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OfflineTrippedytrip
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I am taking Suicide as an option guys
    #23747871 - 10/18/16 03:44 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Hello there ,

After my 2nd shroom trip 3,5 something went really wrong.

My brain got  stuck in the momemt due to a panic situation.

My brain got stuck and since that trip i havnt been normal again.

There is no point of living like this anymore cause i cant function normal in day to day life , i completely isolated and my brain doesnt reset to normal again .

What can i do ? I am very hopeless


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Trippedytrip] * 2
    #23747919 - 10/18/16 04:40 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Stop doing drugs


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Nobler Hino]
    #23747928 - 10/18/16 04:53 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Seek professional help. Now.

Suicide Prevention Hotline
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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: SkagitHunter]
    #23747960 - 10/18/16 05:31 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

That sort of thing isn't uncommon. Some will tell you to stop taking drugs, some will say you need to take them again in a more controlled manner so you can work through the issue. I'm not sure what route is best for you but what i do know is you're going to be okay and you should not be thinking about suicide right now. A bad trip can trigger a sort of PTSD reaction that can take some time to work through. I have had some truly horrible experiences at very high doses and thought i would never be normal again but i am. For me, reexposure helped. But at much lower doses, in much more comfortable settings. Even then it took me a few trips to get through the discomfort. That's just me though. Without knowing more about you and your experience i can't recommend it. Can you explain a little more about what happened and what you experience day to day since then?


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: JacksonMetaller]
    #23747976 - 10/18/16 05:51 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Thats a good answer thanks .

The trip was confusing , the set setting was good but it broke when 2 friends came screaming from my friend and then things scrambled up .

I was on mute , didnt get a thing , just confused . That passed after a while  , we changed setting and i finally enjoyed the rest of the trip.

After that tripp , something was different , i didnt feel as good as before something was wrong .

Months passed by i got less active , weird , had kind of a "breakdown" cause i was so confused in looking for a answer cause i knew something was strange . After a while people also saw it , i kept smoking pot , the pot high was different , more as a shroom high .

Well after that i kept going on trying to go on with life since now.

I have reached a point where my brain got kinda stuck and doesnt run correctly . It is like i can access these memories and it remained kinda stuck in the unconscious.

I have thought a lot about taking a trip since weed doesnt help me and it wont fix it .

I have tried with mdma , helps for the moment but it resets back to the point .

So now i am planning with shrooms because they were wich put me in that situation and if that doesnt work il plan on doing Ayahuasca .

The last 6-7 months have been hell , i cant function normal in this state thats why i see i have nothig really to loose because i can control myself if things get worser... wich is not really possible

So thats it , i also feel disconnected to the source earth sun , human beings to everything

Peace thanks for helping


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Trippedytrip]
    #23748095 - 10/18/16 07:21 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

You haven't replied about wether or not you are going to get help. Posting here is reaching out but it barely constitutes help. You NEED professional help. Please call this number, they can point you in the right direction.
1-800-273-8255


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: SkagitHunter]
    #23748278 - 10/18/16 08:54 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

You don't have to kill yourself over, for god's sake a shroom trip. I gave my roomates's cat in college catnip for Christmas. Poor Kitty was out of it for days. My rooomate said "brian you broke my cat. Luckily she came back to normal. you will come back to normal too unless you had underlying mental illness (probably not but this the shroomery so who knows). KItty had no underlying mental illness.


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Brian Jones]
    #23748321 - 10/18/16 09:10 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Iv'e been weirded out by acid before and I just kept telling myself that I would get back to normal, and I did get back to normal.

You got to have faith that you will get back to normal, and you will.

It is important that you be headstrong on psychedlics and to realise that you are the one in control. It can be easy to trick yourself into thinking that you are fucked for life, and belief is a powerful thing. You need to believe that you'll get back to normal. I think fear is a big factor in these sort of situations, and sometimes tripping again and make you realise that the fear was needless.

I would much rather take heroic doses of mushrooms on my own than take small doses around people who are bad news to be around whilst tripping. In fact most times I have done mushrooms on my own. When reality gets completely ripped apart and nothing makes sense any more during a strong trip, I know that I will be back to normal again within an hour or two. It's always like I'm tripping hard one moment and then all of a sudden I'm completely back to reality (even though I'm probably still getting the effects from it).

Have faith that you will come back to normality. Don't buy into the fear based thoughts you might have because they are bullshit. For me magic mushrooms are safe as houses and I cannot have a bad trip. I've had some dark trips where I thought I was dying, and then that I had died but I didn't see them as bad trips, rather they were some of the best and most meaningful trips Iv'e ever had.

Just have faith in yourself and that everything is going to be alright. Always go with the flow and never fight it.


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Trippedytrip] * 5
    #23748373 - 10/18/16 09:34 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

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Months passed by i got less active , weird , had kind of a "breakdown" cause i was so confused in looking for a answer cause i knew something was strange . After a while people also saw it , i kept smoking pot , the pot high was different , more as a shroom high .







Stay active, take spirulina and b-vitamin complex daily, drink lots of water (not tap), drink green tea (3-5 cups daily), and stop smoking pot.

