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Trippedytrip
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Why me ?
#23797970 - 11/03/16 03:03 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I thought shrooms were safe
I thought shrooms where friendly
I thought shrooms were life changing
Shrooms were life changing for me .
It was my 1st trip , 1 year ago , 2.5 grams Hawaian Cubensis.
I dont really know how it happened , i got stuck in that moment of the trip , that high.
Since then i have never been grounded , cant live normally.
That trip has fucked up my life , i am 19 and dont even have a life in front of me .
I have tripped 4 times since that , dont get any effects , dpnt get high from weed because i already am high. I have nothing in front of me , everything is to blame on the shrooms and my mentality that day.
I dont know why it has happened to me , why that trip has taken my life away , why me ?
I want to make everyone clear that Psychs arent a game and this can happen , it isnt a myth.
I dont even know what to say anymore , i have nothing to live more , i dont kill myself because of the loved ones but my heart wont take so much more .
I was a intelligent guy , with a giant heart , good expectations , a decent life before my eyes and everything i needed and it hurts so much not being able to live anymore
Peace
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Life goes on.
Maybe try doing some of those things you found pleasure in before your mushroom experience.
Find something that interest you and dive down the rabbit hole.
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Re: Why me ? [Re: HamHead]
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How many doctors have you seen?
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Trippedytrip
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Ive been 9 weeks in a ward wich didnt help .
Not many more docs they cant really help
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Shrooms are a life changing experience, i think it's all about the way you take it on and interpret it. What is being high anyways, it's a change of perception for me, I don't think of it as getting "high" anymore because that's not what it should be about. If it changed your life then take that as positive thing and push on. Unless you have a bad case of hppd you shouldn't be worried. And hppd should not happen from mushrooms anyways. Good luck bro, there is so much out there to live for, just remember that.
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Re: Why me ? [Re: TheGoat]
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Perhaps try some Lemon EO (6 to 10 drops) or some Alprazolam. Lemon EO helped to ground me a good bit after my intense period of regular Harmala and DMT consumption, Alprazolam (for me about 0.5mgs) kinda helped too, especially with anxiety, which the Lemon EO also kinda helps with. Also might wanna try taking some mineral supplements (for your health), some Magnesium might help.
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majicman30
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Trippedytrip said: I thought shrooms were safe
I thought shrooms where friendly
I thought shrooms were life changing
Shrooms were life changing for me .
It was my 1st trip , 1 year ago , 2.5 grams Hawaian Cubensis.
I dont really know how it happened , i got stuck in that moment of the trip , that high.
Since then i have never been grounded , cant live normally.
That trip has fucked up my life , i am 19 and dont even have a life in front of me .
I have tripped 4 times since that , dont get any effects , dpnt get high from weed because i already am high. I have nothing in front of me , everything is to blame on the shrooms and my mentality that day.
I dont know why it has happened to me , why that trip has taken my life away , why me ?
I want to make everyone clear that Psychs arent a game and this can happen , it isnt a myth.
I dont even know what to say anymore , i have nothing to live more , i dont kill myself because of the loved ones but my heart wont take so much more .
I was a intelligent guy , with a giant heart , good expectations , a decent life before my eyes and everything i needed and it hurts so much not being able to live anymore
Peace
I really don't think it was the mushrooms personally but everyone has to have something to blame on what's happening to them I guess. Are u religious at all? Do u believe in a higher power? I have eaten(or boiled every Mushroom in my gallery with no problems & a few poisonous ones on accident & on purpose with no permanent damage sooooo. I dunno, but I hope things turn out well for you O. P. Peace & LOve
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90sBeachUFO said: How many doctors have you seen?
Doctors are not the answer trust me, but I also have to mention before my Shroomery account I have consumed over the amount in my gallery also & my I.Q. has risen I dunno everyone is different I guess. Peace & Love
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doctors don't shit about this or what to do. I am realizing more and more now that your average people are so unaware spiritually and so culterally programmed they have no idea how to help people with spiritual problems induced by psychedelics or otherwise.
You need to heal yourself, or find a qualified healier/shaman who can set you straight again. You will never get your old life back, but you can find new life, better than the old.
Life can be extremely painful, difficult and challenging. I realize one of the things that I was deluded about in my youth was how bad life could get. I never thought it would happen to me. I never thought Id ever suffer the way I have suffered. But the good news is that this gives you a real chance and incentive to wake up from this delusion called life.
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Woah. Stop. Grasp reality. Breathe. Idk about you guys but without music, I'd go crazy. Are you listening to music? Lol. Peace
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Sabnock
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camerinkw said: Woah. Stop. Grasp reality. Breathe. Idk about you guys but without music, I'd go crazy. Are you listening to music? Lol. Peace
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Re: Why me ? [Re: Sabnock]
#23798832 - 11/03/16 07:32 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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plz give more examples? tell of symptoms. do you work how old are you? relgious background? do you still use drugs if so what all of them and how often and how much? have you sought proffesional help.
I know a man in the field of recovery and neurobiology that knows a proffesional group on the US East coast that specializes in cases where a trip interferes with ones personal life and well being and functionality but its very specific and needs more info. PM if u need email, i imagine its quiet costly but with insurance should be ok? regardless i could talk to one of those guys and get a quick profile maybe? let us know more about you.
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Psyche delics
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Explain your symptoms. Also what kind of doctors have you seen. What tests have they done. What treatments have you tried?
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Trippedytrip
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So ,
I have done Organ testing = Negative
3 MRT Scans = Everything working fine
I have been in a ward 9 weeks using 2 weeks Antipsychotichs wich was a bad idea. Now i have been to a homeopathic woman . She says my chanras are unaligned and i that my soul isnt really in my body , i am out of body.
Since the trip i couldnt get high on weed anymore , didnt get any effects , i have tried reseting myself with shrooms : 1st trip 1g , 2nd trip 2.5 with no success .
