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I'd like to not exist
#23638466 - 09/12/16 01:10 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Would anyone else like to not exist
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phunkeej
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I sometimes feel like I can't wait for my soul or energy to be free from this society and plane of existence, there are just so many shitty humans destroying us all by the second....just wanna be happy and free i guess...just my little rant or ramblings of a mad man maybe...lol
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: phunkeej]
#23638494 - 09/12/16 01:25 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Makes sense to me
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: phunkeej] 2
#23638496 - 09/12/16 01:26 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Occasionally. Comes and goes. More goes than comes later which is lovely
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Nah, I mean I'll get to try that out in a few decades so what's the rush
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Ezuma]
#23638513 - 09/12/16 01:31 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I used to feel like this when I was coming off of opiates. Just never had the courage to do anything about it. These feelings eventually pass.
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[MOD EDIT: You know that's not OK man]
Edited by Jokeshopbeard (09/12/16 05:40 PM)
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: plasma]
#23638586 - 09/12/16 02:09 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Existence is happening and I doubt it will end. Change happens, some things take a long time to change.
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Morel Guy]
#23638605 - 09/12/16 02:16 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I would also like to not exist
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I'd like to be everything, know everything, and exist forever. I'll take what I get tho and not complain.
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Being depressed sucks, its like an endless loop of shit that you can't wash off. Then again, when it passes and you find your way out; even for a moment it can be the best feeling in the world.
I look at it like this, you are here now. Other people have passed; some wanted to stay and some didn't. Some people's life ended in tradegy, and others were so lucky. I don't know if I believe in karma, I think I believe in a higher power sometimes but other days I'm not too sure. I really do feel lost most of the time; I see the good in the world and I recognize the bad.
I'm going to die someday, it might be horrible or it could be peaceful. Life could get better before it happens or it could get worse. To sum it up, who the hell knows whats going to happen, really I have no fucking clue. I do know though, that I could pursue anything I wanted to right now, really. Anything in the world; at least in theory. Even if life does suck, and you have no one, you still exist right now. Why not go out with a bang and do something incredible? Or just simply exist, and pursue thing that make you happy?
I mean the possibilities are really endless, you have a whole buffet of things you could be doing, including the choice to cease to exist.
Sometimes making a decision is the hardest thing in the world, I just know for me; life's going to need to get a whole lot worse for me to want it to end sooner.
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I think for anyone, who wants advice or at least some insight. I would suggest a sober mind when facing the endless pit of
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Look who's back from the dead
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: plasma]
#23638724 - 09/12/16 03:04 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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plasma said: use a 12 gauge
Anything smaller and you might just cause some brain damage and suffer 100x more than you already are
I've heard of shotgun suicide failures before and had to search.
Shotgun Suicide Failure
I heard about one guy who only put one bullet in the revolver, and called 911 after his one bullet didn't hit the spot. I think he was somewhat famous. I'll have to look that one up.
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i used to wanna kill myself and i'd think about it pretty regularly about half a decade back but i have way too much fun these days to wanna die anymore
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Sheekle]
#23638769 - 09/12/16 03:17 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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It's all good everybody
Even if it doesn't seem like it.
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Quote:
Astral Pain said:
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plasma said: use a 12 gauge
Anything smaller and you might just cause some brain damage and suffer 100x more than you already are
I've heard of shotgun suicide failures before and had to search.
Shotgun Suicide Failure
I heard about one guy who only put one bullet in the revolver, and called 911 after his one bullet didn't hit the spot. I think he was somewhat famous. I'll have to look that one up.
Suicide by shotgun in the mouth, has the highest success rate of any method. Its also instantaneous and if I understand things correctly, there isn't time for the body to communicate pain. You just have to do things right.
) Large enough gun ) Use slugs or if need be, large buckshot ) In the mouth, not under the chin ) Make sure that gun is clean and in good working order, same for munitions
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shooting in the face sounds painful as fuck
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To answer OP, no I don't
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Sheekle]
#23638819 - 09/12/16 03:34 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Sheekle said: shooting in the face sounds painful as fuck
Definitely would be if one fucked it up 
There shouldn't be any pain if you hit the brain stem though, unless I'm very mistaken Icelander and a few others were talking about using gas, but I wouldn't want to wait around for a minute like that
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Big Worm]
#23638824 - 09/12/16 03:36 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I found the one bullet suicide fail. It was Daniel von Bargen, who was Mr. Kruger on Seinfeld. Creepy 911 call.
'They were going to take my toes... I shot myself but it didn't work': Seinfeld star Daniel von Bargen in critical condition after shooting himself in the head
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2105006/Daniel-von-Bargen-Seinfeld-actor-critical-condition-shooting-head.html
911 Call
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Most people who go to the other side and make it back are usually very happy to be back even though they are back to this miserable world, some even cherish the misery almost as if were a luxury not available to the dead, the fact that even suffering in this world can be better than some of places people go after death, says a lot about life.
