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Should I write a book/short story?
#23802097 - 11/04/16 10:47 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'm going to make this short ish for now. But it boggles my mind whenever I think back to this night long ago. I've heard many lsd stories and none really compare to this one. I heard of people blacking out and even taking 50+ hits, but don't experience what I did...
So. I had a great hookup when I was 17 ish. Great white on white lsd back in 2008 ish? I love my lsd and always took 3 hits, when most of my friends stuck to 1 or 2 hits. They were strong though, but I like the intensity.
A little background,l: done lsd probably 30 times and messed around with weed, shrooms, dxm and alcohol a bit. I was a druggie, but played sports and excelled in school. I wasn't going through the best of times. I was abusing drugs such as dxm and had just tried out cocaine a few times. Experimentation phase. Mentally, I was not fit for a trip. Just broke up with my girlfriend of 2.5 years and was already trying to move past without grieving or whatever.. just lost in general and making stupid decisions as a 17 year old.
It was a Saturday night. Went to a school play and was texting a girl I hadn't met in person yet. I had plans to trip that night, but was distracting myself with thus girl and friends. With. A group of friends, we went to steak n shake where she worked. Yeah, she wasn't the prettiest but nice l. As a young douchebag, it was awkward and I felt uncomfortable trying to get away with my friends poking fun. This all doesn't really have much to do with the story..
Fast forward to me taking the 3 hits in my parents basement with my best friend as a sitter. All started great, very fucking intense though. Mrs butters worth was giggling at me and guitar hero was flying fractals throughout the room.
About an hour after consumptiom, I look to the back of the room at the shadows. My vision was split diagonally. The top was tinted blue, the bottom was red. After a few seconds, I was blasted through the back of the room and went out of body. I'll keep the details minimal for now...
I was out of body for 4 whole hours in this other worldly dimension of subconscious hell. I was shot into these scenarios like a dream. But I had little control. It was obvious there was a good choice and a bad choice to make in these scenarios. I was always forced to choose the bad decision. Followed by death. Complete agony. I died countless times, every way imaginable. Drown, shot, stabbed, disease, drown, heart attack, overdose, you name it, I died from it.
I was stuck for eternity in this place of what I can only describe as Hell. I felt the pain. I picked up puke from my chest and cried followed by death, then repeat over and over and over. I felt paramedics giving me CPR throughout the night in between scenes. I heard the ambulence sirens all through the next day too. I couldn't leave and I couldn't control my choices. I accepted I was stuck there forevere. I gave up. Complete misery. I assumed I was long dead and even human civilization had gone and past. Humans were no longer a thing. Hundreds, if not thousands of years had past and I was not in the universe I came from anymore. I began to forget my past life and was beat to submission with no hope of it letting up.
Finally. After many many years it felt like I grasped a sliver of opportunity and control. I was able to chose the right path and the scenario ended good. Immediatedely, I was shot back through a tunnel into my body in my parents basement... everything had turned from a constant dark red glare/tint from this other world to a light blue feathery tint in my basement. Everything was light blue and misty. my friend was asleep on the couch and I was laying on a pillow. Complete shock. Like ptsd shock. I began to cry and breath and shake lightly as I remembered who I was and whwre I came from, my life.
I walked upstairs and outside. The sunrise had just begun. I went outside and was remembering my life. Human civilization was still present. Memories came flooding back, and I just cried in complete gratitude to be back and alive.
I am now almost 26 years old. I have tripped many times since after a long break and never have I ever had anything close to that night. I changed. I grew. I became a man of love for life. Lsd kicked my ass and taught me the mysteries of life. I dove heavily into psychology, philosophy, music, art and the sciences. I went to state college and majored in evolution and ecology. This night shaped who I am today and I could not be more grateful for this special experience.
This night seems quite rare in the psychedelic world of lsd. Now that I've had some time to grasp some wisdom, I feel like I need to share it with the world. I have told this story many times, and it never fails to draw a face of disbelief and wonder. Perhaps I should write a novel? What do you guys think?
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: Heisencybin]
#23802107 - 11/04/16 10:51 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Isn't that called ego death or something? Never done it before but a lot of people here trip balls like that all the time
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: trees]
#23802114 - 11/04/16 10:56 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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3 hits? I've domed 100+ in a single night.
