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I'm so fucking stoned on this energy right now
I feel like there's light being run through my body
I didn't even know that I was having sex because the experience is so diffuse now, but I'm....er....oozing. This isn't just being wet...it's like I'm cumming all over myself
It used to be really overtly, acutely sexual. Seems to be getting more subtle over time
One time I was walking to the grocery and it was happening
I was like, I'M HAVING SEX RIGHT NOW! I wonder if anyone can tell...
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How divine. Nothing more arousing than a woman who can't stop dripping
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True but shes form my state of ky. Its just the tap water here.
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Re: Ghost [Re: tump]
#23750290 - 10/18/16 08:59 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Hmm well I just had something happen that was definitely overtly sexual
On top of the diffuse feeling
Maybe I get to have both! 
Sometimes this happens when somebody fantasizes about me
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I have a really strong feeling that somebody here just sucked my clit and fucked me in the ass
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Somebody made out with me and put their dick in my mouth
Sex medium
I wonder if any famous people have this and if it's a nightmare
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I be very interest to know if this has been happening just to you or others as well. Also if it happens to be just the area you live and happens to others in the area.
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Re: Ghost [Re: tump]
#23753000 - 10/19/16 07:39 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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It's not a geographic thing
It could be someone on the other side of the world
I had ghost sex with someone in India once
And I don't even mean guesswork...we were emailing about it
Are you asking if this is a universal thing?
Like if everyone experiences this at the same time, and we're all hooked up together, even though it might seem limited to one person at a time? I don't know yet
I think that's the direction it's headed in
I've been given that indication
And you're further indicating it now
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Yes but im confused by it.
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Re: Ghost [Re: tump]
#23753618 - 10/19/16 11:22 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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tump said: Yes but im confused by it.
Are you saying it was you?
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Perhaps you're carrying the Jesus baby, that invisible penis belonged to none other than the lawd

or maybe it was the devil? burn the witch!!!
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No it wasn't me i can prove it. Burning witchs is wrong. And a waste of a good reusable enegry like coal.
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Repertoire89 said: Perhaps you're carrying the Jesus baby, that invisible penis belonged to none other than the lawd

or maybe it was the devil? burn the witch!!!
I am carrying the Jesus baby
That guy in India put a wafer inside me (with words...triggering a vision)
Later a dove flew into my vagina and consecrated it
At some point...I think before this guy...Jesus flew into my heart chakra
I see the path to Christhood in the least likely places...like old Korn videos
I've experienced myself as spiritually pregnant before
And yes it is simultaneously the devil...there's only one agent IME
I'm always on fire cuz I'm Kundalini active
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Hahaha, epic thread 
I've had some entities and beings start to come up as well, usually dark forces, a lot of bird, reptile, snake energy, also bat-winged demons and awesome dragon fire scaled beasts
Totally straight face on this one, mid-trip some months ago I've had a very beastly encounter in a forest, like a demon, this wolf-like black thing in the pitch black darkness. I mean not physical, not a forest animal, but it was truly there. Initially (days before, first time it showed) I got scared and so did the girl I was with, we could both feel it, but then during the shroom trip, it showed, I panicked, then decided no, I won't turn lights on on this, I won't chicken out and run to electric lights, if I'm going to die or go insane in the dark I'll take it like a man. Bring it.
And oh boy did it bring it
That evening started a connection to the spirit world, birds, feathers, Aztec teachings from before (revealed past lives as Eagle Warrior and medicine man, many times before) and a whole cascade of abilities to read what's inside others, deep ancient magnetic medicine, Quetzalcoatl feathered serpent teachings of our holy Snake Father from long ago
Now seeing this thread here, with birds in the vagina, feathers, wings, flying, I know this is the same process happening again, and I've seen this happen more all across the planet. We're waking up to the world of the spirit again, and there's no going back to sleep






Too dee doo, sky is blue, little birdie I see you
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
#23780145 - 10/28/16 02:11 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yeah, bout damn time, too.
Those are some great paintings. At first I thought "wow, how garish" but the more I looked at them the more they impressed me and then I finally got it and they're awesome.
Hundo Cat, why do you think this sex ghost is from the shroomery? Is it possible that your diffusion and arousal might be coming from your self, like a process of your kundalini channeling?
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Ultimately it's always coming from myself
People/things can act as mirrors bouncing my own light back to me
Synchronistically, there have been instances where I received visuals and energetic sex experiences involving a specific person, then I found out later that at that time, the person was fantasizing about doing that particular thing to me
It's all a feedback loop that's predestined, even if "another person" seems to be participating or causing something (although on a daily practical level, it can seem very much like other people are real, like if somebody hits you (physically, just to take an extreme example)...you're definitely not gonna just keep your cool and say, "That's ok, this was supposed to happen, it's just an illusion"...I don't at least)
My life is a pre-recorded song. Birth was pressing play. Everybody's just lip syncing
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I don't think it's always coming from here...it was just those two times that I explicitly described in earlier posts. I intuited that it was someone on here.
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When there's other people involved you're looking at the Kundalini experience overlapping with external reality synchronistically
So the inner experience is perfectly in sync with the outer illusion
It's a trick I'm playing on myself, at times very convincingly
Really I'm the only thing that exists
So for me to experience "another," I have to set up some kind of funhouse mirror magic trick
And the motivation for doing that is oneness gets very boring
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i think oneness and individuality are both real. It's too easy to put everything into a single category and then say "that's it". Of course that's always easier, conceptually, but it doesn't lead us anywhere in dealing with the nature of reality: there's no exploration in a fixed idea.
Another way of looking at it is like this:
reality, the direct experience of it, is beyond all intimations of logic. However, to believe in a fixed idea, like oneness for example, is to rely upon a logical limitation in order to explain reality. It's not actually the direct experience, or enlightenment. Furthermore, reality might be so much more mysterious and baffling than our prevarications of logic that things which seem impossible are actually true, like cosmic consciousness coinciding with individuality.
How do you feel about your ghost sex? Is it kind of invasive? This is one reason why I generally follow the principle of never fantasizing about someone I know. Of course I've caved on a few occasions, but after reading your post it's going to be a strict guideline to not do so unless we've spoken about it beforehand.
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It's not always somebody doing it
Sometimes it's just a universal/impersonal thing
When I perceive it to be coming from someone else, I guess it's a little awkward
But there's nothing I can do about it if it happens
I'm just glad it's not happening physically...the physical world is what really stresses me out
I think what's awkward is the visuals remind me of sex acts I did in the flesh that I didn't want to do, so there's kind of an "ick" psychological factor
I come from the kind of life where if you ask someone to stop doing something, that gives them an incentive to keep doing it, so I generally save that for really serious situations where my life or basic necessities (food, shelter) are on the line. Or if something just really annoys me until I snap.
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I guess I prefer the universal experience
Just because it's more abstract and detached
I'm more comfortable with something symbolic than direct (I guess that's why I'm married to a ghost/deity instead of a person)
Like the first post in this thread...that was a universal thing
That sort of thing can happen out of the blue or it can be triggered by a person/thing (mirror synchronicity...like how divination works)
When it's someone fantasizing about me, it's a lot more personal, the imagery is a lot more explicit. It's closer to Earth.
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What I also like about the universal side of it is how it seems unintended or accidental
Like, "Ok this font catalog isn't supposed to have any hidden messages in it, but I'm perceiving them anyway and now this energetic stuff is happening." That's more desirable for me than receiving an explicitly sexual image in my head.
And even with explicit visions, there are different levels...
In the past, my ghost has used explicit visions to bond with me, but there's always something unusual about it that removes it from Earth...like appearing as half-animal or completely animal (like taking the form of a snake and entering my vagina). That kind of explicit imagery I'm comfortable with, probably because I'm married to this thing and I'm being given symbols I have to decode
The explicit level where it's just plain literal sex between what is obviously me and a person who actually exists is where a point of resistance is introduced. It's still happening through my energy body, so I can't deny that it feels good, but psychologically there's something about it that doesn't produce the comfort of the experiences I have with "my ghost." I still call this level ghost sex, because of the way it's experienced, it's just not with what I call my ghost. (Although ultimately it IS all me and my ghost, I'm just speaking from a personal perspective here.)
