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YaMoonSun
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That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out
#23739013 - 10/15/16 01:16 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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...but it's just a co2 bb pistol

What are you fuckers up to?
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun]
#23739024 - 10/15/16 01:25 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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My buddies aunt tried to kill herself with a .22. She's paralyzed now. And let me tell you, she is one angry bitch! She just sits there and groans angrily. Talk about making matters worse!
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YaMoonSun
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: SkagitHunter]
#23739027 - 10/15/16 01:28 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Ikr, thank God it was a BB gun. Need to get a job so I can afford a 12 gauge shotty.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun]
#23739038 - 10/15/16 01:38 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Just borrow it or steal it. You[ll be dead. 'what can they do?
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: klhouse] 4
#23739042 - 10/15/16 01:41 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'd rather die of heroin much less traumatizing than a hanging or half a head
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YaMoonSun
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: klhouse]
#23739043 - 10/15/16 01:42 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I could have borrowed one a long time ago but I figured it would be a dick move and I'd feel bad as they had done me a favor.
Am pretty surprised the pistol was a BB gum though.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun]
#23739049 - 10/15/16 01:48 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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You shouldn't use a pistol anyways, definitely want something heavy and it should go in the mouth pointed towards the brain stem...
Side of the head might not kill, under the jaw and one might twitch/misfire
This is how I will go someday, if I have any say in the matter. Whenever old age and disease make continued living the worse option.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun] 2
#23739052 - 10/15/16 01:49 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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One if you are going to kill yourself don't use a gun . There are other less messy ways or painful ways.. If you botch the job things get worse.
Don't kill yourself. I've come close recently it's not worth it. I've had a few family members do it and man does it send shit ripples thought out the shit sea called life in fact from my personal experiences those shit ripples turned into a shitunami destroying lives in it'd shit wake.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Repertoire89]
#23739064 - 10/15/16 02:02 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I wish I could just hold my breath until I died lol. I apologize for being such a failure.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun] 1
#23739071 - 10/15/16 02:05 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I thought about suicide years ago
Life's alright now, looking to get a lot better soon Have a lot of good memories as well
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun] 2
#23739077 - 10/15/16 02:11 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Get well soon op, and anyone else who is going through some shit, get well soon..
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: zZZz]
#23739110 - 10/15/16 03:06 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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this man has the feels
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: yeah]
#23739456 - 10/15/16 08:40 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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If I ever feel the need for a controlled exit from this ride it will be by way of a strong cup of poppy seed tea , a few glasses of red wine, and big old lick of etizolam and finally a fat line of U4770.
I want my brain in tact to enjoy a little near death experience and I want to drift away into a pink sea of bliss not a messy bang.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Konyap] 1
#23739474 - 10/15/16 08:53 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Quote:
Konyap said: I'd rather die of heroin much less traumatizing than a hanging or half a head
I'd like to jump off a tall building with a noose made of piano wire, but I am worried they will reattach my head to a dog's body and I will have to live the rest of my life with paws instead of hands.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23739510 - 10/15/16 09:08 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I don't think you can kill yourself with a 22. You can't put your own suicide at risk by using the wrong tools for the job... You'lll cripple yourself and be even more miserable...
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Patlal]
#23739633 - 10/15/16 10:09 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I don't often kill myself but when I do I make sure it cannot fail to the best of my abilities
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Patlal]
#23739638 - 10/15/16 10:14 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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yea, bad idea ,personally my plan would be to slit my wrist in a hot bath tub, high as fuck on benzos and heroin
heres a little poem and song that will cheer you up
I am the shipwreck with its scattered and soaked wood littering the ocean like a nest of roaches. The water smothers me patiently, and it waits to feel my body on the ocean floor.
I am the captain. I stand on my ship, never leaving its side, for tonight I sleep in a shark's stomach. The tears and rain both hit my face, as I lay on the deck and wait to drown.
I am washing the splinters from within my heart and I scream as it pumps. I let my lungs fill with water as the broken bath tub leaks.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Asante] 1
#23739647 - 10/15/16 10:19 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I feel like alot of people who say they'd suicide by OD have never had a near-death OD. Or blacked out if so. You're gonna die, those last few moments are the last few of your life, there is nothing to forget. Even if not fully aware you will be aware. Minutes are hours when you are horribly sick.
