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ModestMouse
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Re: My life is bland and uninteresting [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
#23787324 - 10/31/16 12:20 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I felt very similar to this for weeks, prior to my decision to enlist recently.
If I wasn't going through with this I'd likely feel that same "stuck in neutral" sensation... it kills me so I got off my ass and did something about it.
Do something radical and positive. Don't pretend these options don't exist. There's SOMETHING to be done.
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Jokeshopbeard
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Re: My life is bland and uninteresting [Re: ModestMouse]
#23787361 - 10/31/16 12:54 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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ModestMouse said: I felt very similar to this for weeks, prior to my decision to enlist recently.
Yeah, same for me when I experienced it, at the beginning of this year. It was shortly after that I decided on an entirely new path for my life also - the feeling of existential crisis passed shortly after I had set myself to follow this new path, no matter what hardship it entailed.
Nice post MM, you said the same thing as I was trying to get across in a few lines, you succinct motherfucker.
I saw a thread about you enlisting earlier, I gotta go have a read now. At first glance I assumed it was you starting another comedy thread - I guess not. Obviously I don't know you that well but I never imagined you to be the type to get into the ranks of the military..
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Re: My life is bland and uninteresting [Re: Jokeshopbeard] 1
#23787377 - 10/31/16 01:03 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'm not the type, I suppose, but as they say it takes all kinds.
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Edited by ModestMouse (10/31/16 01:10 AM)
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Jokeshopbeard
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Re: My life is bland and uninteresting [Re: ModestMouse]
#23787403 - 10/31/16 01:21 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Well, I just shared a few thoughts on your thread, would love to know what you make of them.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Re: My life is bland and uninteresting [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
#23787606 - 10/31/16 06:15 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Ah, funny people are on about they live. I did a short review of it on this day last year.
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John Carpenter's "They live" is an 18 certificate. There's violence in it, sure, some swearing (not much) and no sex. What is it in this film that made the BBFC give it an 18 certificate? Oh well, it's a great fictionalised documentary on life that's less fantastical than the matrix and has a kick arse sound track. If you haven't watched it, go get it!
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0096256/
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As for what you said, thanks for telling me about your friend. I know people like that, and it is never enough. Again, it's that thing of satisfaction, we do things, we hope it makes us satisfied, sometimes it does, but then the feeling passes.
I feel that you might want parts of my like Jokeybeard, I'm (largely) celibate, I don't do drug binges anymore. I've talked to my friend about this. I told him about my wants and he's even encouraged me to go find someone else to have a relationship with because he's my friend, he loves me, and wants to see me happy. I said I would, but then, when I think about who I'd want as an ideal mate, it's just him, but a version of him that is less uptight, would be willing to blaze up, and, a lot more slutty.
I got this theroy that when I'm dead that's the time to let go of attachments so I can float free and have fun not being, as well as being something other than human, which I can't wrap my head around, and for that reason, I want to try it out. But, whilst I am a human, I want those attachments. I want those deep, intimate bonds with someone, and yeah, I want someone who's able to reciprocate those feelings.

But, it's only part of the problem. The other part is depression, that increasingly has lead to panic attacks. Like one I had last night when I asked myself a very difficult question. In the end, when I managed to get my breathing and heart rate in check, I said I was ready to heal. I've dealt with depression all my life, and I'm ready to put it behind me.
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I've been feeling this a lot lately, man. As the guys above said, drastic and radical changes seem to be what gets people out of these funks.
The last couple times I've escaped those ruts have been by changing majors/colleges and breaking up with an old ball and chain.
The changes I'm thinking need to be made now are finding inspiration in my personal life and to nut up and kiss the girl sitting about 20 feet away from me.
You'll find a way out soon, brother, we all do.
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Re: My life is bland and uninteresting [Re: I Love Lucid]
#23788573 - 10/31/16 01:16 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Same here, exactly the same. Thanks for making the thread. Im following it! Glad to read there are more on this same road.
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I use combat sports to feel alive.
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Re: My life is bland and uninteresting [Re: Moonshoe]
#23788655 - 10/31/16 01:46 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I feel that about sports in general. I barely play them though.
Would love to play more frisbee.
I've thought about taking up archery and surfing as they both seem like great hobbies.
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