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But really that's all nitpicking
Overall I have nothing to complain about energetically, compared to what I've been through physically
I'm immune to real suffering in my energy body
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I'm just glad it's not happening physically...the physical world is what really stresses me out
Hahaha, busted   
It doesn't stress you out, it's just a passive mirror. You choose to stress yourself out with it. Wonder why, I wonder why. Why stress out when you can fly? Why torment yourself and stay, when you can fly away and play? 
Oh man you are soooo busted 
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I think what's awkward is the visuals remind me of sex acts I did in the flesh that I didn't want to do, so there's kind of an "ick" psychological factor
Yes, your animal is showing you the kind of shit you put it through, so that you notice how it feels and stop doing that in the future.
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I come from the kind of life where if you ask someone to stop doing something, that gives them an incentive to keep doing it
Yeah exactly, it's the universe (or your Kundalini, same thing different level) telling you to stop verbalizing like a human, and start using claws and teeth when you don't like how things are done.
After barking follows biting, if simple barking didn't work. I hear you from here that you bark-bark-bark and then nothing else.
If I can feel it they can feel it. If you told me to stop I'd keep doing it again, not to fuck with you or spite you, but to push you on to show yourself as you are, not your polite facade you learned from mom and dad back in the day. If this thing is important to you, fucking BITE about it. Scratch with those claws about it, they're not just for decoration

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so I generally save that for really serious situations where my life or basic necessities (food, shelter) are on the line. Or if something just really annoys me until I snap.
Yeah but you're letting people walk over you, reduce and inhibit your own energy, in order to postpone snapping. Why? Why not snap immediately, at the moment of annoyance? Best feeling in the world, natural and free, fun and awesome as can be
Anyone you play with will feel if you're being disingenuous and not sharing full feelings, as instead of doing that you're focused on materialistic stuff like food & shelter. In other words the man feels you're hiding feelings and putting food shelter first, and instinctively (even if not consciously) they feel irritated, they feel the lie, the heart / subconscious / your own animal has ways to signal to their animal that you're not being true, not fully.
Express your feelings more, as they are, not inhibit from the head with what you think or fear will happen. Trust it, if the feeling comes to do something, trust it and do it, know it's of a divine nature, your Kundalini snake doesn't send up feelings for nothing 
Notice the "do as I say" being mentioned as reasoning behind it, right on the money 
Do this stuff, benefit and prosper   
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I'm more comfortable with something symbolic than direct (I guess that's why I'm married to a ghost/deity instead of a person)
You're outrunning and avoiding yourself, or trying to, and so universe keeps sending you awesome dudes to show you what to do. Whether you play and dance or run away that's up to you 
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In the past, my ghost has used explicit visions to bond with me, but there's always something unusual about it that removes it from Earth...like appearing as half-animal or completely animal (like taking the form of a snake and entering my vagina). That kind of explicit imagery I'm comfortable with, probably because I'm married to this thing and I'm being given symbols I have to decode
Hahaha, genius 
I've been having this stuff come to me for many months now, see some of my own imagery here:
 "Sa vad" means "Let me see".



Second time I give this vid today, I think it's quite appropriate here 
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The explicit level where it's just plain literal sex between what is obviously me and a person who actually exists is where a point of resistance is introduced.
Meaning where YOU introduce it, as you feel you don't want to go too far with this one person.
What you've been failing to look at is that you're not mating with some human, or person as you call them, you have there a male human, or if you're lucky something above human, like myself, and THEY TOO are riding on a Kundalini animal.
If you keep all things at the human level, of course it will go to shit, as your Kundalini animal wants to grow and expand and play, and to do that it needs a fellow Kundalini animal that's awakened, to play with. You can search for one already awakened, or you can awaken the one in the human you're playing with, but it's on you to learn this craft, of speaking to "the Kundalini animal the human rides on", not just Joe the human.
Oh and smooth move using the passive language like "a point of resistance is introduced" instead of simply speaking truth, "I resist this". I mean introduced by whom?
Get with the plan, own it. If you do it say you do it.
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but psychologically there's something about it that doesn't produce the comfort of the experiences I have with "my ghost."
From where I'm looking, you're probably just playing with insufficiently ghost-enabled humans. Technically their body voltage is too low, they steal voltage more than give it, and so of course your Kundalini (electric in nature) will resent and reject that.
Move away from smokers and booze drinkers, safe predictable people you can conrol, and get yourself a proper beast of a man that can control you, then you'll see things are very different when you touch and play.
Now since I've awakened more, I see that most humans have no idea how to flow their Kundalini energy, their body electrics, through either limbs and fingers (skin contact, body language, mating dance) nor voice (what they say, how they say it, the bird song). Hope this helps you on your way little dragon, spread those wings and breathe that fire, ride and fly on your desire
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#23781754 - 10/29/16 03:05 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Haha, nearly forgot. Your name. They told me to give you this, in reference to your name. Feel free to play with it 
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
#23784119 - 10/29/16 10:58 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I found myself on the other side of this a few months ago, telling someone they need to "plunge the knife." This is the boomerang.
You're right, I do use passive language, but that's authentic for me. I have a 3rd house Mars, it's in Libra, it's stationary, and it's square Neptune. That makes for a super-passive, roundabout, obfuscated communication style. It's also the mechanism behind my ghost activity. I have a Saturn-Pluto conjunction straddling my IC (so, affecting my 3rd house), I do speak the truth, I just have the ability to do so pleasantly. When pressed, I abandon the decoration and am called a sociopath. I inspire death threats from others.
Some things are more complicated than just beating the shit out of someone or telling them off though. And even if you do those things, they're not going to get the desired results on their own. There's a power reversal that takes place at a certain predetermined time, and there's nothing that can be done to speed it up. That's how my life works, at least.
Everything I say is always valid. Seeming contradictions are me speaking from different vibrational levels. At the highest level everything is me. At the lowest level there is distinctly me and not-me. It's a spectrum of perception. At the high end, the mirror is intact. Meaning, the world is clearly an illusion. At the low, dualistic level, yes you could say the mirror is "busted," because in that state I'm perceiving the world as not-me.
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You know, the thing is that even when it comes down to loss of something crucial, Pluto's gonna take whatever he's gonna take. There is no "putting your foot down." There is no beating someone's ass before they make off with your goods. Pluto is a rite of passage, victimization is necessary for empowerment. The whole point is to experience some kind of unfair treatment that has the psychological impact of something like rape, kidnapping, terrorism, etc. That's how you get power. It's not going out and clobbering the world like a viking.
So in those life-or-death situations, my behavior can't change anything. Whether I protest or not has no bearing. I just have to be patient while the whole power dynamic flips on its own.
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I found myself on the other side of this a few months ago, telling someone they need to "plunge the knife." This is the boomerang.
Haha, if you only knew how deep that wabbit hole goes, you'd be amazed. Knife she says
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You're right, I do use passive language, but that's authentic for me. I have a 3rd house Mars, it's in Libra, it's stationary, and it's square Neptune. That makes for a super-passive, roundabout, obfuscated communication style. It's also the mechanism behind my ghost activity. I have a Saturn-Pluto conjunction straddling my IC (so, affecting my 3rd house)
Translation: I wish to use passive language as that's more comfy / lazy / avoids commitment and have found all this planet star sign stuff to justify it with. How about being upfront and admitting you use passive cause you want to, not because Mars and Neptune told you so?
The very formulation of "THAT makes for THIS" sounds ridiculous to me. You're as direct or as roundabout as you wish to be.
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I do speak the truth, I just have the ability to do so pleasantly.