Not to mention a botch there can be as bad as a botch with a gun. Meh. If you want to spare people from finding your mangled corpse then write a note and go somewhere that they will never find your mangled corpse.
But don't commit suicide unless you're already going to die or are a near vegetable. Life is too easily improved to be thrown away because you haven't yet figured out how to improve it. You are a well of untapped potential - don't throw it away for the stupid bullshit in your head. Chances are those voices aren't even reality.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Asante] 2
#23739660 - 10/15/16 10:26 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Asante said: I don't often kill myself but when I do I post about it on the internetz
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#23739738 - 10/15/16 11:06 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I don't understand what you are trying to say.
But It only makes sense to me overdosing on opiates and benzos would be euphoric, painless and anxiety free.
It would surely be one of the easiest deaths.
I would probably choose to die from a progressive overdose of opium, Valium and red wine with Ketamine and mdma and cannabis added for flavor.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Moonshoe] 1
#23739758 - 10/15/16 11:20 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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You say this in theory.
And, in theory, if you did it just right I'm sure your overdose cocktail would be lovely. But in reality if you don't do it just right then it's bound to be a terrifying and horrible experience. And then if someone finds you and shuttles your ass off to the ER in time then you are very likely to be fucked up for the rest of your life.
I suppose if you could manage it a best bet would be an OD/hanging/shooting/whatever combo. This is a strange conversation to be having on a saturday morning.
I'm happy to be alive after eating a medicine cabinet full of drugs that included a bottle of xanax and percocet. But the experience was indeed pretty goddamn horrible. Didn't quite turn terrifying till I decided that I didn't really want to die. Definitely horrible. And now my liver is jacked up and it's hardly the only thing. Just the only thing I'm sure was because of the OD. I spent 3 years recovering from that and preexisting drug abuse. The experience has set me (rather firmly) against it. Being deathly sick isn't fun no matter how high you are. But then, throwing ketamine into the mix would make a world of difference I'm sure. If you could fully anesthetize yourself I'm sure it'd all be gravy. But I doubt many people could or would fully anesthetize themselves and not fuck something up.
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Edited by CookieCrumbs (10/15/16 11:22 AM)
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#23739827 - 10/15/16 11:51 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Out of all the ways to die though surely a solid heroin and Xanax overdose must be one of the most peaceful and pleasant ways
Glad you survived!
Is your liver fucked from APAP?
It's so evil they put that shit in opiates.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Moonshoe]
#23739852 - 10/15/16 12:06 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yep. And I agree. That's why, for the moment, I'm stuck with kratom for pain relief. Anything else short of pure opiates gives me hepatic episodes.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#23739891 - 10/15/16 12:29 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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If i was going to go i would go skiing in the back country with some feel good drugs and not come back. Freezing to death is supposed to be pretty ok.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#23739895 - 10/15/16 12:31 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Quote:
CookieCrumbs said: I feel like alot of people who say they'd suicide by OD have never had a near-death OD. Or blacked out if so. You're gonna die, those last few moments are the last few of your life, there is nothing to forget. Even if not fully aware you will be aware. Minutes are hours when you are horribly sick.
Ehhh. ODing on morphine was both serene and surreal, 100% would repeat if it wasn't so dangerous.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: falsereality]
#23739934 - 10/15/16 12:58 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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are you kidding? those pins and needles are painful as fuck.
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falsereality


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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23739948 - 10/15/16 01:05 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Quote:
moonrockmushy said: are you kidding?
Nope.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: falsereality]
#23739950 - 10/15/16 01:07 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Even when I take too much degraded heroin, the most prominent part is that sting in my face and chest. Not fun.
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akira_akuma
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: trekie]
#23739955 - 10/15/16 01:10 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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trekie said: One if you are going to kill yourself don't use a gun . There are other less messy ways or painful ways.. If you botch the job things get worse.
Don't kill yourself. I've come close recently it's not worth it. I've had a few family members do it and man does it send shit ripples thought out the shit sea called life in fact from my personal experiences those shit ripples turned into a shitunami destroying lives in it'd shit wake.
there's one good reason for suicide.
wakes people up.
is that sad.
yes.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23739956 - 10/15/16 01:14 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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moonrockmushy said: Even when I take too much degraded heroin, the most prominent part is that sting in my face and chest. Not fun.
