
This is just a freestyle reflection on the idea of pleasing others.
As social creatures, we are all hard wired to seek approval and love from others.
When we receive hate or criticism or hostility, we receive it with great discomfort.
However, we are also taught we should be ourselves, and not care what others think as long as we are doing what feels right to us or what we feel we need to do.
When you receive hostility repeatedly, especially on the internet where it can be so pervasive, you tend to develop a bit of a thick skin and a resistance to it that grows stronger over time.
Interestingly, the thought of changing to accommodate the negativity of others or trying to censor or change yourself based on what some person on the internet said to you doesn't really feel right either.
For some, the discomfort of changing based on the hostility of others is greater than the unpleasantness of receiving hate in response to your comments.
The truth is, I have always received continuous hostility on the shroomery from people such as Burke and SVS, who seem to truly hate me.
And yet, the hatred of others, especially others I have never met, and whose hostility seems unwarranted and unreasonable, is essentially irrelevant.
We still are who we are. We do what we do. We have the personality we have. We are interested in what we are interested in, we do what we think is right, and we our each our own unique person.
At the end of the day, you just have to say fuck the haters and be yourself.
Haters gonna hate, and not everyone is going to agree.
For example, Jellyfish hates that I believe in intuition. But I do, and its been proven beyond a shadow of a doubt to be real to me and my family and friends, who have seen me predict the future on multiple occasions. No one disputes it who was there.
I have seen, and rarely worked, miracles.
Jellyfish and SVS also hate that I am deeply involved in Hindu and Christian and Buddhist religion and am deeply and incurably religious.
I am a true believer. I actually believe in God. I actually worship non-ironically and with total sincerity. I actually fear, praise and submit to God.
SVS seems to think this whole religious/spiritual thing is an act, which is hilarious, because I Worship alone in my basement at my Father-in-law's altar,, or meditate in lotus, or chant mantras, for hours a day. I have been doing it for 14 years.
I married into the family of a Hindu Pundit (priest). I embraced the religion of my married family whole heartedly.
Its no act. SVS can't grasp the idea of true religion, so he calls me a troll.
I do it alone, with no audience, because I truly feel i NEED it to be happy and well.
Its the most important thing in my life.
Yoga, martial arts and meditation, lucid dreaming, spirituality and religion... these things are at the very core of my identity, my life and my belief.
Jellyfish hates religion. He thinks its stupid to believe in all religions at once.
If I took the time, I could probably explain to him the theology of why I DO believe in all religions at once.
Burke accused me of being a troll because he couldn't understand that I was actually worried about 280 and Panzercubed and actually trying to help because I actually thought they were in trouble.
He took my compassion and concern for "trolling".
But at the end of the day, I am who I am.
If people hate on all my stuff, fine and dandy. It doesn't change the fact that to me this shit is as real as the nose on my face, and more profoundly important to me than I could ever explain.
Since I was 14 this has been my path. I decided at 14 to follow the path of a warrior monk, and Honestly although I constantly fell off the path, I never stopped returning to it.
I have to try to be the best person I can be. I truly do.
I honestly feel I work every day to be a good, kind, pure, enlightened person. I work at it.
I am a person of deep morality. I believe in right and wrong, and I truly try to plant myself in the camp of good and renounce evil within and without.
I felt the need to get these thoughts out for my own benefit, and I am going to post them for whatever interest anyone might have in them.
Feel free to comment with hostility or kindness, hatred or love, criticism or questions, or not at all.

Edited by Moonshoe (09/18/16 01:36 AM)
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