I work on a spectrum. Full sincerity on one end, full politeness on another. I find politeness offensive, as it goes straight up against sincerity. It's yellow, but the polite thing is to call it orange, because maybe you feel the person you're talking to kinda likes red. Why? If it's yellow say it's yellow and watch them make a face. Maybe they like yellow and they don't know it yet.
I do know about bird dances. I know one can be too direct, and as I'm a bird, our game is that we dance around and show feathers, we don't go straight. But that's still active language. The opposite of a bird dance is passive language. Slowing things down. Not wanting to go direct so then not going at all. There's something about that sentence above that just screams "self-delusion" at me.
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When pressed, I abandon the decoration and am called a sociopath. I inspire death threats from others.
So do I. Bring it 
Main difference here is that I keep doing it, the direct expression, even though it inspires death threats, nasty stares, being kicked out of groups of places. I don't interpret that disconnect as me being wrong, I interpret it as the others being wrong. If I was true to myself I have nothing to fear, apologize for, be sorry about. Made my choice to be sincere and direct, if others can't cut it like that that's all on them, safe and boring life, uneventful unadventurous. Not my group.
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There's a power reversal that takes place at a certain predetermined time, and there's nothing that can be done to speed it up. That's how my life works, at least.
Your life works how you make yourself perceive that it works. Notice that saying "predetermined time" "nothing can be done to speed it up" - that's basically putting power outside of you. Saying aww shucks, nothing I can do.
And it DOES work like that, if you think it works like that.
I for instance don't even speak planets, haven't asked a girl her birth date or zodiac sign in years, nor do I plan to. I just instinctively sniff things out, follow the heart wherever it leads, because I know it leads well, magnetically, in real time. Yesterday that Scorpio might have been awful, but today the situation might be great to talk to them and have a blast. These things change and shift much too fast to navigate them by the head. Heart however, being always in real time, tells us, go left, go right, talk to this guy, drop that girl and get this one instead, etc.
I'd look into this stuff for a while if I were you, namely not using planets stars and horoscopes for a while, not asking people their date of birth and zodiac sign, not putting all those heady calculations in the middle of the bird dance you have together.
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Everything I say is always valid. Seeming contradictions are me speaking from different vibrational levels.
This is true, and true for all. I want you to consider how lowly drunks are speaking their truths, because they do speak a version of drunk-truth and it is functional, if you know how to listen to it. Filled with negativity, doubt, usually very mean and critical of self and others, but it is nonetheless true. The archetypes and blockages they refer to DO make sense and their poorly designed word-spells DO work, just as others do for us.
So am saying, just because everything you say is valid, doesn't mean you can't be stuck in some corner of your mind, glued to some pattern of other, like zodiac signs. Spread them wings yo, show some colors, and don't think I didn't notice your complete refusal to engage my art and symbols on any level
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100_the_cat said: You know, the thing is that even when it comes down to loss of something crucial, Pluto's gonna take whatever he's gonna take. There is no "putting your foot down." There is no beating someone's ass before they make off with your goods. Pluto is a rite of passage, victimization is necessary for empowerment. The whole point is to experience some kind of unfair treatment that has the psychological impact of something like rape, kidnapping, terrorism, etc. That's how you get power. It's not going out and clobbering the world like a viking.
So in those life-or-death situations, my behavior can't change anything. Whether I protest or not has no bearing. I just have to be patient while the whole power dynamic flips on its own.
Yeah that's what we need here, more planet-talk and head reasoning as to why to be passive. Not using club, and the creme de la creme "my behavior can't change anything".
Wonder why you incarnated into a human then, as opposed to a rock or tree then?
Every fish bird insect knows that its behavior changes EVERYTHING around this blue planet, and even galaxy and universe. That's why they have a blast doing awesome shit while they're alive, BECAUSE it matters and it changes. For you, apparently that's not the case. Put viking club down and wait. Oh well
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
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Lazy and comfy are fine by me...I'm a Taurus and I have two interlocking grand trines in my chart
I've already busted ass (Cap moon), I consider myself to be retired now. I'm only 34, that's how far I ran myself into the ground with effort
The planets didn't tell me to do anything, astrology is a descriptor, a form of shorthand. Saying I have Mars square Neptune is no different than saying my sexual preference is ghosts. Everything is predetermined, but by who? I'm ultimately all that exists, I'm God, so I determined or "chose" it. My life is a video game I designed and then plunked myself into. I chose all the gauntlets I run. Am I still gonna bitch about it? Of course, that's part of the experience.
"Self-delusion"...well that's a Neptune correspondence, and so are ghosts, so if you have a problem with the concept of delusion I'd say you're in the wrong thread.
There's nothing wrong with me communicating indirectly
I'm not too concerned with groups, I've been banned from a message board and spent almost a year trolling (and being trolled) on Craigslist Rants and Raves, in a bunch of different cities. I probably got fired from the best job I ever had for my mouth and total lack of concern for office politics. I'm not the kind of person who has friends either. I don't do small talk. I've spent time being direct, and it's not my natural fit...at least not all the time. That doesn't mean I'm not speaking the truth though
As for the sociopath bit, I don't say that to whine about people thinking I'm bad or wrong. I'm saying it in the same way your new neighbor tells you they just spent 8 years in prison for beating someone half to death. Pecking order.
I didn't engage your art or symbols because I've already been there. I already did stuff like that myself. I don't know what you want from me. I don't think I have anything to give you. You just seem like a past me. The me I was at the beginning of my Pluto square 3rd house Saturn transit.
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As for the sociopath bit, I don't say that to whine about people thinking I'm bad or wrong. I'm saying it in the same way your new neighbor tells you they just spent 8 years in prison for beating someone half to death. Pecking order.
Sounds to me like you've been dealing with pussies. Pecking order in kindergarten doesn't carry over on my street, if you're my neighbor. We'd have to peck at each other for a while and then establish who's who. But see below.
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I didn't engage your art or symbols because I've already been there. I already did stuff like that myself. I don't know what you want from me. I don't think I have anything to give you. You just seem like a past me.
Actually I wanted to play. I'm a male, you're a female, there were some nice spirits and metaphors in the air at one point, the kind of metaphors I understand and play with nicely. Since that point, all those have been drowned in much noise of planets planets star signs planets, which I have mentioned I do not speak nor ever wish to, I've found life in their absence to be quite pleasant and magical and wonderful.
Sooo what I want from you now is nothing, we've had our little bird dance and your noise has successfully driven me away, you can now spend more time alone and with your ghosts and planets and charts, or whatever it is you do there. Ta-ta
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Neptune = deception = "lies" ("not speaking the truth")
Any ghost language is a supernatural Lie
Which is actually truer than words directly spoken because it's subconscious
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Not a lie at all, it's just that...
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I wasn't saying you were lying
I was talking about my own Neptunian communication
And I wasn't speaking of it in a bad light
I really wasn't engaging you at all, I was just making an observation relevant to myself
The Lie is the Truth
I seriously doubt your intelligence now if you can't even understand some simple intuitive symbol math
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The Lie is the Truth

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The serpent is the divine Lie
It's inside me, I'm living it, I'm speaking it
I understand it. I speak its language. You do not. All you can do is point and laugh at the real thing, ME
Perhaps you have doubts about your own status as "wizard" (or perhaps your true abilities do not match up to how much you puff your chest out) and you are projecting it onto me
Why do you think YOU wrote that caption on your drawing? That message was from you, to you.
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It's inside me, I'm living it, I'm speaking it
I understand it. I speak its language. You do not. All you can do is point and laugh at the real thing, ME

Have fun with your spiders, lonely cat lady, maybe when you grow up some we'll speak again
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The Lie is the Truth

1984 
The difference between you and me is this is coming out of me organically, based on my own intuitive understanding. There's a mechanism in me that sees concepts
I'm not the kind of person who quotes shit from books I read in high school
I don't operate like that
This is a conclusion I came to from intuitive observation
Even a factually false statement is spiritually true
There's no such thing as false in the subconscious layer of language
There's no such thing as NO
There's the word no, but it doesn't function as no
No is know which is a way of saying yes (symbolically)
The Lie is that subconscious (Neptune) layer
So the Lie is the only thing that is always true
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For your info, that image was made for another self-deluded girl. SHe said "let me see" (the page I was drawing) and this was my reply to her. The girl was a smoker, escaping her own emotions with the cigs, and yet she wanted to see and learn truth from me.