My symptoms are not being really inside of me , i am kinda on top of me like when you are high . Have lost the connection to universe , my feet to the ground and cant really feel myself.
Peace
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dude you are 19 years old. your life hasnt even started. Get a hold of yourself. Stop doing drugs, or your life may as well be over.
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But most of the time when something like this happens it is because of an underlying mental disorder being brought to the surface
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Psyche delics
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mushpunx said:

But most of the time when something like this happens it is because of an underlying mental disorder being brought to the surface
Ya escpecially since it was his first time. And op dont go to that homeopathetic cunt again shes just taking your money.find the best psychiatrist in the area and start going to him/her.
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Kinshino
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I know someone who went through exactly what OP is going through and it was because she had some mental illnesses that were dormant.
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sprinkles
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mushpunx said:

something like this happens it is because of an underlying mental disorder
not necessarily.
I think people get very depressed when they don't work feel they have some sort of purpose. Young people especially. It's super easy IMO to become severely depressed if you're stagnant and not going to school, work, or moving toward something. We humans are natural problem solvers, and if we're not working (work essentially is solving some sort of problem) then you're creating them.
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The Blind Ass
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In Dzogchen, the metaphor most commonly used to describe our situation is that of a mirror and its reflections. The reflections in a mirror are like the thoughts in our mind, which if we don't recognize as being an illusory, impermanent, unmediated, manifestation of our true nature, we will react to, identify with, become conditioned by, absorbed in and embody. Our true nature state, on the other hand, is likened to the mirror itself, which underlies and embraces all of the reflections, all the while remaining pure and changeless, never being tainted or stained by any of the reflections. It is important to realize that each thought in our mind is like a dream; once we become absorbed in a thought, we have literally entered a complete dream universe and have evoked and stepped into an illusory, limited and arbitrary identity which we experience as being who we truly are. In Dzogchen, if we get immersed in our dream-like thoughts and don't recognize the pure, mirror-like nature of our mind, we are literally considered to be nonlucidly dreaming.
The problem is that as long as we are identified with and absorbed in the imagination or thought of being a separate self we are going to resist part of our experience, as resistance and contraction are themselves the very expression of the separate self. Once we, as a separate self, see that we are resisting our experience, we will undoubtedly try and not resist, which is just another, more subtle form of resistance, and we will find ourselves in a self-created double bind, a prisoner of our own mind once again.
Dzogchen truly offers us the key to liberation; from the Dzogchen point of view, these contractions and resistances are themselves seen to be the unmediated expression of the enlightened mind itself. If we don't recognize this, we will react to our resistance like it is something real and separate from ourselves, seeing it as a true obstruction to our enlightenment. If our resistance is seen in this way, it will, in no time whatsoever, spontaneously shape-shift and manifest as a seemingly genuine obscuration, as it is nothing other than our own reflection, and we will once again be caught in the infinite regression known as samsara or cyclic existence.
On the other hand, if we recognize our resistance as the unmediated expression of our enlightened nature itself, which is none other than to become lucid in the dream, not only does the resistance not last very long, but it ceases to be problematic, as we are no longer resisting our resistance, and have thus snapped out of our infinite regression. The resistance then reveals itself to be the very vehicle through which we have deepened our realization, as we have embraced even the part of ourselves that is non-embracing.
If this does not help, I would suggest seeking out a highly trained and professional psychiatrist who has a private practice that does not just hand out drugs like candy thinking they alone the fix. Someone that has experience treating those who have been in altered states and had trauma that can happen from exploring them sometimes. Look online im sure you can find a good one near your area hopefully.
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Don't lose hope. Are you still smoking weed or anything? A similar thing happened to me when I was 21. I felt like I was tripping for ~3 months or more, it's hard to remember the timeline now. It was basically a spiritual crisis and in the west there is really no one you can go to, drs cannot help. I went to a psyche ward for a week and quickly realized it was a mistake, at best they do nothing, at worst they make things worse ime. I really do not think there was anything wrong with me at all, it was just something I had to work through. I stopped doing all drugs and began a daily meditation practice and over time things improved.
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I know someone who went through exactly what OP is going through and it was because she had some mental illnesses that were dormant.
do you have a family history of mental illness, because most people reset to normal if they go sober for like 3 to 6 months after a truly traumatic trip, but it seems that for you, you got stuck in the "am i always going to be high" which I used to get afraid about when super high, but now I just trust that I will come down and always do, but I have no mental health problems in my family
I always say this to myself: would it be so bad to be high all the time? so maybe its how you look at it, I know people who stay 24/7 high as shit on weed and they seem to function just fine, maybe you need to change your perception of what happened to you, and accept your current mind state for what it is.
This is just speculation though, me being in your position and me trying to give you advice are two different things. I hope things improve and you live a peaceful and fulfilling life man.
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Kinshino
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ergoticmandala said:
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I know someone who went through exactly what OP is going through and it was because she had some mental illnesses that were dormant.
do you have a family history of mental illness, because most people reset to normal if they go sober for like 3 to 6 months after a truly traumatic trip, but it seems that for you, you got stuck in the "am i always going to be high" which I used to get afraid about when super high, but now I just trust that I will come down and always do, but I have no mental health problems in my family
I always say this to myself: would it be so bad to be high all the time? so maybe its how you look at it, I know people who stay 24/7 high as shit on weed and they seem to function just fine, maybe you need to change your perception of what happened to you, and accept your current mind state for what it is.
This is just speculation though, me being in your position and me trying to give you advice are two different things. I hope things improve and you live a peaceful and fulfilling life man.
It wasn't me, it was my friend. But yeah her mom was mentally ill and was diagnosed with so many things. My friend took half a mushroom chocolate which was supposed to be around 1.5 of cubes. She started acting weird some days and then it started getting worse.