Huh. I've never experienced that before .
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: falsereality]
#23739957 - 10/15/16 01:15 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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maybe it is just an IV thing
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falsereality


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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23739959 - 10/15/16 01:16 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I've never IV'd a drug before, so that might be it.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: falsereality]
#23740017 - 10/15/16 01:59 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Anyone considering suicide should check this YouTube clip. It's just audio and less than 2 minutes, and anyone on the brink has an extra 2 minutes to spare for a short YouTube vid before they depart.
WARNING: This clip is disturbing. I'm not kidding. Seriously. If you're sensitive, skip it.
Edited by abltsandwich (10/15/16 02:08 PM)
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun] 1
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: LogicaL Chaos]
#23740259 - 10/15/16 03:39 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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you can bet that 9/11 call happens at least 60-80 times a day depending on what method they use
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Konyap]
#23740471 - 10/15/16 05:18 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Your not a cop thats the real reason you didnt die.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Konyap] 5
#23740556 - 10/15/16 06:05 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Konyap said: you can bet that 9/11 call happens at least 60-80 times a day depending on what method they use
Do you know the difference between 9/11 and 911?
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: SkagitHunter]
#23740581 - 10/15/16 06:21 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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exposure or animal attack Just walk out into the woods and sit there. if im gonna opt out, I had better though long and hard about it first, and not take the easy road that an extra hour on the brink wouldn't have cured.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: SkagitHunter]
#23740613 - 10/15/16 06:39 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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SkagitHunter said:
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Konyap said: you can bet that 9/11 call happens at least 60-80 times a day depending on what method they use
Do you know the difference between 9/11 and 911?
Nobody cries about a 911 call for 15 years.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun]
#23740694 - 10/15/16 07:28 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Drug overdose isn't as peaceful as it would seem. It takes far to long in most cases and unless you are getting pharmacy quality where you can guarantee purity and dosage good chance it won't work or you will just do enough damage where your life will suck even more. The same goes for a gun most people will flinch or not take out the part of the brain that needs to be taken out. You think life sucks now imagined if you are a cripple with half a face. It can take awhile to bleed out increasing the chance you will be saved.
I know how I would do it relatively peaceful and painless. With death coming in only about 20-30 minutes max. It's how my uncle did it. I won't share how because I don't need anymore blood on my hands. It's not a way for a suicidal gesture .
I urge you to get help if you are having suicidal thoughts. It won't be easy but please don't put those who love you through it. Only reason I'm still here.
-------------------- I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Bodhi of Ankou]
#23740698 - 10/15/16 07:29 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Bodhi of Ankou said:
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SkagitHunter said:
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Konyap said: you can bet that 9/11 call happens at least 60-80 times a day depending on what method they use
Do you know the difference between 9/11 and 911?
Nobody cries about a 911 call for 15 years.
Sick burn. Not what I meant, but sick burn man.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: SkagitHunter]
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun]
#23740897 - 10/15/16 09:35 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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carbon monoxide is the best way to kill yourself, according to my ethics prof, just so's ya know op. Utterly painless and no mess to clean up
but also probably shouldn't kill yourself
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: trekie]
#23741044 - 10/15/16 10:36 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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trekie said: Drug overdose isn't as peaceful as it would seem. It takes far to long in most cases and unless you are getting pharmacy quality where you can guarantee purity and dosage good chance it won't work or you will just do enough damage where your life will suck even more. The same goes for a gun most people will flinch or not take out the part of the brain that needs to be taken out. You think life sucks now imagined if you are a cripple with half a face. It can take awhile to bleed out increasing the chance you will be saved.
I know how I would do it relatively peaceful and painless. With death coming in only about 20-30 minutes max. It's how my uncle did it. I won't share how because I don't need anymore blood on my hands. It's not a way for a suicidal gesture .
I urge you to get help if you are having suicidal thoughts. It won't be easy but please don't put those who love you through it. Only reason I'm still here.
Yeah I have heard alot of people who overdosed on opiates that it feels like you are drowning out of water. I have seen some near overdoses and it definitely seems to have the same symptoms minus the water in the lungs.
The thing about all my near overdoses is that you don't remember them and if you are alone and nobody revives you, you just wake up high as fuck with numb extremities and perhaps a busted nose or bruise where you landed.
