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100_the_cat

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You're making a lot of excuses for the people who have harmed me and that's not ok with me
You know why? Because it tells me you identify with them (ABUSERVILLE)
You're more concerned with protecting them than you are seeing my side of the story
I have a lifetime of invalidation, I certainly don't need any more of it
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100_the_cat

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You've said you're playing a game
You're a player. Ok.
I'm not the kind of person you play games with
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They
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This reversal I'm talking about is where YOU REALIZE I've been superior to you all along.
Oh man, it's lines like these that keep me coming back here. Oh the epic hilarity of it all 
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I've spent my whole life seeing through other people's eyes, ignoring myself. That's my end of the bargain that I held up, and I did a very good job at it, completely sacrificing myself in the process.
So because you've spent your whole life self-neglecting and self-abusing, ignoring yourself putting focus on others, now you feel the universe "owes you" an army of suckers that are ready willing and able to do the same? Really? That's the logic here? Wow, tell me more 
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I'm, by nature, entering the polar opposite lifestyle now, and it's time for other people to switch roles with me. As I slide into this role of being the selfish one, the people who pop into my reality will naturally shift to accommodate me.

So what if they don't? 
I mean I popped into your reality, I popped like popcorn, straight in the middle of it. Have I "naturally shifted" to accommodate you yet? Cause something tells me there might be some holes in this overly simple theory you have going here, real life data doesn't seem to play too well with it
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I have a lifetime of invalidation, I certainly don't need any more of it
And yet you keep attracting it, or imagining it. Man, where are those suckers that just shift into whatever role you need them to, what ever could be keeping them from showing?
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I'm not the kind of person you play games with
I know, you're all serious and stuff, hold on while I go search for my straight face, then we can be all serious together
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100_the_cat

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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
#23792374 - 11/01/16 06:18 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yes, that's exactly how it works. The universe owes me.
Libra IC -- start out self-neglecting, living for others
The reason you laugh at this is because the idea that you are at the mercy of forces beyond your control is terrifying for you. You can't handle life in that mode of perception. The only option for you is effort and controlling everything on the surface unless you want to be mentally ill.
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100_the_cat

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Even if you don't accommodate me, a future manifestation of you will, in a different human identity. What's happening between now and then are energetic adjustments that get me to that point.
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They
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The reason you laugh at this is because the idea that you are at the mercy of forces beyond your control is terrifying for you. You can't handle life in that mode of perception. The only option for you is effort and controlling everything on the surface unless you want to be mentally ill.
Well good thing you're not projecting a ton of your stuff on others, and formulating all reality in terms of terrified, effort, control, mentally ill.
So much positivity here, it's amazing
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100_the_cat

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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
#23793389 - 11/01/16 11:12 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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They said:
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The reason you laugh at this is because the idea that you are at the mercy of forces beyond your control is terrifying for you. You can't handle life in that mode of perception. The only option for you is effort and controlling everything on the surface unless you want to be mentally ill.
Well good thing you're not projecting a ton of your stuff on others, and formulating all reality in terms of terrified, effort, control, mentally ill.
So much positivity here, it's amazing 
You're right, I'm not projecting. I saw right into you and you won't admit it. My comfort zone is a headspace where I don't force things to happen, instead I go with whatever energy the current "astrological weather" has brought into my life, into my energy body. Overall it's a very passive mode, it's based on reception.
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100_the_cat

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I've already CLEARLY stated that effort ran my life into the ground. Effort is my thing that I can't handle. Reception (being at the mercy of a force beyond my control, like Kundalini, or accepting a concept like Plutonian rite of passage) is what I CAN handle.
So obviously, since I have such a comfortable grasp of my own limitations, and admit them freely, when I turn around and pinpoint yours, I am not merely projecting something I disown about myself onto you.
It's like...if I notice a tree has green leaves. And I point that out. I'm not saying it has green leaves because I have green leaves and just can't come to terms with it. I'm saying it because that tree does actually have green leaves.
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They
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Overall it's a very passive mode, it's based on reception.
So basically lazy. Waiting around twiddling your thumbs.
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100_the_cat