One day her roommates had to call the ambulance to get her and she spent a few weeks in a psych ward. She's on ssri's and stuff now. She's tried to trip but her medication won't let her. She thinks she's "spiritually immune" now to them. And she took them four years ago. She's doing better now, has a bf and a baby on the way, so there is hope...
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someone help me understand why fucking people with mental issues reproduce. It is so incredibly selfish. Like earth isn't hard enough, lets throw mental illness in there because struggling to live is so much fun. No one wants to be born to a fucking crazy person and no one wants that genetic malady passed to them. If I made the decisions 'round here crazy people would just be put to sleep. Not all, just the dangerous ones. The others would be sterilized. Right along with alcoholics and drug addicts.
Ugh I dont know if I speak for everyone but we as a society really need more of these high quality people.
and yeah I know id probably be one of the first people under my new set of rules to be killed but thats fine. It's a sacrifice i'd be willing to make for the greater good and evolution non-stupid humanity.
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sprinkles said: someone help me understand why fucking people with mental issues reproduce. It is so incredibly selfish. Like earth isn't hard enough, lets throw mental illness in there because struggling to live is so much fun. No one wants to be born to a fucking crazy person and no one wants that genetic malady passed to them. If I made the decisions 'round here crazy people would just be put to sleep. Not all, just the dangerous ones. The others would be sterilized. Right along with alcoholics and drug addicts.
Ugh I dont know if I speak for everyone but we as a society really need more of these high quality people.
and yeah I know id probably be one of the first people under my new set of rules to be killed but thats fine. It's a sacrifice i'd be willing to make for the greater good and evolution non-stupid humanity.
It don't work that way bud. Your logic is comparitive to hitlers. Mental illness is part of the human plight. Like all the others ailments and illnesses in the world. Some of the worlds greatest creativity comes from Mental illness.
To op first and foremost quit doing any drugs, at least until you can get a grasp on things. You very well may have broke free an underlying mental illness. If you mean its like you never came down from the mushrooms, it could be schizophrenia. By all means find a psychiatrist a good one, who has understanding off these issues. They are out there and can help. But you will probably have to weed through some. The thing is though often times psychosis will have you believe there is nothing wrong or no one can help you. You more than likely can get through this and come back from this. Like the other poster said, journal, meditate, exercise, eliminate sugar, eat healthy, get enough sleep. These can all help. But you may need meds. There are people who need it, like a diabetic needs insulin. I will reiterate the importance of not taking anymore drugs, this can make the problem worse. Hope the best for you.
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The Blind Ass said: In Dzogchen, the metaphor most commonly used to describe our situation is that of a mirror and its reflections. The reflections in a mirror are like the thoughts in our mind, which if we don't recognize as being an illusory, impermanent, unmediated, manifestation of our true nature, we will react to, identify with, become conditioned by, absorbed in and embody. Our true nature state, on the other hand, is likened to the mirror itself, which underlies and embraces all of the reflections, all the while remaining pure and changeless, never being tainted or stained by any of the reflections. It is important to realize that each thought in our mind is like a dream; once we become absorbed in a thought, we have literally entered a complete dream universe and have evoked and stepped into an illusory, limited and arbitrary identity which we experience as being who we truly are. In Dzogchen, if we get immersed in our dream-like thoughts and don't recognize the pure, mirror-like nature of our mind, we are literally considered to be nonlucidly dreaming.
The problem is that as long as we are identified with and absorbed in the imagination or thought of being a separate self we are going to resist part of our experience, as resistance and contraction are themselves the very expression of the separate self. Once we, as a separate self, see that we are resisting our experience, we will undoubtedly try and not resist, which is just another, more subtle form of resistance, and we will find ourselves in a self-created double bind, a prisoner of our own mind once again.
Dzogchen truly offers us the key to liberation; from the Dzogchen point of view, these contractions and resistances are themselves seen to be the unmediated expression of the enlightened mind itself. If we don't recognize this, we will react to our resistance like it is something real and separate from ourselves, seeing it as a true obstruction to our enlightenment. If our resistance is seen in this way, it will, in no time whatsoever, spontaneously shape-shift and manifest as a seemingly genuine obscuration, as it is nothing other than our own reflection, and we will once again be caught in the infinite regression known as samsara or cyclic existence.
On the other hand, if we recognize our resistance as the unmediated expression of our enlightened nature itself, which is none other than to become lucid in the dream, not only does the resistance not last very long, but it ceases to be problematic, as we are no longer resisting our resistance, and have thus snapped out of our infinite regression. The resistance then reveals itself to be the very vehicle through which we have deepened our realization, as we have embraced even the part of ourselves that is non-embracing.
If this does not help, I would suggest seeking out a highly trained and professional psychiatrist who has a private practice that does not just hand out drugs like candy thinking they alone the fix. Someone that has experience treating those who have been in altered states and had trauma that can happen from exploring them sometimes. Look online im sure you can find a good one near your area hopefully.
yes this is what i was getting at. the same principles are spoken about in leary's the psychedelic experience and i believe shrooms can help us see this. but you have to see the trip properly. if you dont think you can do that, then i recommend seeing a healer/shaman as i said earlier, or a good psychiatrist like this guy is suggesting.
the reason i dont recommend psychiatrists is because far too many of them simply prescribe pharmacueticals which are toxic and often harmful. but there are good psychiatrists out there.
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sprinkles said: someone help me understand why fucking people with mental issues reproduce. It is so incredibly selfish. Like earth isn't hard enough, lets throw mental illness in there because struggling to live is so much fun. No one wants to be born to a fucking crazy person and no one wants that genetic malady passed to them. If I made the decisions 'round here crazy people would just be put to sleep. Not all, just the dangerous ones. The others would be sterilized. Right along with alcoholics and drug addicts.
