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rider420
Ghost in the machine


Registered: 02/11/16
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Let it go. Forget about your past if you really want a new future. Move on become a new person or you will go back to your old ways.
Get a new name and a new persona change everything if your sincere but already your seeking to renew your old name and old habits.
Only if you let go of the past will it stop haunting you, let go and become that new person you want to be. Or its eat sleep rave repeat.
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AlexestalexDatura
Stranger

Registered: 11/17/16
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: rider420]
#23841495 - 11/17/16 12:00 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I don't want to make a puppet. It'll probably get banend. I just want to be forgiven. I'm not even asking to be unbanned immediately- give me a year ban if you want. But I just want to be able to post on the shroomery again because I am a different person now, free from the mental health problems that took over my life previously.
I'm a new person, my views, thoughts, mindset, etc has completely changed for the better with these meds. I just want a second chance with my old acocunt.
On a daily basis, I was praying that my parents would die in a car crash or get cancer. I haven't had these thoughts for a while because of these meds. Do normal people have these thoughts? of course not. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia which was the root of my hatred, paranoia, shame, etc. These meds are a miracle because I feel so liberated from my intrustive destructive thoughts now.
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Registered: 02/17/04
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AlexestalexDatura
Stranger

Registered: 11/17/16
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: rider420]
#23841523 - 11/17/16 12:08 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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rider420 said: Let it go. Forget about your past if you really want a new future. Move on become a new person or you will go back to your old ways.
Get a new name and a new persona change everything if your sincere but already your seeking to renew your old name and old habits.
Only if you let go of the past will it stop haunting you, let go and become that new person you want to be. Or its eat sleep rave repeat.
I can't go back to my old ways. My old ways were caused by a mental illness. I take abilify every night and it silences my intrustive irrational fearful thoughts for 24 hours.
this isn't a matter of slipping up and becoming a hateful person again. the chemical changes from abilify get rid of all the hatred, anger, paranoia, shame, etc that I'd feel from my intrusive thoughts.
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JohnnieYen
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Registered: 03/15/11
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Loc: City Z
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I for one think you should get another chance, even though you said some horrible things in the past.
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larry.fisherman
shoulda died already


Registered: 11/03/12
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tyrannicalrex said:
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spirit_shadow said: People dont change 
...but they can change the way they do things. I give people the benefit of the doubt 90% of the time.
Which is the difference between judging and understanding.
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CookieCrumbs
Fucked off to the pub


Registered: 12/10/11
Posts: 14,146
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: JohnnieYen]
#23841550 - 11/17/16 12:14 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I agree.
I'm glad you're getting help Alex. Are you still doing drugs?
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AlexestalexDatura
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i was prescribed abilify two weeks ago. It took 3-4 days before I felt anything but after that it was pure clear-headed bliss. I haven't done any drugs with it besides an occasional cigarette.
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larry.fisherman
shoulda died already


Registered: 11/03/12
Posts: 36,294
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Good for you.
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rider420
Ghost in the machine


Registered: 02/11/16
Posts: 659
Last seen: 4 months, 7 days
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AlexestalexDatura said:
I can't go back to my old ways. My old ways were caused by a mental illness. I take abilify every night and it silences my intrustive irrational fearful thoughts for 24 hours.
this isn't a matter of slipping up and becoming a hateful person again. the chemical changes from abilify get rid of all the hatred, anger, paranoia, shame, etc that I'd feel from my intrusive thoughts.
Sorry to tell you this buddy but medications that help with mental illness generally only work for six months to a year. Please talk with your doctor about this and how to spot your illness when it does return.
I know its not your fault dude mental illness is never the fault of the person effected, but like you say its a chemical imbalance and odds are it will reoccur your doctor really should have told you this.
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CookieCrumbs
Fucked off to the pub