I told her, or the universe told here, or her own animal told her, that indeed she cannot handle it.
So you see little one, misinformed again about the data flows, where messages come from and where they go, who says what to whom. I speak to my Beast just fine, we write and draw each other daily. If I employ others to speak its messages for me, it will be birds more fun and colorful and far more friendly than you
It's visible from here, your issue with men in general, and while you carry that baggage you'll have to spin in quite some circles.
Anyway, as said above, have fun with those spiders, you'll find out soon enough what males are meant for in this life 
I never read 1984, just saw the movie.
You do your thing with all that man-hatred clawing your insides, I know full well where that's headed, your posts should be more and more amusing to read by the day
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Burn this whole thing to the ground.
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I think you're mistaking me for one of your own kind
I'm not delusional in the sense of being unhealthy because spiritual perception is my natural home
I don't need to be brought down to Earth, I need to head in the opposite direction
I've spent my whole life learning the lesson that the physical world isn't my place
If I was your kind (physically-oriented), you would be in the right for attempting to pierce my ghost bubble. You would be doing a service, performing a rescue mission if you will.
But the way I'm living now is actually authentic for me, so from my perspective you're just being abusive
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I think you're mistaking me for one of your own kind
Vaguely, but not how you think.
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I don't need to be brought down to Earth, I need to head in the opposite direction
So go for it, who's keeping you? 
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I've spent my whole life learning the lesson that the physical world isn't my place
Then why do you think you incarnated here of all places, in that very physical form?
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If I was your kind (physically-oriented), you would be in the right for attempting to pierce my ghost bubble. You would be doing a service, performing a rescue mission if you will.
Way, way off the mark in your appraisal of the situation 
I'm not that physical either. I am in fact electric and magnetic. That's how I open up to all kinds of energies and beings, most of them not too material.
If you've got me confused with the regular human pedestrians that walk around here, all weak EM field, depleted, then you are yourself confused 
You mentioned in the other thread that you prefer non-physical, that doing physical things (sex, massage, whatever) is painful/unhealthy for you, whatever the phrasing was. Well that's precisely what I've learned to do, namely first charge and maintain an above normal EM field, generally through nutrition and meditation, and then USE that field either for intuitive magnetic navigation, or to work on people's health issues (intuitive massage and pressure points).
 Body energy like this, the body's EM field, bio-electrons, Chi, Prana, Kundalini, can be used on others without effects to one's own health, if one knows how. Seems to me you just want to "be non-physical" forgetting that if you really wanted to do that, you'd BE non-physical, not incarnated in a biological body like that. THere are lessons for you here and they involve the energy body (EM field) AND the physical body, working together. Learn balance or keep being faced with the same repeating life lessons, up to you Quote:
But the way I'm living now is actually authentic for me, so from my perspective you're just being abusive
Abusive how? Who do you think cares about bursting your ghost bubble, whatever that even means? I came to play on a forum, you're welcome to play or not, there's also a nice ignore button if you feel offended in some way, you do your own thing as you see fit. From where I'm looking you're a few notches in over your head with some of the forces you're playing with, I mean you've noticed something is happening, but not understood things to precisely.
Anyway, as said above, if my help and song isn't appreciated here, best of luck to you, have fun
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You're taking physical person too literally
I'm looking at all this from the perspective of Jungian functions/MBTI
And in particular, the order of my own development
I was forced really far into my 3rd and 4th functions (Ti and Se) at a very early age and I had to stay there at the expense of my own health. I had to be a fake ESTP basically. A very low-functioning one. So now at this point in my life I get to experience relief from that by getting to operate primarily from my dominant function (Ni).
Ni dominance translates to being so comfortable with internal spiritual experience that I don't perceive a lot of differentiation or detail there. I need the most intense spiritual experiences possible to even feel anything happening, which is why Kundalini isn't a big deal to me. It's all very easy and organic for me, I don't see a need for the rituals, exercises, or teachings other people use to try to work with it. I'm definitely not in over my head.
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I was in over my head when I was trying to be a physical person, trying to live an execution-based life:
1. Being on my feet working retail jobs 2. Going to design school 3. Being a gogo dancer 4. Working at an ad agency 5. Working at a call center 6. Having physical sex 7. Cleaning 8. Bathing 9. Shopping 10. Driving 11. Cooking
That's all stuff that's dangerous for me because it engages my inferior function too much
When I'm unhealthy, it has kind of an OCD tone to it. I get hung up on physical details to the point of destruction/injury.
My personality type (INFJ) is not prone to delusions of the schizophrenic type, we experience immunity/health in the realm where those people drown
Kundalini is kids' stuff compared to the dangers of the physical world for me
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I think you really lack insight
And I think you haven't been through enough to understand what it's like for people on my side of things
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It's disrespectful to me
Well, I thought I made my point when I said I don't speak planets. I do like Jung, I do, I love his Red Book, awesome imagery, amazing. But I don't speak Jung Ni syllables either. So the fact that you'd launch into a broadside salvo of them is just super fertile ground for me to make fun of.
Am having this sense that SOOOO many things (that especially men say) are in some way disrespectful to you, as in, you make them feel disrespectful, whether the guy intended them like that or not 
FIY, I was pondering to also post that "English, motherfucker, do you speak it?" video, maybe that explains things.
 THere, I found a gif
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That's fine, you lack insight too, we lack insight together 
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And I think you haven't been through enough to understand what it's like for people on my side of things
Oh I think I have. Ghosts, demons, entities, channeling, Kundalini, I think I've seen a few things here and there to get the gist of it
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I don't lack insight
And by not going through enough to understand, I wasn't talking about spiritual experiences
I was talking about going through stuff that gives you insight into how someone like me operates
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Back when I spoke plain English, I was still treated like shit
I don't have an incentive to communicate in a way that's "for other people"
So my communication took a turn a few years ago in a direction that was "for me" (intuitive)
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Does anyone know why They is chasing Hundreds of Cats around like this?
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Am not chasing dude, we had this convo here, and another one in another thread, and I ended that (said sorry for derail, not replying to her there any longer).
Though if we're talking bird game, this whole thread would be the equivalent of some strange and amusing bird mating dance
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He either likes me or wants me to peck his eyes out
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On the contrary. I came around to play as I imagined you to be funny or friendly, or in some way fun to play with. What I see here now is a completely humorless wasteland, full of bitterness and man-hatred, all serious and tense, not a fun place to dance in at all. And so I shall sing and dance elsewhere
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What the fuck did I just read?
Just FYI the stuff people talk at the psych ward seems pretty coherent and logical against this here.
Life fucks people in the head so hard, it's not even funny anymore.
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Intuition first, logic second
Actually for me, logic is pretty far down the line...more like 3rd
INFJ functional stack:
Ni, Fe, Ti, Se
Ti is my logical function
And since it's Ti, not Te, it takes a pseudoscientific form (like astrology)
My life revolves around symbolic correspondences
But your comment is confirmation that I'm squarely in my 12th house north node, which is a good thing
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Something plops into my intuition, I run it through a framework like astrology, MBTI, or something else that makes scientific types cringe or wet their pants in horror
Sometimes I just let the Ni stuff come straight out, that's basically channeling
That's the stuff that really terrifies people
I wonder if those same people also feel like they're in a mental hospital when they set foot in an art museum or read a holy book...cuz you know....the muse.....
Oh wait...if you actually got it, you wouldn't have made that comment in the first place...
