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hellno
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a wretched pitiful life
#23699687 - 10/02/16 10:01 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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F>it
dont even want a response
Edited by hellno (10/02/16 11:06 AM)
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno] 1
#23699721 - 10/02/16 10:12 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Its the human experience to be finite and face the fear of death. Its a rite of passage and its probably why were here.
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There are worse things in life than death, be glad you haven't experienced them. My only recommendation is to take a motherfuckingmetricfuckton of either shrooms or acid and reset your brain.
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699740 - 10/02/16 10:19 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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falsereality said: There are worse things in life than death, be glad you haven't experienced them. My only recommendation is to take a motherfuckingmetricfuckton of either shrooms or acid and reset your brain.
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f>it
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699771 - 10/02/16 10:30 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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hellno said: I have recently... didn't change a thing but another near death experience where I became very scared that a conspiracy is happening with L that everyone is taking these days is another chemical similar that you can o.d or that the Illuminati is tampering with it and has traces of something more sinister... the things we started thinking when on a half sheet..
Listen dude, you sound like a younger version of me in some aspects. I've tried to OD off opiates (when I was MUCH younger) but as luck would have it I am a rapid metabolizer .
You need to stop fearing death, it's just a natural part of life, the yin to life's yang.
What do you mean by near death experiences? Taking too much acid and freaking out doesn't count.
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699795 - 10/02/16 10:39 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm schizo-affective also so that doesn't help
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699807 - 10/02/16 10:42 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Are you withdrawing from something right now?
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699808 - 10/02/16 10:43 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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It's normal dude. Everyone is afraid of death. We all probably have came close to death without even realizing it in our everyday lives... maybe if we left the house a minute sooner, walked across the street 30 seconds later, etc etc. I could go on all day giving scenarios. Just live your life & when its your time to die you'll die a wise old man (hopefully). Of course you can speed up the process by doing wreckless shit but just be cautious of your surrounding and what you do and more than likely you're going to be a-okay pal.
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno] 1
#23699815 - 10/02/16 10:44 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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hellno said: idkn i'm probably less scared than most of death when it comes down to the moment of it..but it's this death anxiety i'm really talking about it just consumes me I cant enjoy alot of life because all I do is dwell that everything around me is going to die,,myself included,, my old folks,, grandparents,, pets I mean shit is gona hit the fan sometime,,sooon even..I just wish I could freeze time sometimes and be able to just relax..instead of thinking how sad i'm gona be when A) my family around me all dies//or B) I die young and tear up my family to bits making them sad as all hell because I used drugs
Everyone is going to die, this planet will be vaporized eventually, and so will every other human civilization (after they're developed) given enough time. Get the fuck over it. Your parents will die, your friends will die, your lovers will die, and you will die. It's a fact of life. You need to enjoy the time you have while alive and stop worrying about the inevitable.
Stop using drugs if you have a schizoaffective disorder, it will only make it worse, drugs aren't for everyone, especially for you. Consult a psychiatrist immediately, be honest about your drug use and your feelings. You need a doctor, not the shroomery.
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699824 - 10/02/16 10:48 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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It's a hard world but there are good people in it. There is actually good in everyone though we do our best to hide it.
One thing I have found, things are never really how they seem when you're all freaked out anxious and depressed. It's possible to change that negative energy into something positive, just like it is possible to have a loving family and throw it away on heroin.
You can't change the world, but you can decide what is important to you, and that defines your reality. You don't need psychedelics or anyone else to do this. Won't happen overnight, just exercise your will over time and you will get stronger and stronger.
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f>it
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Morgenstern said: Are you withdrawing from something right now?
no but using
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699844 - 10/02/16 10:54 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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hellno said: sorry but I'm gonna have to fire back at that.. dont tell me drugs aren't for me,,,especially me.. and fuck a psychiatrist I have a case worker for shit that actually helps me but.. I'm just writing some shit that probably everyone thinks about.. forgive me I shouldn't have bothered..I'm just talking to myself I guess.. these are the deep unlying reasons people like myself are addicts
Good, get angry, displacement is a step forward. See a psychiatrist, I can't force you to go obviously, but you should grow up and fix your shit.
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hellno said: sorry but I'm gonna have to fire back at that.. dont tell me drugs aren't for me,,,especially me.. and fuck a psychiatrist I have a case worker for shit that actually helps me but.. I'm just writing some shit that probably everyone thinks about.. forgive me I shouldn't have bothered..I'm just talking to myself I guess.. these are the deep unlying reasons people like myself are addicts
Good, get angry, displacement is a step forward. See a psychiatrist, I can't force you to go obviously, but you should grow up and fix your shit.
why does everyone think there is a fix to shit..I don't even need a godamn fixing and psychiatrist no thanks buddy..now somebody who think's that is something that does any damn good needs a reality check..talking to some nitwit who has made a career out of some pseudo therapy bullshit
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699862 - 10/02/16 11:02 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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hellno said: why does everyone think there is a fix to shit..I don't even need a godamn fixing and psychiatrist no thanks buddy..now somebody who think's that is something that does any damn good needs a reality check..talking to some nitwit who has made a career out of some pseudo therapy bullshit
... read that again to yourself.
