So much value to just post on this website. I was rereading posts from 9 years ago, and I realized I TECHNICALLY came out as trans on the shroomery 9 fuckin years ago. It did teach me one thing, no one listens to cries of help. In otherwords, subtlety is best when it hits like a hammer.
So, because there are often posts I find unreadble or stupid as fuck in the Pub, here is my unreadable or stupid as fuck post.
Anyway I guess this is sort of a report for myself and maybe others, because I find it to be pretty interesting shit. Interesting shit and intersting solid gold. I seem to live a Yin-Yang exsistence now.
So in no particular order:
So, since this is a DRUG forum, I'll start by mentioning my new favorite drugs, Estrogen and Anti-Androgens. One gives me titties and secondary sexual charactersistics and the other stops my balls from producing crippling testosterone. So this is a drug, no matter how exploratory someone is, will never be consumed by someone who identifies as cismale. That's kind of cool. Using the matrix as a dated analogy, I have swallowed both red and blue pills.
So, I've been on hormones 53 days as of writing this. Is there a difference between a mind on testosterone and one operating on estrogen? So far, yes. But drastically? Not at all. I notice I'm more sensitive, but not like "pussy ass bitch" sensitive. People tell me to kill myself on line regularly and I can take it. I ain't no pussy bitch. By sensitive I mean I take longer to care for my own emotions and others. something that I would be insensitive about before, now I care much more.
I read that REAL mental changes don't come until 6 months+, buuut who knows. Either way I would kill a man if they threatened to take away my titty skittles and breast mints.
At one point I DID feel like I slammed dunked my cismale privelege right into the fuckin garbage (where it belongs, to be fair) At first people thought it was a joke, then as they realized I was really claiming to be female I noticed slight attitude shifts from some people. Some stayed but I think it was because I wasn't working on my voice. The voice REALLY solidifies that mae privelege in the garbage. I think people just take lower voices seriously, including lower voices on females. The average guy voice is 100-120 herz and girls go to 200-240. I always loved talking in a higher voice however one mental hurdle I'm starting to get over is losing my old voice.
My advice is that men who wanna stay men should also do voice training. I could have an AWESOME male voice. I don't want to and the thought of sounding make makes me sick, however men who wish they had a deeper booming voice: you can train it. And you should. There is power in a a voice and cis men and women should also recognize that and train accordingly. One of my girlfriends makes fun of her friend because her "female business voice" sucks.
I shall report more later, but I have housewife duties.
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