4 dried grams home grown cubensis, weighed out of 14g which was powdered in a mortar and pestle. No special preparation, just the mushrooms washed down with a few gulps of water. I had a meal approx 3.5 hours before hand, grilled chicken salad. Also, I had bought a tapestry to hang on the wall, which would become the focus of the trip later on. Colored pencils and fractal/mandala coloring books were close by, to kill time on the come down.
I ingested my 4 gram dose at 10:30pm and tried to keep my self busy during the first 30-40 minutes, just to ease some of the come up anxieties, and at the one hour mark, I turned all the lights out and lay down in my bed. I felt a little chilly, though I keep my house at a comfy 72, so I put on a sweater and grabbed a blanket and lay back down.
As I lay on my back, I focus on my breath and try to forget the slight uncomfortable feeling in my gut. Eyes closed, I can feel the peak building, slowly. After about 30 minutes of laying in the dark, I open my eyes is disappointment. I know I peaked, but it wasn't the blow out I had experienced the month prior with only 3.55g of the same batch.
Feeling a little disappointed, blaming the meal I had had a few hours before, I turned the lights back on and sat, looking for the shifted perspective and coming to realize that the mushrooms were fairly easy going. It wasn't until I smoked some cannabis that the trip turned much more visual.
After smoking the joint and finding some mellow ambient music to listen to, I lay back down on the bed and began looking into the tapestry.
At first, the tapestry looked like it does on the package, or when sober. But after only a couple minutes of opening up, all of that changed. I allowed my eyes to relax and zone into the multicolored cloth. When I would focus on one area of the tapestry, the whole thing changed and shifted colors. When I would shift my focus on a different area, again the whole tapestry changed.
One of my intentions on this trip was to have some sort of entity contact, to learn more about the mushroom dimension. I would like to think that I had this contact through the tapestry, as I did see some sort of figure within the art. I know it's probably my own mind just looking for the entity contact, but this was enough for me.
After recognizing the entity, I ask for it to show me something. Being so open to the experience at that point, I say out loud, 'here I am, laying open like a gutted fish, teach me something'. Though nothing was ever had.
Being so entranced in the tapestry, I start to notice myself becoming a part of the painting being broadcast through my eyeballs. There were a couple 'moments' where I felt myself melting with my surroundings, my body no longer looked or felt solid as I felt myself begin to melt into the bed, like I was paint being dumped out of a paint can, flowing over the surface of my bed.
After about 45 minutes of gazing into the tapestry, I began to feel the waves become weaker and noticed myself coming back down to base line. I smoked another joint to keep the trip going a bit, did a little coloring with the colored pencils. I was surprised how well I was able to stay within the lines being high on mushroom, and it made me think about society. I thought when people follow the rules and stay between the lines, the world can be a beautiful place.
After about 5 hours, I began to feel hungry. I had to drive to the store to get food, had a nice time walking through the grocery store at 3:30 in the morning. Came home and ate a salad, feeling sober by 4:30, finally making it to bed at around 6:30.
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