Don't get me wrong, I loved taking way too much heroin, especially mixing it with cocaine Xanax or all three. People have said they saw me die, and I didn't remember it, but that is not fun its just blacking out.
I think it takes alot of nerve to kill yourself using method, but I really doubt it will be what you expect. Things are never as they seem, which is why I have a problem with suicide, because I'm not as smart as I think. The unknown can be scary especially for the emotionally gifted, but when you're really struggling with the present it can be the only thing that gives you hope.
I could go on but I don't even remember what tread I am posting in. Hopefully some of that made sense. Ml ml Ml I apologize for the ramble but I won't remember any of this tomorrow (just spelled tomorrow correctly without spellcheck I never do that, but for the rest I relied on autocorrect alot. :The more you know:
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: trekie]
#23741138 - 10/15/16 11:28 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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trekie said: Drug overdose isn't as peaceful as it would seem. It takes far to long in most cases and unless you are getting pharmacy quality where you can guarantee purity and dosage good chance it won't work or you will just do enough damage where your life will suck even more. The same goes for a gun most people will flinch or not take out the part of the brain that needs to be taken out. You think life sucks now imagined if you are a cripple with half a face. It can take awhile to bleed out increasing the chance you will be saved.
I agree about the OD'ing
But you can easily mitigate the gun method, statistically speaking the success rate with a shotgun in the mouth is something like 99% if I remember correctly. Having it in the mouth with a stable platform for the butt will prevent the "twitch" misfire, obviously make sure you have a powerful tool in good operating condition. I think a slug was recommended, rather than buckshot.
Part of me is considering finding another method, but I haven't heard of one which has such a high success rate, while being instantaneous since you tear out the brain stem.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun]
#23741308 - 10/16/16 01:29 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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A .22 isn't going to blow your brains out. You need a .38 special revolver.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: FeedingMyDreams]
#23741329 - 10/16/16 01:50 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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If u are using a .22 to try shoot yer brains out, then u are half assing it.
Like trying to OD on pills then waking up with a super bad hangover.
Feels bad man.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: LogicaL Chaos] 1
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I think you should've followed through with the cO2 BB gun..
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: liloldme]
#23741421 - 10/16/16 03:28 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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liloldme said: I think you should've followed through with the cO2 BB gun..

Seriously though, carbon monoxide is the way to go. Not only for yourself, but for the poor person who has to find you.
I suffer from depression myself. I never thought I'd be as happy as I am today. My psychiatrist is awesome, so is my pharmacist for that matter. Seek professional help man. I went from seriously considering suicide daily to briefly thinking about it a few times a month. It gets better, and it's not even all that hard. Especially if you get the right meds.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: LogicaL Chaos] 1
#23741439 - 10/16/16 03:57 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I must concur. Don't kill yourself but if you absolutely must.. Your brain is the most important one in your universe because its connected to your entire pain center and bodily functions. If you botch this you may end up severely disfigured in great pain in a wheelchair pissing yourself all day in an adult diaper in a hospice.
Suicide requires overkill to assure destruction.
I know you were being impulsive but a .22... no man no. You don't want to survive a gunshot to the head, alone somewhere. You want a full force sledgehammer whack to the cranium not a captive bolt.
Don't commit suicide. Get help. Friends, professionals, whatever it takes. If you find yourself acutely suicidal call friggin 911 because acute suicidality is a valid reason to call. You're a human being man, emergency rescue is there for you too.
But if you must - positive function, assured destruction, maximum lethality so that you don't end up like this guy:
Botch a firearm suicide and whatever problems you had got to the next level.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Asante]
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Asante]
#23742007 - 10/16/16 10:27 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I always liked this idea, the suicide helmet

9 shotgun shells fired simultaneously is a damn good way to see the job done.
Though I'm sure with whats left you may as well decapitate yourself.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#23742054 - 10/16/16 10:45 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I think I just need to take a heroic dose. I hear it's like dying and being reborn.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: CookieCrumbs] 2
#23742103 - 10/16/16 10:59 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I very rarely ever talk, especially post in a forum, my personal business. When it comes to the matter of suicide it is very real and serious. When you feel like hope has been forsaken and all that is left is grief and agony it sounds like a great option however.