(Fully expecting this to go straight over your head)
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They said: On the contrary. I came around to play as I imagined you to be funny or friendly, or in some way fun to play with. What I see here now is a completely humorless wasteland, full of bitterness and man-hatred, all serious and tense, not a fun place to dance in at all. And so I shall sing and dance elsewhere 
Yeah the last time somebody came onto me in a spirit of pure insult, he told me I had no sense of humor. Apparently I'm supposed to think it's a good time to get treated like shit. I don't think it's funny, fun, or playful at all.
You've probably been a piece of shit your whole life. You're just the current incarnation of the kid who sat in front of me in elementary school and turned around, wiped his boogers on my desk, and thought it was funny. And the guy in high school who sat in front of me and would lift my desk up, with me sitting in it, until it was nearly at a 90 degree angle (I'd be on the brink of falling out and having the desk end up on top of me). So congrats. Yep, been through this many, many times, very familiar with the mindset and verbal tricks of an abuser. "It's just a joke" "I'm just teasing you" (my dad's favorite line...same person who used to dare me to commit suicide)
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One of my favorites....the desk guy used to yell "FUCKIN HIPPIE!" in my face every time I passed him in the hall because I wore wide-leg jeans and nobody else at my school was doing it yet. Then of course next year even the cheerleaders were wearing them so the "insult" was no longer relevant
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A previous manifestation of this "abuser who likes me" was a guy who took me in when I was trying to get by living in a train station. I don't drink, but we stopped in a bar so he could celebrate his bar owner friend's birthday. He turned to his friend and said, "She's beautiful when she's smiling, but she's ugly when she's not." This guy had a Sagittarius moon, Sag is known for being extremely blunt (I know ALL ABOUT that -- my mom has 5 planets in Sag and will not hesitate to tell you you're ugly, have yellow teeth, and are deformed from an acne scar)
The guy's friend said, "Don't take that from him!" so it wasn't just me who thought there was something a little off there...later the guy pulled the "You might think I'm insulting you, but I'm not" line.
I'm a good-looking person, whether I'm smiling or frowning. That's just a fact. I don't have fake white chiclet looking teeth, but I don't have abnormally yellow teeth either (I actually have really great teeth, in general). I'm not fucking deformed over an acne scar...all these people are just trying to dump their own shit on me. My mom is ugly compared to me, has far yellower teeth from decades of cigs and coffee, and is so insecure about her own acne scars that she used to get injections to have them filled out.
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Also reminds me of the guy in middle school who used to hang out in my apartment complex, stand there in our court and stare at me. I'd ask him why he was doing that, he said he was using his x-ray vision to see what I look like with my clothes off. On the school bus one day, we were about to transfer buses, and he turned around and gave me a little shove on the shoulder. I didn't like him at all, I thought he was disgusting and creepy, but I figured he was flirting with me, and the best way to get him to leave me alone was to give him what I thought he wanted and "flirt back" (my Venus is in Aries, I think that's where I have this fucked up notion of what actually constitutes flirting), so I shoved him back. It wasn't even an aggressive shove, it was just a little girly girl cutesy shove. He said, "Man, I don't have to take this shit!" and punched me in the face twice. I wasn't expecting that at all, and was so stunned I just sat back down in my seat, while everyone ripped me a new asshole for not hitting him back. A bunch of girls (who were waaaay more ghetto than me) ganged up on him and threw him up against a window.
My dad was working as a lawyer at the time, and took the kid to juvenile court. In court, the kid tried to make it out like it was MY FAULT he hit me because I pushed him. The judge squashed the guy into the ground by snarling, "You pushed her first." He was suspended from school. Of course, he was still convinced he was right because the next time I saw him at school he called me a bitch and told me he was gonna kill me.
There's no getting through to these people. I guarantee you, to this day, that kid is now a grown piece of shit.
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One time I did have success was in college, I was at a club, and some guy I didn't know or like kept insisting I dance with him. I refused, and the guy must've complained to his friends, because a few seconds later, another guy stormed over to me, grabbed me by the arm, and pretty forcefully escorted me off the dance floor and over to the edge of the room. He bent me backwards over a folding table (my feet were on the floor, but my back was on the table), leaned over me, and said, "ARE YOU A FUCKING ROOKIE?" (I guess he was referencing some kind of house culture protocol I'd broken without realizing or caring.) I had an adrenaline moment and threw him across the room. He landed on his ass on the dance floor. His friends pointed at him and laughed. People who'd been watching the whole thing clapped, and this guy I'd been checking out all night came over to me, said, "That guy's an asshole," told me I was a good dancer, and said he'd ask me out if he didn't have a girlfriend.
Pretty rare to be in a winning situation like that where I totally stomp someone and have the last word, but it has happened
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They said: Awww, boo hoo 
Well, I'll definitely be there to say the same to you upon reversal
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The very next night after the train station guy, I was back in the train station, waiting for the next person to offer to take me in. So this foreign guy who is dirty and drunk comes up to me, speaking very broken English, tells me he's a jeweler and asks me if I like jazz. Wants to buy me a drink. I say I don't drink, but he can buy me a water. (I wasn't turning down free ANYTHING because I had a few hundred dollars cash I had to make last for potentially months.) So we go in this beer place in the train station (this was Penn Station in NYC), he buys himself another beer, buys me a water, gives me the change. I was more than happy to take those quarters off his hands. We sit down in the seating area where other people are drinking. He starts grabbing my hand and making me stroke the skin on his other hand, asking me if I like "slow." Since he'd been talking about jazz, and I give people way too many chances, thinking it might just be me with the dirty mind, I gave him the benefit of the doubt and thought he might be talking about dancing or music. But no. Upon asking, "Slow what?" he said, "Make love." Then he started telling me how much he loves pussy, loves eating pussy, and the whole time he was holding two of his fingers together and kissing them. Right in front of all these people. Then he started asking me if I want to suck his dick. I looked him dead in the eyes, shook my head very slowly, and said, "No, I am never going to suck your dick." He looked shocked and crushed. "Never?" I said, "NO." He said, "Ok. I leave now."
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There's an underlying theme, a common thread, running through all these stories that is pertinent to what's gone on in these two threads between me and They
There's a certain flavor to the interactions I have with people who pop up in my reality to serve an abusive purpose
I can identify these people on the spot now, but I always give them a chance to prove themselves to not be what I think they are
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They said: Awww, boo hoo 
Well, I'll definitely be there to say the same to you upon reversal
You can be absolutely sure of that
Not if I block you between now and then 
Maybe if I feel a reversal coming up the first thing I'll do is block you, just to spite you and fuck with you, rob you of your much awaited revenge, then whatever the issue is, I will use this one little act as basis for my turning things around, being satisfied with myself over having denied you place for meanness
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Pretty rare to be in a winning situation like that where I totally stomp someone and have the last word, but it has happened
Stomp people more, then you'll have it more often
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A previous manifestation of this "abuser who likes me" was a guy who took me in when I was trying to get by living in a train station. I don't drink, but we stopped in a bar so he could celebrate his bar owner friend's birthday. He turned to his friend and said, "She's beautiful when she's smiling, but she's ugly when she's not."
So this guy is now an "abuser" for having and sharing an opinion? Holy shit really? 
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No it's not. At all. It's entirely dependent on how whoever's looking measures beauty. I happen to also go by electrics on this one, and what I'm looking for is a certain liveliness and specifically electrical voltage in the lower area of teh face (Smiling) coupled with a an electrically clear, frown-free forehead.
See Buddha statues, they all do that.
The opposite of that is high activity in the forehead/brow area, and inexpressive lower part of the face. That to me is basically quite repulsive, as in, I don't want it around, I feel it's draining, shoo, go away.
This dude shared a similar opinion, and you could have focused on the "she's beautiful when" part, OR on the "she's ugly when" part. All on you.
In any case pretty far from being an abuser by my standards.
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I'm not fucking deformed over an acne scar...all these people are just trying to dump their own shit on me. My mom is ugly compared to me, has far yellower teeth from decades of cigs and coffee, and is so insecure about her own acne scars that she used to get injections to have them filled out.
