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nexxone
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Motivation and drug use questions and opinions
#23861816 - 11/23/16 08:06 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Been a while since i been on here but i like this community and i dont really like talkign about real things with poeple i know IRL. Im gonna start this off by saying i dont think im an addict by any means... the only drugs i use really are weed/benzo/opiates but im not currently addicted to anything and i can keep the pills under control or at lest i have been fine with that and i been messing with them for years on years.
but the main thing im posting about is since i dont feel like im an addict, i also dont really give a fuck about anything but getting high. not sure when this started or what but ive just been thinking about this lately all the things i used to enjoy i dont really care about as much anymore. i feel i am a functioning drug user but i just dont seem to care about anything anymore.
i havnt used anything in a week or 2 currently (completely sober) and im doing fine BUT... i still dont feel like doing much els but getting high, i have pretty good self control so i dont really NEED to per se.. but i still dont really care about much and i just want to escape.
not really sure what my question is i just felt like getting other peoples opinions and experiences for some enlightenment. right now it seems like my point of life is to get high and escape life....
things i used to enjoy i dont enjoy as much anymore, and these things have not been replaced by new things i enjoy. i been using since middleschool and been bout that life ever since and im much older now (26) and idk i just ask myself is this it? i just dont seem to have many wants besides getting high lol. its really all i think about life is just stale and depressing to me now, so much repeat and i dont really have any desire or motivation to do other things. I have also cut a lot of people out of my life who also had lifes revolve around drugs but i dont know anyone really who is sober.
and thats cool and all i have nothing against anyone doing what they want to do cuz its there life but i just feel like i want more out of mine. i know right now i will never give up drugs forever like no matter what, but now that ive gotten clear headed i just feel like i want a purpose or something, otherwise im just smashing through the galaxy on spaceship earth waiting for everything to end?
just a thought, any i would be eager to hear others opinions and experiences dealing with these same thoughts.
tl;dr what is the ultimate design
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kakashi68
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: nexxone]
#23861852 - 11/23/16 08:25 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Your not addicted.... yet.
But I would think you might be depressed.
And if thats the case its only so long before you will become addicted.
See if you can go talk to a counselor or something.
Or if you fall under the country that doesnt care about the mental health of its citizens, see if you can get online free help.
-------------------- You know, just sometimes in between the first cigarette with coffee in the morning to that 400th glass of cornershop piss at 3am--you do sometimes look at yourself and think--this is fantastic. I'm in heaven. -Bernard Black
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: nexxone]
#23861878 - 11/23/16 08:39 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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You should find something new to put your time into, you know like a new hobby, or start exercising, you'll feel great.
Find something besides drugs to get addicted too, just not food because you don't want to get fat.
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: kakashi68]
#23861897 - 11/23/16 08:46 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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well thats why i posted here, im def not gonna get addicted i dont think ive been using for over a decade lol. and like i said im completely sober by choice right now just to see if my motivation to do other things would come back.
yeah sometimes i do feel real depressed but other times i dont.
also i would like to state i dont use benzos or opiates all the time, maybe a few times a month and by a few i mean 2-3 times max. smoke weed everyday all day tho to the point where im high 24/7 lol. but yeah like i said completly sober for about 2 weeks now.
so its not so much about addiction im curious about but just more how it could be effecting my motivation. it could be something entirely different too, like i said ive been getting high for a really long time and i have not always felt this way at all.
its more petty shit tbh, like i used to enjoy playing video games and basketball and hanging out with people and now i just dont really care for those things anymore, they dont seem to catch my interest.
should i just keep staying clean? i cant really imagine living sober forever fuck all that noise, but its nice to get a clear head every now and then i suppose.
eat work sleep rinse repeat, life feel way to stale to go on sober lol. i will say that as time goes on and on i believe less in god and it seems like theres no point to anything and i feel like a slave to america capitalism, like my brainwashed mind hex has finally been broken beyond repair and the silver lining is no longer in my visual spectrum.
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: Lucis]
#23861904 - 11/23/16 08:50 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Fennario said: You should find something new to put your time into, you know like a new hobby, or start exercising, you'll feel great.
Find something besides drugs to get addicted too, just not food because you don't want to get fat.
yes this, i do need a new hobby and thats what ive been looking for. i just seem to be at a point where i dont think i have any interest.
nothing really drives me anymore
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: nexxone]
#23861908 - 11/23/16 08:51 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Alcohol and Drug Addictions The criteria for addiction to alcohol and drugs are typically diagnosed using the criteria for substance dependence. There are seven criteria for substance dependence. To be diagnosed, the person would have to have at least three of the criteria within the same year.
The first two criteria, tolerance, and withdrawal, are central to “physiological dependence” on a drug. A person can be diagnosed with substance dependence either with or without the “physiological dependence,” although a person is at greater risk of medical problems and relapse if he does not have “physiological dependence.”
The seven criteria for substance dependence are:
(1) Tolerance, as defined by either of the following:
(a) A need for markedly increased amounts of the substance to achieve intoxication or desired effect.
(b) Markedly diminished effect with continued use of the same amount of the substance.