Ugh I dont know if I speak for everyone but we as a society really need more of these high quality people.
and yeah I know id probably be one of the first people under my new set of rules to be killed but thats fine. It's a sacrifice i'd be willing to make for the greater good and evolution non-stupid humanity.
I'm glad most people do not think like you. I agree it's selfish to have kids, very much so, believe me, fuck, these type of people are worthless assholes, but I would not go to the extreme of sterilizing or especially murdering them.
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I think it can be easy to trick ones self into thinking they are stuck in a trip when what they are doing is programming themselves into being stuck in it in a kind of self hypnosis. Maybe the thing to do is to program yourself to believe you are going to get back to reality, and you will. Maybe I'm being flippant in what I'm saying but it makes perfect sense to me and is the way I understand it from my own experiences with mushrooms or lsd.
I knew someone the same age as me when I was 18 who took half an acid blotters and was kind of wierded out (stuck in the trip somewhat) and turned into a recluse not leaving the house for over a year. He eventually got back to normal and from what Iv'e heard is doing quite well for himself now.
I'm fine with psychedelics because I know everything is going to be alright and that I will get back to normal. I am pretty sure it is that attitude that keeps me safe. If anything it's almost always a bit of a bummer when I come down off of mushrooms because I wanted it to last longer and to show me more.
A strong mental attitude is important on psychedelics. You are the one in control, and your expectations can have a big impact so it's worth being clear on your expectations of it when you take them (expect that no matter what happens, you will return back to your normal self).
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wicca mixer said: I think it can be easy to trick ones self into thinking they are stuck in a trip when what they are doing is programming themselves into being stuck in it in a kind of self hypnosis. Maybe the thing to do is to program yourself to believe you are going to get back to reality, and you will. Maybe I'm being flippant in what I'm saying but it makes perfect sense to me and is the way I understand it from my own experiences with mushrooms or lsd.
I knew someone the same age as me when I was 18 who took half an acid blotters and was kind of wierded out (stuck in the trip somewhat) and turned into a recluse not leaving the house for over a year. He eventually got back to normal and from what Iv'e heard is doing quite well for himself now.
I'm fine with psychedelics because I know everything is going to be alright and that I will get back to normal. I am pretty sure it is that attitude that keeps me safe. If anything it's almost always a bit of a bummer when I come down off of mushrooms because I wanted it to last longer and to show me more.
A strong mental attitude is important on psychedelics. You are the one in control, and your expectations can have a big impact so it's worth being clear on your expectations of it when you take them (expect that no matter what happens, you will return back to your normal self).
I agree, as crazy as this would sound to a normal person I believe that if you simply don't believe mushrooms will hurt you and you take everything they show you in the most positive light and wholly surrender yourself to it (even if it is absolutely horrifying) then they can't hurt you. They were sent/given to help us, not hurt us but their power is not well understood.
But surrendering can be hard if you have brittle mind structures. You need to make your mind fluid, so it can stretch all over the place like a sapling in the wind. If your mind is really brittle, then you might not be ready for mushrooms or at least prepare yourself for some rough waters. My mind was very brittle when i began using psychedelics but i was determined to trip anyway, come what may. I went through some challenging times and still have challenging experiences but if i could go back i would not change it.
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majicman30
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Trippedytrip said: So ,
I have done Organ testing = Negative
3 MRT Scans = Everything working fine
I have been in a ward 9 weeks using 2 weeks Antipsychotichs which was a bad idea. Now i have been to a homeopathic woman . She says my chanras are unaligned and i that my soul isnt really in my body , i am out of body.
Since the trip i couldnt get high on weed anymore , didnt get any effects , i have tried reseting myself with shrooms : 1st trip 1g , 2nd trip 2.5 with no success .
My symptoms are not being really inside of me , i am kinda on top of me like when you are high . Have lost the connection to universe , my feet to the ground and cant really feel myself.
Peace
There is ur answer u took antipycotics!!! Don't taki that crap! It really coulda made things worse for you for real. Try natural remedies next time instead please. Thank You & I think you are going to be fine with time. Time is the beast healer of all along with Jesus my friend. Peace & Love
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I have done Organ testing = Negative
3 MRT Scans = Everything working fine
I have been in a ward 9 weeks using 2 weeks Antipsychotichs which was a bad idea. Now i have been to a homeopathic woman . She says my chanras are unaligned and i that my soul isnt really in my body , i am out of body.
Since the trip i couldnt get high on weed anymore , didnt get any effects , i have tried reseting myself with shrooms : 1st trip 1g , 2nd trip 2.5 with no success .
My symptoms are not being really inside of me , i am kinda on top of me like when you are high . Have lost the connection to universe , my feet to the ground and cant really feel myself.
Peace
There is ur answer u took antipycotics!!! Don't taki that crap! It really coulda made things worse for you for real. Try natural remedies next time instead please. Thank You & I think you are going to be fine with time. Time is the beast healer of all along with Jesus my friend. Peace & Love
And also I don't wanna freak you out or anything, but I believe the soul isn't in the body all the time anyhow or possibly even any of the time. Maybe beside the body or above even just something to think about O.P. And Molemole I love that second pic in ur sig. & all the other ones also! Peace & LOve
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sprinkles said: someone help me understand why fucking people with mental issues reproduce. It is so incredibly selfish. Like earth isn't hard enough, lets throw mental illness in there because struggling to live is so much fun. No one wants to be born to a fucking crazy person and no one wants that genetic malady passed to them. If I made the decisions 'round here crazy people would just be put to sleep. Not all, just the dangerous ones. The others would be sterilized. Right along with alcoholics and drug addicts.
Ugh I dont know if I speak for everyone but we as a society really need more of these high quality people.
and yeah I know id probably be one of the first people under my new set of rules to be killed but thats fine. It's a sacrifice i'd be willing to make for the greater good and evolution non-stupid humanity.
