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fourbetyournan
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10g of Dragon's Dynamite - First time Trip report.
#23667804 - 09/22/16 11:37 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hello everyone, this is my first time posting and I thought I'd share my first psilocybin experience with you. I was recently in Amsterdam with a few friends and decided to buy 20g of Dragon's dynamite. I'd been warned by the vendor they were potent but I'd done DMT several times in the past and felt confident in my ability to handle them even though I am relatively inexperienced. I consumed half of the 20g on an empty stomach and two of my friends consumed 5g each. For the first half an hour to an hour I recorded no effects beyond a slight tingling sensation in my face and legs, and I was beginning to question if they were evening going to work. The mood in the room at this point was a little flat as I didn't know these two people very well so I decided to go lie down in my room and reflect quietly in hope the effects were more noticeable. The OEV's at this point were only mild and would usually stop if I focused on an object but they gradually got more intense. They first manifested as an inability to focus, almost as if I were viewing a 3D movie without the glasses, but during the peak more or less everything in the room was twisting and morphing around me and OEVs and CEVs would blend to the point I wasn't sure if my eyes were open or not. Initially I found my thoughts to be way too scattered, it felt like my mind was bouncing all over the place of it's own free will and anytime I tried to focus on what was being shown to me It would just race off into another direction or loop on itself. To be honest I found this quality rather annoying and disengaging at first and I just wanted it to be over. Usually I take drugs to either enhance the situation or to enhance creative thought so this inability to focus was a real turn off for me, but this would later change. When I come up on DMT it's usually a pretty traumatic experience for me, my mind wants to quantify and analyze what's happening at every stage and so having it ripped so far and so quickly away from reality leaves me in a terrified mess. My subconscious tends to manifest this female motherly entity as a result in order to deal with the stress, she often comforts me by telling me to let go, to relinquish control and then I can start enjoying it for what it is. Even though "she" wasn't present for this trip I tried to remember that advice and stopped trying to force thought, "let go" I would tell myself, "Just observe" and almost immediately there was a rush of calming energy over me and my once scattered mind seemed to focus more. My mind would fluctuate from coherent chains of thought that at times I could control and even influence, to the sporadic manic mess from before.
Later into the trip the CEV's started to become dark and menacing, I didn't feel like there was an entity there like I did on DMT but the shapes of "monsters" would flash in intense purples and blacks and then fade out, often accompanied by sharp angular shapes with pointy edges. Rather than worrying me though I actually found them amusing, I would challenge the trip to scare me, to show me what I am most afraid of being shown and as soon as I did the darkness would flare up bright like a fire and then fade just as quick. I felt in control, I felt like I could now steer the ship so to speak and I honestly feel like I was able to deal with some problematic aspects of my personality as a result.
Later my internal monologue didn't match my own voice, it was deeper and more aggressive, which I found hysterical. I felt like I was viewing my mind from the outside, like it was a grain of sand in a fixed point in space and I was observing myself in 3rd person. There was a clear distinction to me, even though I'm struggling to explain this properly now, between my identity and "me". As best as I can explain it felt like my identity and my thoughts were shaped and molded by the physical me; all the experiences of early childhood, my love life, my parents etc but the core of my consciousness was bigger than my identity, it was alive in a way I was not. It felt like my identity did nothing but cause problems and add unnecessary baggage to this pure sense of self. I wish I could explain it better but my memory is really foggy due to the sporadic nature of my mind at the time.
As the trip began winding down I felt guilty for not sharing this ride with the others so I went to see how they were feeling, share experiences and to ride the rest of the trip out with them. Their experience seemed much more superficial than introspective than mine but considering the environment for both was so different I'm not too surprised.
Edited by fourbetyournan (09/22/16 03:44 PM)
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Re: 10g of Dragon's Dynamite - First time Trip report. [Re: fourbetyournan]
#23668401 - 09/22/16 03:02 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Awesome trip report man! Last time I was in Amsterdam I ate 22g 'High Hawaiians' and it was utterly beautiful in every way. Going back on February for 25g.
I think truffles are really underrated for no reason.
Keep on writing!.
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fourbetyournan
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Re: 10g of Dragon's Dynamite - First time Trip report. [Re: psilosalvia]
#23668611 - 09/22/16 04:11 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thank you for the kind words , I was actually looking for the High Hawaiians and the Hollandias as I heard they were some of the more potent strains of sclerotia but was unable to find them at the time. In truth the Dragons dynamite was very introspective and enjoyable but I'd say a higher dosage is called for next time as I never really felt too out of my comfort zone.
I'd love to hear more about your trip and future trips, and wish you well exploring the magnificent city of Amsterdam.
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Re: 10g of Dragon's Dynamite - First time Trip report. [Re: fourbetyournan]
#23669488 - 09/22/16 09:21 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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My internal voice changes like that while tripping boomers often, especially toward the end or at least a couple hours to three hours in...male and female, and not mine. I also hear great cacophonous orchestral compositions or other types of music. One time I took a quarter about 12 hours after eating an eighth, so the effects weren't very profound and I was able to go to sleep, however, I kept snapping awake to the sound of someone hitting a ton of cymbals...anyone else?
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fourbetyournan
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Re: 10g of Dragon's Dynamite - First time Trip report. [Re: Mycolorado]
#23670326 - 09/23/16 07:57 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah it was quite deep onto the trip for me when my internal voice was changing too, and it did jump between male and female a few times. It even changed into some of the people I was with on holiday at the time. I honestly have no idea if I experienced any audio hallucinations as my apartment was in the center of Amsterdam, so the sound of traffic, people talking and general background noises were constant throughout. But the idea of hearing music that isn't really there is one that excites me
Edited by fourbetyournan (09/23/16 08:25 AM)
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Re: 10g of Dragon's Dynamite - First time Trip report. [Re: fourbetyournan]
#23671553 - 09/23/16 04:10 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Great trip report!
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