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SkagitHunter
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Bodhi of Ankou]
#23740698 - 10/15/16 07:29 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Konyap said: you can bet that 9/11 call happens at least 60-80 times a day depending on what method they use
Do you know the difference between 9/11 and 911?
Nobody cries about a 911 call for 15 years.
Sick burn. Not what I meant, but sick burn man.
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YaMoonSun
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: SkagitHunter]
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun]
#23740897 - 10/15/16 09:35 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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carbon monoxide is the best way to kill yourself, according to my ethics prof, just so's ya know op. Utterly painless and no mess to clean up
but also probably shouldn't kill yourself
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: trekie]
#23741044 - 10/15/16 10:36 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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trekie said: Drug overdose isn't as peaceful as it would seem. It takes far to long in most cases and unless you are getting pharmacy quality where you can guarantee purity and dosage good chance it won't work or you will just do enough damage where your life will suck even more. The same goes for a gun most people will flinch or not take out the part of the brain that needs to be taken out. You think life sucks now imagined if you are a cripple with half a face. It can take awhile to bleed out increasing the chance you will be saved.
I know how I would do it relatively peaceful and painless. With death coming in only about 20-30 minutes max. It's how my uncle did it. I won't share how because I don't need anymore blood on my hands. It's not a way for a suicidal gesture .
I urge you to get help if you are having suicidal thoughts. It won't be easy but please don't put those who love you through it. Only reason I'm still here.
Yeah I have heard alot of people who overdosed on opiates that it feels like you are drowning out of water. I have seen some near overdoses and it definitely seems to have the same symptoms minus the water in the lungs.
The thing about all my near overdoses is that you don't remember them and if you are alone and nobody revives you, you just wake up high as fuck with numb extremities and perhaps a busted nose or bruise where you landed.
Don't get me wrong, I loved taking way too much heroin, especially mixing it with cocaine Xanax or all three. People have said they saw me die, and I didn't remember it, but that is not fun its just blacking out.
I think it takes alot of nerve to kill yourself using method, but I really doubt it will be what you expect. Things are never as they seem, which is why I have a problem with suicide, because I'm not as smart as I think. The unknown can be scary especially for the emotionally gifted, but when you're really struggling with the present it can be the only thing that gives you hope.
I could go on but I don't even remember what tread I am posting in. Hopefully some of that made sense. Ml ml Ml I apologize for the ramble but I won't remember any of this tomorrow (just spelled tomorrow correctly without spellcheck I never do that, but for the rest I relied on autocorrect alot. :The more you know:
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: trekie]
#23741138 - 10/15/16 11:28 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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trekie said: Drug overdose isn't as peaceful as it would seem. It takes far to long in most cases and unless you are getting pharmacy quality where you can guarantee purity and dosage good chance it won't work or you will just do enough damage where your life will suck even more. The same goes for a gun most people will flinch or not take out the part of the brain that needs to be taken out. You think life sucks now imagined if you are a cripple with half a face. It can take awhile to bleed out increasing the chance you will be saved.
I agree about the OD'ing
But you can easily mitigate the gun method, statistically speaking the success rate with a shotgun in the mouth is something like 99% if I remember correctly. Having it in the mouth with a stable platform for the butt will prevent the "twitch" misfire, obviously make sure you have a powerful tool in good operating condition. I think a slug was recommended, rather than buckshot.
Part of me is considering finding another method, but I haven't heard of one which has such a high success rate, while being instantaneous since you tear out the brain stem.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: YaMoonSun]
#23741308 - 10/16/16 01:29 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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A .22 isn't going to blow your brains out. You need a .38 special revolver.
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LogicaL Chaos
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: FeedingMyDreams]
#23741329 - 10/16/16 01:50 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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If u are using a .22 to try shoot yer brains out, then u are half assing it.
Like trying to OD on pills then waking up with a super bad hangover.
Feels bad man.
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liloldme
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: LogicaL Chaos] 1
#23741399 - 10/16/16 02:52 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I think you should've followed through with the cO2 BB gun..
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SkagitHunter
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: liloldme]
#23741421 - 10/16/16 03:28 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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liloldme said: I think you should've followed through with the cO2 BB gun..