I'm glad most people do not think like you. I agree it's selfish to have kids, very much so, believe me, fuck, these type of people are worthless assholes, but I would not go to the extreme of sterilizing or especially murdering them.
Earth would be a MUCH better place if more people shared the same view as me. people left would actually WANT to be here. more importantly they would know the difference between right and wrong.
Society just hasnt figured out what to do with crazy people yet. They will eventually.
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Your right they will figure it out. They will care for them, heal them, and mend them all while practicing compassion.
Your view and way is wrong and twisted. If it was in place from the beginning .... you wouldn't be making that post, because you would not be here.
Because frankly, you are amungst the sick and mentally ill. And I sense that you were hurt by someone long or not to long ago and now because of your ignorance deal with it in this most unhealthy and evil way. I pity you truly. May you find your way.
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Seeing a Psychiatrist wont help .
Since that day everyhing stopped , the flow of life , since that day i dont remember new things , my eyes wont see anymore , it really got stucked in that moment.
I have tripped again to see if it can correct but it hasnt helped , my dose was 2.5g .
I really dont know what to do they have fucked me up , i cant live normal , i think it is a irreperable damage because time would have healed it since then , its 1 year ago!
I am just do hopeless , i thought shrooms were friendly and not life fucking and i blame it really on them and my unexperienced mindset .
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You need to heal yourself, or find a qualified healier/shaman who can set you straight again. You will never get your old life back, but you can find new life, better than the old.
Life can be extremely painful, difficult and challenging. I realize one of the things that I was deluded about in my youth was how bad life could get. I never thought it would happen to me. I never thought Id ever suffer the way I have suffered. But the good news is that this gives you a real chance and incentive to wake up from this delusion called life.
This right here. So much truth. I was as culturally indoctrinated as anyone. Born and bred in linear reductionism. Studied biochemistry for six years and got slapped with a million autoimmune diseases one day. Put my faith in orthodox medicine and was let down again and again and again. Doctors don't know shit. About spiritual issues or otherwise. I've put so much time into researching chronic illnesses of all sorts and the science just doesn't support most of what's happening in health care. Linear reductionism and over-specialization has fragmented healthcare into a bunch of incoherent systems with little integrative capacity. Orthodox medicine has become quite deluded as a result. It is quite literally the only biological discipline that thinks it's going to high-tech its way back to health. Ask an ecologist how long until we have a pill or a technology to fix habitat fragmentation and they will spit their coffee in laughter. Ask a doctor and they will tell you that if we just rape the earth a little longer, do a little more research, we'll have it. It's just not a biologically valid approach. Out of like 20 doctors i've been to the past few years the only one who had an acceptable understanding of pathology was my licensed acupuncturist And that's physical health. Don't even get me started on psychic issues. Anyone who can't see the problem there with overprescribing for emotional and spiritual distress is in for a world of hurt down the road. Even conventional therapists fail to hit the mark in my experience. They're great for venting but that's about it. I've had dramatically more success with "energy healers" and ayahuascero's. I know it sounds quacky, but it is what it is.
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someone help me understand why fucking people with mental issues reproduce. It is so incredibly selfish. Like earth isn't hard enough, lets throw mental illness in there because struggling to live is so much fun. No one wants to be born to a fucking crazy person and no one wants that genetic malady passed to them. If I made the decisions 'round here crazy people would just be put to sleep. Not all, just the dangerous ones. The others would be sterilized. Right along with alcoholics and drug addicts.
Yikes! Gotta be trolling! If not seek proffesional help! The biggest nutters are those who dont realize they are nuts! A plan to murder lunatics, drug addicts and alcoholics lol!
There would be nobody left!
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wicca mixer said: I think it can be easy to trick ones self into thinking they are stuck in a trip when what they are doing is programming themselves into being stuck in it in a kind of self hypnosis. Maybe the thing to do is to program yourself to believe you are going to get back to reality, and you will. Maybe I'm being flippant in what I'm saying but it makes perfect sense to me and is the way I understand it from my own experiences with mushrooms or lsd.
I knew someone the same age as me when I was 18 who took half an acid blotters and was kind of wierded out (stuck in the trip somewhat) and turned into a recluse not leaving the house for over a year. He eventually got back to normal and from what Iv'e heard is doing quite well for himself now.
I'm fine with psychedelics because I know everything is going to be alright and that I will get back to normal. I am pretty sure it is that attitude that keeps me safe. If anything it's almost always a bit of a bummer when I come down off of mushrooms because I wanted it to last longer and to show me more.
A strong mental attitude is important on psychedelics. You are the one in control, and your expectations can have a big impact so it's worth being clear on your expectations of it when you take them (expect that no matter what happens, you will return back to your normal self).
I agree, as crazy as this would sound to a normal person I believe that if you simply don't believe mushrooms will hurt you and you take everything they show you in the most positive light and wholly surrender yourself to it (even if it is absolutely horrifying) then they can't hurt you. They were sent/given to help us, not hurt us but their power is not well understood.
But surrendering can be hard if you have brittle mind structures. You need to make your mind fluid, so it can stretch all over the place like a sapling in the wind. If your mind is really brittle, then you might not be ready for mushrooms or at least prepare yourself for some rough waters. My mind was very brittle when i began using psychedelics but i was determined to trip anyway, come what may. I went through some challenging times and still have challenging experiences but if i could go back i would not change it.