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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
#23795063 - 11/02/16 04:16 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yes
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They
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Well then, good luck waiting around for the masochists that would put up with that kinda thing
IRL I have epic ways of curing laziness, but I can't slap asses nor poke ribs over the internets, so yeah, rock on
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100_the_cat

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I'm not naturally a doer
I can be medicated into false doership with amphetamines but that's not sustainable or healthy (I used to be on them for diagnoses like narcolepsy and hypersomnia)
In common language this translates to "lazy"
I'm just in a meditative state all the time without trying
That's why it's dangerous for me to do stuff like drive or cook
And if I do try to do those things, I'm constantly checking to make sure I'm not setting myself on fire or missing a stop light, because I'm not in truly waking consciousness the way most people are, even when I'm awake
I don't sleep excessively anymore (or at least not compared to before) ever since I became Kundalini active, but my default state of consciousness is definitely not compatible with functioning in society. I'm awake but I always have an astral layer. Out of body while in body.
I'm just naturally a horizontal person
I don't see it as something that needs to be fixed
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100_the_cat

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My last case manager in the homeless system before I left was this very ignorant woman who was hellbent on turning me into a doer. I kept explaining to her that this is not something about me that can be changed...it's like trying to turn a gay person straight or a black person white.
That organization's lack of understanding was the reason I went to live in a train station.
I'm aware that for some people, that lifestyle is a piece of cake, even seen as desirable or exciting, but for somebody like me it's too much. Not enough of a doer for that.
I'm better off spending all day in bed.
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this very ignorant woman who was hellbent on turning me into a doer. I kept explaining to her that this is not something about me that can be changed
Yeah it can, if and when you want to. Look at this thread, you keep doing and doing, pretty active. You just need a fancy fun highly desirable dance partner like myself to get you in the right mood to start doing 
Birds don't sing unless there's fun partners or the promise of fun partners around to play with. That's when the action starts happening
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100_the_cat

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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
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I have Mars in my 3rd house
That translates to a lot of communication
That doesn't mean I have the same energy available for physical stuff, or that it would be healthy
I know how I operate because I've lived in this body for 34 years
I've been here to witness my whole life happen, you haven't
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DoneKildatReason
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Hey 100 and They, interesting thread.
They, im sorry to tell you this man.... but as an, until now, outsider of this thread, i have an ability to watch you both.... i think youre too close to see, or even too close to believe me when I tell you this..... and don't think I'm just trying to validate 100, as if she needed this...... I'm just gonna tell ya straight man.... you're comments, many of them, are reaches... know what I mean? The smart-alec jabs, the popcorn eating smilies, etc.... exclamation points, etc. all are very pompous, and aren't doing you much good....
I haven't read your other posts on the board.. but in this thread I see, you must think too highly of yourself. A little humility never hurt anyone. Here you are, scoffing at a person, who's gone through a lot in life. As mentioned you would do well to try to think outside the box.... but you may not be able to in this capacity of this thread.. surely not now, after the above, as pride may be in your way. I don't know you man, so I don't know..... but as an outsider to this thread, your posts are very telling. I would wager that, not much really bad has happened to you.
When life pulls the rug out from under you, and you are swept to your knees by karma you may deserve, or by cruelty, no more can you scoff at anything, surely won't enjoy it, you see everything differently, and investigate claims and seek out truth in them rather than have a game of what you do not agree with. Very un-humble of you man. Life will teach you, if you're deserving... you may not hear me, that's okay.....
100, while I don't subscribe to many of your beliefs, I'm glad that you do, and that it helps you read these situations for what they are.
I hope this forum as a whole is able to see the truth in this thread..... thanks yall.
Heart break of mysticism or the eating (lack of) thread you made....
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Heart break of mysticism or the eating (lack of) thread you made.... I wonder if I put out vibes, and if you felt them 100. You started this thread on 18th of oct. I posted those posts on 18th of oct. At the time I was just getting back into posting here, and to be honest the way you post 100 is very interesting, you could say I was intrigued in the truest way, afraid or worried even, as a person is watching any enigma, unsure of quite what's going on, what to do, say, think, feel, just a witness, then I posted something, but it was unsure, and the awareness of that was..... a strange way to say it, but right is.... shit I don't know a good word, but it was exciting. I have to force myself not to be aroused, bad karma for me right now, but even though you are aroused more while not bathing, which is admittedly not pleasant to think of, i still was aroused but on a different level. But tried not to be. I think you might have really picked up on that, if such a thing was possible..... and the way you started some threads about getting high on energy through typeface and catnip dealers or something rubbed me wrong, it juat seemed insincere..... but thats okay, i think it was in jest..... also excited by what's going on at this forum, as compared to other avenues for my social outlets, glad to see some activity, intriguing no less, and thought provoking.
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100_the_cat