Registered: 12/10/11
Posts: 14,146
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: rider420]
#23841606 - 11/17/16 12:33 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Drugs seriously exacerbate mental illness, paranoia in particular. OP might be able to come off meds all together, after a little while, if he stays clean and gets counseling.
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AlexestalexDatura
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Registered: 11/17/16
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: rider420]
#23841612 - 11/17/16 12:35 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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rider420 said:
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AlexestalexDatura said:
I can't go back to my old ways. My old ways were caused by a mental illness. I take abilify every night and it silences my intrustive irrational fearful thoughts for 24 hours.
this isn't a matter of slipping up and becoming a hateful person again. the chemical changes from abilify get rid of all the hatred, anger, paranoia, shame, etc that I'd feel from my intrusive thoughts.
Sorry to tell you this buddy but medications that help with mental illness generally only work for six months to a year. Please talk with your doctor about this and how to spot your illness when it does return.
I know its not your fault dude mental illness is never the fault of the person effected, but like you say its a chemical imbalance and odds are it will reoccur your doctor really should have told you this.
This is the first antipsychotic I've ever been prescribed. So far it's working wonderfully for me, I couldn't be happier. Perhaps he can up the dose later, I'm only on a 5mg dose and some people take 20-30mg
Plus the psych told me I would begin CBT or something like that in a few weeks so that will probably help me too.
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AlexestalexDatura
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CookieCrumbs said: Drugs seriously exacerbate mental illness, paranoia in particular. OP might be able to come off meds all together, after a little while, if he stays clean and gets counseling.
yeah, I plan to stay away from pot, psychedelics, dissociatives all together. they all make me extremely delusional in a paranoid way.
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BANANA.MAN
Turd Ferguson


Registered: 01/11/15
Posts: 7,474
Loc: Ontario Canada
Last seen: 6 months, 3 days
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ModestMouse said: You wont get any better, been a shitbird since you joined. youre a skid on the face of the forums and belong in a mental institution. You're anti-family and anti-life sentiments are neither warranted nor welcome.
Fuck off to drugs forum/reddit
Wow dude i didnt expect that from you. Maybe you will never get clean. Fuck off to the needle exchange. How does that feel?
He needs help just as much as you do.
The dude has mental health problems.
Alex i think its great that you got help and that you managed to quit drugs. I think you deserve another chance.
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ModestMouse
IM WALKIN ON SUNSHINE



Registered: 05/06/13
Posts: 19,227
Loc: Upstate
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: BANANA.MAN] 1
#23841714 - 11/17/16 01:08 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Im a bastard through and through He talks a lot of game and then next week there will be hate threads and bullshit.
He won't be helped by being on here. Also I may be ill, but I contribute humor.. he doesn't entertain in the least. I get that we're generally inclusive and lovey dovey but It's occasionally to a fault. This motherfuckers continued bullshit is a golden example of failure to keep out the shitbats.
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AlexestalexDatura
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: ModestMouse]
#23841741 - 11/17/16 01:19 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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ModestMouse said: Im a bastard through and through He talks a lot of game and then next week there will be hate threads and bullshit.
He won't be helped by being on here. Also I may be ill, but I contribute humor.. he doesn't entertain in the least. I get that we're generally inclusive and lovey dovey but It's occasionally to a fault. This motherfuckers continued bullshit is a golden example of failure to keep out the shitbats.
I'm not looking for "help" or "emotional support" on shroomery, although most members here are quite caring and supportive of one another. I'm already seeing a psychiatrist and we're going to start cognitive behavioral therapy in a few weeks. I am just genuinely sorry for how I behaved in the past and I want to be given a second chance because I love this forum and I believe I can prove that I'm not some sort of heartless sociopath troll anymore.
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ModestMouse
IM WALKIN ON SUNSHINE



Registered: 05/06/13
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Loc: Upstate
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Fuck off You'll get no sympathy from me shitbat
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SirShroomsAlott
Howdy



Registered: 05/15/14
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Loc: United States
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I'd be willing to give you a second chance (not that it's up to me) but will still think of you as a sociopathic douche bag until proven otherwise, after all I've literally never seen any other side of you but if you are getting help then I hope it continues to help you out if it's true.
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AlexestalexDatura
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Registered: 11/17/16
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Last seen: 7 years, 2 months
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: ModestMouse]
#23841762 - 11/17/16 01:26 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I don't want sympathy or pity from anybody.
I am simply trying to say that for the past few years I have been having some mental health problems that ensued a plethora of irrational intrusive thoughts that caused me paranoia, anger, pain, etc which was the cause of my rude behavior here.
I take full responsibility for my bad behavior here.
I am now free from these irrational, paranoid thoughts because of my meds and hopefully the cognitive therapy I'll start soon will benefit me even more. I feel much calmer and more loving towards people, even my own family. I am hoping the mods consider this and give me a second chance to post on this forum.
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Shiithead
Your Huckleberry



Registered: 04/05/13
Posts: 9,997
Loc: God's Flat Green Earth
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: ModestMouse]
#23841763 - 11/17/16 01:27 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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All trauma and toxicity can be cured with proper diet and nutrition. Drugs are for recreation, not health.
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