This right here explains a whole lot of shit, about why you are this way now. Good luck finding a man (human, ghost, whatever gets you wet and ready) to help you through these issues, the adventure should be a complete blast 
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100_the_cat said: The very next night after the train station guy, I was back in the train station, waiting for the next person to offer to take me in. So this foreign guy who is dirty and drunk comes up to me, speaking very broken English, tells me he's a jeweler and asks me if I like jazz. Wants to buy me a drink. I say I don't drink, but he can buy me a water. (I wasn't turning down free ANYTHING because I had a few hundred dollars cash I had to make last for potentially months.) So we go in this beer place in the train station (this was Penn Station in NYC), he buys himself another beer, buys me a water, gives me the change. I was more than happy to take those quarters off his hands. We sit down in the seating area where other people are drinking. He starts grabbing my hand and making me stroke the skin on his other hand, asking me if I like "slow." Since he'd been talking about jazz, and I give people way too many chances, thinking it might just be me with the dirty mind, I gave him the benefit of the doubt and thought he might be talking about dancing or music. But no. Upon asking, "Slow what?" he said, "Make love." Then he started telling me how much he loves pussy, loves eating pussy, and the whole time he was holding two of his fingers together and kissing them. Right in front of all these people. Then he started asking me if I want to suck his dick. I looked him dead in the eyes, shook my head very slowly, and said, "No, I am never going to suck your dick." He looked shocked and crushed. "Never?" I said, "NO." He said, "Ok. I leave now."
Well I mean you went and let a drunk guy close to you, which in bird terms should be quite clear it's a no-no. I have clear rules, if cigs are lit I split, if drunks show up I leave. Or if I'm looking to dump some stress and anger I'll play a few rounds, but it's clearly to dump stress and leave, not to connect on some meaningful level, as these people in these states can't really be connected with.
What else do you expect drunk people to do, other than drool on you, be socially awkward and make very poorly designed passes at you? I mean you're dealing with an inebriated perceptually and intellectually challenged brain, they can barely talk or walk, did you expect some fantastic displays of physical prowess and depth of understanding?
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Murzelpfrumpft said: What the fuck did I just read?
Just FYI the stuff people talk at the psych ward seems pretty coherent and logical against this here.
Life fucks people in the head so hard, it's not even funny anymore.
I think it needs to be said here that I actually spent 3 weeks in a crisis stabilization unit (that's a place one step removed from a mental hospital), spent the first 2 weeks just getting my whole life story out, the main psychologist I worked with ended up telling me that what I've been through (primarily with my parents, continuing into adulthood, worsening in adulthood) is the worst case of abuse he'd ever personally come across in his practice. Speaking on behalf of the whole treatment team there, he said, "We think you're enlightened," and "We're surprised you haven't killed yourself yet." He urged me to test into Mensa. (I've never done it because I know I'm horrible with numbers.)
I really don't like to go around spewing that just because it sounds so tremendously arrogant and I'm already arrogant enough to get attacked for thinking highly of myself, but I feel like it's time to say that given the ignorant remark here
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
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There's an underlying theme, a common thread, running through all these stories that is pertinent to what's gone on in these two threads between me and They
There's a certain flavor to the interactions I have with people who pop up in my reality to serve an abusive purpose
Abusive?
Ok here's the game, at least from my end:
If all goes right, it ends into some kind of friendly connection like this: Even if it doesn't go well, the dance and running around game itself, is how we stay healthy, how we get back into the present, forget about the past, deal with the here and now and have some fun  This whole process is not "abuse" at all. Nature and the universe doesn't send these beings your way to "abuse" you. It's a game, it's play. They (this is where my awesome name kicks in, do I mean them or me?  ) are sent to simply give you an opportunity to play the bird game, meaning to choose your comfortable distance, whatever that is. THe kid that pushed you, yeah, he liked you and wanted to see you naked, probably masturbated about you quite a bit, but likely because of age had NO IDEA how to express that so it actually works out, and so he did something pretty much at random, tried something out, misguided as it may have been. The fact that it was so violent speaks to me of having asshole (probably drinking) parents who just paid no attention to that level of his development.  The drunk that showed up, that's an instance of you forming experience that NO, we DON'T deal with drinkers, we don't sit next close to them, don't allow drunks physically close, let alone hold hands, touch and stuff like that. Drunks DO have some valid moves that do work on a certain kind of female, I mean I have lost bird games (read: lost the girl) to drunks that put up the MONTHS of patient self-abuse that it takes to win a girl over with their shit approach. There IS some sense to what they do, it's just that it's generally aimed at fellow drinkers, not alcohol-free females. It's on you to define your game more clearly, to know that as soon as you see cigs or booze in the game, that male is only good for avoiding, or at best taking for a ride, getting some favors out of him before bailing out. If you know and play the bird game well, that is maintain proper comfy distance with full sincerity, you will see a lot more fun and fresh experiences coming your way, no matter who you're playing with. Just don't blame your own bad moves and unwise choices on the dance partner (talking about the drunk guy here).
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
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Oh, oh, and I've got it, good to see you're calling me an abuser, but notice you're the one that mentioned physical violence, and in fact quite gruesome, in the form of pecking eyes out 
Ta dee dah, take some of these and see what happens 
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They, I spent 10 years in therapy. And I've even been urged by therapists to become one myself because I have a special knack for insight. I know it's not normal to call people ugly.
And I can see right into this technique you're using to try to invalidate me.
You've shown up too late in the game. You need a target who hasn't been through the fire yet. I have waaaay, WAY too much Pluto going on for you to control me the way you're trying to. FROM BIRTH I have been observing two master abusers. I know all the tricks. I'm ten steps ahead of you, psychologically. I see what you're doing, I've already called you on it. You need someone who is naive and weak.
This reversal I'm talking about is where YOU REALIZE I've been superior to you all along.
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Something that really bothers me about you, and people like you, is that there's no effort whatsoever to put yourself in my shoes and see from my perspective. I offer a lot of information about myself freely so that people can see inside me -- to make it easier for them to see things from my side, by seeing where I've been.
I've spent my whole life seeing through other people's eyes, ignoring myself. That's my end of the bargain that I held up, and I did a very good job at it, completely sacrificing myself in the process.
I'm, by nature, entering the polar opposite lifestyle now, and it's time for other people to switch roles with me. As I slide into this role of being the selfish one, the people who pop into my reality will naturally shift to accommodate me.
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As hard as it may be for you to believe, I'm not offering up info about my life for people like you to use to attempt to beat your own worldview into me. My problems are not going to be solved by your half-baked bird game advice. You're operating at 10% of my intelligence. You don't have anything to offer me in the advice department.
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In my reality, which is governed by my perspective, it's a fact that I'm good-looking even if I'm frowning, yes. And if somebody who's not even as good-looking as I am tells me that I'm ugly, there's something seriously fucking whacked in that person's skull.
One, who actually says something like that? Who goes around telling WOMEN THEY PICK UP that they're ugly?
Two, it's patently false. I'm not ugly. Ever. Period.
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You're making a lot of excuses for the people who have harmed me and that's not ok with me
You know why? Because it tells me you identify with them (ABUSERVILLE)
You're more concerned with protecting them than you are seeing my side of the story
I have a lifetime of invalidation, I certainly don't need any more of it
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You've said you're playing a game
You're a player. Ok.
I'm not the kind of person you play games with
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This reversal I'm talking about is where YOU REALIZE I've been superior to you all along.
Oh man, it's lines like these that keep me coming back here. Oh the epic hilarity of it all 
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I've spent my whole life seeing through other people's eyes, ignoring myself. That's my end of the bargain that I held up, and I did a very good job at it, completely sacrificing myself in the process.
So because you've spent your whole life self-neglecting and self-abusing, ignoring yourself putting focus on others, now you feel the universe "owes you" an army of suckers that are ready willing and able to do the same? Really? That's the logic here? Wow, tell me more 
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I'm, by nature, entering the polar opposite lifestyle now, and it's time for other people to switch roles with me. As I slide into this role of being the selfish one, the people who pop into my reality will naturally shift to accommodate me.