OP listen to this guy. I think i wrote a nightmare trip report about ayahuasca on here a long time ago. I'd link you but I'm embarrassed to read it myself But i can attest to this. My dose was much much MUCH higher than yours here and it was essentially as bad as a trip could possibly be. I mean,the part where i "came to" felt like a ten strip of LSD. I mean that's the point where i realized i was finally returning. The part where i was stuck the majority of the trip was incomprehensibly deep. I thought ayahuasca was poison. I was cursing and begging people to kill me. I have never felt more broken. I don't know what brought me to keep tripping after that but i did and it sorted itself out. I ultimately got something invaluable from that trip and despite being one of the most terrifying experiences of my life it also became one of the most spiritual. I followed up another ceremony and picked up where i left off in a much better place. My point isn't to say you must trip again. I won't tell you whats right for you. Just know others have been through the same and even worse and came out fine. You'll be okay buddy. But you have to break that reinforcing mentality. It's tough and in fact that was a big part of what i accomplished with ayahuasca. As humans we can reinforce our suffering unconsciously and justify it a million ways. But aya took me so deep into it to the point i couldn't stand being in my own bones. It said "Lets go as deep as this misery gets. You decide where your rock bottom is. But until you consciously turn this around we're just going to see how far we can take this". It brings you to your breaking point and ultimately paradise is for you to create. I don't think you have a physical problem. I think you have a trauma. And for the time being you have to work with it. Don't put expectations on yourself to be anything. Don't get frustrated about who you were before or where you were headed in life. Just be the best you can be in this moment. Look, i've got polyneuropathy, arthritis, myalgia, encephalitis, meningitis, testiculitis, prostatitis, carditis, etc from lyme disease. I'm not who i was. It's only as bad as you make it though. Because of ayahuasca i don't let myself go down that hole. I get up every day and i focus on whats in front of me. I don't mourn the fact that i'm too crippled to pursue grad school. I don't mourn my lack of energy or the constant pain and discomfort. In every moment i just look at what's in front of me and say "what good can i make out of this". Shit son i'm probably happier than i was. I've done so much independent research, read so many cool books, and just in general explored a whole bunch of neat shit since being sick. I keep that light on constantly. Life doesn't owe me anything, it is the greatest gift. I have to be the one to accept it and own it. In my sickness and in my health, every good moment I can make is priceless. And of course, the hardest part is making yourself vulnerable to it again. Telling whatever fear disengaged you from feeling your place in the world fully "you don't serve me any longer, you need to leave". Let your walls down brother. Soften your heart and feel your place again. Don't be afraid that it won't come right away. It will in time.
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Thanks .
It happened over a year ago ...
I am disable to do things because i am not even grounded and it sucks , cant even smoke weed it doesnt do anything to me .
I am thinking now of this as an irreparable damage because i have tripped 2.5 g and it barely did anything .
Do you think i must go 5g deep or even deeper and take the risk because i really have nothing to live for in this state , life is useless like this you dont enjoy it and i cant take it much longer it sucks , i rather have something else than this
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Sometimes I wonder if it takes the mushroom that long to work the mental illness out like that's why he's in the trip that long it's just taking the mushroom longer to work. Or the mental illnesses that deep that it needs I don't know maybe a huge dose to snap back out into reality. Other than that lots of great advice here. At this point are you living a semi-normal life? If there are no underlying mental illnesses I don't see the harm in another trip a big one because what you going to do get stuck in it you're already stuck according to yourself... I've often thought to myself what I would do in this situation I would try not to panic and try to comfort myself and really get myself to that this is the new reality or I go balls to the walls and trip again and see what happens see where I might be stuck and find my way out of the damn rabbit hole. Face your fears and beat them into submission with Superior psychology! Or I could touch the elf and they would take me to play for 500 years something along those lines but I'm okay with any of it.
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It happened over a year ago ...
I am disable to do things because i am not even grounded and it sucks , cant even smoke weed it doesnt do anything to me .
I am thinking now of this as an irreparable damage because i have tripped 2.5 g and it barely did anything .
Do you think i must go 5g deep or even deeper and take the risk because i really have nothing to live for in this state , life is useless like this you dont enjoy it and i cant take it much longer it sucks , i rather have something else than this
Peace
First of all, could you maybe describe in a little more detail how exactly you are 'impaired'? Also, was your trip a traumatic one? Last time I did trip I had some unexpected side-effects as well. Luckily for me they have almost subsided completely (took about 2 months), except my life's views and beliefs, they have been 'damaged' forever, but I consider that a positive effect. Anyway I guess I know 'a little bit' how it feels to be disconnected from reality. All I can say is that, no matter how bad it is, don't let it rule/ruĂŻn your experience. Find some things that you enjoy and focus on that. I feel my issues started to disappear most quickly when I started to accept what happened and decided to find net meaning to my life again. I have found some things that really interest me, including meditation, and since I do the things I like now I feel less 'impaired' by the after effects of my psychedelic trip. Also, like some others have said, these effects will most likely subside when you do focus on other things than your issues. I kind of agree that if you believe they will never go away, then that's what will happen. But yeah, it sounds like your life has been screwed with, but you NEED to find new meaning to your life. I also think it would help if you would keep trying to find alternative healing practices until you find something that might be of help.
Also, I wouldn't try to trip again.
Anyway, hope this helps.
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Hi O.P.
It looks like you had a traumatic experience that has stuck with you, which is probably what makes you feel like you didn't come down/back from the trip.
I think the best thing you can do is find a good psychotherapist who understands the psychedelic experience and how to help overcome emotional trauma. As someone said before, you may have to try different ones before you find someone who truly understands what you're going through and who you feel confident with. This is the most important thing: to find someone with whom you feel safe in order to be able to talk about your emotions and heal the trauma. It is very common that a traumatic experience has lasting effects on one's feelings, thoughts and behaviours. It's kind of similar to what happens to people suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder. You may want to read about trauma, dissociation and brainspotting.
If you need more information on this topic feel free to contact me, I will be glad to help you 
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Hey man, i know all about being crippled. The depression is unreal, but not unbeatable. Like i said, at this point i'm a better happier person being ill than before. You make your own purpose. The deepest wells of joy are accessible to all. As for taking 5 grams... I can't recommend for or against it. It has the potential to straighten things out or twist them up further. If you could do it under the guidance of someone you trust who does this sort of energy work i wouldn't hesitate. But without really knowing what you're seeking it can be easy to just get more lost. I didn't go back to ayahuasca until i had sorted out what my issue was. That was crucial to progress. I wish it were easier to get the appropriate help. But don't lose your hope. You're more capable than you know.
