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beforethedawn
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Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here
#23668742 - 09/22/16 05:07 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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So I've finally established some good insight into my condition, however, it may be significantly aggravated by a TBI.
Just want to create a thread where perhaps we can discuss what we have identified as delusions in our minds and others can point out how they may be impossible or wrong, or maybe we can just impress each other with how crazy we are, or just relate to each other.
This is me -
- everyone is communicating with everyone else - life is utterly blank and meaningless - there's an agenda to target and destroy white people - everyone is out to suppress my intelligence - people wish to harm me - people wish to humiliate me - some days turn into "paths" or "stories" trying to achieve some of the above
What's your mind like in there, buddy?
Tell me about yourself.
-------------------- Hostile humankind Can't you see you're fucking blind?
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: beforethedawn]
#23668762 - 09/22/16 05:13 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I will get to that in a moment but might need to go to my PC
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: Morel Guy]
#23668794 - 09/22/16 05:23 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I have a so called delusion that my Dad said when I noticed a video he had, that my Grandpa's drilling company could have been involved in the JFK conspiracy. That as far as I have been told it was a larger company of 30 something drills and they knew people. Then that I learned a kid at Culver named Tomas, well his father would be president of Colombia. Heard that in my delusion 5 years before he ran for office. Then the delusion continues with meeting a guy named Frank through a mutual friend. A 3rd friend told me embarrassingly in front of people that Frank bugged my apartment. He said Frank was a Marine who was in the CIA and mafia. Frank later told me he did bug my apartment for the security of our mutual friend who turned states evidence at Kent U 1999/2000 for LSD. Frank also mentioned in my "delusion" that his Grandpa was Italian and had goons when he was running a local teamsters Union. Frank in my delusion then goes on to say that his friend in ?Naval security named John was watching me because I was beat up for saying I knew the Colombian president. To this day I am delusional that I have seen a vehicle wih plates CIA 1 after I emailed a threat to the CIA. To to off all the delusion I perceive I wrote the new kgb my stories and a nice looking psychiatrist from the former Soviet Union gets a job as my doctor. Plus the fed spy planes that fly over my house for hours every grow season and annoy the hell out of my delusion.
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: Morel Guy]
#23668808 - 09/22/16 05:29 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Those are really advanced delusions mate. You must be very deep in the condition.
I am very sorry for your present state and wish you the best. Clozapine has been very effective for some of us. . . investigate it if you don't know about it.
If I were you I'd just try to socialise with others that are also fragile as much as possible and if you ever get suicidal to talk.
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: beforethedawn]
#23668846 - 09/22/16 05:44 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Those really aren't delusions but real experiences and conversations I have had with people that are no doubt crazy. After some San Pedro I thought my sister was Pablo escobars daughter. And after 5 days on a greyhound that some lady blew up a gas line in California that were both on the front page of a paper. I have lived long enough to know weird shit does happen but it's usually not much. My grandpa really did have a drilling company that I cannot find info about online. My living grandpa on my mom's side talked about it and he says my dad's dad who was born 1905 ran the largest east of he Mississippi at one time. Dad's dad died late 70s and that is when the oil depletion tax was getting harder and that is e tax that was delayed when jfk died. Plenty of motive for any intelligence analysis to comprehend.
Edited by Morel Guy (09/22/16 05:46 PM)
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: beforethedawn]
#23668869 - 09/22/16 05:53 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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The majority of of my delusions have been that people have been 'after me' out to harm or humiliate me. I've had psychotic episodes where I've been convinced that the feds were specifically after me personally, that I'm specifically being targeted and tracked. I had one where I was convinced I was the biological father of my best friend's toddler. That people killed my father. That people (primarily neighbors) are talking about me, saying embarrassing/derogatory things about me. All of the hallucinations in my psychotic episodes have followed the persecutory theme. I still to an extent have the supposed delusion that people are talking about me - I can't help but try and listen to all the background conversations around. I tend to try and fit what it sounds like they're saying into what they might be saying about me and my personality. I have no idea why I care so damn much what other people are saying about me.
I've been on Invega for like four years after the massive dose of Seroquil I was on stopped working. That's seemingly stopped the auditory hallucinations and psychotic episodes and works pretty well for the delusions but not completely. I get convinced I said something I probably actually didn't pretty often.
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: eeso]
#23668881 - 09/22/16 05:57 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Damage control when not fully understanding the very real implications and actors is impossible. As long as you can chill there is always that powerful medicine of doing no more harm. It is hard to have an answer and plan of action for every possible consequence. I think planning is what we do to survive. Emotion glosses over the details so lot's of data is easier to form into conduct. Not impressing people is very important. That is hard to do with us.
Edited by Morel Guy (09/22/16 05:58 PM)
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: Morel Guy] 1
#23669605 - 09/22/16 10:04 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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eeso sorry to hear that and can relate to everything.
Morel Guy you sound really smart and insightful, a shame you are subjected to this.
-------------------- Hostile humankind Can't you see you're fucking blind?
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: beforethedawn]
#23670134 - 09/23/16 06:06 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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One of my "delusions" is that life is like The Truman Show but for everyone.
As far as the "agenda to destroy white people" I'd say that one has some basis in reality.
Google Image search "European People Art" and "White Man with White Woman"
Shit like that makes me believe there is an agenda to destroy white people as well.
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: Anonymous #1]
#23670232 - 09/23/16 07:09 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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The important thing for me is to know who I am talking to. Online I don't really care usually but it's all about which culture. So it's best just not to share things with people. No politics no religion.
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Re: Schizophrenics + others, discuss your delusions here [Re: Morel Guy]
#23671521 - 09/23/16 03:59 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
Anonymous said: One of my "delusions" is that life is like The Truman Show but for everyone.
As far as the "agenda to destroy white people" I'd say that one has some basis in reality.
Google Image search "[url=https://www.google.com/search?q=European people art&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwj-sKTUuKXPAhVEaD4KHdBcBLIQ_AUICCgB&biw=1024&bih=692]European People Art[/url]" and "[url=https://www.google.com/search?q=European people art&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwj-sKTUuKXPAhVEaD4KHdBcBLIQ_AUICCgB&biw=1024&bih=692#tbm=isch&q=White Man with White Woman]White Man with White Woman[/url]"
Shit like that makes me believe there is an agenda to destroy white people as well.
That's interesting, but in the context of your schizophrenia, it's clearly going to hit a soft spot.
I mean there's probably crazy agendas to destroy everything. Elephants, dolphins, seals . . . surely ones to target black people, target yellow people, target whatever.
Just depends what you are, where you stand, and whether you're sensitive to conspiracy a la schizophrenia.
-------------------- Hostile humankind Can't you see you're fucking blind?
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