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Re: The Devils Playground - My Battle Through Addiction [Re: Sanguin3] * 1
    #23722267 - 10/09/16 01:33 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

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Moonshoe said:
Thank you for sharing .

What would you say to the people who say that meth isn't very addictive or harmful ?





I am sure everyone has different experiences with the drug, some with less harsh consequences and some who have experienced even worse repercussions. But the reality of it is that it's a powerful drug. I had been experienced at that time with several other strong drugs and never had a problem stopping when the night was over.
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Great read. Thank you for taking the time to share your story.

If you dont mind a question, was the transition into addiction pretty much instant? You said you had a dealer living with you after the first week, so I assume you never had a sober period after the first time. If you had do you think you could have realized what you were about to slip into and stopped yourself?

I've always been curious how many people are honestly capable of doing something like meth once and quitting before it's too late. I like to think I could but I've always been worried my mindset would instantly change once I tried it.




From the first time I got high smoking meth in that summer, my first sober day was October. I lasted a week before I was back smoking again. I think the extreme dive into addiction had a lot to do with the dynamic I had with my partner. I have no doubt in my mind that if I were to have tried smoking meth on my own, that I would have never had been addicted as bad as I was, if at all. Having an addiction and a relationship that enables it is a special and deadly combination in it's own.


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Re: The Devils Playground - My Battle Through Addiction [Re: OsculateOfDemise]
    #23722299 - 10/09/16 01:42 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Yeah, you really have to be wary about those closest to you, they're the ones who wind up burning you the most.

At this point I'll never trust anyone entirely and do not see that kind of release as desirable.
Its not just a matter of what circumstances do to people, we're always faced with circumstances.

So I find a certain level of detachment to be necessary.
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Re: The Devils Playground - My Battle Through Addiction [Re: Repertoire89]
    #23722418 - 10/09/16 02:22 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Sounds like addiction is the "monster" you think of not just meth addiction. It's amazing you got through all that. Early in your story when you say you enjoyed the experience of the drug with your boyfriend more then the drug I believe it. He probably didn't and was addicted . Question, do you still own a house?  What's life been like after some of these things?


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Re: The Devils Playground - My Battle Through Addiction [Re: Seriously_trippin]
    #23723957 - 10/09/16 11:03 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

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Seriously_trippin said:
Sounds like addiction is the "monster" you think of not just meth addiction. It's amazing you got through all that. Early in your story when you say you enjoyed the experience of the drug with your boyfriend more then the drug I believe it. He probably didn't and was addicted . Question, do you still own a house?  What's life been like after some of these things?




I was renting at the time, hence the landlord coming to my house after my checks bounced.
I haven't been able to get a place since, because my credit score is so fucked after all of this. I have been rebuilding it but it takes time. It has been a tough journey since recovering, the nightmare doesn't end when you quit. I lost a job I really wanted over it because of a warrant. I had picked up a possession charge while I was up there and had to leave suddenly, missing my court date. I took care of it but I am still on probation (ends in March 2017, so not to much longer). But I try to use my experience as a way to push myself to be a better person. I have come so far since that dreadful time and hopefully it will be a distant memory that I hardly think about anymore.


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Re: The Devils Playground - My Battle Through Addiction [Re: OsculateOfDemise]
    #23723963 - 10/09/16 11:06 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

It will become a distant memory that you won't think of anymore. Just takes a little time and a lot of other cool shit to cloud it out.


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Re: The Devils Playground - My Battle Through Addiction [Re: OsculateOfDemise]
    #23723982 - 10/09/16 11:22 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Good job overcoming your addiction.

Keep moving forward.



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Re: The Devils Playground - My Battle Through Addiction [Re: OsculateOfDemise]
    #23724074 - 10/10/16 12:36 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

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OsculateOfDemise said:

There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about what happened. Wonder where it went all wrong. Why did I chose to do such a destructive drug. What I could I done differently.




I'm glad you have survived and are doing better. Wow. What a story.

I've had quite a run with meth in my life, so I can appreciate much of this.

Ultimately we begin to use drugs because it feels like we're taking care of ourselves. Drugs
seem to help us and are a way we soothe ourselves. I used to tell people meth saved my life,
because I had convinced my self that I could not survive my depression without it. Of course
that was BS, but doing meth did feel like I was taking care of myself. Then it went sideways!

Take care. Continue to be committed to being compassionate toward yourself.

I'm ten years clean and I still have dreams about it once in a while.

Just think of the dreams as angels reminding you that you're a survivor.


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Re: The Devils Playground - My Battle Through Addiction [Re: RJ Tubs 202]
    #23724134 - 10/10/16 01:44 AM (7 years, 3 months ago)

Many don't see it coming few see it leave.
I'm glad you got out of that situation and have been able to work towards a bright future.
Thanks for sharing.


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Re: The Devils Playground - My Battle Through Addiction [Re: OsculateOfDemise]
    #23728469 - 10/11/16 02:35 PM (7 years, 3 months ago)

I finally made some time to sit down and read this; thanks for sharing your story.  I agree that getting it out can be therapeutic

I'm really glad you were able to get out of it, you shine so brightly now :sunny:


You deserve the world osc, and I'm glad you're on track to get it :hug:


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