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Jenjens
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I can't handle negativity in my life anymore
#23788997 - 10/31/16 03:34 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Hi all,
Recently I noticed after my first dmt experience that people complaining to me about things or raising their voice when getting agitated or mad is somehow unbearable for me to deal with. before I did dmt, I would either add to the complaining, or raise my voice back to the person, but now, for example, the moment I feel someone is getting annoyed, I can feel it and see their facial expression (even though they will tell me they are not mad, I can still tell that they really are) I have to immediately stop that person from talking. I just kinda put my hands over my face (I don't know why, maybe I am trying to somehow "block" the vibes) and just say "eh, eh, eh, nope, I cannot handle/do this right now!" and then sort of put my hand on my forehead as if I have a headache. It's like an emotional overload for me and I honestly just don't want the negativity. yes, it is rude to do that, I know, but right now I just cannot deal with it.
The only thing I really remember about my dmt experience was the patterns and then getting interrupted and then being kind of stuck in dmt space and reality, so I am not sure if something affected me and I don't remember it. However, even though it will be difficult dealing with people, as because people complain about EVERYTHING....I feel dmt somehow changed me and made me go from someone who somehow got off on verbal fights and complaining about everything to someone who just wants peace and quiet. I am really not sure how the heck it happened, or if this is just part of the afterglow (been one week exactly) But I think dmt somehow taught me to stop being so angry and judgmental towards others.
Has this happened to anyone else? If not, even ant type of personality change or sensitivity to things?
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Morel Guy
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Re: I can't handle negativity in my life anymore [Re: Jenjens]
#23789031 - 10/31/16 03:43 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Reacting with trained emotional attachments. Lot's of experiences can break us from these. I wouldn't expect it to last forever.
-------------------- "in sterquiliniis invenitur in stercore invenitur" In filth it will be found in dung it will be found
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The Blind Ass
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Re: I can't handle negativity in my life anymore [Re: Jenjens]
#23789053 - 10/31/16 03:51 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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The cure is to see through the greed and anger and delusion that are the constituents of negativity into the heart. To listen to their heart with your heart. Regardless of what the phenomenon on the surface looks like - hug an angry man and you will see he is crying, in pain, suffering. Complaining is angers little brother. Same thing only different. Grumbling the same too. There is a middle path with it all.
this is the beginning of stress, this is stress, this is the ending of stress.
this is the birth of anger, this is anger, this is the ending of anger.
this is the start of greed, this is greed , this is the ending of greed.
this is the origination of delusion, this is delusion, this is the extinction of delusion.
Seeing this as it is within ourselves we know it, knowing it we know what is impermanent, stressful, ,and unsatisfactory as not-self.
Knowing this for ourselves we gain knowledge and vision of things as they are. Gaining knowledge and vision of things as they are our awareness when it encompasses another mind of anger we discern it as a mind of anger, when a mind filled with greed - a mind filled with greed, when a mind of delusion - as a mind filled with delusion.
Seeing things as they are we know the path to release and unbinding, and living by its one taste we are an example for all.
-------------------- Give me Liberty caps -or- give me Death caps
Edited by The Blind Ass (10/31/16 03:55 PM)
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Re: I can't handle negativity in my life anymore [Re: The Blind Ass]
#23789101 - 10/31/16 04:09 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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well i hope you move past that, because it's going to be very hard for you to have a meaningful relationship with anyone at all if every time they ever experience an unpleasant emotion or mood you immediately reject them for their humanity. stress, unhappiness, anger, and all negative emotions are an unavoidable parts of the human experience and they are not a bad thing either. there is a reason our brains evolved with a capacity for such varied and strong emotions. I think you should trust nature - she is smarter than you or I many times over. plus, if you reject those emotions in others, surely you will reject them in yourself as well, which is obviously unhealthy for a plethora of reasons. its ironic that you say you feel less judgmental towards others. to the contrary - it sounds like you are significantly moreso.
basically what I'm saying is, this behavior pattern you've adopted is most likely going to pass. that is a very good thing, because it's not as healthy as you think it is.
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