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: Putin]
#23802137 - 11/04/16 11:14 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yes ego death and large doses are common. But like I said, is it common to have OBE that last 4 hours on lsd? Never heard of one yet
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: trees] 1
#23802163 - 11/04/16 11:31 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yeah, write your story brohana. There will always be people that will listen, and it's good for the regular folks who're just trying to share their experiences with life, psychedelics, and consciousness to speak up, not always relying on the psychedelic gurus who're firmly established in the scene.
I want to write a book on what Lucifer means to me, not as a supposed deity, but as a symbol, and why it's important for children to rebel against their parents, and why parents should allow some rebellion without trying to control everything about their kids, and how Lucifer fits into this model. I have started typing some, not much though, but I flow well when thinking about it, so think I am supposed to share this message.
It goes beyond just the Lucifer idea, and really delves into human nature, abusive relationships, healing abilities of psychedelics, community, oh man I could go on and on.
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: Lucis]
#23802240 - 11/05/16 12:29 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I like the way you're brain works negrodomous
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: Heisencybin]
#23802304 - 11/05/16 01:19 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I lived the apocalypse in a dream once, saw the universe collapse inwards into itself, does that count?..
Interesting trip tho, what would ur novel be about?.. It'd be cool if u were to make into a sci fi or sumthing
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: zZZz]
#23802380 - 11/05/16 02:19 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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zZZz said: I lived the apocalypse in a dream once, saw the universe collapse inwards into itself, does that count?..
Interesting trip tho, what would ur novel be about?.. It'd be cool if u were to make into a sci fi or sumthing
Yeah I'd like to make it partially fictional. But mostly based on the true story. Full of philosphy, spirituality,psychology and the like. I've been gaining motivstion to start it recently
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: trees]
#23803144 - 11/05/16 11:53 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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trees said: Isn't that called ego death or something? Never done it before but a lot of people here trip balls like that all the time
This experience is like infinite ego deaths in one trip. I don't think this is common. Dosage isn't always a determining factor
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: Heisencybin]
#23803157 - 11/05/16 11:58 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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no one should write a book until theyre at least 27.
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: Heisencybin]
#23803161 - 11/05/16 12:00 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Didn't read your post, but after reading after the title - yes. write one, then write another, then keep writing, read a lot, read some more, keep thinking about it... we need more great novelists in humanity.
and don't just stop at your experiences or putting some premature limitation on what you will write about. You don't know how far you can get unless you try, and while it may not be so great to set unrealistic goals for yourself, it's also not good to set the bar too low. There's a lot of writing out there on psychedelics, try to stretch your brain around something more unique to yourself.
edit: read some Dostoyevsky. Out of everything I've ever read, he's probably the most talented novelist I've ever had the pleasure of encountering. The way he weaves a story so vividly momentarily crippled me with emotion by the end of Crime and Punishment.
further edit:
I just read your post, and that is incredible. Everything I said still stands though, and I think your message could get across to people in a poignant way if you wrote a novel. I don't mean a 'trip report' or a description of your actual events, but take your life experiences, this one in particular, your memories, and tie them up in a little subconscious sack. Let it sit there collecting imagination dust, and then just start to write.
Let the words flow out of this sack without trying to force them to be specifically about those experiences, and a story will form which caries your powerful message: gratitude for life and the malleability of perception.
Edited by Chakra Shock (11/05/16 12:10 PM)
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: Heisencybin]
#23803171 - 11/05/16 12:03 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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trees said: Isn't that called ego death or something? Never done it before but a lot of people here trip balls like that all the time
This experience is like infinite ego deaths in one trip. I don't think this is common. Dosage isn't always a determining factor
This is a bit different than your runofthemill ego death. Write the book. And then edit it. And reedit it. And have an english professor proof read it. And then edit it again. ANd then publish it. And then make $$
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: mt cleverest]
#23803177 - 11/05/16 12:05 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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mt cleverest said: no one should write a book until theyre at least 27.
Eragon was written by a kid in high school. The english and word variance is horrible but it was passable, you could tell what he was talking about at least, and had interesting enough ideas to be very successful.
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Re: Should I write a book/short story? [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#23803210 - 11/05/16 12:17 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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There's also the diary of Anne frank..
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