This isn't to be diagnosed, I'm just curious if anyone could shed some light on this.
Background: Due to my insomnia for the past 4-6 months I've been taking ridiculously high doses of OTC meds as well as my temazepam, it finally got to the point where it just wasn't working anymore and I knew I was already pushing it and couldn't really push it much further so I quit, dropped everything BUT my temazepam. The dosages varied daily, I'd start off with 1 round of 8 benadryl, 30mg temazepam, 2-3 "doses" worth of the nyquil with dex and doxylamine, and 2-4 additional doxylamine (unisom). This almost never worked and it was pretty much a routine for me to take all of this, give it 2 hours, confirm it wasn't working, and redose it all except my temazepam. More often than not, that worked but for the last month or so, I've been regularly up to 3 rounds of it before going to sleep. So I've been taking a lot of drugs for a pretty long time now. I quit about 7-10 days ago I think and for the last week or so I've been pretty violently ill, couldn't even get out of bed but was determined to stay the course and not go back to the drugs. A few days ago the sickness finally broke and I was able to return to my daily activities.
Onto the point of the thread: The day before I was able to return to my daily activities I started getting this weird sensation. It only happened a couple of times that day and I figured it'd fade away. However that seems to be the opposite of what is happening. It's definitely growing in intensity and frequency. This is going to be nearly impossible to actually explain but I'm going to try so bear with me here.. The only way I can think to explain it is like you'd taste for all the notes in a fine wine. Easier said than done, this sensation is complex and lasts less than probably half a second total so it's hard to pick apart.
There's a jolt that seems to radiate out from just in front of where the Occipital lobe is. It's an electrified feeling and not. It's more like a high speed vibration, one with a frequency so high that it almost feels like a solid, static force, the "aftershock" is where the jolt comes in. This wave radiates outwards to about my upper chest quickly fading off once it hits my jaw line. At the same time it causes something funky with my vision but it's almost imperceptible. Like for a split second my eyes just go slightly out of focus but at the same time like someone threw a line art filter over my eyes. There is also this weird sudden loss of balance thing, again it's only for a split second, it almost feels like I'm being yanked backwards or falling into myself.
The only "long lasting" effect is a slight lightheadedness that lingers after each wave for a few seconds. These things are random and may happen once an hour or may happen back to back several times in the span of a minute. If I hold really still and don't move my eyes, and then jerk them to the side I can cause a mini-episode that is no where near the intensity of the spontaneous version but other than that, I cannot determine any trigger for what is setting it off.
Hopefully that makes sense because that's the best I can do. Does that sound remotely familiar to anyone?
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With my face against the floor I can’t see who knocked me out of the way. I don’t want to get back up but I have to so it might as well be today. Nothing appeals to me no one feels like me, I’m too busy being calm to disappear. I’m in no shape to be alone contrary to the shit that you might hear. You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
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It's what my doctor has me prescribed. I haven't quit the temazepam it's the only one I still take. It helps keep me asleep (though in the past I've abused benzos to the point a regular dose without alcohol isn't enough to reliably put me to sleep) and I didn't/don't want to risk withdrawal from it.
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With my face against the floor I can’t see who knocked me out of the way. I don’t want to get back up but I have to so it might as well be today. Nothing appeals to me no one feels like me, I’m too busy being calm to disappear. I’m in no shape to be alone contrary to the shit that you might hear. You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
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