I have tried to kill myself by gunfire and a heroin overdose. When I pulled the trigger the bullet jammed in the firing chamber and shot out through the ejection port of the rifle. This left me passed off with a broken weapon and deaf in one ear for about 3 weeks. Not to mention one hell of a headache.
More recently when I tried to OD on heroin I blacked out and someone who found me called an ambulance and I went to the hospital. I signed out against medical advice and the doctor urged me to stay. Said he had never seen someone in 25 years of practice dose as high as I did and walk away without dying or having organ failure at least.
I went through extreme illness. Unable to walk 3 steps without convulsions, vomiting, or severe muscle spasms. I spent the next week going through hell mentally and physically as I was also withdrawing from heroin use. For those who believe this is a quick and easy way to go, bullshit! If you have never tried it don't sponsor the idea. In the last 3 hours of what I thought would be the end of my life I experienced nothing peaceful about it. I had seizures, thoughts about my children and wife, and an instant "fuck what have I just done!?" regret that I could not forget even after my blackout.
I went through hell for years before this in my own head. I was an Army medic and have seen the deaths of hundreds of people. Have been unable to save friends of mine including my lifelong best friend who died in my arms as I tried to save him after we were blown up in our vehicle by an RPG. I carried guilt and the faces of those I knew who were lost right on my sleeve.
Today I am getting my life back together. I have found out how to forgive myself and I have found a home and a place for my family and I to live after 6 months of being homeless. Life is hard! Decisions are even harder and what I found out is suicide was not just a decision that affected me but it Damon near destroyed my wife and kids and many others who know me. In the end if it had been successful I would be without thought or concern but those I left behind would carry my face on their sleeves much as I carried those I lost.
I took my family to Shenandoah Valley and into the Blue Ridge Mountains yesterday and was gratefully reminded about why every life matters and the truth that if you WORK for it things DO get better.
Please do not give up. YOUR life matters. Find peace in your struggles and hope will show through.
Best of luck to you.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: SkagitHunter]
#23742180 - 10/16/16 11:22 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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SkagitHunter said: My buddies aunt tried to kill herself with a .22. She's paralyzed now. And let me tell you, she is one angry bitch! She just sits there and groans angrily. Talk about making matters worse!
I knew a guy named paul that tried that, put the gun under his chin, pulled the trigger, now he has brain damage and a bad speech impediment, mentally he's like a 6 year old now. also very angry
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: tarlin]
#23742453 - 10/16/16 12:51 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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tarlin said: I very rarely ever talk, especially post in a forum, my personal business. When it comes to the matter of suicide it is very real and serious. When you feel like hope has been forsaken and all that is left is grief and agony it sounds like a great option however.
I have tried to kill myself by gunfire and a heroin overdose. When I pulled the trigger the bullet jammed in the firing chamber and shot out through the ejection port of the rifle. This left me passed off with a broken weapon and deaf in one ear for about 3 weeks. Not to mention one hell of a headache.
More recently when I tried to OD on heroin I blacked out and someone who found me called an ambulance and I went to the hospital. I signed out against medical advice and the doctor urged me to stay. Said he had never seen someone in 25 years of practice dose as high as I did and walk away without dying or having organ failure at least.
I went through extreme illness. Unable to walk 3 steps without convulsions, vomiting, or severe muscle spasms. I spent the next week going through hell mentally and physically as I was also withdrawing from heroin use. For those who believe this is a quick and easy way to go, bullshit! If you have never tried it don't sponsor the idea. In the last 3 hours of what I thought would be the end of my life I experienced nothing peaceful about it. I had seizures, thoughts about my children and wife, and an instant "fuck what have I just done!?" regret that I could not forget even after my blackout.
I went through hell for years before this in my own head. I was an Army medic and have seen the deaths of hundreds of people. Have been unable to save friends of mine including my lifelong best friend who died in my arms as I tried to save him after we were blown up in our vehicle by an RPG. I carried guilt and the faces of those I knew who were lost right on my sleeve.
Today I am getting my life back together. I have found out how to forgive myself and I have found a home and a place for my family and I to live after 6 months of being homeless. Life is hard! Decisions are even harder and what I found out is suicide was not just a decision that affected me but it Damon near destroyed my wife and kids and many others who know me. In the end if it had been successful I would be without thought or concern but those I left behind would carry my face on their sleeves much as I carried those I lost.