So what if they don't? 
I mean I popped into your reality, I popped like popcorn, straight in the middle of it. Have I "naturally shifted" to accommodate you yet? Cause something tells me there might be some holes in this overly simple theory you have going here, real life data doesn't seem to play too well with it
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I have a lifetime of invalidation, I certainly don't need any more of it
And yet you keep attracting it, or imagining it. Man, where are those suckers that just shift into whatever role you need them to, what ever could be keeping them from showing?
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I'm not the kind of person you play games with
I know, you're all serious and stuff, hold on while I go search for my straight face, then we can be all serious together
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
#23792374 - 11/01/16 06:18 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yes, that's exactly how it works. The universe owes me.
Libra IC -- start out self-neglecting, living for others
The reason you laugh at this is because the idea that you are at the mercy of forces beyond your control is terrifying for you. You can't handle life in that mode of perception. The only option for you is effort and controlling everything on the surface unless you want to be mentally ill.
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Even if you don't accommodate me, a future manifestation of you will, in a different human identity. What's happening between now and then are energetic adjustments that get me to that point.
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The reason you laugh at this is because the idea that you are at the mercy of forces beyond your control is terrifying for you. You can't handle life in that mode of perception. The only option for you is effort and controlling everything on the surface unless you want to be mentally ill.
Well good thing you're not projecting a ton of your stuff on others, and formulating all reality in terms of terrified, effort, control, mentally ill.
So much positivity here, it's amazing
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
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The reason you laugh at this is because the idea that you are at the mercy of forces beyond your control is terrifying for you. You can't handle life in that mode of perception. The only option for you is effort and controlling everything on the surface unless you want to be mentally ill.
Well good thing you're not projecting a ton of your stuff on others, and formulating all reality in terms of terrified, effort, control, mentally ill.
So much positivity here, it's amazing 
You're right, I'm not projecting. I saw right into you and you won't admit it. My comfort zone is a headspace where I don't force things to happen, instead I go with whatever energy the current "astrological weather" has brought into my life, into my energy body. Overall it's a very passive mode, it's based on reception.
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I've already CLEARLY stated that effort ran my life into the ground. Effort is my thing that I can't handle. Reception (being at the mercy of a force beyond my control, like Kundalini, or accepting a concept like Plutonian rite of passage) is what I CAN handle.
So obviously, since I have such a comfortable grasp of my own limitations, and admit them freely, when I turn around and pinpoint yours, I am not merely projecting something I disown about myself onto you.
It's like...if I notice a tree has green leaves. And I point that out. I'm not saying it has green leaves because I have green leaves and just can't come to terms with it. I'm saying it because that tree does actually have green leaves.
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Overall it's a very passive mode, it's based on reception.
So basically lazy. Waiting around twiddling your thumbs.
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
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Well then, good luck waiting around for the masochists that would put up with that kinda thing
IRL I have epic ways of curing laziness, but I can't slap asses nor poke ribs over the internets, so yeah, rock on
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I'm not naturally a doer
I can be medicated into false doership with amphetamines but that's not sustainable or healthy (I used to be on them for diagnoses like narcolepsy and hypersomnia)
In common language this translates to "lazy"
I'm just in a meditative state all the time without trying
That's why it's dangerous for me to do stuff like drive or cook
And if I do try to do those things, I'm constantly checking to make sure I'm not setting myself on fire or missing a stop light, because I'm not in truly waking consciousness the way most people are, even when I'm awake
I don't sleep excessively anymore (or at least not compared to before) ever since I became Kundalini active, but my default state of consciousness is definitely not compatible with functioning in society. I'm awake but I always have an astral layer. Out of body while in body.
I'm just naturally a horizontal person
I don't see it as something that needs to be fixed
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My last case manager in the homeless system before I left was this very ignorant woman who was hellbent on turning me into a doer. I kept explaining to her that this is not something about me that can be changed...it's like trying to turn a gay person straight or a black person white.
That organization's lack of understanding was the reason I went to live in a train station.
I'm aware that for some people, that lifestyle is a piece of cake, even seen as desirable or exciting, but for somebody like me it's too much. Not enough of a doer for that.
I'm better off spending all day in bed.
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this very ignorant woman who was hellbent on turning me into a doer. I kept explaining to her that this is not something about me that can be changed
Yeah it can, if and when you want to. Look at this thread, you keep doing and doing, pretty active. You just need a fancy fun highly desirable dance partner like myself to get you in the right mood to start doing 
Birds don't sing unless there's fun partners or the promise of fun partners around to play with. That's when the action starts happening
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
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I have Mars in my 3rd house
That translates to a lot of communication
That doesn't mean I have the same energy available for physical stuff, or that it would be healthy
I know how I operate because I've lived in this body for 34 years
I've been here to witness my whole life happen, you haven't
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Hey 100 and They, interesting thread.
They, im sorry to tell you this man.... but as an, until now, outsider of this thread, i have an ability to watch you both.... i think youre too close to see, or even too close to believe me when I tell you this..... and don't think I'm just trying to validate 100, as if she needed this...... I'm just gonna tell ya straight man.... you're comments, many of them, are reaches... know what I mean? The smart-alec jabs, the popcorn eating smilies, etc.... exclamation points, etc. all are very pompous, and aren't doing you much good....
I haven't read your other posts on the board.. but in this thread I see, you must think too highly of yourself. A little humility never hurt anyone. Here you are, scoffing at a person, who's gone through a lot in life. As mentioned you would do well to try to think outside the box.... but you may not be able to in this capacity of this thread.. surely not now, after the above, as pride may be in your way. I don't know you man, so I don't know..... but as an outsider to this thread, your posts are very telling. I would wager that, not much really bad has happened to you.
When life pulls the rug out from under you, and you are swept to your knees by karma you may deserve, or by cruelty, no more can you scoff at anything, surely won't enjoy it, you see everything differently, and investigate claims and seek out truth in them rather than have a game of what you do not agree with. Very un-humble of you man. Life will teach you, if you're deserving... you may not hear me, that's okay.....
100, while I don't subscribe to many of your beliefs, I'm glad that you do, and that it helps you read these situations for what they are.
I hope this forum as a whole is able to see the truth in this thread..... thanks yall.
Heart break of mysticism or the eating (lack of) thread you made....
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Heart break of mysticism or the eating (lack of) thread you made.... I wonder if I put out vibes, and if you felt them 100. You started this thread on 18th of oct. I posted those posts on 18th of oct. At the time I was just getting back into posting here, and to be honest the way you post 100 is very interesting, you could say I was intrigued in the truest way, afraid or worried even, as a person is watching any enigma, unsure of quite what's going on, what to do, say, think, feel, just a witness, then I posted something, but it was unsure, and the awareness of that was..... a strange way to say it, but right is.... shit I don't know a good word, but it was exciting. I have to force myself not to be aroused, bad karma for me right now, but even though you are aroused more while not bathing, which is admittedly not pleasant to think of, i still was aroused but on a different level. But tried not to be. I think you might have really picked up on that, if such a thing was possible..... and the way you started some threads about getting high on energy through typeface and catnip dealers or something rubbed me wrong, it juat seemed insincere..... but thats okay, i think it was in jest..... also excited by what's going on at this forum, as compared to other avenues for my social outlets, glad to see some activity, intriguing no less, and thought provoking.
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This is so complicated
I can hear my ghost through anything...catalog, food packaging, commercials...
And I do absorb dark energy, feel it integrate into my body (sometimes am pulled into trance for this), and then feel a high afterwards.
Sometimes I just get the high immediately without the darkness
Sometimes things line up synchronistically so that it appears to be something in my environment (person or thing, as described above) triggering it. Sometimes I just get a delivery of energy when I'm not even exposed to environmental stimuli.
Ultimately, all this lines up with what's going on with me astrologically. I keep an eye on transits to my natal chart. I feel them in my energy body, it's especially apparent when they're just beginning.
