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Bigfeely123
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Is anyone else still chasing the high? 1
#23674890 - 09/24/16 07:00 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I don't do LSD or mushrooms frequently anymore. Maybe once or twice every couple months. A couple years ago I would trip once almost every week. That was my highlight of the week. I'd wait in anticipation for my "trip night" which consisted of smoking weed, listening to music, watching movies, and obviously doing LSD or mushrooms. At work it was something to look forward to and would seem to make my day go by faster. When I was tripping during this time period I would have what I thought were amazing ideas and revelations. The thought that frequently came up during my trips were, "I wish I could always think like this" because I felt so smart and felt as if I could solve any question or dilemma I had that came to me in my head at the time of tripping.
Nowadays pretty much every time I do a psychedelic (even weed sometimes) it puts me on one big guilt trip. My mind is kicking my ass hard with thoughts of things I know I should or feel like I should be doing in my life now. Or things that I wish were different in my life but I have no control over. When I'm sober again I don't feel "reset". I feel like I have a bigger burden on me than before the trip because now I have all the thoughts in my mind that was said to me during the trip. Now whenever I trip, most of the duration of the trip, I almost feel like I'm literally going insane with all thoughts racing one after another through my mind. By the time I'm done with the trip my mind feels like an over worked machine that's about to explode.
The weirdest part to all of this is... I still think about doing LSD or mushrooms and probably even will in the near future. But why? I guess I'm hoping that it would be magical like the first times again. Something along those lines. This to me is "chasing the dragon".
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: Bigfeely123]
#23674898 - 09/24/16 07:01 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Lsd is hard to find in San diego
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: Bigfeely123]
#23674976 - 09/24/16 07:27 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I can relate. I think I over did it with booms and L and for awhile there, each time I tripped it was borderline boring. I've actually had issues even tripping at all the last few times I've tried booms.
With L my new rule is to space out each trip by at least 2-3 months. That way I still get some of the magical and mysteriousness that I got the first few times I did L.
And I'm also planning on trying out other psychedelics just to mix it up a bit. I actually just ordered 2' of bridgesii cactus and I'm also considering taking ayahuasca in Peru next spring.
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Bigfeely123
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: DustyBottoms]
#23675004 - 09/24/16 07:34 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I wish I never tripped so frequently when I first discovered it. From the first time I did a psychedelic it didn't take long at all till I was doing it habitually. I do this with almost everything in my life, IDK why. I get into something really fast and do it frequently then in a short period of time I'm burnt out on it yet I still continue to do it because I'm hoping for something better. Something that is unrelated to drugs that I can think of would be fishing.
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: Bigfeely123]
#23675037 - 09/24/16 07:42 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I ended up upping the dose. 2 tabs to me is like you said boring. 3 is alright, but anywhere from 4-6 is where I am at. May end up doing a mg dose to really blow my mind soon. Trips weekly/bi weekly all summer long got to me. 2 tabs with a month break didnt really blow my mind like I thought it would. been 2 weeks now, and I may do 4 or 5 in a couple weeks.
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: LSDollar]
#23675089 - 09/24/16 08:01 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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3 year break then dropping 100 ug blew my socks off.
My girlfriend and I ended our tripping hiatus and are now planning to trip 4-6 times a year. The magic won't disappear that way.
October 22nd is our next trip, 400 ug each. 
I understand that guilt trip feeling. If I start to stress, I usually just keep telling myself in 10 or so hours life will be normal again and to enjoy that ride while I'm still on it, and anxiety and stress gets lifted almost instantly.
My advice is try and make your trips more of an event. I don't know how sporadic or on a whim your trips are, but I plan mine out to the T. Dosage, date, setting, with whom, & other controllable variables are thought of weeks in advance. Idk, I wasn't always like that. I would trip whenever I felt the urge to drop, and it started to lose its fun and tolerance started to get in the way.
Now that I keep it on a regime, every trip has something new and awesome to share.