I took my family to Shenandoah Valley and into the Blue Ridge Mountains yesterday and was gratefully reminded about why every life matters and the truth that if you WORK for it things DO get better.
Please do not give up. YOUR life matters. Find peace in your struggles and hope will show through.
Best of luck to you.
So glad you are here today to share your story with us

thanks man
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23742520 - 10/16/16 01:14 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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moonrockmushy said: Even when I take too much degraded heroin, the most prominent part is that sting in my face and chest. Not fun.
I've never got pins and needles from I.v heroin, definitely from morphine I.v tho and I personally found it enjoyable.
I'd go for the heroin benzo combo if I wanted to end it.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: TNK]
#23742538 - 10/16/16 01:20 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I definitely have, and it always catches me off guard too. It's like a sting in the face and chest. I kinda like it sometimes but it can overpower the rush.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: FeedingMyDreams]
#23742563 - 10/16/16 01:29 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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FeedingMyDreams said: A .22 isn't going to blow your brains out. You need a .38 special revolver.
38's aren't all that great either If I was gonna do it no way I'd use anything less than a 357 mag with a longish barrel. Preferably a shotgun or high powered rifle.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23742581 - 10/16/16 01:36 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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moonrockmushy said: I definitely have, and it always catches me off guard too. It's like a sting in the face and chest. I kinda like it sometimes but it can overpower the rush.
Its completely possible I'm sure.
I've injected raw opium before and it felt like a heart attack as I collapsed on the floor unable to breath while the pins and needles stabbed my entire body. 0/7 wouldn't do again.
I got a similar feeling from 60mg Ms cotin where the pins and needles ruined the rush.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: TNK]
#23742612 - 10/16/16 01:44 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I just felt really tired on 120mg+ of IR morphine. Needles really don't sound worth the rush or the efficiency.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: falsereality]
#23742671 - 10/16/16 02:04 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yeah honestly the histamine rush part of it I could do without. You learn to like it because you know that if your face is stinging like fuck you are also getting high as hell.
I'll say this no bullshit. I was disappointed with every IV rush I ever had. It's not like they show in the movies where it is just ultimate release and euphoria. There are much better feelings in life than IV heroin, cocaine, fent, oxy, whatever. Even the good feelings that come in waves on a good mushroom trip are much better. The thing about IV use is short term relief, but it is not the best feeling.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23742680 - 10/16/16 02:06 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I disagree. The rush of Iv heroin is the pinnacle of euphoria, for me anyways.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23742704 - 10/16/16 02:15 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Oh how I yearn for a mushie rushie.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: TNK]
#23742708 - 10/16/16 02:16 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: liloldme] 1
#23742768 - 10/16/16 02:31 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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liloldme said: I win... http://www.heavy-r.com/video/116607/Grinding_whole_animals/
You already won with the BB gun comment. Now you're just rubbing it in.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: TNK] 1
#23742775 - 10/16/16 02:33 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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TheNatureKid said: I disagree. The rush of Iv heroin is the pinnacle of euphoria, for me anyways.
Yeah no I would say the pinnacle of what I'd call euphoria for me came out of nowhere with no cause I can discern or from mushrooms. Like that is ecstasy for me.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23743343 - 10/16/16 05:54 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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TheNatureKid said: I disagree. The rush of Iv heroin is the pinnacle of euphoria, for me anyways.
Yeah no I would say the pinnacle of what I'd call euphoria for me came out of nowhere with no cause I can discern or from mushrooms. Like that is ecstasy for me.
Yeah, mushrooms are probably the most euphoric drug I have taken.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: luvdemboomers]
#23744454 - 10/17/16 04:08 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Even just a small amount of shrooms, not enough to trip, can give you such a good mood that you can laugh hysterically for hours on end, in good company.
a microdose of shrooms, 0.25-0.5 grams of cubies, is a great party drug. It doesnt intoxicate you much but it gives you energy and can boost especially your mood considerably.
In Japan they are called Warai Take - Laughing Mushrooms
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Asante]
#23744486 - 10/17/16 04:38 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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There ain't no reason to blow your brains out. You could feel different in a day, a week, a month, or a year. Give it some time.
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