Hello,
I would like to share my story to see if someone can relate to my experience, so I can talk to someone to see if some questions can be answered.
As history goes this was mine 3rd time for taking shrooms, first two times i had 0,2 and 0,4grams-so no any visuals or emotional feelings, thoughts-more something like good weed I would say. I smoke weed like 3-4 times monthly and that is it from my experiences.
So I have decided to take 1gram of shrooms with my best friend. First we smoked a joint to relax and than took the shrooms. The first effect was relaxing, seeing some colours and patterns while closed eyes when listening to music. A great happy experience. Than for some reason while it was looking like just starting we decided to smoke one more joint. So after it started to hit me, the time warping feeling, better "understanding" of music, better realizations of colours, laughing...IF you ask me, best time ever.
But than after some time I have started to fight some negative thoughts-first my belly started hurting( little felling but increased with overall negative feelings) and after that it all started. (regarding my belly I have feared of something serious (like cancer) because I am feeling this from time to time, but after medical check I am healthy as any other person).
First I have to say that from beginning I know my self (or I knew) -so I am very logical person and like to question everything also I have some negative thoughts that I am well aware of but I learned to live with it. For some examples, I always worry that my girlfriend is cheating of me, or from my belly that I have cancer, or anything else is "wrong" with me I increase it hugely even that I am well aware that their is no LOGIC what so ever behind it.
So saying that, while I was on the trip all this negative feelings increased. I had really panic attacks (sweating and heart rushing), asking myself is this real? am I in the right "world"? thinking is this what insane person see? Will i stay in this state forever? Also while my friend saw me that I was kind of panicking, he was trying to help me with bringing some fruit and water, and I was questioning if he was real and if he doesn't want that this bad felling ends for me! I didn't believe to no one. While I was in time warping feeling at first I was delirious how great this is but after i thought that I will be insane and stuck in this phase forever.
Also I couldn't stop getting on negative thoughts, I tried breathing, clearing my head, but I could run from it, it always keep up with me. I couldn't remember any happy memories to try to go that way. Have to say that i fought the negative feeling all the trip, being scared if I let go to the negative that will consume me somehow. I feared so much about something will happen to me. Also I figured that I am afraid of death and any type of pain too much.
So to all people saying just concentrate on your breathing, just stop saying that because it doesnt work for everyone 
So in short, I was filling paranoid about anything, had couple of panic attacks and also had couple of times a urge to vomit (but i didnt).
The trip lasted about 5 hours and the horrible part about 3. Even as 1 week past, I have some weird feeling in my stomach after it.
I am not sure about going shrooms again, what do you think? Have anyone had something familiar? Was someone on the trip that couldnt fight the negative thoughts? If yes, what did you do? Should I let go next time to the negative thought?
Thanks
p.s. sorry for bad english and post as whole, I tried to write everything I could remember. I will try to edit the post later
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For me and many others, smoking too much weed before or during the trip often leads to many unpleasant effects like extreme paranoia, anxiety, and negative thought loops. Maybe try upping your mushroom dose to 2 grams, and leaving out the weed until after you start to come down.
Laying down and focusing on taking slow and deep breaths always helps me deal with intense anxiety. Banishing negative thought loops is often more difficult, sometimes changing something about the environment helps -- like putting on different music, changing the lighting, changing rooms, or going for a walk. Sometimes nothing can be done but recognize that you are on drugs, and you are just going to have to ride it out until they wear off.
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