I hope the magic finds you again!
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: DabsAndTabs]
#23675127 - 09/24/16 08:17 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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They are very sporadic now. Literally I'll decide on doing it a few hours beforehand. Not even the morning of. I'll just think, "well I'm feeling content finally. I wanna do some acid." Which basically means that I haven't had any negative thoughts or felt like shit in a good few hours straight that day so I'll just do it. I don't know how my life got to this point but I don't remember having any "good days" or days where I've felt genuinely happy throughout the entire day in at least a couple years.
Then because I don't have anything planned out once I start tripping I just start thinking of what I want to do but I can't make up my damn mind. I'll be sitting upright on my bed thinking, "fuck. i need to do something NOW. I'm going insane." and this will go on for 5-10 minutes and eventually I'll just pop in a movie so the thought of "what do i do now/what do i want to do now" goes away.
I like the idea of planning everything out because I think the fact that I sit there with all these thoughts racing through my mind is one of the main reasons why it turns into a downward spiral of feeling like shit, feeling guilty, and going "insane". I guess I get stuck inside my mind too deep. The setting is always my house and I'm always tripping by myself. I haven't tripped with someone else in about 2 years or so. Next time I trip I think I'll put my posters back up, take out the blacklight, pick out a handful of movies to choose from, and just get everything nice and set up so I have stuff to do. Thanks for that idea I like it.
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: Bigfeely123]
#23675216 - 09/24/16 08:48 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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To be honest i used to go through the same thing. But its not about spacing out trips its about depression and life having no real meaning. All people get in a rut almost all the time. Drugs don't fix that because they become the new normal. We always want something more If we are lucky we can be distracted long enough in life with work, drugs, people to not care. My best druggy freind has the same problem with everydrug and deals them just to find new ones to abuse until boredom sets in. His life will get better when he learns boredom is good and normal
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: tump]
#23675290 - 09/24/16 09:22 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Op, you say your mind is kicking your ass telling you the things you know should be done. Why don't you just do those things to make yourself feel better so when you trip, you won't have those dark clouds hanging over your head.
That's one thing I feel people struggle with is the integration afterwards. You come to these revelations about how things should be but never do anything after becoming sober again, thus falling into the same rut.
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: tump]
#23675299 - 09/24/16 09:28 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hey tump. Thanks for the reply. When you were at a happier time in your life did you enjoy your trips more?
For me, I discovered psychedelics at a "care-free" time of my life. I had just graduated high school, had a couple stoner friends who I could drink/do drugs with whenever for the most part, a few stoner kind of chick booty calls, and a crappy job that paid for my gas and weed money. During this time period I didn't feel the need or the want to integrate into "normal society".
Now I'm older. I have absolutely no social or sex life. Haven't in years. Not even a single friend or anyone to talk to besides my family members these days. There is nothing exciting or new in my everyday life. I go from one shit job to another. Currently unemployed but by no means broke. Only have a HS education. Now I realize if I ever want to make it in life I have to make an effort to try and fit into society. Or fake it I guess because even with a very drastic appearance change I still don't feel like I fit in with anybody.
I sound like a sad sack of shit. Sorry. I guess I'm just gonna have to get used to this. I'm probably not meant to be tripping during this state that's why I may be having these negative trips. I really don't know.
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: Bigfeely123]
#23675300 - 09/24/16 09:30 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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My story is just like yours but worse.
From years 1-2 with LSD I had trip night which was always heaven From years 3-4 with LSD I still tripped but the magic was gone and it was more of a guilt trip like you said From years 5-6 (currently) I can't really trip anymore because a trip consists of basically a 6 hour long panic attack where I come out mentally and/or physically hurt.
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Bigfeely123
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: HamHead]
#23675325 - 09/24/16 09:40 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I suppose literally what it has come to is I need to get my shit together which in turn would make me feel content or hopefully happy with my life before I can have an enjoyable trip. Basically get my life to a point where things feel right.
