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AlexestalexDatura
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To the mod who banned me 1
#23841398 - 11/17/16 11:32 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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A while back I was having mental health problems and I asked to be banned. I am now seeing a pyschiatrst and am prescribed ambilify for my schizophrenia. It is really helping me get rid of my intrustive, destructive, paranoid thoughts.
I am genuinely super sorry for my behavior before. I just wasn't in the right state of mind. I am much more calm and clear-minded with these meds now and I promise to behave and follow all the rules.
I sent a support ticket and the admin asked to me to contact the mod who banned me. But I'm not sure who it was that banned me.
Please, give me a second chance. I love posting on shroomery and it's by far the best forum on this planet.
I was feeling suicidal and paranoid before but these meds are helping me find balance in life and I feel much better now.
Please give me a second chance, or at least ban me for a few months. But not a permaban please.
I am sorry again for my reckless behavior. I assure you I am a changed man and my mental health problems are ceasing to exist.
My account is Alexestalex.
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AlexestalexDatura
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as for the puppets, i had one and I'm not sure why it was ubanned, even though i remember it was banned.
I am sorry for the puppets, I promise I'll never make one again.
i made another puppet (this one) but I dont plan to post with it, I just wanted to use it to try to find the mod who banned me but I was unable to find him so I made this thread.
please, im sorry again. I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
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AlexestalexDatura
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i will buy a supporter account to show how sorry I am and how badly i wanted to be unbanned. I promse I'll be on my best behavior and if I ever slip up perma-ban me, but I promise I want. But please just give me one more chance to prove that I have changed my ways.
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qman
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Gonna need a note from your parents, do you still hate them?
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SirShroomsAlott
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Do you still want your parents to get cancer and suffer for as long as possible so you can laugh to their faces and tell them how happy it makes you that they're suffering as they die?
You must also commit yourself to the extermination of all hippos if you wish to return.
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ModestMouse
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You wont get any better, been a shitbird since you joined. youre a skid on the face of the forums and belong in a mental institution. You're anti-family and anti-life sentiments are neither warranted nor welcome.
Fuck off to drugs forum/reddit
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AlexestalexDatura
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: qman]
#23841422 - 11/17/16 11:40 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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No I don't hate anybody anymore.
I was constantly having intrusive thoughts of pure hate and paranoia. I believed such paranoid things like thinking I'd go blind or thinking everyone could read my thoughts. These meds have completely silenced these irrational fears and ideas. I feel so clear-headed now. I am no longer controlled by these hateful intrusive thoughts.
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Why did you set your mood to "angry"?
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AlexestalexDatura
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: ModestMouse]
#23841428 - 11/17/16 11:42 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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ModestMouse said: You wont get any better, been a shitbird since you joined. youre a skid on the face of the forums and belong in a mental institution. You're anti-family and anti-life sentiments are neither warranted nor welcome.
Fuck off to drugs forum/reddit
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ModestMouse said: You wont get any better, been a shitbird since you joined. youre a skid on the face of the forums and belong in a mental institution. You're anti-family and anti-life sentiments are neither warranted nor welcome.
Fuck off to drugs forum/reddit
I'm not asking for pity. But it's a horrible state of mind to be in when you believe that everyone knows all your secrets and everyone is plotting against you. What am I to do? I was emotionally fucked up and mentally unstable but now I've gotten help and am already improving and feeling better. I just want a second chance to prove I'm not a monster anymore. I love shroomery, it's my favorite forum ever.
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AlexestalexDatura
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: ONE OZ SLUG] 1
#23841431 - 11/17/16 11:42 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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ONE OZ SLUG said: Why did you set your mood to "angry"?
misclick im on my phone
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Shiithead
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: ONE OZ SLUG]
#23841433 - 11/17/16 11:42 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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ONE OZ SLUG said: Why did you set your mood to "angry"?
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Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Psalm 12:6 The words of the Lord are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times. Hebrews 11:3 Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear. Revelation 3:11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown.
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ONE OZ SLUG
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Quote:
AlexestalexDatura said:
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ONE OZ SLUG said: Why did you set your mood to "angry"?
misclick im on my phone
Uh huh.
Sounds like you finally got cancer and it put things into perspective for you
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SirShroomsAlott
Howdy



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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: ONE OZ SLUG]
#23841440 - 11/17/16 11:44 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Maybe he knocked up one of his many latina hookers.
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AlexestalexDatura
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: ONE OZ SLUG]
#23841443 - 11/17/16 11:45 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I don't have cancer.
I have been having irrational paranoid thoughts for 2 years. I haven't gotten help because I thought it would go away on its own. It has been effecting my studies, my interactions with friends and family, and destroying me emotionally. I finally saw a psychiatrist and these meds have completely gotten rid of any deep hatred and paranoia I used to feel daily. I am a different person now, I swear.
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qman
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Re: To the mod who banned me [Re: ModestMouse] 1
#23841444 - 11/17/16 11:45 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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ModestMouse said: You wont get any better, been a shitbird since you joined. youre a skid on the face of the forums and belong in a mental institution. You're anti-family and anti-life sentiments are neither warranted nor welcome.
Fuck off to drugs forum/reddit
Maybe someone with a diagnosed mental illness deserves a second change, maybe he is better now.
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AlexestalexDatura
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im not even asking to be immediately unbanned.
ban me for 6 months, a year even- to prove im sorry for what I did.
but please not a permaban.
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spirit_shadow
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People dont change 
Edit: sorry op, i dont know you and im sure you are swell but i dont get many chances to use house so
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Edited by spirit_shadow (11/17/16 11:48 AM)
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AlexestalexDatura
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spirit_shadow said: People dont change 
With meds, people definitely change. I'd wake up bitter and paranoid every single morning because I was sure everyone could read my thoughts. That made me feel so ashamed.
I've been on ambilify for two weeks and now these intrusive thoughts, which used to control my life, have completely ceased to exist. These thoughts caused me so much anger, self-hatred, and anger.
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tyrannicalrex
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spirit_shadow said: People dont change 
...but they can change the way they do things. I give people the benefit of the doubt 90% of the time.
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psi
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AlexestalexDatura said: My account is Alexestalex.
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