Run, run at least 1 mile everyday, strive for a 5K a day (3.1 miles), you don't have to be a speed demon, just get out there and do it, sunshine is healing for the mind.

I found that by staying active with something everyday, improves my mental health greatly, so if I don't run, cycle, or workout for a day, I walk.  Yesterday and the day before I walked 10 miles each day, which was great to be out and enjoy the autumn weather, and see the leaves changing, smell the autumn air, photograph some mushrooms, and see reflections on the water.

Don't downplay how much healing the natural world holds for you.

If you want to talk via PM, fire away, you wont bother me.

But for the love of all that is holy, don't harm yourself.


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Trippedytrip]
    #23748428 - 10/18/16 09:52 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

well suicide is kinda like making a bet.  Put everything you have on a table, then spin a wheel without having a clue what the payout will be.  It could be bad, it could be good, you just don't know.  From that perspective it just seems like a really bad gamble.  :shrug:


i do understand people wanting to commit suicide though, not wanting to spend another second here.  Earth is a cumbersome experience for anyone born with a brain.  And anyway, when you have nothing to lose why not change some things?  you will always have the option tomorrow.  I'd wait and see if tomorrow anything changes.


dont drink bottle fucking water.  in fact dont touch fucking plastic AT ALL.  Or thermal paper for that matter.  BPA, BPS... all really fucking bad.  shameful.


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: sprinkles]
    #23749979 - 10/18/16 07:31 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

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sprinkles said:

i do understand people wanting to commit suicide though, not wanting to spend another second here.  Earth is a cumbersome experience for anyone born with a brain.  And anyway, when you have nothing to lose why not change some things?  you will always have the option tomorrow.  I'd wait and see if tomorrow anything changes.




This is what has kept me around for 15 years. You can't undo death anymore than you can undo the past. However we can grow and learn from the past to become better people and have better lives. Death ends all chance, all hope, all dreams, all potential, and the unique individual that is you. This planet will never have another you. If you believe in reincarnation - you will never have another you again either. Think about that.

Don't waste yourself just because you don't know what else to do. New doors open all the time my friend. You wouldn't ever know that if you ended it before you had the chance. Give yourself a chance. Work on you. Take the advice of what others have already posted. Take care of yourself. It can be more worth it than you'd ever know to ride out the bumps :peace:


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: CookieCrumbs]
    #23751110 - 10/19/16 04:22 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Hey guys thanks for the answers ,

I got kinda a PTSD reaction from that trip because i had a panick moment and after it since then i have like lost the magic of the universe , my awareness was pretty much damaged (kinda double vision) and like my body is still in that reaction and doesnt want to chill down and it pretty hard to function.

Weed wont repair it i have tried it .

Mdma didnt repair it .

Yesterday i did 0,7 and i had a good time but didnt see the light .

On that trip i did 3,5 g and i was quite new into it so i guess i must go a little bit deeper to experience what i want and need to live .

Thanks for your support !


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Trippedytrip] * 1
    #23751243 - 10/19/16 06:49 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

I feel your pain brother, it's not easy.

Not gonna think I have a solution because it's been 10 years and there's still been no cure. But it's gotten better and I've learned to adapt somewhat. Hope that you'll find your groove or don't... I won't look down on you if you choose to end your suffering. A mind tortured by eternity is not a pretty thing in this world.


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #23751256 - 10/19/16 07:07 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Man that sucks. Sometimes good sex can break you out of a rut like that.


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Trippedytrip] * 1
    #23751684 - 10/19/16 11:07 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Man stop doing drugs. Your mind can't reset itself if your throwing it out of balance before it has a chance to recover.


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: CookieCrumbs]
    #23751740 - 10/19/16 11:30 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

It cant reset itself normally either i tried every thing


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: CookieCrumbs] * 1
    #23751880 - 10/19/16 12:19 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

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CookieCrumbs said:
Man stop doing drugs. Your mind can't reset itself if your throwing it out of balance before it has a chance to recover.




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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Trippedytrip]
    #23752198 - 10/19/16 02:34 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

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It cant reset itself normally either i tried every thing




It takes time. How long have you gone without drugs? Without any drugs?


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: CookieCrumbs]
    #23752336 - 10/19/16 03:28 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

I was 6 months sober .


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Re: I am taking Suicide as an option guys [Re: Trippedytrip]
    #23752351 - 10/19/16 03:39 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Yeah you need to go a year at least. If not 2 or 3. Think of it as having a seizure. Your brain got terribly distorted and it needs time to reorient itself. Then a few months later you have another seizure. That resets your recovery time. When you have a seizure you are more likely afterward to have more seizures until your brain is able to competely stabalize itself. If you have a seizure one day and then have a seizure the very next day that sets you back yet farther and increases your recovery time.

You are not just resetting your recovery time, you are prolonging it.

Think of it as a heart attack or another major health issue. The more they come, especially if they come close one after another, the harder it is to recover from.



Stay sober for AT Least one year. You may be one of these people who just can't take ppsychedelics. Even after your brain completely recovers you may take a hit of acid and go right back to square one.

Stop. Doing. Drugs.


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