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: Bigfeely123]
#23675426 - 09/24/16 10:31 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Just read an amazing book called Psychedelic Healing, by Neal Goldsmith that helped me a lot. I learned the steps to take to ensure proper use. Your story is a very common one, psychedelics have a way of showing us inconvenient truths about our self. I have found that the magic can and will come back and get even better each time with correct planning,use and integration. Good luck
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: DabsAndTabs]
#23676335 - 09/25/16 10:44 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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My advice is try and make your trips more of an event. I don't know how sporadic or on a whim your trips are, but I plan mine out to the T. Dosage, date, setting, with whom, & other controllable variables are thought of weeks in advance. Idk, I wasn't always like that. I would trip whenever I felt the urge to drop, and it started to lose its fun and tolerance started to get in the way.
Now that I keep it on a regime, every trip has something new and awesome to share.
I hope the magic finds you again! 
I do this too, in making each one a planned event, with even ritualistic proceedings for that day and even the day before sometimes.
Examples..exercise the day before and/or the morning of. Eat healthy the day before the trip, fast the day of the trip, clean my apartment, phone off, movies/shows teed up that I might want to check out during the peak or during the comedown, cut off the weed smoke hours before the trip so that I get super high (love mixing psychs with weed), grocery shop the morning of for fresh fruits and ramen noodles. And I light candles. Lots and lots of candles.
I fucking wish I could just trip anytime the mood strikes, but I learned the hard way that it loses it mystique after awhile. Once I decided to spread out my trips, they started becoming magical again and that was a good feeling - prior to that I had actually worried that it just wasn't ever going to be the same again.
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: DustyBottoms]
#23676399 - 09/25/16 11:01 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Pace yourself [2 weeks] = keep the magic
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: DustyBottoms]
#23676404 - 09/25/16 11:02 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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DustyBottoms said:
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My advice is try and make your trips more of an event. I don't know how sporadic or on a whim your trips are, but I plan mine out to the T. Dosage, date, setting, with whom, & other controllable variables are thought of weeks in advance. Idk, I wasn't always like that. I would trip whenever I felt the urge to drop, and it started to lose its fun and tolerance started to get in the way.
Now that I keep it on a regime, every trip has something new and awesome to share.
I hope the magic finds you again! 
I do this too, in making each one a planned event, with even ritualistic proceedings for that day and even the day before sometimes.
Examples..exercise the day before and/or the morning of. Eat healthy the day before the trip, fast the day of the trip, clean my apartment, phone off, movies/shows teed up that I might want to check out during the peak or during the comedown, cut off the weed smoke hours before the trip so that I get super high (love mixing psychs with weed), grocery shop the morning of for fresh fruits and ramen noodles. And I light candles. Lots and lots of candles.
I fucking wish I could just trip anytime the mood strikes, but I learned the hard way that it loses it mystique after awhile. Once I decided to spread out my trips, they started becoming magical again and that was a good feeling - prior to that I had actually worried that it just wasn't ever going to be the same again.
....no fucking candles!
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I don't know how people can trip so frequently, lost the respect for the substance, and themselves. They're suppose to teach the opposite one trip at 100ug takes a lot out of me, I wouldn't even consider doing it again anytime in the immediate future, sometimes I wish I could trip as often as others do, but who would want to ruin it for themselves?
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voodoochild1000 said: Pace yourself [2 weeks] = keep the magic
I wish that was the case. For me it's more like 2-3 months.
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....no fucking candles!
Why? Fire hazard? I light them before I start tripping and they all rest safely on 2 separate leaning bookcases at opposite ends of the room.
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Re: Is anyone else still chasing the high? [Re: DustyBottoms]
#23676492 - 09/25/16 11:35 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I love lit candles with no lights on while tripping. Especially on the comedown. The way the light dances is awesome to watch and so calming.
I take dabs while peaking (aka work a butane torch) so I few candles never scare me lol. We have good containers for ours so it's never a hazard that needs to be worried about.
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