Some even worked their way up by being hard working and honest people on the job. It may take a while but go out every single day, and look sharp and presentable and have a RESUME on hand and apply apply apply. When your at home on your PC be using craigslist and more to look for work. I promise you it IS out there. Goodluck , Yeah.
and I have been there myself. I know the struggle. Best to you - dont give up. Go harder if anything.
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that and If you keep going and live frugally you can move up. Its going to take a while but you can do it IF you stay focued, you HAVE to stay focused or your chances of staying in a bad financial position increases and your emotional life will take a toll.
I dont know where you live or I would help you look myself. PM me if ur in dire straights I can find resources online somehow If i try.
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frankly if your open minded, and willing, and hard working and honest on the job and can look appearance wise presentable - you cant NOT find work. It may be extreme but its true. I have seen my own family members in positions you wouldn't believe and they found ways. You can too. Dont wallow in the mire too long, take action and stay active lest you doom yourself. Bc iv seen that too.. and too many times.
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah]
#23889659 - 12/03/16 03:49 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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yeah said: I wanna die.
Lets, uh, talk about that.
Should I want to die or should I be happy that I can at least shit and eat?
Well, if you don't get a job soon, your ability to eat may well be hampered, and then you'll have only shitting to be thankful for. And you need to eat in order to shit, so there are multiple concerns here.
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah]
#23889757 - 12/03/16 06:40 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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yeah said: be happy that I can at least shit and eat?
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: sudly]
#23889884 - 12/03/16 08:05 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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yeah said: be happy that I can at least shit and eat?

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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah]
#23889952 - 12/03/16 08:55 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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yeah said: I wanna die.
Lets, uh, talk about that.
Should I want to die or should I be happy that I can at least shit and eat?
Just watched this, and it is interesting but doesn't seem to be mention of how mind control imposes a deep sense or alienation, not only from other humans, but also the natural world and even one's very body and nature! This is not to suggest there is a state that a sense of loneliness doesn't exist, but rather that when looking into this you should be aware of the forces that manipulate us, which includes divide and control and itemization. having us feeling isolated and alienated from others and ourselves.
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: zzripz] 1
#23890026 - 12/03/16 09:28 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Just because you always react to TRIGGERS does not mean you are being manipulated. I get the feeling you want to blame someone for anything and everything.
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#23890326 - 12/03/16 11:33 AM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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yeah said: I wanna die.
Lets, uh, talk about that.
Should I want to die or should I be happy that I can at least shit and eat?
So, your self-esteem is really low right now because life is lacking purpose... You see how a career will open doors for you agreed?, I'd suggest to consider how making any assertions about what you can or can't do and what you want are likely self-deceptive, rhetorical ways to remain crippled. I suspect meaningful answers to your problems will increase your options, I would prefer to always feel skeptical of my thoughts if they affirmed permanence when you know it ain't sodidn't feel freedom when I wasn't thirsty. That wasn't freedom, but some dead habit that was a disservice (before long accumulate, and who knows shitstorm could be unleashed by a mind thats without discerning whether it's making a nourishing judgment that allows you some of your dreams into reality.....
I know how I've felt during times when I've felt worse than worthless. I just found myself doing shit a lot without even thinking about it. I'd go get a glass of water, refill it all day.... It's not that I was thirsty, I'd suspect we have no business just drinking water all day long, our capacity to experience thirst informs when it's time drink. I feel that it was one of a handful of dead activities, unconscious habits that are oral regressive in nature, keeping you in lock down. Surely there are things you can be doing to improve your lifestyle right now, somebody is foot your bill, probably giving you a little pocket cash here and there. If you still use psychedelics , really question yourself if you get the same results and life never really adapts into heightened states of liberty, or if it's a yoyo of ups and downs that gives a moment taste of what a future you might be like as totally extricated from drama, and then the lows of returning a comfortable cell of ideas with an expried shelf life.
I've met one person on this site who actually was in a comparable predicament, for him, he took a quarter ounce of shrooms and realized he was doing nothing with his life. That's the only restriction he had unconsciously believed in to keep him on autopilot and never adapt... The way I see it, life is like a meandering river, flowing into unchartered territory, days can be filled with countless new impression, or locked down like a deer staring into the headlights, frozen..... If you got any gist of what I mean with that frozen, static trains of though. I can't work, I want to die. You probably just find yourself doing this, it's not like you woke up today with the intent on working yourself into a total buzzkill state of anxiety.....