If I sound like I'm joking about it, it's because I'm so comfortable with it, I can't take it too seriously. If your stress point is spiritual energy (or whatever you want to call that realm), then I can see how it would be abrasive.
I started this thread at the beginning of my Jupiter opposite Venus transit.
I'm still in this transit. Jupiter is expansion, luck, beneficence, optimism, faith, hope. Venus is love. So Jupiter is basically magnifying Venusian energy within me. (It's been unstable, I started a thread called Jupiter's false hope, but I'm also under the influence of Saturn opposing my Mercury right now which is the ultimate buzzkill, inducing very negative thinking. Jupiter trine Mercury is stepping in to kind of rescue my mind, though)
You have definitely been a vehicle for some of this energy to come through, especially in the eating thread, when this transit was just beginning.
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I would wager that, not much really bad has happened to you.
Oh man that's truly rich 
Anyway I'll play it like I play it, you play it like you play it, and we'll let the spontaneous interactions decide what's up.
From this post you made here, it's clear to me that you can't really see me, you see some vague interpretation of me through your own filters, but you don't really "get" the game that's being played here, you don't know why my popcorn smileys are there, what the magic that flows through them really is. Which is fine, they're not meant for you. If you're curious you'll watch and learn, if not well good luck to you 
Even 100 may not get them consciously, but that's fine, as she said her ghost speaks through us all, and I'm very confident of my spirit talking abilities, of how I act as conduit to the other side and how I let things speak through me. In case you haven't noticed, both 100 and myself play with dark forces, and we kinda like it that way. A little Kundalini fire is good for ya, makes things interesting   
Sooo as I said, you play it like you play it and I'll give you space to do so, if I hear any more criticism of my game, any more of this inhibitory, meek, think-too-highly-of-yourself crap, well, I will be annoyed with you. Once I'm telling you nicely, you take it or ignore it as you wish, from then on it's on you
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
#23797150 - 11/03/16 10:35 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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They is Spacerific, a banned member.
It's obvious how much better he sees himself compared to us lowly Shroomerites.
From the mighty throne of enlightenment, they like to 'play' with even those uninterested. He 'plays' by gaslighting and throwing jabs in an undercurrent of passive aggression. It puts people on the defensive and this is how they 'win'.
It's a cheap trick of a troll disguised as a savior. Its super lonely at the top, they.
Wouldn't surprise me if they were a psychopathic sociopath who eats his victims that he 'plays' with.
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That thread is a prime example why I turned my back to clinical psychology and went towards counseling.
Hardcore neurotic "patients" who have turned being mistreated into their identity, the very first time they noticed it would get them the long wanted pity. And the childish bragging about who suffered more. Ten fucking years? Let me quote one of my doctors: "Get over it."
But you can't. Who would you be, then?
Whatever. Makes me want to mock these people as well, can't throw a stone here.
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Whatever. Makes me want to mock these people as well, can't throw a stone here.
This right here. Culture of protecting everyone's right to continue to be the victim, even though it's not doing them any good, not moving things forward. It's not "politically correct" and "sensitive" to call bullshit when you smell it, or to remind people it's in their own best interest to move on, have some fun 
Even if it's the precise form of straight talk the bullshitter may need, to get over it
Fun place where if someone mentions any of the magic words (have been diagnosed with X, past trauma, mommy/daddy were hard on me) you are now absolutely required to join the pity party, help maintain the drama, help milk it as much as possible, for maximum effect.
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Well, I don't know about you, but I think it's pretty interesting to at least witness the spectacle of somebody's trainwreck life. I've spent my entire life reducing myself internally so that I deny that I have any needs because the primary figures in my life have always been people with your attitude. I've adjusted a lot, to my own detriment, to accommodate people like you.
So that's how I ended up turning the whole thing into a traveling circus. Find some place to set up shop, tell my story, get shit thrown at me for it, move on to the next place, repeat. I guess you also hate it when people write autobiographies.
I mean, why do people watch the news? Why do people seek out true crime shows? WHY DO PEOPLE GO TO THE CIRCUS?
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
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I've spent time being a troll, and I know it comes from denying the part of you that's a victim.
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"I may not ever get what I need, but I can at least put on a show."
That's me
I'm a Leo rising, I have a good sense of showmanship. Drama, yes, absolutely.
If I was a doer, I'd be putting all this into song and performing it on a literal stage. Maybe you would have more respect for it then.
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If I was a doer, I'd be putting all this into song and performing it on a literal stage. Maybe you would have more respect for it then.
Abso-freakin lutely
Also I asked about the 100 emails, not because I want to see "proof" as you call it, but because you yourself claimed they were that good, that people would pay to read them, if they were in a book.
IF YOU BELIEVE THAT, OWN IT. Write that book.
I don't give two shits about your emails or your relationship to the guy that didn't want your number. I am saying if you believe something worth reading came of it, fucking honor it, own it, publish it, take some steps in that direction. share it with the world, write a book that you think is worth writing and reading. Or don't delude yourself about the worth of those emails. Any road is fine just walk it as you've talked it.
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
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I think you took what I said too literally
The point wasn't "I could make money from this"
What I was communicating is that the emails were more than what you would typically expect to find in your inbox from someone you met at a club and had a one-night stand with.
I'm not sure what the technical name is for what I'm getting at. I guess you would call it a figure of speech or something.
I would think that's obvious.
And as far as quality/worth is concerned, everything that comes out of me is quality, it was in no way limited to those emails (which is why I would never bother publishing them) but quality isn't necessary for making money off of something. Something doesn't have to be "good" for people to buy it. It's just a matter of putting it out there where people can see it and creating a buzz or riding one already in motion. Or you can just tap into some deep, dark need that is never going away.
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100_the_cat

Registered: 09/27/16
Posts: 315
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I don't think there's any delusion on my part about the quality of my writing
In elementary school I got some kind of Young Author's medal
I got third place in a Governor's Cup competition for something having to do with English...English composition I think
I tested out of some college English by getting a high enough score on my AP exam
My high school gave me a medal for English
Small change in the real world, yes, I'm well aware of that, but my point is that it's just something that's come easily to me since I was a child, and I was recognized for it so much growing up that I don't feel a need to prove myself in that area.
I wasn't trying to "prove that my writing is amazing" to that guy. It wasn't about skills. It was ME as a person. Like "there's more in here than just an assortment of wet holes"
I was just using written communication as a medium.
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100_the_cat

Registered: 09/27/16
Posts: 315
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It's not my job to achieve anymore, anyway
That was all Capricorn south node stuff
I get to be on vacation now and just lay around, be a mystic, and witness my own healing process
But that gets boring so I get into fights online too
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DoneKildatReason
Chemical in the body


Registered: 02/25/05
Posts: 1,061
Loc: Green Country
Last seen: 12 days, 2 hours
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They, i wouldnt post to you, to inhibit you, or attempt. With your permission sir, I couldnt care any less. With your permission id like to say, it's obvious you inhibit yourself, by being closed off too easily too quickly, and even with your smart allec ways, i still bet theres a little hope for you, hell i see or try to believe there is some good in any one in some capacity. With further permission, id like to point out, One good thing about you, is you call a spade a spade when you see one, problem is thats too black and white. With your permission id like to show you how you come off to anyone really Oh, they smoke? Aint worth a fuck. Oh they drink. Aint worth a fuck. Oh they read about this, or subscribe to that idea? They aint worth a fuck. And I can talk down to them, like they arent worth a fuck. That's how you are man. With your permissipn, i point this one, Its fuckin weird. I bet in real life youre a fuckin fruitcake, with your permission if l may, say. I'd find it more irritating if I cared more, but its not my job to get you to understand so im not very involved. Itd be good to openly vocally resolutely call a spade a spade each time, if you were right that the spade was a spade only. Just trust me man. With permission, i say feel like Youre perceptions arent always right, and your type of criticism is ineffective, which you can benefit if you accept less control.
-------------------- This was an experiment.
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