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JustForToday
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I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) 7
#23774355 - 10/26/16 07:07 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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So my mind is completely fucked up.
I need to double the dose of AA and also see another psychiatrist.
This week at work it has been cancer awareness month. So they decorated the floor with balloons and pinkness of many things.
So sitting at my desk and i've been playing with this balloon.. and I feel like i'm developing a connection with it. I was actually running it through my mind to marry a balloon.. I must be really losing my fucking mind.. and lonely..
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: JustForToday]
#23774365 - 10/26/16 07:09 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Mescalean] 4
#23774377 - 10/26/16 07:12 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Put the balloon down and get back to work.
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: JustForToday]
#23774386 - 10/26/16 07:16 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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ya probably get help, I can concur from your posts, you seem like someone who needs it (no offense intended, I'm serious)
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Ezuma]
#23774403 - 10/26/16 07:20 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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If he takes the message of my picture that lonely feeling will go away. Best way to find how you truely feel about a woman, beat off then think it over. Serious as fuck
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: JustForToday] 10
#23774404 - 10/26/16 07:21 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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JustForToday said: So my mind is completely fucked up.
I need to double the dose of AA and also see another psychiatrist.
This week at work it has been cancer awareness month. So they decorated the floor with balloons and pinkness of many things.
So sitting at my desk and i've been playing with this balloon.. and I feel like i'm developing a connection with it. I was actually running it through my mind to marry a balloon.. I must be really losing my fucking mind.. and lonely..
Was it the knot?
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23774492 - 10/26/16 07:48 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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balloonophilia
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: JustForToday]
#23774632 - 10/26/16 08:20 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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JustForToday said: So my mind is completely fucked up.
I need to double the dose of AA and also see another psychiatrist.
This week at work it has been cancer awareness month. So they decorated the floor with balloons and pinkness of many things.
So sitting at my desk and i've been playing with this balloon.. and I feel like i'm developing a connection with it. I was actually running it through my mind to marry a balloon.. I must be really losing my fucking mind.. and lonely..
Yea, AA is just what u need more of
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: stzacrack] 1
#23774781 - 10/26/16 09:02 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm glad you recognise this JFT. It's been obvious to the rest of the community for sometime that you need help. Step one is realising it, and it strikes me that you've been lashing out at people here rather than accept what you have accepted in this thread. I'm not sure that AA and another therapist is the definitive answer though, as that mindset seems to portray a belief (and I have known this in several others in similar situations to your own) that 'someone else needs to fix me'.
IMO, it's just you. Sure, there's helpful resources out there, but that's all they are, and nothing will change if you place your whole stock in them making things better.
Good on ya though man, I wish you all the best.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
#23775443 - 10/27/16 01:41 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yeah you are a sick person jft,we try and hint at it constantly . He's blocked me but I feel I have good advice on this . Maybe he should go to NA because AA led to a deep hatred of God which in my mind can ruin a persons psyche. God and the Bible dictates your personality if you dive head first into it.
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Nah dude, he took everyone off ignore, including you.
I can't believe people are still buying into this shit though. He's a troll. A really convincing one and I just thought he was mentally deranged for a good while but I just can't believe he's anything but a troll any longer.
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With my face against the floor I can’t see who knocked me out of the way. I don’t want to get back up but I have to so it might as well be today. Nothing appeals to me no one feels like me, I’m too busy being calm to disappear. I’m in no shape to be alone contrary to the shit that you might hear. You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Shroomslip]
#23775474 - 10/27/16 01:55 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I dunno man, I don't think he's a troll. Not that I put much stock in my opinion as I'm still pretty green when it comes to all this, but he strikes me far more as someone with serious mental health issues.
Trolls, in my experience, are quite cold and calculating when playing their game. JFT is more like an emotional wreck. I feel for the guy. I dunno what happened in his early years, but my gut says there's a lot of trauma back there that needs digging into.
And doing AA all day every day ain't gonna help with that. You need a GOOD therapist for that kinda work, and they aint easy to find. Lot of charlatans in that line of work.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Mescalean]
#23775477 - 10/27/16 01:57 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Mescalean said:

I gotta ask, that's not actually your cum is it? I thought you'd pulled it off google when I first saw it, but with Sheekle talking about cumming in his face, I suppose seeing a handful round here is not that far fetched....
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Jokeshopbeard] 1
#23775480 - 10/27/16 01:58 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Usually a thread that claims to not be a troll thread, is a pretty good indicator it is a troll thread. There's just a lot of little things that lead me to firmly believe he's a troll.
