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Moonshoe
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Registered: 05/28/04
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Loc: Iceland
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Re: A year ago today... [Re: trekie]
#23757727 - 10/21/16 11:20 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thank you for sharing
I hope your courageous story helps one person out there who is thinking of suicide choose to live on for others .
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Edited by Moonshoe (10/21/16 11:30 AM)
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JohnnieYen
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Registered: 03/15/11
Posts: 3,529
Loc: City Z
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Re: A year ago today... [Re: trekie]
#23757732 - 10/21/16 11:22 AM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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stay strong brother, you have lots of support here.
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trekie
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Registered: 05/11/09
Posts: 11,085
Loc: Larger cities
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So I attempted suicide Friday night after work. Had an exit bag connected to an argon . Had my letters written out. Had addresses for all the items I wanted others to have. Luckily last time I talked to my mom earlier that night she knew something was wrong. She showed up to my house. I pulled of the bag and passed out just as she was walking in.
I am moving back in with them by the end of this month. My landlord is OK with breaking my lease. I had to pay 1,000 but they might refund it if it is approved by my doctor and the manger of the complex. I hope this decision is best for me. I don't know what is best for me anymore. I just know that me being here alone all the time isn't.
I hope that this helps someone else and helps me get out of my own mind. My doctor recommended that I go back to the hospital (she doesn't know about the attempt ) I need to make more money to pay for all this stuff.
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vandago



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Re: A year ago today... [Re: trekie]
#23791170 - 11/01/16 12:11 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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I've been in an abandoned house for 2 years. Isolation is not the answer. Every day finds a way to make tomorrow darker no matter how bright you managed to fight to make yesterday.
I feel the whole love thyself thing. Be able to be alone and enjoy it. But not perma. People are important to grow from, to survive. The term codependancy always baffles me. Like it's wrong to meet eyes someoene and acknowledge the fact we are free falling at light years per second and we are ok with the fact that we are fucking terrified somewhere in our psyche, but not when we are together. If you don't feel right around at least someone, something is wrong.
I'm glad you are still here. I though it was weird I hadn't had a continuous begging for dick pics from you as of late. Stay strong.
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spirit_shadow
Feature not a bug



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Re: A year ago today... [Re: vandago]
#23791204 - 11/01/16 12:28 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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We are all in this together
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