Seriously though, carbon monoxide is the way to go. Not only for yourself, but for the poor person who has to find you.
I suffer from depression myself. I never thought I'd be as happy as I am today. My psychiatrist is awesome, so is my pharmacist for that matter. Seek professional help man. I went from seriously considering suicide daily to briefly thinking about it a few times a month. It gets better, and it's not even all that hard. Especially if you get the right meds.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: LogicaL Chaos] 1
#23741439 - 10/16/16 03:57 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I must concur. Don't kill yourself but if you absolutely must.. Your brain is the most important one in your universe because its connected to your entire pain center and bodily functions. If you botch this you may end up severely disfigured in great pain in a wheelchair pissing yourself all day in an adult diaper in a hospice.
Suicide requires overkill to assure destruction.
I know you were being impulsive but a .22... no man no. You don't want to survive a gunshot to the head, alone somewhere. You want a full force sledgehammer whack to the cranium not a captive bolt.
Don't commit suicide. Get help. Friends, professionals, whatever it takes. If you find yourself acutely suicidal call friggin 911 because acute suicidality is a valid reason to call. You're a human being man, emergency rescue is there for you too.
But if you must - positive function, assured destruction, maximum lethality so that you don't end up like this guy:
Botch a firearm suicide and whatever problems you had got to the next level.
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YaMoonSun
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Asante]
#23741982 - 10/16/16 10:18 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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CookieCrumbs
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: Asante]
#23742007 - 10/16/16 10:27 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I always liked this idea, the suicide helmet

9 shotgun shells fired simultaneously is a damn good way to see the job done.
Though I'm sure with whats left you may as well decapitate yourself.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: CookieCrumbs]
#23742054 - 10/16/16 10:45 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I think I just need to take a heroic dose. I hear it's like dying and being reborn.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: CookieCrumbs] 2
#23742103 - 10/16/16 10:59 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I very rarely ever talk, especially post in a forum, my personal business. When it comes to the matter of suicide it is very real and serious. When you feel like hope has been forsaken and all that is left is grief and agony it sounds like a great option however.
I have tried to kill myself by gunfire and a heroin overdose. When I pulled the trigger the bullet jammed in the firing chamber and shot out through the ejection port of the rifle. This left me passed off with a broken weapon and deaf in one ear for about 3 weeks. Not to mention one hell of a headache.
More recently when I tried to OD on heroin I blacked out and someone who found me called an ambulance and I went to the hospital. I signed out against medical advice and the doctor urged me to stay. Said he had never seen someone in 25 years of practice dose as high as I did and walk away without dying or having organ failure at least.
I went through extreme illness. Unable to walk 3 steps without convulsions, vomiting, or severe muscle spasms. I spent the next week going through hell mentally and physically as I was also withdrawing from heroin use. For those who believe this is a quick and easy way to go, bullshit! If you have never tried it don't sponsor the idea. In the last 3 hours of what I thought would be the end of my life I experienced nothing peaceful about it. I had seizures, thoughts about my children and wife, and an instant "fuck what have I just done!?" regret that I could not forget even after my blackout.
I went through hell for years before this in my own head. I was an Army medic and have seen the deaths of hundreds of people. Have been unable to save friends of mine including my lifelong best friend who died in my arms as I tried to save him after we were blown up in our vehicle by an RPG. I carried guilt and the faces of those I knew who were lost right on my sleeve.
Today I am getting my life back together. I have found out how to forgive myself and I have found a home and a place for my family and I to live after 6 months of being homeless. Life is hard! Decisions are even harder and what I found out is suicide was not just a decision that affected me but it Damon near destroyed my wife and kids and many others who know me. In the end if it had been successful I would be without thought or concern but those I left behind would carry my face on their sleeves much as I carried those I lost.
I took my family to Shenandoah Valley and into the Blue Ridge Mountains yesterday and was gratefully reminded about why every life matters and the truth that if you WORK for it things DO get better.
Please do not give up. YOUR life matters. Find peace in your struggles and hope will show through.