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Peyote Road said: doctors don't shit about this or what to do. I am realizing more and more now that your average people are so unaware spiritually and so culterally programmed they have no idea how to help people with spiritual problems induced by psychedelics or otherwise.
You need to heal yourself, or find a qualified healier/shaman who can set you straight again. You will never get your old life back, but you can find new life, better than the old.
Life can be extremely painful, difficult and challenging. I realize one of the things that I was deluded about in my youth was how bad life could get. I never thought it would happen to me. I never thought Id ever suffer the way I have suffered. But the good news is that this gives you a real chance and incentive to wake up from this delusion called life.
This right here. So much truth. I was as culturally indoctrinated as anyone. Born and bred in linear reductionism. Studied biochemistry for six years and got slapped with a million autoimmune diseases one day. Put my faith in orthodox medicine and was let down again and again and again. Doctors don't know shit. About spiritual issues or otherwise. I've put so much time into researching chronic illnesses of all sorts and the science just doesn't support most of what's happening in health care. Linear reductionism and over-specialization has fragmented healthcare into a bunch of incoherent systems with little integrative capacity. Orthodox medicine has become quite deluded as a result. It is quite literally the only biological discipline that thinks it's going to high-tech its way back to health. Ask an ecologist how long until we have a pill or a technology to fix habitat fragmentation and they will spit their coffee in laughter. Ask a doctor and they will tell you that if we just rape the earth a little longer, do a little more research, we'll have it. It's just not a biologically valid approach. Out of like 20 doctors i've been to the past few years the only one who had an acceptable understanding of pathology was my licensed acupuncturist And that's physical health. Don't even get me started on psychic issues. Anyone who can't see the problem there with overprescribing for emotional and spiritual distress is in for a world of hurt down the road. Even conventional therapists fail to hit the mark in my experience. They're great for venting but that's about it. I've had dramatically more success with "energy healers" and ayahuascero's. I know it sounds quacky, but it is what it is.
Here is my last thought on this thread & it is....If you have F. A. I. T. H. ( u have to truly believe also)anything can be healed without doctors & it is True. Peace & Love
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The Blind Ass said: Your right they will figure it out. They will care for them, heal them, and mend them all while practicing compassion.
Your view and way is wrong and twisted. If it was in place from the beginning .... you wouldn't be making that post, because you would not be here.
Because frankly, you are amungst the sick and mentally ill. And I sense that you were hurt by someone long or not to long ago and now because of your ignorance deal with it in this most unhealthy and evil way. I pity you truly. May you find your way.

Actually i am not mentally ill nor do I have a mental disorder. This is court ordered fact.
You cant fix anyone who does not have the capacity or capability to tell the difference between right and wrong. When your baby gets thrown out a 4 story window because some random freak heard voices telling them to throw it, maybe then you will change your young child mind. The world isn't rainbows and cheese. But I guess when you are 11 and mommy and daddy have kept you far from the realities of the world you really dont know any better.
lol just ask the women who start relationships with men in prison. they think if they would just love them enough they would change and be different. (Unfortunately I know one of those women, and she almost lost her life because she's on the same wavelength as you. but thank God for her she was able to shoot him first). That didnt stop her from spending 9 months in the shittiest jail in this state before she was found not guilty though.
You cant fix everyone. IMO it would be kinder and nicer to put them to sleep. it is not a quality life anyway. I would rather crazy people be put down than risk them victimizing innocent people. People who are diagnosed insane should be held accountable for their actions despite their lack of conscious knowledge. If you cant tell the difference from right and wrong you have no business in society. They have less of a right than a criminal does because a criminal atleast KNOWS the difference.
From my perspective, you are the one who is crazy. And if anyone has to be a victim of their shit I hope it happens to you, and not anyone I care about.
when you stop breast feeding and your brain is developed enough to start learning stuff then you can come talk to me. See you in 25 years.
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thank God for Hillary tho, she will fix everything. we wont have to put any crazy people to sleep cause she will nurture and love them till they're normal.
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how much time you spend on here? why arent you in school? isnt it a school day?
judging my your one post I would bet you are 15 years old.
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I thought shrooms where friendly
I thought shrooms were life changing
Shrooms were life changing for me .
It was my 1st trip , 1 year ago , 2.5 grams Hawaian Cubensis.
I dont really know how it happened , i got stuck in that moment of the trip , that high.
Since then i have never been grounded , cant live normally.
That trip has fucked up my life , i am 19 and dont even have a life in front of me .
I have tripped 4 times since that , dont get any effects , dpnt get high from weed because i already am high. I have nothing in front of me , everything is to blame on the shrooms and my mentality that day.
I dont know why it has happened to me , why that trip has taken my life away , why me ?
I want to make everyone clear that Psychs arent a game and this can happen , it isnt a myth.
I dont even know what to say anymore , i have nothing to live more , i dont kill myself because of the loved ones but my heart wont take so much more .
I was a intelligent guy , with a giant heart , good expectations , a decent life before my eyes and everything i needed and it hurts so much not being able to live anymore
Peace
So what is actually your problem? You don't say. How did mushrooms ruin your life, feel free to elaborate.
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obviously OP did something he/she is very ashamed of. They cant even confess to a majority of drug addicted strangers for fear we may judge them. I am guessing it's probably very bad. or they are very dramatic.
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I'm just lost. This thread makes no sense to me
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What literally happened is that i panicked durkng the trip and spmething went wrong that moment .
Sonce then i got stuck in that high point and never came down ..
It is now 1 year since the trip , does it make sense now ??