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This is so complicated
I can hear my ghost through anything...catalog, food packaging, commercials...
And I do absorb dark energy, feel it integrate into my body (sometimes am pulled into trance for this), and then feel a high afterwards.
Sometimes I just get the high immediately without the darkness
Sometimes things line up synchronistically so that it appears to be something in my environment (person or thing, as described above) triggering it. Sometimes I just get a delivery of energy when I'm not even exposed to environmental stimuli.
Ultimately, all this lines up with what's going on with me astrologically. I keep an eye on transits to my natal chart. I feel them in my energy body, it's especially apparent when they're just beginning.
If I sound like I'm joking about it, it's because I'm so comfortable with it, I can't take it too seriously. If your stress point is spiritual energy (or whatever you want to call that realm), then I can see how it would be abrasive.
I started this thread at the beginning of my Jupiter opposite Venus transit.
I'm still in this transit. Jupiter is expansion, luck, beneficence, optimism, faith, hope. Venus is love. So Jupiter is basically magnifying Venusian energy within me. (It's been unstable, I started a thread called Jupiter's false hope, but I'm also under the influence of Saturn opposing my Mercury right now which is the ultimate buzzkill, inducing very negative thinking. Jupiter trine Mercury is stepping in to kind of rescue my mind, though)
You have definitely been a vehicle for some of this energy to come through, especially in the eating thread, when this transit was just beginning.
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They
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I would wager that, not much really bad has happened to you.
Oh man that's truly rich 
Anyway I'll play it like I play it, you play it like you play it, and we'll let the spontaneous interactions decide what's up.
From this post you made here, it's clear to me that you can't really see me, you see some vague interpretation of me through your own filters, but you don't really "get" the game that's being played here, you don't know why my popcorn smileys are there, what the magic that flows through them really is. Which is fine, they're not meant for you. If you're curious you'll watch and learn, if not well good luck to you 
Even 100 may not get them consciously, but that's fine, as she said her ghost speaks through us all, and I'm very confident of my spirit talking abilities, of how I act as conduit to the other side and how I let things speak through me. In case you haven't noticed, both 100 and myself play with dark forces, and we kinda like it that way. A little Kundalini fire is good for ya, makes things interesting   
Sooo as I said, you play it like you play it and I'll give you space to do so, if I hear any more criticism of my game, any more of this inhibitory, meek, think-too-highly-of-yourself crap, well, I will be annoyed with you. Once I'm telling you nicely, you take it or ignore it as you wish, from then on it's on you
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Re: Ghost [Re: They]
#23797150 - 11/03/16 10:35 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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They is Spacerific, a banned member.
It's obvious how much better he sees himself compared to us lowly Shroomerites.
From the mighty throne of enlightenment, they like to 'play' with even those uninterested. He 'plays' by gaslighting and throwing jabs in an undercurrent of passive aggression. It puts people on the defensive and this is how they 'win'.
It's a cheap trick of a troll disguised as a savior. Its super lonely at the top, they.
Wouldn't surprise me if they were a psychopathic sociopath who eats his victims that he 'plays' with.
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