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With my face against the floor I can’t see who knocked me out of the way. I don’t want to get back up but I have to so it might as well be today. Nothing appeals to me no one feels like me, I’m too busy being calm to disappear. I’m in no shape to be alone contrary to the shit that you might hear. You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Shroomslip]
#23775490 - 10/27/16 02:06 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Like I say, I'd trust you and Burke and the other pro troll spotters over my own instincts, so I'm inclined to go with that view, but there's something.. abnormally damaged about JFT.
Like, every human that ever lived is damaged. But JFT seems mega-damaged. I've known a few people who end up this way due to childhood abuse. Psychology et al is my passion, so whilst I'm hoping that he's had a break in realising this fact, and is therefore reaching a state of acceptance of the work he must put in to heal, it's definitely also possible that he's just pissing us all about again due to the patterns of programming he may have been instilled with.
None the less, I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt, cause I know just how bad things can get for people who were badly treated before they were 6 or 7, and I would always try and show compassion to my fellow man where I can. To a point of course, he's been a dick to me a few times, but being here that much longer you may have been on the receiving end many more times, and thus have less faith or patience than I.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Shroomslip] 1
#23775505 - 10/27/16 02:21 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Shroomslip said: Usually a thread that claims to not be a troll thread, is a pretty good indicator it is a troll thread. There's just a lot of little things that lead me to firmly believe he's a troll.
Usually yes but imo not JFT , I legit feel like he is going through a lot. I'm usually good at catching horseshit and I don't think this is one of those times .He has been struggling for a while and (no offense JFT) but it's been pretty evident where his mental state has been,paying pornstars to skype,hating god and the world because of tough times. I think it's JFT having deep psychological issues and trying to mask the pain in the form of drugs,AA or over compensating. I can honestly say I hope you can recover soon,must be quite tough. If you really work hard to fix it though I think you have a good chance of recovering eventually
All that said if he were a troll it would be the most elaborate troll I've ever seen
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This guy is crazy, look at the rest of his postsss!!!
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Seriously_trippin said: All that said if he were a troll it would be the most elaborate troll I've ever seen
That I agree with. It's almost impressive actually. I dunno, it's possible he's not, but at this point I have a really hard time believing that. Over the last few months or whatever, he's been pretty active and I've started to notice little things that just don't sit right with me for someone who is genuinely that fucked in the head. I have no real proof, but my gut is giving me a really strong feeling he's a troll, and my gut has rarely steered me wrong in the past. Actually if I had listened to it more in my teens/early 20's, I could've saved myself a lot of pain and trouble
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Shroomslip]
#23775557 - 10/27/16 03:36 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Shroomslip said: my gut has rarely steered me wrong in the past. Actually if I had listened to it more in my teens/early 20's, I could've saved myself a lot of pain and trouble 
Agree. I have 99.9% faith in my gut feelings these days. In fact getting in touch with the place the gut feelings come from on a meditation retreat some time ago lead to a significant spiritual breakthrough in my life. If my external circumstances were not so all over the place at this point in my life, and I was more disciplined in practice, I feel the potential is there to be able to call upon that gut feeling at any given moment, rather than to depend on it to call to me when it wants, as it normally does for most of us.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
#23775631 - 10/27/16 05:05 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Jokeshopbeard said:
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Mescalean said:

I gotta ask, that's not actually your cum is it? I thought you'd pulled it off google when I first saw it, but with Sheekle talking about cumming in his face, I suppose seeing a handful round here is not that far fetched....
I shit in a parking lot this weekend. Now ask yourself that again.
And anyone defending this little shit has no been here for the whole fucking thing. He's been a cunt since day 1. I have a theory that the only reason he is still around is hes either 1. a puppet, or 2. some of the mods actually have a sense of humor and enjoy watching him loose his shit over things like being a gay porn prospect. I really do hope it's 2. Most likely is I could see Pris giggling at the shit storms this kid brings with him.
Edited by Mescalean (10/27/16 05:12 AM)
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Mescalean]
#23776283 - 10/27/16 10:50 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Abortions wrong man!!
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Re: I am a sick person (Not a troll thread) [Re: Jokeshopbeard] 1
#23776362 - 10/27/16 11:19 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Jokeshopbeard said: I'm glad you recognise this JFT. It's been obvious to the rest of the community for sometime that you need help. Step one is realising it, and it strikes me that you've been lashing out at people here rather than accept what you have accepted in this thread. I'm not sure that AA and another therapist is the definitive answer though, as that mindset seems to portray a belief (and I have known this in several others in similar situations to your own) that 'someone else needs to fix me'.
IMO, it's just you. Sure, there's helpful resources out there, but that's all they are, and nothing will change if you place your whole stock in them making things better.
Good on ya though man, I wish you all the best.
Excellent post JSB....spot on!!
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