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no it does not. Elaborate. otherwise we are left to assume the worst. I am sure whatever you did is not as bad as what we are imagining.
maybe this would be a good opportunity for you to work on being truthful & honest. Admitting whatever and taking responsibility then make ammends, if possible.
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why are you guys hung up on the idea that he "did something"? what I'm getting from his explanation is that he can't escape from the negative mental state the trip put him in. My advice to OP is to move on with your life and accept this as your new "normal". I think after a year of focusing on the problem,you've spent enough time trying to fix yourself. If your religious, I think it's time to leave it up to God. Or in other terms, trust that things will work out for good eventually.
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One time I had something happen during a trip and I just kind of 'snapped' if you will. Literally one second I was fine, the next I felt literally insane, like I was dead, everything was wrong etc. On the surface you would think, yah, it happens, just sounds like a bad trip, w/e. However this was 11 hours into an LSD trip and this feeling, a feeling that is too encompassing to put into words, did not leave me for about three months.
I struggled to try and get over it for about a month and a half, maybe two months. Just mentally going over it again and again, analyzing everything to try to find out what was wrong. In the end I just gave up looking for an answer, accepted this is how I am, and tried my best to let things be and I believe that is how I returned to normal. Literally one day over a few hours I did return right back to normal after feeling this way for months, it left about as quick as it came, but while it was here it stuck around for awhile.
In retrospect there really was nothing wrong with me. Nothing I can put my finger on anyway, certainly nothing I believe science can point to, I'm honestly not sure if my brain chemistry would have even reflected this state. The only thing that was wrong is that I was convinced something was wrong as crazy as that sounds. If you think about it that's one of the most difficult problems to overcome because it's intangible, there's nothing you can actually do to fix it, it's a non problem really, you can't fix something that doesn't exist, but as long as your mind tells you it does it's hard to stop looking.
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Farnaby1984
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Like unfortunategent I don't understand some of the replies youmgot.
I recommend visiting a good psychotherapist who can help you work through your emotions and integrate them. What you're experiencing is likely due to repressed emotions which need to be looked at and accepted as a part of yourself. I remember talking to my therapist about some of my trips and even though they weren't traumatic it helped a lot for integration. I'm sure the same is true for traumatic trips, even though they may require more time to get propperly integrated.
The most important thing is to find someone who truly listens to how you're feeling, someone who accepts you as you are, so don't go to someone who is going to try and impose his morals on you.
I wish you the best.
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majicman30
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unfortunategent said: why are you guys hung up on the idea that he "did something"? what I'm getting from his explanation is that he can't escape from the negative mental state the trip put him in. My advice to OP is to move on with your life and accept this as your new "normal". I think after a year of focusing on the problem,you've spent enough time trying to fix yourself. If your religious, I think it's time to leave it up to God. Or in other terms, trust that things will work out for good eventually.
Sometimes when someone "Did something" that means just that "It was left up to God to put fourth his wrath" Just saying. Yes I would Repent if I were u & if it seems to be your only way out I would do it anyhow no matter what! Peace & LOve
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Trippedytrip
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After the trip i kept on going , it was some months afterwards where i felt something was not right , Kept on smoking weed , but something was not okay , i never returned to the starting point being grounded with earth .
Since the trip i cant work normally bcs i am not grounded in myself , you must see it as if you were on top of yourself with a higher perspective but not inside of yourself.
After i year i really am thinking back and it all starts at the trip. I panicked , something went wrong really wrong , i was mute couldnt speak all to overwhelming.
I was in a ward 9 weeks , not helped .
After much time i have thought a lot and my thinking is as if i where still high and i see the a reality wich is realer then my past reallity , kinda like shroom world.
I am going to a homeopathic lady as a final resource and she says she coudld definetely help me and ground me back aligning my chakras.
If that doesnt work i must really look into South America to real shamans and do some plant work or Ayahuasca as a final option!
Its not me overthinking things , i just never returned to normal sober mind as i knew it again. I cant play with my mind with reality , i am one step outside of it.
Do you understand now ?
Peace
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krypto2000
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Do you still smoke weed? If so STOP. I didn't mention it, but that made my experience *way* worse.
Also reading what you just wrote makes me question if the mushrooms had anything to do with it. If you were fine for 3 months afterward how could they possibly be the cause? If you're fine after a trip you can't have something in your brain flip months later and then attribute it to the mushrooms, that makes no sense what so ever. If anything it sounds like smoking weed did it to me, I mean... read what you just wrote.
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Trippedytrip
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I stopped weed 5 months ago ,
I know what i said and its true , i realized it within time that something was wrong the trip was already so bumpy , everytime afterwards my weed highs were more shroom highs
Surely the shrooms triggered this because my sweet ganja doesnt make this.
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majicman30
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Trippedytrip said: After the trip i kept on going , it was some months afterwards where i felt something was not right , Kept on smoking weed , but something was not okay , i never returned to the starting point being grounded with earth .
Since the trip i cant work normally bcs i am not grounded in myself , you must see it as if you were on top of yourself with a higher perspective but not inside of yourself.
After i year i really am thinking back and it all starts at the trip. I panicked , something went wrong really wrong , i was mute couldnt speak all to overwhelming.
I was in a ward 9 weeks , not helped .
After much time i have thought a lot and my thinking is as if i where still high and i see the a reality wich is realer then my past reallity , kinda like shroom world.
I am going to a homeopathic lady as a final resource and she says she coudld definetely help me and ground me back aligning my chakras.
If that doesnt work i must really look into South America to real shamans and do some plant work or Ayahuasca as a final option!
Its not me overthinking things , i just never returned to normal sober mind as i knew it again. I cant play with my mind with reality , i am one step outside of it.
Do you understand now ?
Peace
Weird Shrooms GROUND ME more than anything. I am confused even more.. I hope u get better O. P. like I said time & prayer r the answer in my openion.
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