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699868 - 10/02/16 11:04 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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some though processes are permanent with people
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699870 - 10/02/16 11:05 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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hellno said: some though processes are permanent with people
... which is why you need a doctor, they aren't all bad man.
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hellno said: some though processes are permanent with people
... which is why you need a doctor, they aren't all bad man.
I don't like disagreement
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699888 - 10/02/16 11:13 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Stay strong man. Sometimes things can be true and not true at the same time. Shrinks are bullshit, but sometimes that bullshit helps people. If it isn't working try something else. Life is weird and really when people say that the answers can only be found within it is true.
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699890 - 10/02/16 11:14 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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hellno said: I don't like disagreement
I don't care. It's what you need to hear. Go see a psychiatrist, if you think he/she is an asshole go see another one, rinse and repeat until you find someone who can help you.
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thanks dude really need to quit these opioids also..they sure don't help the way I feel in the long run
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699921 - 10/02/16 11:27 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yo, OP, have you ever gone by the name of Otto?
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23699922 - 10/02/16 11:27 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yeah it's hard for me to see because I know the appeal a little too well, but being hooked on opiates is not where it's at. It's not necessarily the worst thing in the world either but there are about a million better ways to work through personal angst and not end up with a physical addiction that will weigh you down in life.
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falsereality said: Yo, OP, have you ever gone by the name of Otto?
nope
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I've said it a bunch of times in a bunch of different threads. Human life is pretty much shit. We spend our childhood preparing to work, and then the best 40 years of our life toiling away. We raise another generation just so they can do pretty much the same.
In the meantime we try to have a few not shitty moments or realitive joy and feeedom. Of course many people don't get lucky and end up fucked and forced to suffer while still trying to eek out an existence.
Also, most of our efforts now actually go to support greed driven power structures that really only help a few people while exploiting the masses. The biggest schemers rise to the top and the less aggressive settle to the bottom. Unlike the movies anyone who refuse to participate or challenge the system usually end up destroyed for it.
Then there is the very limited and needy catalog of human experiences. There really only are so many ways to think and feel and all of then involve need and limitations. Fir example, even the triumph of overcoming obstacles is really only worthwhile because something was difficult. But what if you don't get off an overcoming difficulty and just want things to go smoothly? Well, you are in the wrong reality then.
Even love, the need for another person to help fulfill you only works because you are incomplete and limited without then.
Litmiations, needs, competition. What do you do if you don't like what humanity has to offer? You are just fucked.
"I'm a corporate slave, but at least I am a good parent and give my kids an opportunity... to be a comporate slave someday." Rationalization.
"The decent person who tried their best is now sick and has to suffer, but it must be for a reason. Life works in mysterious ways." Rationalization.
"Every morning my alarm clock goes off and I spent another day doing what I'm told, but it's OK because the one week a year I am allowed to stay home makes it all worth it. Plus, after 40 years of service I can retire and finally travel. I'll just need to remember to bring the 7 different medications that I need." Rationalization.
"We are mostly animals. As such we will spend most of our lives competing over resources. One mistake, microorganism, or genetic variant can bring about a world of pain and there is nothing we can do about it. We must kill and consume other things in order to sustain these animal forms. We will always be confined to the experience of an animal until such time as we leave it all behind." Reality.
God I need help, but I live in old school blue collar America where you work 12 hour swing shifts, then use the money to buy yourself a Harley that you ride to work. There are no provisions for anything but unquestioning service and the purchase of a nice pickup truck. If you aren't happy you drink. If that doesn't work you be a real man and kill you self with one of the many guns you are supposed to own.
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now that some rationality
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23700042 - 10/02/16 12:17 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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I was sick of booboo gooboo doctor psychiatrist responses..which is another bullshit job
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23700045 - 10/02/16 12:19 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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that's also why i'll never have a kid..if there is such a thing as sin it would be bringing another life into this godforsaken sick world
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23700047 - 10/02/16 12:20 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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hellno said: that's also why i'll never have a kid..if there is such a thing as sin it would be bringing another life into this godforsaken sick world
There's some common ground that we can agree upon.
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hellno said: now that some rationality
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God I need help, but I live in old school blue collar America where you work 12 hour swing shifts, then use the money to buy yourself a Harley that you ride to work. There are no provisions for anything but unquestioning service and the purchase of a nice pickup truck. If you aren't happy you drink. If that doesn't work you be a real man and kill you self with one of the many guns you are supposed to own.
lmao this part is hilarious in a demented way
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Re: a wretched pitiful life [Re: hellno]
#23700058 - 10/02/16 12:23 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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