(2) Withdrawal, as manifested by either of the following: (a) The characteristic withdrawal syndrome for the substance (refer to Criteria A or B of the criteria sets for Withdrawal from specific substances). (b) The same (or a closely related) substance is taken to relieve or avoid withdrawal symptoms.
(3) The substance is often taken in larger amounts or over a longer period than was intended.
(4) There is a persistent desire or unsuccessful efforts to cut down or control substance use.
(5) A great deal of time is spent in activities necessary to obtain the substance (such as visiting multiple doctors or driving long distances), use the substance (such as chain smoking) or recover from its effects.
(6) Important social, occupational, or recreational activities are given up or reduced because of substance use.
(7) The substance use is continued despite knowledge of having a persistent or recurrent physical or psychological problem that is likely to have been caused or exacerbated by the substance.
Also, weed is a drug.
Weed can be linked to amotivation.
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: Lucis]
#23861916 - 11/23/16 08:55 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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The balance and homeostasis of neurochemical soup is so fragile, I feel you. Everything you put in your body (food, supplementation) and how you use your energy and focus effects your emotional landscape.
What I really want to know is, you chose the word escape to describe your drive or effect of getting high, is that your well-thought out reasoning for use, or just an easy perspective to attach to when you're feeling down?
What do you like to do when high? It's possible that you are fond of the altered state because it enhances your experience, rather than it being a route to run from the present moment (the culmination of the life you've created at this point).
And the hobbies that no longer interest you may not offer the stimulation that you need for your soul's development. So I think figuring out what truly inspires you to grow, combined with an intelligent use and balance of mind-altering substances can be a great way to channel your energy and find that fulfillment that really touches and speaks to your core.
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nexxone
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: Khancious]
#23861961 - 11/23/16 09:10 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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mrblueyomind: ye i know weed is a drug and i am a chronic user of that but i never really considered it a drug after dealing with "real drugs" but i agree about the lack of motivation part
khancious: my word of escape is more an easy perspective to attach when im feeling down, when im high i just do things i usually do, ie: play games, watch movies, chill w/ friends, finish my shift. i have suspected that doing everything high has effected my drive to do these things as i lose interest.
i have cut a lot of friends out of my life who i just didnt enjoy being around anymore because they also became people i just got high with, never shared enough of my other interest i guess u know those friends u have, and the only reason you are friends with them in the first place is because u all get high and thats about where your shared interest ends.
and i feel glad i was able to cut these people out but at the same time it hasnt changed much for me yet. i could be a bit smarter with my use with weed since i literially try to be high all the time to the point where i cant even remember what its like to not be high. but i think the main thing is i need to figure out what does inspire me. and thats what i think about non stop its just really hard to figure out.
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: nexxone]
#23862016 - 11/23/16 09:38 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re-evaluating the company you keep is definitely a key component to creating a life worth living. You want to be inspired creatively, and loved for who you are and where you want to go. And that will be reciprocating with the right people because you also will inspire and love them.
Playing games and watching movies is all fine and dandy but what do they offer besides momentary entertainment?
And I used to smoke superfluous amounts of cannabis as well, almost as a means to force complacency. It can have therapeutic and meditative benefits, a great tool to analyze yourself and widen your insight but you have to use it that way, to enhance your intellectual horizons and the alignment of your dreams with the process of actualizing them.
I would recommend a break, however "hard" that may be to lower your tolerance which will also help weed out (big fat dank pun) what isn't going to give you the satisfaction in the future as you reminisce on the choices you made, and the patterns that follow.
I'm only 25, but getting real honest with my soul about the story of life I want to create is the toughest experience I've had and am having (first world problems), but with awareness comes intent, and when something feels right for you, it's intuitive, and will really get your juices boiling.
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: Khancious]
#23862049 - 11/23/16 10:01 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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ye well like i said i am currently on a break atm, and ive taken breaks in the past as well but when i took breaks in the past they were purely t-breaks and not due to the feelings i have now, im only 26 as well so maybe its just that age of finding meaning right now which has caused me to feel this way.
playing games and watching movies is just things i have done for momentary entertainment like you said, which is why i just feel stale. i have made a ton of bad choices and ive fucked up in the past and honestly im prolly doing the best right now as far as not getting introuble and working but i just know this isnt what i want out of my life.
what i wouldnt do to travel back in time, until i gain that ability i suppose i am sentenced to continue wandering until i find the right path for me. its just really nice for me to be able to express my mind and have others relate and makes me feel less alone and gives me hope that i will find my lane eventually.
>insert generic wandering around town staring into reflection of pond scene<
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: Lucis]
#23862062 - 11/23/16 10:07 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Fennario said: You should find something new to put your time into, you know like a new hobby, or start exercising, you'll feel great.
Find something besides drugs to get addicted too, just not food because you don't want to get fat.
Yes been trying to replace drugs with exercise... not easy
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nexxone
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Re: Motivation and drug use questions and opinions [Re: SinSemilla]
#23862086 - 11/23/16 10:16 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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i grew up doing both lol so i couldnt replace one with the other. i used to be a hooper and we would always blaze and run games like all summer, but now all of the homies work full time and many have kids and shit and just kinda fell apart no one really has time anymore it seems like.
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