Best of luck to you.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: SkagitHunter]
#23742180 - 10/16/16 11:22 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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SkagitHunter said: My buddies aunt tried to kill herself with a .22. She's paralyzed now. And let me tell you, she is one angry bitch! She just sits there and groans angrily. Talk about making matters worse!
I knew a guy named paul that tried that, put the gun under his chin, pulled the trigger, now he has brain damage and a bad speech impediment, mentally he's like a 6 year old now. also very angry
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moonrockmushy
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: tarlin]
#23742453 - 10/16/16 12:51 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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tarlin said: I very rarely ever talk, especially post in a forum, my personal business. When it comes to the matter of suicide it is very real and serious. When you feel like hope has been forsaken and all that is left is grief and agony it sounds like a great option however.
I have tried to kill myself by gunfire and a heroin overdose. When I pulled the trigger the bullet jammed in the firing chamber and shot out through the ejection port of the rifle. This left me passed off with a broken weapon and deaf in one ear for about 3 weeks. Not to mention one hell of a headache.
More recently when I tried to OD on heroin I blacked out and someone who found me called an ambulance and I went to the hospital. I signed out against medical advice and the doctor urged me to stay. Said he had never seen someone in 25 years of practice dose as high as I did and walk away without dying or having organ failure at least.
I went through extreme illness. Unable to walk 3 steps without convulsions, vomiting, or severe muscle spasms. I spent the next week going through hell mentally and physically as I was also withdrawing from heroin use. For those who believe this is a quick and easy way to go, bullshit! If you have never tried it don't sponsor the idea. In the last 3 hours of what I thought would be the end of my life I experienced nothing peaceful about it. I had seizures, thoughts about my children and wife, and an instant "fuck what have I just done!?" regret that I could not forget even after my blackout.
I went through hell for years before this in my own head. I was an Army medic and have seen the deaths of hundreds of people. Have been unable to save friends of mine including my lifelong best friend who died in my arms as I tried to save him after we were blown up in our vehicle by an RPG. I carried guilt and the faces of those I knew who were lost right on my sleeve.
Today I am getting my life back together. I have found out how to forgive myself and I have found a home and a place for my family and I to live after 6 months of being homeless. Life is hard! Decisions are even harder and what I found out is suicide was not just a decision that affected me but it Damon near destroyed my wife and kids and many others who know me. In the end if it had been successful I would be without thought or concern but those I left behind would carry my face on their sleeves much as I carried those I lost.
I took my family to Shenandoah Valley and into the Blue Ridge Mountains yesterday and was gratefully reminded about why every life matters and the truth that if you WORK for it things DO get better.
Please do not give up. YOUR life matters. Find peace in your struggles and hope will show through.
Best of luck to you.
So glad you are here today to share your story with us

thanks man
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23742520 - 10/16/16 01:14 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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moonrockmushy said: Even when I take too much degraded heroin, the most prominent part is that sting in my face and chest. Not fun.
I've never got pins and needles from I.v heroin, definitely from morphine I.v tho and I personally found it enjoyable.
I'd go for the heroin benzo combo if I wanted to end it.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: TNK]
#23742538 - 10/16/16 01:20 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I definitely have, and it always catches me off guard too. It's like a sting in the face and chest. I kinda like it sometimes but it can overpower the rush.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: FeedingMyDreams]
#23742563 - 10/16/16 01:29 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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FeedingMyDreams said: A .22 isn't going to blow your brains out. You need a .38 special revolver.
38's aren't all that great either If I was gonna do it no way I'd use anything less than a 357 mag with a longish barrel. Preferably a shotgun or high powered rifle.
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Re: That awkward feeling when you pick up the 22 and try to blow your brain out [Re: moonrockmushy]
#23742581 - 10/16/16 01:36 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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moonrockmushy said: I definitely have, and it always catches me off guard too. It's like a sting in the face and chest. I kinda like it sometimes but it can overpower the rush.
Its completely possible I'm sure.
I've injected raw opium before and it felt like a heart attack as I collapsed on the floor unable to breath while the pins and needles stabbed my entire body. 0/7 wouldn't do again.
I got a similar feeling from 60mg Ms cotin where the pins and needles ruined the rush.
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