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Quote:
Repertoire89 said:
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Sheekle said: shooting in the face sounds painful as fuck
Definitely would be if one fucked it up 
There shouldn't be any pain if you hit the brain stem though, unless I'm very mistaken Icelander and a few others were talking about using gas, but I wouldn't want to wait around for a minute like that
i would just OD on downers
would be the most painless way to go out
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ModestMouse said: Would anyone else like to not exist
yes
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Sheekle]
#23638903 - 09/12/16 03:54 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Sheekle said: i would just OD on downers
would be the most painless way to go out
Isn't that supposed to be a very painful experience?
I remember someone describing an opiate overdose as "painful as opiates feel good"
Never done opiates so I wouldn't know
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: zZZz]
#23638916 - 09/12/16 03:58 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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zZZz said: Most people who go to the other side and make it back are usually very happy to be back even though they are back to this miserable world, some even cherish the misery almost as if were a luxury not available to the dead, the fact that even suffering in this world can be better than some of places people go after death, says a lot about life.
People who survive jumps say they changed her mind half way down!
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Quote:
Repertoire89 said:
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Sheekle said: i would just OD on downers
would be the most painless way to go out
Isn't that supposed to be a very painful experience?
I remember someone describing an opiate overdose as "painful as opiates feel good"
Never done opiates so I wouldn't know
It's supposed to be extremely easygoing. If you OD and survive you feel like shit after, but if you pass away then you basically just nod out and never come back.
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Sheekle]
#23638997 - 09/12/16 04:22 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I already have before , and I will again
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u've died before? or just not wanted to live
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Sheekle]
#23639025 - 09/12/16 04:29 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've not existed before. So have you.
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oh yeah good point
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Sheekle] 1
#23639093 - 09/12/16 04:47 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've thought about offing myself quite a few times over the years, and at one point I really almost did it
I'm glad I chose not to though looking back on it all these years later, my life might be a fucked up mess but I've come to realize I'd rather take my chances and reach for the stars than put myself in an early grave
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Quote:
pirate-blues said: I've not existed before. So have you.
How was it?..
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I dont think you dont want to exist, you want something. What is it?
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: zZZz]
#23639112 - 09/12/16 04:53 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Can't complain about much when it comes to nonexistence
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I did for a while in my early teens and then got over it for a decade until I got to my newest job that I'm still at made me feel like that again. Currently I'm feeling pretty good though.
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: searching]
#23639173 - 09/12/16 05:26 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I used to do it a lot in high school, people would literally bump into me cuz I was so invisible.
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: zZZz]
#23639191 - 09/12/16 05:32 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Existing is pretty cool no matter how awesome or shitty IMO.
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ModestMouse said: Would anyone else like to not exist
Duct tape a grenade to your head and pull the pin. It might take a few hours for the spring of the grenade to loosen the duct tape enough for it to set the charge. The fun thing is not knowing when it'll be loose enough to blow up. A constant "any second now" feeling. Anticipation is the best part of it.
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What do I want? Purpose
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ModestMouse said: Would anyone else like to not exist
I look forward to it, when the time comes.
Why rush though? It'll be here before you know it, and there are plenty of great things about existing, even if there are some totally shitty things too...
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ModestMouse said: What do I want? Purpose
Have fun, enjoy yourself, learn to love yourself and others to the best of your ability, be the best you can be, find an environment that most suits who you are, help others, etc, etc, etc...
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Purpose is given to self by self. Find your academic interests and pursue those, the rest will fall like tetris blocks... It's not an easy task tho and i both empathize and identify with your situation - im in a similar boat.
-snip- choosing to not open a can of worms.
Edited by 404 (09/12/16 05:54 PM)
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: 404]
#23639248 - 09/12/16 05:55 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm all for euthanasia
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We are humans and I believe grace can benefit a lot of the mistakes we make. Try doing something different. I have gained a lot of strength by going without but man cannot live on nothing. Try finding power within from less from the outside. Might not be a rapture of ecstasy right away, but it will develop tools!
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Re: I'd like to not exist [Re: Morel Guy]
#23639288 - 09/12/16 06:13 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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ModestMouse said: What do I want? Purpose
Thats something you decide upon and create yourself. It might take some soul searching but nobodies going to sit down and tell you what to do. Take a trip somewhere, clear your head and think about things.
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I used to be way more suicidal but I've found some stuff that makes me happy. I think any rational person can conclude that it's better not to exist than to exist, but the instinct of self-preservation stops us from taking the logical step of killing ourselves.
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saythatagain said: I used to be way more suicidal but I've found some stuff that makes me happy. I think any rational person can conclude that it's better not to exist than to exist, but the instinct of self-preservation stops us from taking the logical step of killing ourselves.
Your reason is faulty.
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ModestMouse said: What do I want? Purpose
i've had many purposes, dare i say passions in my short time. none of them outweigh my desire to not exist. i'm only still here because my work is not yet finished, and two people must pass before i willingly choose to leave
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All the time
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That dolphin looks really high
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