Back to this fellow, though, he actually provided this site a very good service on S&T giving a stab at solving people's tech frustrations, while also promoting a viable alternatiive with the idea of using linux as being free (as in freedom, not as in beer), but 'em shrooms into self-confidence that this was not just a hobby, but a viable and marketable skill..... Perhaps you have a knack for something you can do others cannot. Huge difference, can spend your entire life in the waiting room and there are certainly infinitely more harmful habits than spreading the word about open source software and needless frustration that M$ and Apple reducing your options to their way or the highway, Just a sweet guy, but transitioning into tech work, he had to let The Shroomery go (surely a site blocked by his corp, he couldn't use it to piss around during work, and more compute time was the absolute last thing he wanted.... He liked computers to work for him, d/l all his media via SS and populate it in his Home Media Theatre in a totally automated way, turning the TV on and jut seeing a boat load of options... He loves to travel abroad (is not picky, let's cheap airfaire decide his next adventure, ride motrocycls, indie films, open source linux conferences with his nerdcore friends. Shroomerite in uncle's basement to living in Manhattan on his own.
I have a few more stories of people in major ruts, I'd be happy to tell 'em to ya on the phone man and how they freed their mind and it changed their perspective entirely on what maybe was possible... Not going to lie, maybe your life will get a whole lot better, maybe a whole lot worse.... This is your life script, just sharing a few hacks that are improving my outlook.
Feel free to shoot me a PM if this was of any service.
Goodluck, maybe this too will pass. In the meantime, would suggest perhaps volunteering part time (using the rest of time to put in more applications. In my city (and this may be a Portland idiosyncrasy, but I've noticed a considerable handful of friends pitch an idea to the staff often self funding their careers (say a guy who wanted to promote for a commission to make sure all the time slots of the building (which is used for myriads of activities amongst the LGBTQ community were filled)..... Regarding the suicidal ideations, I'd really be weary about using social services for psychiatric help. In Asheville, NC I've witnessed somebody go to a mental institution, was not helped in the slightest, and was charged 10k (while unemployed). He was also prescribed virtually every psychiatric drug on the I'm skeptical something like that would happen in Oregon, but at the same time I'd want an older human with a solid understanding of the risks vs rewards. At the very least, if you're in a red state, I might find somebody else to talk about suicide with.... Like three day inpatient, sedated, group therapy and send you on your way is going to help? Blargh. I truly thought he was FUBAR, my other best buddy carried him for a solid six years or so while he was unemployed, also playing the role of a worried dad whwen he'd go MIA for a couple days. He had no ability to reason, so rhetorical, shutdown every idea I had. I gave my damned heart to it...... And then, one day, somebody gave him a chance He's now a school teacher, and teaches little kids how to use computers via mindcraft, and the curriculum for next season is teaching kids how to use DAWs to make music. What a joy to have him as a teacher. There was a time his life was so bad he was checking Facebook updates every minute, it was so sick..... Imagine Narcissist staring into the pool not because he was so infatuated by his inflection, in my interpretation of the myth, he fucking hated it - he was just paralyzed with fear that if he stopped looking, he'd cease to exist. That's was my buddy waking up and drinking a six pack before noon sitting there refreshing facebook to check his status...... Social networking is another dangerous habit that may be a dead in option, going outside and meeting people in Asheville's tech talks, hitting up the arcade with his fellow geeks, all this things planted the seeds to a job he feels really good about himself, influencing another generation of arduino tinkerers and raspberry pi, minecraft, learning to video edit and make polished youtube videos of their mindcraft work... He's back from the dead, freer than ever....
Again I can tell you more, I know many people who have DIY their career here, handful of friends who volunteered and pitched a self-sustaing job, have an acquaintance on this site whose simple passions of gardening and entheogenic enthusiasm for John Lilly got him a job at the biggest float tank/isolation tank... I mean while looking for a job, I'd create little ways to bring in some pocket cash. Got a web cam? Could always toss a load on one of those porno sites.... You might not think you're hot, but I am pretty sure there is an audience for everyone... Maybe not the best thing for your integrity, but who knows, personally I think most work is rote crap that should be replaced with AI, not to make the 1% richer, AI should be socialist in nature to free people from a lifetime of being slowly bored to death..... Everyone doesn't need to work, it's a pipe dream, there will always be some statistic. Our attitudes need a paradigm shift, this is the reality of a robust economybut to stop enslaving people into factories Volunteer part time, even if you can't worm your way in to being employed by them, it may get other people thinking and caring about you and helping you find a working solution.....
Typed myself out about this one for now, but if I am getting through to you at all hit me up.... I've seen some really great people get in really scary ruts and rebound. This is your script man,nobody can tell you what is meaningful or how you should feel.... Everyone is just guessing.... All we can do is share stories of our own struggles, how our minds were hijacked, and what it cost to buy oneself out of a reality that originally bought you.
Penny for a thought.
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I know, I dig. we do not agree. That is, from my perspective YOUR problem and not mine.
I feel that no matter what I say will not convince you...YET from what I have researched, and continue to find out, what I say is what I mean. So if you have a problem with that, then tough. That is how I see things and want to share with others.
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah]
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Re: I can't get a job. [Re: yeah]
#23926830 - 12/14/16 04:48 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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What does that mean?
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